What have I Done?

"So, I see that you have a new boyfriend…" Jean commented, after Marie closed the door to Jean's bedroom behind her.

"Yeah…" Marie began, looking at Jean briefly, as she walked to stand before the red headed goddess. Jean offered Marie a puzzling look as she crossed her arms over her chest.

"I never would have guessed that Piotr was interested in you…" Jean replied after a moment, as she positioned her hair to cover her neck so Marie wouldn't stare at the hickies.

"Those are from Scott?" Marie asked randomly, as Jean tried to hide the guilt she was feeling.

"Yes" Jean answered, as she stared at the ground, avoiding Marie's hurt gaze.

"Looks like he was making up for lost time…" Marie responded with jealousy, as Jean eyed her girl for a moment before continuing to study the dark carpet in her room.

"You're a much better kisser than he is…"

"Is that supposed to make me feel better?"

"I don't know? Does it?" Jean asked, her eyes begging for Marie to not be so angry and jealous at the moment.

"I guess it does…" Marie answered after a moment, her hands resting inside her pant pockets, as her eyes moved to look at something other than Jean.

"So, how's Piotr?"

"He's good, really good. I'm sure that everyone knows that we're together…we've been holding hands all day-and we kissed a few times…" Marie replied, noticing Jean's reaction to this new information.

"You can kiss him?" Jean asked, as she clenched her fists painfully in response.

"It was just a few small pecks…but it was convincing non the less" Marie began, sighing before continuing. "But it is kinda hard to pretend that you're into guys when you're a lesbian…"

"I can only imagine…" Jean said thoughtfully, as she looked up to stare into Marie's eyes. "I should go soon, Scott is going to take me out to dinner…" Jean added, as she moved forward.

"Have fun" Marie replied as nicely as she could, her fists clenching at the thought of Jean and Scott together. Jean just nodded her head, as she walked past Marie to open the door. But, before she did so, she stopped and turned slightly to utter something to Marie.

"Marie…I'm sorry if I made you feel like you're not important to me. I know that I get frustrated and take it out on you…and I'm sorry. It's just…we have to keep this secret alive. I'm sorry for causing you pain…" Jean finished with a sad smile, before leaving the room before Marie could utter a response.

Are you sorry? Marie thought to herself, as she watched the door to Jean's room close after Jean.

I am…I just don't know how to prove it to you… Jean answered, through the now recreated link between her and Marie.

You recreated the link? Marie asked happily, as she enjoyed the soothing feel of Jean's voice in her mind.

Yes…but we have to be careful how often we use it…I don't want Scott to find out that I have a link with you Jean began, before whispering her goodbye to Marie, as Marie smiled in response.

"She trusts me again!" Marie said out loud to herself, her eyes filling with tears of joy as she smiled happily at the joyous moment.

Later that Evening

After eating dinner at a fancy restaurant, Jean and Scott took a lovely stroll in a nearby park. Hand in hand, the two walked, and talked occasionally.

"Jean, can I ask you something?" Scott asked, his ruby lenses looking into Jean's eyes.

"Sure Scott! You know you can ask me anything" Jean replied, smiling dreamily at her boyfriend. Scott smiled a charming smile, as he looked away for a moment as if to collect his thoughts. When he returned his attention back to Jean, he sighed deeply before attempting to force out what he had been meaning to say to Jean for a long time.

"Jean, we have to talk…" Scott began, taking an unsteady breath before continuing. "It's not about you, it's about me. I've been a jerk lately. I've been thinking about that time, when we were at that school trip at the museum, and I grabbed your arm. I was a little rough with you wasn't I?" Scott asked, as he watched Jean's face closely.

"Yes…you did grab me a little to hard" Jean answered, looking away as she tried to figure out what exactly Scott was going to say next, without having to use her powers.

"Jean, I need to explain myself. I've been keeping things from you; I haven't been honest about my thoughts and my feelings. And I know that in a relationship it is important to communicate. And I…" Scott paused again, stopping in his tracks as to force himself to face Jean with his next words. "I've had suspicions that you've been having an affair-"

"What! Scott I would never-"

"Wait! Here me out ok? I know it was totally bogus for me to even suspect that you would hurt me like that. It's just…you haven't seemed interested in making love-hell I don't even remember the last time we did make love. And at the time I was really suspicious and hurt and going insane with the idea that there was another man in your life. So, I guess I was going a little crazy when you kept saying 'no' to sex, and I guess I let my frustration control me. I'm sorry Jean, I never meant to hurt you…and I hope my honesty explains myself" Scott finished, looking down in shame as Jean tried her best to recover from the confession.

