Chapter 11: Insecurities
(Author's Note)
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Also, if anyone out there reading this happens to be under age I urge you to not read this chapter, the lemons don't start yet but some more sexual stuff is talked about and shown in this chapter. Sorry about only having Naruto and Sakura in this chapter, I planned to include the other couples but I went a bit further with NaruSaku than I planned. Don't worry, next chapter will include the other characters as well. Sorry about any typos, had to get this out quicker than I planned, sorry.
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(Naruto's POV)
The blond hero was enjoying his cold bath as he thought of what he and Sakura had talked about. He didn't expect her to get so emotional when he told her that story, even though he had never told anyone that story before he wasn't expecting that response from her.
He held his hands to his chest, he could still feel her body heat on him. She had pressed her body so hard against his but in the moment neither of them had even noticed it or cared. Naruto smiled at the feeling of her in his arms. It wasn't the first time that they had hugged before, nor the second, as she's given him a brief hug after he gave her a gift or when she held him when he woke up in the hospital after the war and his battle with Sasuke. But this one was different, he couldn't put his finger on it. The emotion coming from her wasn't like before, it wasn't thankfulness, kindness or general happiness, it was something else, something that the young orphan had felt very few times in his life. It was comfort.
The young hero leaned back and soaked in the cold water, allowing it to further help soothe his muscles from his massaging session with Sakura.
"What was with her? Why was she acting all weird when she was massaging me?" He asked himself. He was referring to her unusual interest in what he had done with Ino. She seemed to be really interested in how and why Ino gave him massages. He couldn't think of why though, to him she was only giving him massages because it helped soothe his aching and sore muscles after training.
"I don't know, maybe it's nothing. She probably wasn't that concerned, it probably just seemed that way." The blond hero was about to ask himself why Sakura said that Ino wanted to sleep with him when he heard a scream coming from the main room, Sakura's scream.
(Sakura's POV, A few minutes before)
After Naruto went to take his bath Sakura sat on the overstuffed bed for a while going over everything Naruto had said to her. She still couldn't wrap her head around what he said, the things that he had lived through as a child still shocked her to this day. While he rarely talked about the things he went through in his childhood the pinkette knew of a few of the things that he had to endure as a child, and those things made her only care for him more. The things that he lived through, the hatred and ostracizing from the entire village, she couldn't even imagine having to live through that at such a young age by herself. She thought that the insults that she had received as a child was terrible, she couldn't even imagine how Naruto managed to get through that by himself and how he was so positive now. How could he live through a childhood like that and always be so happy?
The pinkette sighed to herself as she turned her head to the shoji screen in the bathroom which was covering the bathing hero.
"How is he able to smile like that when he's hurting like that inside? And how can he just lie like that when he's hurting? Doesn't he know that he can tell me anything? That I'll always be there for him?" The girl stopped, she realized what she just said.
"Great, if I keep talking like this then I'm going to end up admitting that I actually like him." She sighed as she got off of the bed.
"That wouldn't be a bad thing, would it? I mean, it's not like it's a bad thing if I liked him." She thought about it for a few seconds before she moved over to her luggage for the mission, she had already seen the underwear and nightgowns that were provided for her and while she wasn't exactly thrilled about wearing stuff like that in front of someone of the opposite gender she wasn't too worried about wearing it as she slept around Naruto. While he was a bit of a pervert as a kid she had to admit that she wasn't worried about him acting like that anymore.
She looked down to her nightgown and blinked, it was way more revealing than she first thought, when it was in the suitcase you couldn't really tell but when you wore it, it was almost see through. She could clearly see her underwear through it. Her mind froze, had she really been walking around looking like this the whole time? How did she not notice?
The pinkette turned to the full length mirror in the corner of the room and her question was answered for her, her underwear was clearly visible through the nightgown.
"Wha-, why didn't he say anything? If I was wearing something like this then why didn't he tell me that he could see my underwear? Did he not notice?" The pinkette asked herself. She replayed them talking in her head.
"Or did he just not care?" The pinkette asked after a few seconds silence.
