Song 11: Foreigner - Save me...
(This song was a request... I hope you like it.)
I wrote this from Dean's point of view, because I thought the Lyrics fit:
Me and Castiel, we, we used to be lovers. I do still love him and it pains me to have to watch him go through this, I hurts every time I hear about the things he's done on the news. It's not really him. His mind is being controlled by power and the worst part is, it's kinda my fault. If I'd of stayed with him after we stopped the end of the world, and not gone to Lisa like Sam told me too, this would have been okay. Castiel would have let him help. I do miss him, the real him. Everyday I wish I could have him back by my side. Laying in bed next to me, (even though he doesn't sleep.) He liked hearing my heart beat while I slept.
I remember asking him to stop, but it was too late. I should have noticed sooner, I should have noticed there was something wrong when I first saw him. Now there were so many monsters inside him, I couldn't even tell if Castiel was still alive and the monsters hadn't taken over for good. Is he still alive in there? Can he see what his doing? Does even know how far he had gone? I often wonder these things when I lay in bed, cold and alone. Only Sam in the bed over from me. This life, it was hard. I watch my friends die, I watch them get possessed, I watch them kill each other. As I stagger home from the bar I drank at tonight, I trip over the pavement, but before I even get a chance to his the concert, I'm stopped by some arms. Some very familiar arms. I force my self up and look at the one who helped me. At first I don't believe it. I rub my eyes and I pinch myself. It's just a dream. This can't be Castiel. The new Castiel would have let me hit the floor.
"Hello Dean" he says.
I just stared at him, "hello?!"
"Yes"
"Last time we spoke you threatened me and now you say hello!"
"Dean, I came here because I need help and I don't have much time left before the monsters take over, so I need to know if your behind me!"
"What do I have to do?"
"Save me, Dean. Please" Castiel begged. For just a while, Castiel was himself again. The monsters were still in there, deep inside his core. I knew getting them out would be hard. But I knew that I would do anything, to have the old Castiel back again.
"Come on, then" I took his hand. It was still a perfect fit. He wasn't warm anymore. I didn't even remember how we became lovers. It just happened. We never spoke about our feelings or asked the other out, we just sorta feel together and that was that. And I guess that's what made it so easy for us to fall apart. The fact that we never spoke about how we felt. We just bottle them up inside and somehow still except us to work out. We both should have seen this coming.
"Why did you this to yourself Cas?" I asked. I hurt that even after everything, I still cared enough to use his nickname. I remember the first time I called him that. I was telling Sam that if he didn't stop with the demon blood and the powers that he 'Cas' would have to stop him.
"You have no idea what Ralpheal would have done to earth if he was god. Earth, would be the knew hell. He was going to start the apocalypse again. I couldn't have that happen again. It almost killed you last time. I killed me. It dragged Sam down with it. I had to do it, to save you more heartache." Castiel explained. Finally I understood it. I was drunk but I was sober enough you finally understand.
"How am I meant to save you?" I asked opening the door to the motel room.
"Dean" Sam said in the darkness from his bed.
"Yeah, Sammy it's me" I whispered back closing the door. Sam turned the light on,
"Castiel!" He shouted jumping out.
"Sam, it's okay" I said stepping in front of Castiel. "It's Cas, not those monsters. It's really Cas. But he said he doesn't have a lot of time in his body before the monsters push him back down and take over again, so we have to save him. Now!"
"How?" Sam asked. Castiel chuckled, we both turned to him. Thats when I knew, I looked into his eyes but they weren't his eyes anymore. They belonged to the monsters again.
"Cas. I know you can hear me in there" I said.
"Castiel is gone. He's... Dead. Unless you also wanna die, leave us alone. If comes asking for help again. Remember everything his done, him. Even before us. He made a deal with Crowley, he lied to you. He betrayed Crowley just like he betrayed you. Now, it's time to go kill some humans." Just like that, he was gone. Again. For good this time. The worst part is that the next morning, even though I was drunk the night before, I could still remember that I spoke to Castiel last night. I remembered that I was too late to save him... Again. I know it sounds sappy but it made me tear up. I even started crying. "I was too late" I cried when Sam tapped my shoulder.
"Dean, it wasn't your fault" Sam told me. He told me that so often but I always found it so hard to believe. Castiel had came to me for help and I just, I was to late.
