Chapter 11: Endings
"I have a weird feeling that whatever we have is not going to last long." I say as Paul and I walk back to his house. The night was dark, and walking through the forest in it was a little creepy. But i guess having a werewolf as company should be the real creepy thing.
"And why is that?" He sends that sexy smile of his my way and it makes my heart flutter a bit.
"Just...a sixth sense a have."
"Is this your way of breaking up with me?" He ask, confused.
"No...i just. I have a feeling...something is going to happen and it is going to change things between us." I finish lamely. I wasn't trying to break up with him, not at all. But, usually my sixth sense never fails me.
"You're worried about the redhead?"
"Yes, but is not that. This feeling i have is not evil. Not at all." I look at him to see if he understood but it looks like he is even more confused. "Just...forget I said anything."
"No, it's cool." He awkwardly replies. "If you want to end it...it's okay, Cass. We'll still be there for each other, right?"
"Of course we will. And, it's not like I want to end it...it just feels like it is the right thing to do." I glance at him worriedly, and he gives me an reassuring look.
"Alright." He laughs without humor. "No more sexcapades."
"Yeah..."
"So..."
"This is awkward."
"Yeah."
"Hm...how about, we properly say goodbye to each other, with a one last night stand?" He ask cheekly, and he look so cute in that moment it makes me lose the nervousness and laugh out loud.
"I guess...our bodies deserve to properly say goodbye to each other." I bite my lip suggestively, and the smirk in his face wider to a full on handsome smile.
"In that case, let's make the best of it." He pulls me closer and his arms wrap around my body so suddenly it makes me breath faster. A second later and kiss lips descend on mine.
The lovemaking was intense and passionate; it left us exhausted and satisfied, with pounding hearts and swollen lips. It lasted until the early morning, when the sunrise started to show through the tall trees.
"That was the best ending of a relationship I've ever had." I giggle, as i stretch my body, feeling that pleasant soreness in my muscles.
"Yeah...we could end again tomorrow."
Our laughter it's loud enough to make the birds fly away, and for the first time in the last few weeks I feel complete joy and happiness overflow through all of, both, my body and soul.
I've never been more anxious in my life as I was this past week. Graduation was coming in a few days, and I still could not believe I'll actually receive my degree. Thankfully, there was no bad news in this last few days, no Victoria, no Volturi, nothing of the magical world to interfere with my studies. No vampire ex-boyfriend trying to win my heart back. I am still not sure if I liked that or not though.
"Party on my house after Graduation." Alice's voice interrupts my daydream. She appears out of nowhere, giving me the fright of my life. Seriously, one of this days I am gonna have a heart attack.
"Jesus...calm down."
"Sorry. I am just so excited!" She is practically jumping from excitement.
"I can see that... and, thanks for inviting me." Alice abruptly stopped walking and talking. She was looking into my kitchen's wall as if there was something absurd there. "...Alice? Alice what's going on?" It was a stupid question, i knew exactly what was happening. She was having a vision. When she finally got out of the trance, she looked at me, disgusted.
"What?" I ask, worried.
"That dog friend of yours...he kissed Bella." She murmurs angrily.
"Jake?" I ask, confused but a little glad at the same time.
"Yes. Come on. Let's go!"
"Wait, go where?"
"To my place. Bella is going there now." Alice hiss.
"Wait. How did you know? I thought you couldn't see when the wolves are involved?"
"I don't. But, I saw Carlisle treating Bella's injured hand."
"Bella's what..." Before I could say anything else, I was picked up by the petite woman as if I was a purse and she took of in a run before I could understand what was happening.
When we got there my voice was rough from screaming, and I had to hold myself in the nearest tree to not fall on my face. Thank god I didn't vomit all the food I had eaten on lunch.
"I hate you." I hiss at her, but she does not seems to be worried about that at all.
"Alice...what? Cassidy, love, are you alright?" Leave it to Carlisle to show up at the best moments. "What happened?"
"She is just having a little bit of a whiplash." Alice happily answer, as she keeps her way to the house.
"Fuck you." I murmur at her, knowing pretty well she would be able to listen even from inside. But, she was already there and completely unfazed.
"Cass? Are you okay?" I feel Carlisle's hand lightly touch my arm, and I finally turn to look at him. God, why does he looks amazing at every giving hour?
"Yes. I'm fine. Just...need a little warning before of...being carried around like that."
"I am sorry. Alice is..."