"It was impossible that he didn't notice, we were so close, for so long. Maybe I was right, maybe he really doesn't like me." The pink haired girl thought about it as she continued looking through her prepacked clothes for the mission. Everything was tailored to her size but pretty much everything including the nightgowns were very revealing and suggestive. Going through the other bags she found several fancy and expensive looking gowns, dresses, skirts and a few pairs of matching shoes for each, along with a very expensive looking makeup case filled with perfumes and hair care products, whoever packed these suitcases took a lot of time, energy and money to make it appear as if she were a rich young lady with expensive tastes. She wondered who set them up, she looked back to the clothes and eyed a ball gown that caught her eye. While she thought that the ball gown was gorgeous, everything that had been packed for her was way outside of her comfort zone of something that she'd wear not only in public but in private as well. She worried about having Naruto see her in the clothes.
The pinkette pushed those thoughts away, her mind was still too fuzzy and her thoughts and emotions were too jumbled to think clearly about it. She continued looking through her luggage when she spotted something that she had missed before when she grabbed her underwear. Looking at it more closely she realized that it was a small wooden box with a note on it. Grabbing the box she finds her name written on the note and recognizes the handwriting on the front of the note instantly as her sensei's, Lady Tsunade. The girl put down the small wooden box and opened the note. She glanced at the handwriting and reconfirmed her that it was her mentor's chicken scratch handwriting. Sakura had always wondered how Lady Tsunade still managed to have such bad penmanship when she wrote and signed so many legal documents everyday. The medic shrugged and she began reading.
'Sakura, I took the liberty of packing your bags for this mission myself, I wanted to make sure that you had everything that you would need. Remember that the mission comes first but take this time to have some fun and enjoy your time with Naruto.' The pink haired medic raised her brow at this. Was her sensei implying that she knew how she felt about Naruto? How could she, she wasn't even convinced herself yet on how she felt about him. How did Lady Tsunade know? Had she been that obvious about her feelings towards him? The pinkette continued reading.
'I expect to see you two together when you return, you are my disciple after all, make me proud. But make sure to use these when the time comes, I can't afford to have you out of commission at the hospital for a few months. Signed, Tsunade.' Sakura was even more confused, what was she supposed to use, and what was it for? She glanced to the bottom of the note and found more writing.
'P.S. Make sure to have fun kiddo, but don't make it too easy for him, make him work for it.' The pinkette sat back on the bed and reread through the note a few times.
'Lady Tsunade, I don't understand, how were you able to tell my feelings for Naruto, I'm not even sure about them myself yet.' The pinkette put the note on the bed next to her and thought some more.
'And what do you mean by expecting to see use together when we get back? Do you really think that this mission could do that for us?' She glanced at the note again and it made her think of another question.
'And what did you mean at the end when you said that you couldn't afford to have me out of commission, what does that mean?' The pinkette couldn't think of anything and decided the best way to find out would be to simply open the small box she gave her and see what she was talking about. She rose from the bed as she stretched her arms to the ceiling, she was getting pretty tired, as soon as Naruto got out of the bath she was going to be going to bed. She hoped that Lady Tsunade didn't send anything too exciting, she was relaxing and getting ready for bed. She didn't need anything to keep her awake, she needed to get up early in the morning, she'd need all the sleep she could get.
"Probably just some kind of sunscreen or body lotion because of all the sun I'm going to be getting at the resort, I do burn rather easily." The girl said to herself as she noted her pale skin and reached for the small wooden box. Inspecting it more closely she could tell that it was a very old and worn ornate box, clearly Lady Tsunade didn't buy it, maybe it was her own personal box? The pinkette undid the small metal latch and opened the box, expecting a bottle of homemade sunscreen or lotion for the summer sun. She peered inside and saw nothing of note, just a small clear bottle with two intertwined hearts on it and a few sets of what at first glance she assumed to be glasses cleaning wipes or makeup remover wipes. There were about two dozen or so in total, nothing seemed special about them except that they were in bright square plastic wrappers. Sakura thought nothing of this, she was more curious as to why Lady Tsunade had sent her this.
"Why did she give me these makeup remover wipes? I don't even wear makeup." She asked herself aloud. An idea came to mind which offered up a decent explanation.
"Well I'm most likely going to have to wear makeup for the mission, so that's probably why she gave me these. She did send that entire makeup kit for me to use for the mission, got to keep up the appearance of a millionaire's daughter, I can't exactly walk around without any, I'd look out of place at a fancy resort like that." The pinkette remained standing by the dresser, her left hand holding the box and her right holding the note, she hadn't picked up any of the items yet.
