Winter 2020

"You've been making great progress. I've been seeing you for almost a year now, Maya. Things can only go up from here," Amy smiled.

Maya nodded, "I'm trying."

"And you are succeeding. Shall we pick up where we left off last time? October, right?" Amy gestured towards the journal in Maya's hands.

The blonde bit back a grin, "Yeah, that was a good month. The best, even."


October 2016

"I think she should be a hot dog," Maya suggested as she and her mother were browsing online for infant Halloween costumes.

Katy blinked at her eldest daughter, "Your baby sister is not going to be a wiener for her first Halloween, Maya."

Just then, Maya's phone buzzed with a text from Riley. They had a big date coming up that weekend and the brunette had everything planned out. While excited to see what was in store, Maya did feel a bit anxious due to Riley's excitement and obvious expectations.

"You ready for this weekend?" Katy asked with a smile as she began looking through food themed costumes.

Maya drew in a shaky breath, "As much as I can be."

Katy stopped scrolling and turned to her daughter, "Riley loves you, baby. That will be more than enough for whatever happens… or doesn't on Saturday."

"I'm just really nervous about what she's probably going to want to happen," Maya sighed as Katy gave her a hug.

"Well, I can't exactly help you with that, because I've never been with a woman, but your dad could." Katy suggested with a shrug.

"Mom!" Maya was scandalized by the suggestion.

Katy had to refrain from laughing, "Oh, honey. I'm just trying to be helpful!"

"Yeah, but I don't need to know what you and dad do!"

Katy couldn't hold back anymore, "It wasn't like I gave specifics!" She laughed at her daughter's now apparent discomfort. "But, if you are worried about being with Riley, ask him."


"Mom says I should ask you for advice on how to make love… to a woman," Maya boldly announced as she walked into Shawn's home office.

He just stared blankly at her over his computer, "She did what now?" The blank stare was replaced with rapid blinking.

Maya nodded and sat down on the couch adjacent Shawn's desk, "I mean, it's not like we haven't been physical, but there are things we haven't done yet."

Shawn stood, facing the wall, "Your mom and I need to have a talk later, obviously. But," he joined his daughter on the couch then. "I am here to help. What can I do?"

"I'm seventeen, I was pregnant, I took sex ed, and I've seen porn… I'm not an idiot," Maya started with a huff. "But I haven't been with a girl before, especially not how she has, and I don't want to upset her."

"Upset? How would you upset her?" Shawn asked perplexed.

Maya felt tears begin to form, "She texted me tonight that I could never disappoint her after I explained that I'm unsure and nervous about our anniversary this weekend. So, if I can't disappoint her, then I'm obviously going to upset her."

Shawn quickly shook his head, "I really don't think that's possible, Maya."

"She's built the whole night up and everything is planned. I don't want my inability to please her ruining it." Tears slipped down her cheeks then.

Shawn wrapped an arm around her, "Does Riley want it to happen? Have you asked her point-blank?"

Maya turned to him, "No, she's not expecting it to, but we've been building towards it. So, on some level, she wants it to happen, but she won't make me. I know that much."

"Ask her, okay? That's all you can do. Also, be honest. Tell her how you're feeling, please." Shawn gave her another quick hug before going back to his desk. "And, since it is the reason you came to me, go to this website. It'll have all the tips on the… mechanics of what you're going to be doing."

Maya smiled as Shawn showed her the site, "Thanks, dad. Is there a reason why you can't inform me?" She giggled sneakily.

"I'm not a chick. You need to hear it from a woman who's done it with another woman." Shawn chuckled with a hint of awkwardness.

Maya nodded, "Yeah, and why are you on a lesbian advice forum?" She laughed realizing the site her dad was on.

"When you first told me, I wanted to better understand; so did your mom. We started researching and was told to look at this site, in case we ever needed to point you towards it." Shawn smiled at his daughter.

Maya hugged him, "I love you, dad."

"I love you, too, kiddo."


Riley was dozing off on Maya's shoulder as they sat watching a movie later that evening. Maya thought it was the cutest thing ever. The brunette's ringing cell phone awoke her though, ruining the moment.

"It's just a text from my mom, asking if we're still meeting her tomorrow," Riley reported with a yawn.

Maya smiled as Riley cuddled into her side, "Yep, we are."

The couple onscreen were engaged in a heated make out session that was quickly progressing. Maya had seen the movie before, but totally forgot about the female receiving oral. Maya stood up and excused herself to the bathroom, to avoid watching the scene, without it even fazing Riley.

When she came back a few moments later, the movie was paused on that scene and Riley was carefully watching her. Maya rejoined her girlfriend on the bed and cleared her throat in an attempt to procure the awkwardness she felt.

"This is the third, I think, movie we've watched in the last week where you disappear when the characters are about to have sex. Is there something going on, Peaches?" Riley asked with concern written across her face.

Maya couldn't look at Riley, "Do you want that to happen this weekend?" she looked towards the stilled movie.

"Do you?" Riley asked bringing Maya's eyes to hers.

"I don't know," Maya bit her lip. "Parker never did that to me and I've never done it to a girl, so."

Riley took Maya's hands, "Well, in case it isn't obvious yet, I don't have the parts you're familiar with." There was a glint in her eyes.

"Riley," Maya tried her best not to laugh at the joke, but failed.

The brunette pulled her girl close, "This weekend is about celebrating us. Will that include being physical? Maybe. Will it include that? Only if you want it to. I'd wait forever for you and you know that."

"I don't want to be bad at it," Maya's voice was small.

Riley kissed her forehead, "Only way you'd be bad at it is if you tried to bite me."

Maya's eyes flew open in horror, "Riley!"

"I'm kidding, Maya." She smiled and then turned serious, "When the time comes, if it ever does, we'll go through it together. Promise."

Maya sighed in relief, "I love you, Honey."

"Love you too, Peaches."


Riley met Maya at the restaurant for their late lunch with Topanga the following afternoon. The blonde was returning from an interview at an after-school care center.

"I think I got the job, Riles." Maya chuckled as she and Riley were waiting on the latter's mother.

The brunette smiled, "What makes you think that?"

Maya shrugged a bit, "Mrs. Boyd, the director, really liked me. She loved the paintings I brought. She took me on a tour of the center, I met the art class teacher, and she had me bring some paperwork home… really think I got it."

"So, we'll have another thing to celebrate this weekend?" Riley hugged Maya tight.

"Hopefully."


Winter 2020

Maya sat on the bathroom counter, waiting. Her feet dangled as she hummed to herself. She didn't have a problem with waiting, but this was different. She felt jittery, anxious, excited. This was the second time in her life she was taking a pregnancy test, but on this turn she was actually looking forward to the result.

The timer she'd set beeped, indicating the required time had passed. Carefully she picked the test up and studied what the digital display said. It was good news. Very good news. Happy tears began to fall and she did a little victory dance around the bathroom. This news was so great it needed to be shared.

Maya opened the bathroom door happily and smiled at her waiting audience of one, "We're having a baby."


A/N: Thank you to my betas.