Oh shit, I knew he suspected something… Jean thought to herself, before feeling Scott's firm lips against hers in a warm kiss. After a moment, it was Scott who pulled away to utter something in Jean's hear that made her eyes go wide. "Right now?"

"When we get back to the mansion…" Scott explained, before grabbing Jean by the hand and guiding her to his car.

Meanwhile…

Marie sat next Piotr on the big couch in the rec room, her eyes glued to the television screen, as Piotr did the same. They sat closer to each other, and made sure that the other people in the rec room would think that the pair was a loving couple, and not merely just friends. Sitting on the couch opposite of them, Kitty kept her eyes glued to Piotr and Marie, not even attempting to make it look like she was watching the movie. When the three members of the X-men were finally alone, Piotr and Marie quickly moved away from each other, Piotr on one side of the couch and Marie on the other.

"We're alone…everyone must be on their way to bed by now" Piotr commented as Marie moved to sit up straight, trying not to pay attention to Kitty's alluring gaze.

"Thank God…" Marie replied, before adding, "I don't mean nothing mean by that. It's just a little hard for me to pretend to be all cozy and stuff with a man-"

"When you prefer a woman" Kitty interrupted, her arms crossing over her chest as her eyes looked longingly into Marie's. Marie gulped, as she couldn't help but meet Kitty's unwavering gaze with her own. She shrugged her shoulders and took an uneasy breath, as she tried to utter a sentence that wouldn't make Kitty think that she was having any effect on her.

"Yes" Marie replied bluntly, nodding her head lightly, before returning her gaze to the movie that they were watching.

"By the way Rogue…I was wondering if you wouldn't mind telling us how you and Jean worked around the, 'no skin contact' rule." Kitty asked, before adding, "I'm getting the feeling that you and Jean did more than just a quick peck on the lips…since Jean is a powerful telekinetic-and quite good with the matters of the mind…"

"Yeah, so?" Marie responded with a shrug, before Kitty attempted to shed more light onto her question.

"Well, its kind of obvious that someone as powerful as Ms. Grey, would figure out a way to fuck her girlfriend without getting drained" Kitty explained, causing Marie and Piotr to flash her an awkward look in response to her interesting choice of words.

"Are you asking me if Jean and I ever made love?" Marie asked, her eyebrows crossed and expression forming into a look of deep puzzlement.

"If you want to call it that…sure" Kitty responded with a hint of jealousy, as she watched Marie and Piotr glance at each other for a moment, before returning their attention to Kitty.

"Why do you want to know?"

"Because I'm asking you"

"Why are you asking me?"

"Because I want to know"

"Why do you want to know?"

"Because I'm interested in knowing just how deep your relationship with Ms. Grey is"

"Why do you care-"

"Just answer my question!" Kitty interrupted in annoyance, causing both Piotr and Marie to jump at the volume of Kitty's outburst.

"Ok, ok!" Marie responded with a smile, as Kitty watched her intently.

"Have you slept with her?"

"Yes"

"…how many times-"

"Kitty I'm not going to answer that!" Marie complained, as Kitty kept her eyes fastened to Marie's.

"Careful girls! Let's not bring out the claws!" Piotr commented; as he continued to look from Kitty to Marie, then back to Kitty. Kitty took another deep breath, trying desperately to control her rising jealousy at the idea that Marie and Jean slept together.

"How do you guys do it? I mean…how is it possible that you guys can sleep together?" Kitty asked, leaning forward as if to better hear Marie's answer. Marie took a deep sigh, as she tried to think of a way to explain it so that it would make sense to Piotr and Kitty.

"Do you guys swear not to tell anyone-"

"we would never tell anyone about you and Jean-including how you two get it on!" Piotr spoke on behalf of him and Kitty, but his last statement earned him a venom ness glare from Kitty.

"So, how do you guys do it?" Kitty asked again, her long hair hiding part of her face, as she leaned forward and rested her elbows on her knees, and then held her head up with her hands.

"Well, when Jean and I go to sleep at night…Jean connects her mind with mine, and we, uh, we…have sex in our dreams" Marie finished with a look of uncertainty, as she eyed both Piotr and Kitty with a look of worry.

