Chapter 11
APOV
Next two days i spent in my room. Never got out. I was sick with worry. Literally. I threw up countless times. I was sick with worry for jake's safety. No matter what he did or said, I loved him.
My fears were proved true when jake never came to see me. Today was the battle day and he never showed up to apologize or even see me. But i was in a bigger trouble.
I went to see the doctor when my sickness got out of hand. Mom went with me. I was stunned when doctor told me that i was almost two months pregnant. 'but i... i .. i am on p.. pill' i stuttered.
'pill is not always reliable you know' doctor told me.
Drive back to home was tense to say the least. Mom continued to grill me 'who is he? is it jake? i knew you were screwing? but he hasn't been at home in days? is it someone else? damn it talk to me. When did you become a whore amy' she screamed at me.
It hurt a lot that not even my mom was with me in this serious situation. But what about jake? Will he accept me now? Will he be angry with me? I decided that i will tell him after this battle. He deserves to know. His human side may not care about me but he will surely care about his child.
I spent the whole day at emily's waiting for him and pack to come back from the newborn fight. I heard some noises outside. Seth came running into the house. He looked at me and sighed loudly. I knew something was wrong. 'its jake' he said 'he is hurt'.
I took off running towards jake's house before anyone knew what was happening. I don't remember getting there. But I stopped in my tracks as i heard his screaming. 'Vamp doc is re-breaking his bones to get them set properly' embry told me.
I flinched with every scream. No matter how much we fight, he is the love of my life. I never wanted him to be in so much pain. I heard bella coming but i didn't had it in me to fight with her. It was her fault but i was too worried about jake to say anything. Once this was all over, i would talk with jake about us, our past, future and the baby. It will be alright, it has to.
Carlisle came out 'he is asking for you' i almost ran inside but quil stopped me. Carlisle was looking at bella not me. Jake is asking for her not me. He never wanted me. Even in his worst condition, he wants her. He will never want me.
I sat there waiting with pack for my turn to meet jake. I could feel eyes on me but i avoided eye contact. Bella came back 'he is ok, this is my fault. i should have stopped him' she said.
'It was his choice bella, he was there to protect the rez & humans.' Paul replied with anger. But bella continued her whining. 'But he promised that he would be ok. I even kissed him to stop thinking irrationally. & he kissed me back. He was ok for the fight. He shouldn't have gotten hurt' She did what?
She kissed jake. & jake KISSED her back. I could feel my heart breaking into pieces. This proves my place in his life. Its bella, it has always been her that he wanted.
I can't bound him with me and my baby. He will hate me forever for it. I won't be able to live with myself if jake hated me. I have to get out of here. I have to stay away from jake.
That was the last thought on my mind as left for my house. Without meeting jake.
This is it. This is the end. Of US, me and jake. He doesn't want me. Bella is his first and only love. I am just his imprint. A mate his wolf wants, not his human self.
'so you came back, you ready to tell me who is the father of that bastard' mom sneered at me as soon as entered the house. 'mom, not now please' i pleaded.
'no, this has to end, you will abort this child' my eyes grew big as her words registered.
Did she really asked me to do that? 'no mom never, i will never do something like that' i whispered with tears in my eyes.
'Fine, then get out' she screamed. 'Get out of my house, pack your shit and leave. I won't have a bastard and a whore under my roof' she finalized.