"But what about this?" She asked as she tried focusing harder on the small bottle, trying to make out the faded out words on the side. She tossed the note on the dresser besides her and reached for the small bottle.
Examining it she noted that it looked fairly old, not as old as the box but definitely worn. The strange thing being that while the outside of the bottle showed obvious signs of general day to day wear and tear, the clear liquid contents of the bottle were almost full. It looked to her that it had only been used maybe one or two times. Examining the bottle further she saw the faded design of two intertwined hearts she had seen when she opened the box. The young woman had to squint to be able to make out the faded and worn text of the bottle. She couldn't make out most of it but she read it the best she could.
'En~~y the pl~~~~~~~ of His and h~~~ Lubr~~~~~~~' The pinkette froze, the small bottle in her hand, it didn't matter that some of the words were illegible, when she saw the beginning of that last word she immediately knew the last seven letters. She practically threw the small bottle as if it had burned her, it landed safely on top of her clothes on the dresser.
The young woman's eyes shot wide open, her breathing stopped as she remembered the small box filled with brightly colored square wrappers. Slowly, as if it were a deadly animal, she lowered her now free hand into the box, her finger stopping an inch over one of the packets, her heart was thumping, her mind was reeling, her body was getting insanely hot, she felt as if she were going to pass out.
"Please don't let it be what I think it is." The whispered to herself as she held in her breath and looked away as she took all of her courage and grabbed one of the bright squares. All the while she refused to look upon the square in her hand, wishing with all her might that it wasn't what she thought it was. After a millennia of worrying she finally gave in and looked at the small orange square in her hand. It took approximately point three seconds for the pinkette to identify the square in her hand, and exactly another point zero five seconds for her to let out a loud, blood curtailing scream that could be heard across the world.
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(Sakura's POV, current time)
In the time that it took to blink the pinkette felt a rush of air and saw nothing but a yellow streak dash towards her as she was lifted from the air and found herself being rolled across the floor while in a sturdy pinkette blinked again and she found herself on the other side of the room, her eyes staring deep into a pool of cerulean blue. It took a second for her mind to focus but she finally managed to come to her senses and look around the room. She looked to the man who held her in his arms, his sturdy, muscular body acting as a shield as he held her close to his chest. The girl noticed three other forms in the room, a cloak of fiery orange chakra enveloping them as they all stood in between them in different fighting stances. In their right hands were medium sized swirling balls of devastating chakra, while their left hands were poised, ready to fight.
The medic looked back to the face of the man who held her, his eyes lost their comforting blue hue, now replaced by bright orange orbs, his pupils now a thick horizontal line with a straight sliver running through the middle. The girl noted his trademark whisker-like scars on his face were darkened, striped. After another blink she found herself engulfed in his fiery orange chakra, it swirled around the two in a blaze, circling the two shinobi in an endless wave of almost boiling chakra.
"Naruto…? What…?" The girl managed to force out, her voice almost hoarse, her mind was reeling, she didn't know what was going on, one second she was standing on the other side of the room and now she's huddled into the far corner, wrapped in a sturdy hold, an enormous mass of fiery chakra engulfing her.
It took a second to register but she finally realized that Naruto had dashed out of the bathroom, grabbed her, rolled a few times and now held her tightly in his arms, pressing her into the corner of the room. It took another second before the pinkette was able to manage a thought.
'Wha-...? Naruto? What's going on? He's holding me, he burst out of the bathtub and suddenly grabbed me.… Why.… why is he holding me?' The girl thought in her mind, her head still dizzy and spinning from the sudden jolt. Then, as sudden as a bolt of lightning came a mind-numbing thought, he just came out of the bath, he had to be….
The pinkette's face turned a shade of pinkish red as the thought hit her mind, she lowered her eyes from his fiery orange orbs and glanced down to his kneeling form. Slowly, almost methodically her eyes studied his chest as her gaze lowered. Pearls of water dripped down his muscular chest that seemed to mesmerize the girl. She bit her lower lip as she summoned her strength to lower her gaze even more, time seemed to stop as her eyes followed the dripping water stream down his muscular chest as it dropped and absorbed into the towel around his waist.
The medic blinked again, her mind focusing even more, he wasn't naked like she thought he'd be, he somehow managed to drape a small towel around his waist in the midst of rushing to her. The girl turned another shade darker as she realized that in his panting state that his member was moving up and down underneath the towel, her eyes widened as her mind jumped back to just a second earlier when she held the bright orange square, like a truck the thought hit her. Her grip tightened on the square in her hand, she didn't realize that she was still holding it. It was just a foot away from him.
