BlackLyxn17: Good news everyone. I have decided to dedicate my whole spring break to completing this story... maybe not my WHOLE break but more along the lines that I'll be having a lot of sleepless nights typing this out. In all honesty I want this story to end, I want it to be over and behind me so I can start working on my other stories but I didn't want to just end it like that.
I wrote this story from scratch and I wanted it to be good. I'm not going to BS this just because I've lost my... inspiration. I'm going to do my best to continue writing Suicidal Boyfriend I envisioned when I first typed the first chapter.
Anyways once everything is done and complete you guys won't have to worry about late updates anymore, so yeah!
Thanks for the reviews like always people, love you!
I do not support cutting one's self and/or killing oneself. This story doesn't support it either. This is a STORY and a STORY only! Do not try this at home kids! Threatening to kill yourself to get a girlfriend is not the answer, if having suicidal thoughts please call a specialist! Or contact a Parent or Guardian, etc. In real life if you tried to kill yourself to get a girl/boy, they might actually run away and/or stop you before you can do it.
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Suicidal Boyfriend
Chapter 11
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I stood at my lockers during nutrition debating... should I go? I mean Loke clearly doesn't like me with Lucy... he clearly just doesn't like me. If I was to go to the table then what would happen? Would he wait until I left and jump me again? Or would he just kicked me out of the table? I banged my head against my locker, so this was it? I was just going to give it up?
Be strong. That was what Lucy told me. I dug underneath my scarf and stared at Lucy's necklace. I've found myself relying on this necklace more and more every day. Maybe because I didn't have to use it before, because I never really believed in myself. My fingers brushed against the top of the locket, soothing me. Alright, it's decided. I turned around and started walking towards the lunch area with my head held high.
"Oops, sorry" a girl said bumping into me.
She dropped her folder, her papers dropping everywhere. She bent down to pick up her things while I just stood where I was, shocked to see her friends just standing there not helping her.
"Oh" I said.
I bent down and started helping her pick up her papers.
"T-thank you" she said.
I smiled, "you're welcome" I said getting back up with her.
She blushed. She blushed... was it because of me? I looked around, I think it was! She giggled along with her friends and walked away from me. All this time... it was because of the glasses. People are so superficial at this school, I'm glad I have Lucy! She's super nice and I know she likes me for my personality, since my looks weren't that good.
Lucy... onwards to the cafeteria. As I started walking all I could think about was stares, more stares. My pace quickened and I was in the cafeteria in a matter of seconds. I spotted Lucy's group immediately, I sighed a breath of relief when I didn't see Loke or his backup singers.
"NATSU!" Lucy yelled waving towards me.
I smiled and waved back lightly walking towards them.
"HOLY SHIT! THAT'S NATSU BOY!" Gajeel yelled.
"There's something different about you" Gray said.
I laughed as I sat next to Lucy. She scooted over and made space for me.
"I'm no-"
"No I'll get it" Gray said studying me.
"Wow Natsu, never knew how handsome you were. Nice move losing the geek glasses" Lisanna said.
... "um... thanks?" I asked.
It was a compliment... right?
"Lisanna! She means well" Lucy told me.
"His... hair? No that's still pink" Gray said.
"Glasses Gray" Juvia mumbled.
"Juvia! I would have... hey you aren't wearing glasses!" he yelled.
I blushed and stared down, "I got contacts" I mumbled.
"Aw, I'm the only one with glasses again" Levy sighed.
"I'm... um sorry?" I said.
Levy giggled.
"I was just joking with you Natsu boy" Levy laughed.
I sighed, Natsu boy. Maybe Lucy's nickname for me should be Natsu boy since everyone else is calling me that.
"Wow."
Everyone at the table froze. I didn't get it, what was with them?
"Did Jellal just talk?" Erza asked.
I blinked... was that a big deal with the group?
"Is that... bad?" I asked.
"I told you he was something special" Lucy said and patted me on the head.
Was she praising me? For what? Making Jellal talk? I'll take it! I blushed slightly as Lucy rubbed my head.
"Damn Natsu boy" Gajeel said and started clapping.
The others at the table joined him and soon everyone was clapping for me at the table. I heard Jellal grunt a sigh.
"It's not that big of a deal" Jellal mumbled.
"He just spoke again!" Gajeel laughed.
Now I started laughing, only because of how ridiculous it sounded.
"So why the change up Mini Me?" Gray asked.
"Huh?"
"I said why the change up? Why'd you change your glasses for contacts?" Gray asked.
