A/N: Next part as promised! R&R please and keep the Jade love going!
Enjoy!
My alarm goes off at 7:30 in the morning. I have been awake well before that. In fact, I didn't sleep a wink at all. I'm wondering about she is thinking, feeling, hoping she's ok.
I log onto my IM and go straight to invisible. I really don't want to talk to anyone right now. Well, maybe Jude. I scroll down and look at my buddy list. Jude is online but is set to "away". I click on her screen name to check her buddy info, because it says that she updated. I look at her away message:
There's me If I was stupid Not everything is supposed to come true
Looking down at my shoes
The one smiling like the sun
That's you
What were you thinking
What was the song inside your head
There's us
Going on about a band
Working out how we play our hand
I lay there dreaming
Later all alone in my bed
Maybe careless
So were you
Some words are best unsaid
Some love is not really love at all
I'll keep everything I shared with you
And that's enough
There's us
"There's Us". Interesting choice for an away message. I scroll down to se the changes in her buddy info. It has its usual black background, but instead of her usual blurbs about her new single and updates to her website, letters down at the bottom is one simple quote:
Oh! Darling, if you leave me
I'll never make it alone
Believe me when I tell you
I'll never do you no harm
It's from my song. My mind is going through a million thoughts. Is that good? Is that bad? Is she confused? I look at my wathch and I was online longer than expected, so I'm running late. I quickly get dressed, turn off my computer and I get into my car to go to work.
"Sorry I'm late." I tell Kwest on the way in.
"That's ok. How did it go?" Kwest asks.
"I don't know. I didn't talk to her yet."
"You havent?"
"I don't want to talk about it right now Kwest ok?"
"Ok, ok! Well, in the meantime, you have a meeting with a new potential artist."
"Okay thanks. Tell Pagean I'll be there in a minute." I tell him.
"He called in sick today. It's just you mi amigo." he says.
"Oh, ok. Please tell this person that I will be there in just aminute. Let me get my coffee."
I get into the kitchen area and make myself a cup of coffee. I walk into my office and I freeze. My coffee falls from my hand, making a splash on the rug.My knees lock, I am unable to move. After what I did, This is the last thing I would expect from her…
"Jude, I…I…" I am unable to speak.
"Jamie." she tells me looking at me. I stare at her. We stay there looking at each other for what fels like an eternity. I don't know what to do. Well, theres only one thing to do: RUN! I turn around and turn the knob to open the door, but I am unable. I look out the window and theres Kwest and Pagean laughing, and Bridget dangling the keys. I bang on the window.
"Hey! Get me out of here!" I yell.
"No Jamie. I promised that I would help you out in this and this is my way to help you." she says.
"Thanks Bridget!" Jude calls.
"Anytime Jude." she says with a wink. So here I am. Unarmed, not knowing what to do. No turning back…
I turn back around and I look at her.
"So…You and Bridget seeme close." I tell Jude.
"Yeah, She is a great help." she smiles. We stand there agin in silence, not knowing what to say, lost for words. Well, I have to face the music sooner or later. Let's get it over with.
"Jude listen…" I break the silence.
"About the song. It's just after thirteen years of just havning a great time and just being us, I don't know…I don't know how you can still be so blind! How many times have I told yopu and shown you how much I care and hwow much you mean to me? I know we promised each other that we would remain best friends no matter what happens between us, but I don't think I can just stand being just your friend anymore Jude!"
"Jamie-"
"Look Jude, I love you. I love you, I Love You, I LOVE YOU! I know I told you before, and I will keep telling you until it gets through your head! I tell you so many times, but you shrug it off like I'm some crazed fan! God Jude, It's me! Jamie! Your best and closest friend! The guy who has been there with you through so many things before and after you became famous. Your friend since we were playing in the sandbox and you fighting off bullies for me. Thirteen years Jude. I think thirteen years of timless love is much stonger than thirteen weeks of a fling." I turn away from her, by back facing her, and I let my tears flow. I don't know how I am going to live without having her here with me. I feel a hand on my shoulder.
"Jamie. I…I…" she stammers. "I don't know what to say."
"You don't have to." I say, hearing the words I have told her before.
"You're right." she sys before she pulls my shoulder and turns me around. She faces me, looking into my eyes,. I see a mix of passion, desire and love in her eyes. I have never seen that look from her before.
"I don't have to…" she says before she grabs the back of my head and pulls her lips to mine, instantly connecting to each other. I hear the bells in my ead…wait…Bells don't sound like my alarm…
I open my eyes and I see the clock: 1am. I look at my calendar. Ok. So the last two weeks have been a dream. I try to fall back asleep, but I can't. I'm afraid that I will dream my dream again. Because I know it will never come true. They are still engaged, and I am living in a nightmare…
A/N: Don't fret! There's more. So much more!