The girl froze in her awkward position, he was so close, his massive almost naked body was surrounding her petite form, his right knee pinning her left to the wall, her right was up against his waist, her legs were spread wide and their crotches were a mere four inches apart. The pinkette's eyes became transfixed on the rise and fall of the towel, as the back of her mind tried to imaging it in it's entirety. Her mind blank she didn't realize that he was speaking to her.
"- you okay, Sakura-chan? What happened?" Her eyes jumped back to the fiery orbs a few inches from her face. He had a concerned look on his face.
"What's going on?" Asked the clone closest to them.
"Where is he, Sakura-chan?" Asked another as he remained tense in a fighting stance, ready to fend off against an invisible enemy.
The third and final clone closest to the dresser and the wooden box peered into her bags with a cautious eye, expecting a hidden trap or explosive.
"Is it an explosive? A hidden seal?" Questioned the clone. The original, which continued to hold her against his body turned his head with his back still to his clones.
"What is it, an explosive seal? A poisoned hidden blade? What?" The man holding her asked his clone.
The clone studied the bag cautiously, dispersing the mass of swirling chakra and placing a weary hand above the bag before giving the original a nod. The original returned it and held Sakura closer in his arms, preparing to shield her petite form in his arms from an explosion with his very back.
The clone reached into the bag and sifted through the contents cautiously. After what seemed like an eternity the clone raised a brow and turned to the original and shrugged.
"There's nothing here, boss. I can't find anything." The clone stated.
The real Naruto raised his own brow at this, he turned his gaze back to the pinkette and spoke.
"What happened, Sakura-chan? Why did you scream like that?" He asked, concern and worry in his voice. He released his clones and began to regain his usual form, the fiery chakra dispersing.
The pink haired medic managed a breath and her mind came back to her, she came out of her mesmerized state.
"Wha…? I… uh, I…." She managed to mumble out before she realized how close they were with a clear mind. She pushed his chest away from her and being the fact that he was balanced in a half kneeling half crouched position the sudden jolt sent him backwards. The blond hero fell back on his butt, a confused look growing across his face.
"Why did you do that, Sakura-chan? What are you doing? What's going on?" He asked, his cerulean orbs transfixed on her, full of concern and confusion.
"What am I doing?" She repeated back to the hero, her voice rising a little.
"What are you doing? Why did you suddenly tackle me from the side, roll me around on the floor and pin me against the wall?" She demanded.
The hero of the Leaf tilted his head and raised a brow.
"I thought that you were under attack or something, I was just-" He was cut off by the pinkette.
"Why would you think that I was under attack? We're at some random civilian inn miles from any shinobi, why would that thought even enter your head? Why would you think that?" She asked, the red on her face turning from blushing to anger.
The blond young man gave a sheepish smile.
"Well you screamed like you were in trouble, so I thought... that… I'm sorry." He decided to end with an apology, hopefully she'd understand and wouldn't get mad at him. He noted that her face was red, she was clearly mad already.
"You baka." She mumbled as she shook her head slowly.
"I'm fine, I was just startled by… something. That's all." She tried to smile and pretend like everything was fine but her blushing was starting to return to her face, she was having an extremely hard time not looking down to the towel around his waist.
The pinkette shook her head in an attempt to shake her perverted thoughts away. She manage to regain herself and pointed to the bathroom and gave him a look that she meant business.
"Go back in there and put some clothes on. I mean seriously, what do you think you're doing? You need to act more decently in the presence of mixed company, you can't just prance around naked in front of me like that." He raised a brow at this.
"I only had time to grab a towel, what was I supposed to do? I thought that you were under attack or something, was I supposed to wait and get dressed before I ran to help you?" The medic blinked, he had a fair point, but h didn't need to know that.
"Just go put some clothes on, seriously, how do you expect me to be able to concentrate with you naked in front of me?" As soon as the words left her mouth she tried to pull them back, but it was too late, she hadn't meant to say that last part.
"I mean, uh, that I'm having a hard time thinking because it's really awkward. Yeah, it's because you're too close." She hoped that he'd be his usual slow self and not figure out that she was lying. He didn't seem to react when she said that she was having a hard time concentrating, hopefully he didn't think anything of it.