"Not normal. I know." I deadpan, walking slowly up the steps to the front porch.
"I was going to say unique, but...sure."
"Where is Bella?" I ask, mainly to change the subject.
Carlisle looks confused for a moment but them the sound of a car appearing into they drive way steal his attencion away. "I believe she just got here."
"Oh."
He was right. It was Bella, following a very pissed Edward. She looks surprised at seen me there but quickly recovers. "Hey."
"What happened?" Carlisle ask, worried. He was looking at her right hand with frown.
"Jacob kissed her." Edward hisses, opening the front door and ushering us all in.
"And he hurt you?" He ask, once again worried but also confused.
"No. I hurt myself." She murmurs, by now the whole family was already gathered in the living room.
"How?"
"I punched him in the face."
The whole scene must have been so comical that I laugh just thinking about it. Soon Emmett follows me, and we are the only stupid ones laughing at our friends clumsiness.
"Wow. Bells, that is so awesome." I snicker.
"Well, thanks. At least someone is happy about it." She complains. Edwards face was not looking good either, but that only made Emmett and I laugh more.
"Bella, let me see your hand please." Carlisle was in doctor mode now, and everyone knew not to bother him when he was like that, so the group disperse, only leaving Emmett and I in the living room.
After Carlisle takes Bella to his office, the only ones in the room are left in a awkward silence. Emmett looks at me with the best puppy dog eyes i've ever seen, and I can't help but to crack a smile to that.
He smiles back and that adorable dimple of his shows in the corner of his mouth. "Hey, bestie."
"Hey, Em."
"You still mad at me?"
"For leaving, or for picking up a fight with Paul?"
"Hm. Both?"
"Well..." I remember what Rosalie told me a week ago, and my face instantly relaxes. "No. I forgive you."
"Yes!" He certainly looks glad, and makes a point of showing it by hugging me and spinning me around like a child.
"Hey. Stop. Emmett!"
"What was that? Higher you said?"
"No. I did not said that!" I yell, being picked up like a child was not enjoyable at all. "Let go."
"Emmett, let her go." Carlisle's voice startles me, and I almost fall on my face, but Emmett holds me tighter and lowly lower me into the floor.
"Argh. Thanks" I hiss quietly, as I my feet touch the ground and I recompose myself.
"Sorry, hun." Emmett scratch his neck, an apologising look on his face.
"Where is Bella?" I ask, and as if on cue she comes out of the room, a chastised look on her face. Edward follows behind her closely, looking rather possessive in fact. He was really pissed.
"Hey. How are you?" I ask her, half worried, half amused at the whole situation.
"I'm fine. It's not hurting that much." She replies quietly. Edward's annoyed look never leaving his face.
"Good." I let out the breath i didn't realise I was holding. A smirk starts to form on my face. "Do me a favor, will you? Next time, don't punch a werewolf."
"Only if you're a vampire." Emmett happily add. I glare at him but there isn't real meaning behind it, especially when he smiles and those cute dimples of his show up.
It was already late when Alice showed up unannounced in my house, it was probably past midnight by now.
"Well, I'm glad you're okay, Bells. I got to go. See you tomorrow."
"I can take you home." Carlisle offers, a little hesitant. My first instinct was to say no, but then I realise that I didn't have another way of going home, besides walking.
"Fine."
The ride to my house was completely silent. The air around us felt heavy and awkward. It has been a long time since we spended alone time together, and it was obvious we, both, didn't know what to say.
As Carlisle parks the car in my sidewalk, I have a little anxious feeling, and I knew I was 5 seconds away to fleeting the scene. But Carlisle stops me when he turns to look my way longly. He has the best sad looking eyes i've ever seen, and it makes my heart squeeze a little.
"So, you're not mad at Emmett anymore. You've forgiven Jasper. Now Emmett. When will the rest of us have your forgiveness?" He ask quietly, as if afraid I was going to shut him down.
"One at a time." I reply, looking around, playing with my hands nervously.
"Well... I hope I am the next one."
The look in his eyes is so sincere it takes my breath away for a second. And it also makes me re-evaluate our situation.
Do I miss him? Obviously.
Do I want to forgive him? Yes.
Do I believe in him? Maybe.
Do I love him? ...With all my heart.
The love in his eyes is so honest, so full of passion and desire, i can't help but to return it. "I hope that too."
After all, no one has ever looked at me that way before. And, I have a strong feeling in my heart, that no one else ever will.