"I was wondering the same thing, it wasn't because of Lucy was it?" Gajeel asked spinning his pen in hand.
"I got that part, I was saying huh to the name? What you call me?" I asked bewildered.
Gray smiled.
"You like it? Mini Me since you know... your hair is spiky... you look like me" he trailed on then laughed.
"Oooh! He does!" Gajeel laughed with him.
Gray hugged my shoulder and pushed our faces together, "don't we?"
Gajeel leaned back in his seat as he laughter only got louder. I sighed and pushed Gray's face away from mine. Should have ignored him, should have ignored the name and just answered the question but no... I just hope that this nickname wouldn't stick like Natsu boy did.
"No actually" I answered getting back to question, "-she said she preferred me with them on" I said and smiled.
"I lost my glasses though and I just got tired of losing them you know? With contacts I don't have to worry about that" I told them.
Gray and Gajeel stared at me. So I'm lying to my friends, so what?!
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I can't just tell them I got a swirly from Loke! How embarrassing!
...
Why do I feel guilty though?
"That's a lot of money to be losing your glasses over and over again, smart move" Gajeel laughed.
I chuckled along with him.
"How'd you lose them this time?" Gray asked.
How?
"Them um... got flushed down the toilet" I mumbled tapping my pen on the desk.
It was quiet for 2 seconds before Gray and Gajeel started laughing it up.
"What you do? Stick your head in there?" Gajeel laughed.
...
"Kind of" I whispered shutting my eyes.
The laughter died down.
"We know, Lucy told us about it" Gray said.
My eyes widened.
"We just wanted to hear it from you" he added.
"Wha-?"
"She also told us to watch out for you, that was a dick move Loke did" Gajeel growled.
"I can't believe it... well I can. It's different now though, you're one of us" Gray said smiling at me.
I'm sure if I still had my glasses on they would have fallen off my now.
"But damn! I wouldn't have said anything! That took guts Natsu boy, well Natsu" Gajeel said and grabbed my shoulder.
"We have your back" he said.
"Th-thanks" I choked out.
"That's what friends are for" Gray said.
Friends... thank you Lucy.
"And what kind of friends would we be if we didn't help you get Loke back?" Gajeel asked.
"Wait what?" I asked.
"Gajeel's right, I think it's time Loke gets a taste of his own medicine" Gray said.
Huh?
"I thought Loke was your friend" I asked.
"Oh he is."
"And what are friends for if you can't prank them every one in a while?"
Oh boy.
"I love you."
"What?" Lucy asked turning around.
"I said I love you Lucy Heartfilia" I said hugging her.
Lucy froze.
"Could I kiss you?" I asked looking down at her.
"No!" she yelled.
"... can I still hug you then?" I asked.
...
"Well your hugging me now aren't you?" she mumbled.
I smiled and pulled her closer. My head laid on her hair as I lightly kissed it.
"I'm sorry" I sighed.
I love you Lucy, I won't ever let you go. I felt a shiver course through Lucy body in my arms.
"Let go now" she said.
"I don't wanna" I whined hugging her tighter.
"Pwease Natsu?" she asked.
I blushed by the sound of her voice and pulled back.
"Lunch?" I asked her.
She smiled, "I kind of have this paper due next period. I was going to skip lunch and go to the library to finish it" she said.
Library?
"Well you're in luck, I'm an expect librarian... library go-er... library, yeah I know where that is! I'll come with you" I said.
"Alright, don't expect me to entertain you though" she said walking passed me.
I caught up with her and started walking beside her.
"How was class?" I asked.
"Fine, before I forget to tell you I have cheerleading practice tomorrow so I can't walk home with you" she said.
Cheerleading practice...
"We have that big game coming up soon right?" I asked.
"Yup! It's on Friday, the whole gang was going to go karaoke after... you're going right?" she asked.
Me? And Karaoke?
"I can't sing" I told her.
"So? Neither can Gajeel? Or Gray? Or any one in our group for that matter... maybe Erza?" Lucy trailed off.
"Lucy?"
"Back to the point! Please go, please, with me?" Lucy asked.
When Lucy Heartfilia, head cheerleader and the most popular girl in school, asks you out on a date, you don't refuse. And with the plans I had with Gajeel and Gray with the pranking... I'm sure we'd be done by Friday.
"Alright" I said.
"Yes!" Lucy said leaping on me.
I smiled while she blushed, realizing what she was doing, then jumped back down.
"Uh, let's go shall we?!" she asked walking ahead.
"Shall let's" I laughed.