The pinkette watched as the hero got off the floor and began to turn to the bathroom.
"I'm sorry Sakura-chan, I didn't mean to make it uncomfortable, I was just worried, that's all. I was just worried that someone was… I was just trying to protect you, sorry." He finished his turn and walked back into the bathroom in silence. The girl's eyes widened and she raised an arm to reach out to him but stopped short.
'Wait, you don't have to apologize. It's my fault.' She thought as he fled behind the shoji screen and she could make out the shadow of him removing his towel and getting dressed. She quickly turned her gaze from him, she needed to get a hold of herself, she was acting like a pervert herself.
The pink haired girl felt another blush coming on that she tried to push back but couldn't. This one was different from the others, she began to blush and she realized that she was blushing because of what he said,that he was trying to protect her. She couldn't help but smile, it was so like him to always rush to her side to protect her. That's one of the reasons why she liked him.
'Why I like him? Who said that I like him?' She asked herself, trying to deny it further.
"He did look pretty heroic, though. I have to admit that it was nice having him try to protect me like that." She said to herself as she moved back to the dresser, the orange square still clenched in her fist. She sat on the bed and stared at the square in her hand.
"Why did Lady Tsunade give me these? What was she thinking? How did she even come to the idea that sending these on the mission would-." The pinkette froze, her eyes widening.
"Does she expect us to… does she want us to…?" The asked herself aloud. She shook her head, why would Lady Tsunade care if she and Naruto did that? Was she really so confident that they'd actually get close enough on this mission to use these? Another thought came to her mind when she was trying to think of an answer.
"Wait, why did milady have these anyway? She's not married, she doesn't even date. So why would she have these? And that bottle, it was obviously used at least once, I thought that she never…. So who did she use it with?" A few ideas came to mind, the most obvious being Lord Jiraiya, they had been teammates for decades. Sakura knew how he'd always ask her out all the time, but she was confident that Lady Tsunade said that they never-. The pinkette shook her head side to side, trying to remove the thoughts of her master in such a way. She sighed as she rose from the bed and headed to the dresser. She dropped the square wrapper in her hand back into it's box, closed the lid and tried as hard as she could to shove it as far down into her suitcase, as if she were trying to hide it so that she wouldn't have to think about it anymore.
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The pinkette was sitting on the bed fixing her pillows and moving her blankets around when she was distracted from her task at the sound of the sliding glass door to the bathroom open. She turned her head to see the hero of the Leaf walk out of the glass room in nothing but a pair of shorts with his shirt draped over his shoulder. He was yawning as he stretched, he moved without a word and sat on the loveseat a few feet from the bed and fluffed his pillow. When he noticed her looking at him he sent her one of his trademark Naruto smiles.
"What's up, Sakura-chan? You going to bed too? I'm getting tired myself, going to be hitting the sack any minute now." He let out another yawn and laid down on the small loveseat.
"Go ahead and turn the light off whenever you want, I'm going to be going to sleep." He attempted to roll over it failed. The pinkette tried to hold back a chuckle. She watched as the large man tried to get comfortable on the small sofa that was half his size. His head on a pillow was on the armrest while his knees were on the other. His bare lower legs were dangling in the air. While on his back the seat of the small sofa was only able to hold half the width of his chest and his arm. The other half of his muscular chest and other arm were hanging off the side, his right arm was lying partially on the floor. He attempted to roll over again but it was to no avail, it was far too small for him to sleep on. The pink haired medic realized that there was so much room on the large bed next to her and she came up with a thought which made her blush again.
"Hey Naruto, is uh, is that comfortable at all?" She asked, still not funny decided if she was for or against the idea of inviting him to sleep on the bed.
The blond hero turned his head towards her, trying his best to keep his eyes focused on her face.
"Not really, but it beats lying on the hardwood floor. I'll be fine, Sakura-chan." He gave a reassuring smile but the pinkette wasn't fully convinced. She saw him stretch and bend his neck a few times before she heard a loud popping sound. How was his neck still messed up, she had massaged it for so long?
"Is your neck still bothering you?" She asked him as she realized that she was in her revealing night gown so she laid back and covered herself with a blanket.
"Nah, it's fine. Just still a little tense that's all. Nothing a good night's rest can't fix. I'll be good, don't you worry." He replied with a smile that she didn't believe.
