No point in sugarcoating this or acting as if I'm some higher being. I feel pain, eat, sleep, and stress just like the rest of you. I haven't been mentally capable of writing since the last update due to the fact that well…heh heh…me and my girlfriend of 3+ years have separated as of 1/18/2015 one hell of a way to break in the new year right? We tried taking break, you know the usual short term separation period of 3-5 days or a week if the fight got really bad. We even tried therapy, things have only gone downhill. Not to make things any more complicated or more dramatic than they were I'm not sure if I can continue this story. I feel like 3+ years of my life have been wasted, so many opportunities and people walking in and out of my life without a care in the world. On Christmas Eve we got into a really bad verbal altercation that left her crying and me feeling like an asshole. Oh did I mention I got fired on the 1/01/2015 lol. That was just the tip of the ice berg. Life really sucks, I wake up and go on about my day not really sure what to do. Don't get me wrong I'm completely about my business, but when that's all done I sit here and think about the good times and where it all went wrong. I've let go of my pill issue, and stopped smoking weed. Occasionally I'll drink, but nothing over the limit. I honestly just need someone to talk to right now….I'm considering getting away from it all. I told one of my friends I'd probably be writing 3-4 page letter and disappearing for awhile. I may or may not be back a week from now…I'm not sure what my ex is up to or if she even cares that we're over. I love her with my soul, but I can't bring myself to continue hurting her. She deserves better…. A family with someone else. Something more, maybe something better….Not sure if I'll be able to finish the story from here…..Love you all….~Ace

P.S- Fuck it