"So let me get this straight…you guys go to sleep at night…and then Jean connects her mind to yours, and then you two have sex-in your sleep!" Piotr exclaimed, puzzlement written all over the young Russians face.

"That's weird…" Kitty added, her eyes squinting and eyebrows crossed, as it came apparent that the young girl was trying to figure out how such an act could logically occur.

"It's weird…but its so amazing. She's so amazing…and the SEX! God the sex is amazing!" Marie commented; smiling as she remembered the last time she and Jean had made love.

"Yeah, yeah that's nice…" Kitty began, as Piotr smiled evilly while he poked Marie's sides.

"So…are you saying that Dr. Jean Grey is a good lay?"

"She's more than that Piotr! She's Jean…she's the love of my life" Marie began, smiling happily at the thought of Jean.

"She's not that great…" Kitty grumbled, as she couldn't help but want to puke at the sight of Marie's happiness being because of Jean and not her. She's definitely not THAT great! How can she be? When she treats you like shit Marie! Kitty thought to herself as she moved to lean back against the couch, her eyes still firmly planted on Marie's dreamy features. How can you say that Jean is the love of your life? When she's two timing you…she can't even see how amazing you are. If I was her, I would drop Scott right on his face! And kick him in the crouch while I'm at it… Kitty continued, her eyes covering every curve, every feature of Marie's being. She smiled slightly as she imagined what it would be like to be Marie's girlfriend. If I had you, Marie, I would treasure you always…I would love you-and only you! And I would never do anything to hurt you…unlike Jean, who seems to get off on the idea of hurting you! Kitty thought to herself, as she quickly rose from her seat and ran out of the room, tears falling from her eyes as she went.

"Kitty?" Marie called out, puzzlement evident on her pale creamy features, as she debated going after the girl.

"Leave her Rogue…I think its best that you let her be…" Piotr interrupted, his hand rising to grab for Marie's hand. Marie flashed the young man a lost look, as she wondered why Kitty was acting so peculiar, so strangely.

What's going on with Kitty? Ever since she found out that I'm gay, she's been acting all screwy! Marie thought to herself, as she couldn't help but frown at the events that occurred just moments before. Just my luck…more confusing shit to deal with Marie added, before finding herself sitting back on the couch, next to Piotr, watching the rest of the movie in silence.

Meanwhile…

Now resting in bed, sweaty and panting, Jean struggled to control her breathing as Scott held her close.

"Wow…that's what I've been missing for so long?" Scott asked out load, smiling as Jean smiled in response.

"Yes…it's been a while since we did that" Jean replied, as she thought back to the moments of passion that she just shared with Scott.

"We should do this more often…and I mean more often!" Scott began, before moving to position himself over top of Jean, who looked up at him with a blank expression.

"Again?"

"Well, yeah…why not?"

"Well, I'm a little tired right now…we already went through 2 condoms…can we just call it a night?" Jean asked, her hand pressed against her head as she tried to keep herself from crying at the thought of Marie. It's a good thing that I turned off my link with her for now…or she'd have known that I just slept with Scott! I'm pretty sure that she isn't aware that I switched off the link again…I'll be sure to reconnect it, when Scott goes to bed… Jean thought to herself, before sighing at the feeling of Scott's penis entering her. "Scott…" she muttered in protest, before being silenced by Scott's kiss. She was about to mutter another protest, when her words were caught in her throat when she began to feel Scott rocking against her. All I can think about is Marie… Jean thought, as she tried to control her tears at the feeling of Scott placing rough kisses along her neck. Oh God…every touch from him makes me feel so sick! This doesn't even feel good anymore! Oh God do I wish I hadn't given him what he wanted… Jean thought, as she tried to control her tears. I don't even know who I am anymore…who am I? Jean thought to herself, as she listened to Scott's grunts and moans of pleasure; closing her eyes as her own unwanted orgasm ripped through her senses, making her hate herself even more than she already did. Marie… Jean thought to herself, as her nails dug into Scott's back. I don't deserve you… Jean continued, as Scott moved off of her to lay on his back.

"Oh shit!"

"What?"

"The condom broke!"

"What?!" Jean exclaimed, moving onto her side as she stared at Scott with a look of horror. She watched as Scott peeled off the condom, showing her where the condom tore.

"Looks like I'm going to be a father…" Scott began, as he paid little attention to a now crying Jean Grey.

What have I done? Jean thought to herself as she buried her head in her hands.