"Naruto, you promised me that you wouldn't lie to me, now tell me, is your neck still bothering you?" She asked, a little upset that he wasn't being truthful. She realized that in the grand scheme of things that it wasn't a big deal but she didn't like it when he lied to her in order to act like he was fine when he wasn't. It didn't matter what it was about, she worried for him when he acted like that.
He gave a sheepish grin, like a child who was caught with his hand in the cookie jar. He attempted to smile but the look on her face pushed it away.
"Sorry about that, Sakura-chan. To answer your question, yeah, it does still kinda hurt. Nothing like it did before but it feels a stiff. But I will be fine, I'm are that it'll feel better in the morning." He attempted to roll over to face her and managed to succeed this time.
"Not like that it won't. If you sleep like that then you'll mess it up even more." The pink haired medic said as she motioned to his head. His head was on top of his small pillow that was on top of the arm rest. It couldn't be comfortable.
He raised a brow and she let out a sigh, he won, she couldn't look at him like that, he was completely uncomfortable in order to make her comfortable, it was sweet.
"Come here, Naruto." She said as she lifted the blanket allowing him under the sheets. His initial reaction was confusion, but slowly the idea hit him, he realized what she meant.
"Are you sure, Sakura-chan? You don't have to, I'm fine sleeping here for tonight."
"Don't even try it, Naruto. I can't let you sleep on that tiny sofa, that'd just be cruel. Besides, if you sleep there then you'll only mess up your neck more. You need a comfortable place to sleep to help your neck heal. Now get over here before I change my mind." The hero lightly nodded his head as he rose from the tiny loveseat and walked towards the bed.
She watched as he cautiously sat on the bed and slid under the blanket. He laid on his side, his back to her with his legs and arms against his body so tightly in order to not accidentally touch her. The bed was plenty large enough for two comfortably, there shouldn't be a problem with them sharing the bed. As long as the stayed near their individual edges they shouldn't have to worry about touching each other in their sleep.
With every passing second the pinkette grew a darker shade of red. It was her idea for him to sleep next to her but she didn't know if she could handle it. A repeating thought in her head refused to leave.
"Hey, Naruto?"
"Yeah?" He asked, his back still facing her, stiff as a board.
"If you try anything while I'm sleeping I will kill you, I don't care if I said that I wouldn't hit you. If you try touching me I'll beat you silly and switch partners again to have Sai back." She warned, hopefully it was a big enough threat to keep him from trying anything.
"I would never, Sakura-chan. Do you really think that I'd do something like that?" He asked, sounding a little hurt to the pinkette.
The medic paused, did she really think that he'd try anything or was it just worry talking? She's slept by him before with no problems, way would this time be any different? A thought hit her as she rolled over to look at him. She saw his finely turned muscles, his muscular back rising and falling with every breath seemed to mesmerize her. She had seen him earlier in nothing more than a towel, little to nothing was left to her imagination now, she couldn't help but want to gravitate towards him in order to feel his body next to hers.
The pinkette slapped herself mentally for thinking that, the last thing she needs is to be that close to him right now, she didn't know if she could trust herself being that close to him.
"No I don't, I trust you, Naruto." She said, answering his question.
Not before long the two teens managed to fall asleep as the laid as far apart from each other as they could, their backs facing each other.
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The pink haired medic awoke in the middle of the night suddenly, she opened her eyes and in the dark doesn't recognize that she's not at home. Not really thinking and wanting to go back to sleep she latched onto her large pillow and snuggled up against it. The pillow suddenly moved which freaked the girl out.
The girl became aware of her surroundings, she wasn't at home, she knew that for sure, she also knew that whatever she was cuddled up against wasn't her pillow. Her eyes adjusting to the darkness she could make out the image of her blond friend next to her. He had wrapped himself around her in his sleep, as if he were hugging her. The pinkette was about to wake him up in order to tell him to let her go when she realized that it was her that traveled across the length on the bed and snuggled up besides him. She was curled up into a ball in his arms.
She instantly tensed up, all she needed was for him to wake up and see her like this, he'd think that she did it on purpose. The girl laid in her warm embrace when a thought came into her mind that she had been trying to suppress and push aside all day.
'Do I like him?' She asked herself. She's been trying not to think about it all day but couldn't get it out of her head.
'I don't know, I have a feeling that I do it's just… just, that I'm worried about my feelings not being returned.' The pink haired medic admitted to herself. She was prepared to spend the entire night thinking this over when she felt the man next to her react to her movements in his sleep and wrapped his arms further around her. She couldn't help but blush and feel her heart rate increase. Her body was growing hotter the longer he held her and her brain felt like mush. The pinkette laid in his arms with a new thought.
'Should I really be letting myself lay with him like this if he doesn't know? If our roles were reversed wouldn't I, if I were a guy get into a lot of trouble for doing this? So is it really okay if I act this way? I'm cuddling up next to him and he's none the wiser. I feel like a pervert.' That last thought came out of nowhere, she didn't expect to think it. But it was true, she was using this as an opportunity to get close to him without his permission. She was really acting like a perverted fangirl.
Not before long the pinkette fell back to sleep in the arms of the man whom her feelings towards were growing day by day. She couldn't help but smile as she fell asleep.
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(Sakura POV)
The pinkette was in the middle of surgery, it was just a minor surgery, the patient had a sword wound and she was removing pieces of the shattered blade from his chest. Nothing that she hadn't done before, she could do this in her sleep. Her and her medical staff were making small talk as they worked, while Sakura made sure to focus on the task at hand she couldn't help feel that something wasn't right. Something felt out of place, uncomfortable, intrusive. She tried to think about it as she worked but the man started to bleed eternally so she put that thought on the back burner and focused on the task at hand.
She was able to stop the bleeding without much effort, everything was going really smoothly today, not a single ting had gone wrong. It was a perfect day, except for one thing, she had an uncomfortable feeling in her rear. For the life of her the medic couldn't figure out the cause of the discomfort, she hadn't eaten anything that upset her stomach so that wasn't it. Besides, the uncomfortable feeling wasn't like that at all, it was as if something was pressing into her butt. She couldn't come up with anything though, she knew for certain that nothing was in her underwear, so that couldn't be it, but she couldn't figure it out. It was hard to explain, it was as if some foreign object was trying to force it's way between her cheeks.
The pinkette suddenly snapped awake, not being able to tell why, she had been dreaming a strange dream and all of a sudden she was awake. It took but a second to realize that her body was extremely hot, she seemed to almost be on fire. She also realized that she had changed position in Naruto's arms, she now had her back to him as he held her. Their legs were a jumble of limbs, her back pressed against his hard chest and her butt pressed into his waist. She went to move to find that the hard object from her dream was actually pressing into her butt.
Still half asleep and not really thinking she frees her arm from his and reaches around to her butt to find the object that was pressing into her that woke her up. The strange object was pressing into her butt with so much force that it almost hurt. She felt around in the blanket between them until she felt an insane amount of heat coming from whatever was pressing against her, in one quick movement she grabbed the foreign item and attempted to throw it to the side off the bed but when she pulled on it it only trembled and pressed into her harder. It was at that moment when the pinkette realized what was going on: Naruto was pressing his erected penis in between her butt cheeks.
The pink haired girl instantly had to hold back a scream, did he know what he was doing? Was he just doing this in his sleep or was he awake and didn't realize that she was awake and knew what he was doing? She quickly pushed that thought away, sure that he would never do that to her. He must be asleep then.
'Oh god!' She screamed to herself.
'It hurts but damn, it feels so… good.' The harder the blond pressed his member into her the more she desired it even more.
The medic went to try to move from him but feeling the movement he grabbed her tighter and wouldn't let go. She tried again to get his enlarged member from in between her butt cheeks when she was instantly drawn to a quiet sound, listening she realized that he was mumbling in his sleep.
"Stop… that… Sakura-chan… I told you that I… don't want to do… that… with you. Let...go of me, that… hurts. Let me be… with… Hinata." The pinkette's mind quickly froze, as did her attempt to pull away from him. Her mind came to the decision that she feared the most in an instant: that he didn't really like her.
After a few seconds of not thinking of anything she slowly pulled herself from him and moved back to her side of the bed before she got up and laid on the small loveseat a few feet away, not wanting to be next to him at the moment. She couldn't even look at him after hearing that, her fears and worries turned out to be true. Her heart seemed to shatter inside her body.
The girl couldn't help but listen as he continued talking about wanting to be with Hinata, or Ino or another girl instead of her. As she heard him squirm and move in his sleep it was obvious to her what he was dreaming about, sleeping with other girls besides her.
What remained of her heart felt like it was sinking, just as she was beginning to admit to herself that she liked him she was given a rude reminder why she hadn't pursued a relationship since her days as a girl chasing after Sasuke. She knew it in her heart but it was hard to admit again, that no man would ever love her. The first man she ever loved rejected her completely for years and even went as far as trying to kill her. While the second man always fought for her affection and she never gave him the time of day. He was always there for her and she grew to love him for that, but now she was once again reminded that all her feelings meant nothing if the men whom she loved never felt the same way towards her.
Tears attempting to drown her green orbs as she curled into an uncomfortable ball on the tiny sofa and cried into her hands. She was trying to suppress her loud sobs but it was of little use, she was a shaking mess of tears and sobs. And not for the first time in her life she fell asleep as tears rolled down her face.
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(Sakura/Naruto POV)
The young hero woke up and instinctively sat straight up and stretched. His mind realizing where he was he began to worry that he would accidently wake up Sakura. At the thought of her name his member made it's presence known and the blond grew a little worried, hopefully she didn't see him like this, she'd get the wrong idea. He looked to her side of the bed and blinked a few times, she was already gone. Was she already up and getting ready? He looked around the room but couldn't see her anywhere. He got up out of bed and found her lying on the loveseat that she told him not to sleep on last night. The hero raised his brow at this, what was she doing? She's the one who made a big deal about getting a good night's rest on a comfortable bed, that tiny sofa couldn't of been comfortable to sleep on all night.
The blond spied the clock on the wall, it was about time to get up and start getting ready. He walked the few steps to her lying body and called out to her to wake her up.
"Sakura-chan, hey. It's time to get up, we need to get ready. Sakura-chan." When she didn't respond her bent over and reached an arm to shake her awake when she startled him half to death.
When his hand was a mere inch from her arm she spoke.
"Don't touch me, Naruto. I'm awake."
The blond hero couldn't help but feel that something was wrong, she sounded so, devoid of emotion, very monotone. Very unlike the Sakura he knew. He watched as she slowly rose from the sofa and stood with her back to him. He could see her arms trembling, was she cold? They were almost near the equator, could she really be cold?
Naruto reached out once again to her and this attempt was met with the same warning:
"I said don't touch me." She warned.
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The pinkette woke up earlier that morning, her cheeks stained with her tears. She laid curled up on the sofa for a little over an hour thinking about what happened the night before. She was still having a hard time wrapping her mind around it, what was she supposed to do?
The medic laid as she thought of Naruto's words in his sleep, could she really trust the words e spoke in his sleep? He was dreaming, so it might not be how he truly feels. Her rational brain tried to make a dozen cases in favor of taking a deep breath and calming down before dropping it, but from the darkest, deepest part of her brain where her guilt, insecurities, doubt and worry lay came a single paralyzing thought that seemed to overpower her senses and threw her mind into a panic. Worry came into her mind with this thought. She was worried that her fears were correct, he didn't like her. He loved someone else.
'That can't be it, of course he likes me, he wouldn't act that way towards me if he didn't.' Her rational mind thought before her worry and doubt cut in.
'He acts that way towards every girl, you're nothing special. Every girl from the Academy has at least one boy who likes them, except for you of course.' Her fear spit at her.
'But what about all the times as kids when he said that he liked me?' She asked herself, a wave of doubt and insecurity washed through her instantly to stomp out her hope.
'Those were just the words of a child! He never really liked you. He only said those things to compete with Sasuke.' Sakura couldn't think, every time she thought of a way to rationalize what happened a voice from the back of her mind destroyed that hope that she held so precious i her hands. Her own mind attempting to prove her wrong and destroy her from the inside.
The pinkette thought of her friend, Hinata.
'She's loved him since we were kids, so obviously he would love her as well. She's so lucky." She thought.
'Not only is she beautiful, kind and loving but she comes from a prestigious family as well. It's clear who Naruto would pick to be his wife. He was going to be the Hokage, he'd need a wife that not only looked the part of the Hokage's wife but who could also use her family ties to his advantage.' The girl laid for a while more until she sensed a figure moving behind her, when it spoke she recognized his voice instantly. He was the last person who she wanted to see right now.
(Author's Note)
Thanks for reading, please let me know what you thought of this chapter. I gotta be getting some sleep so I'm going to be stopping here, thanks for the support and I'll see you guys next week with another chapter update.
Hephaestus
