In the dark

*disclaimer* I don't own once upon a time or the characters.

I felt like taking this up a few weeks but then I felt a month might be better. So Emma is just two months pregnant and have serious problems with the side effects. Is it anything like when she had Henry or is this more serious?


Regina's P.O.V.

There were a large number of firsts between Emma and I. Things like our first real date where Emma convinced me I couldn't just cook a dinner and call it our first date. It had to be romantic she said. Our first argument of course was the night of out date when Emma wanted to venture out of Storybrooke. I knew better though and told her that was not possible if we were to have a healthy magical baby it had to be surrounded by the magic that was only in Storybrooke. She pouted but sure enough I won anyways and we had our date at the only Italian restaurant in town. It was the only place I was willing to go that wasn't Granny's. At the end of the night we skipped inviting each other for a last drink ploy and went straight into bed. It certainly wasn't out first time sharing the bed but that night was our first time making love in it.

There were others like the time Snow wanted to speak to Emma and when things got rough I stepped in ready to defend her. Of all the times she'd defended me this was something new for me. Of course the time her father sat me down one day while picking Henry up from his grandparents was new as well. I received my first protective father speech. It was one that despite the fact I could never fear the Charmings I did not take the threats lightly. I would seriously have to consider this option when Henry brings home his first girlfriend.

I couldn't speak for Emma on firsts but I could say that her official signs of her pregnancy which began subtly the first morning she got sick were much like firsts for me if not for her. Though she had been pregnant before and nauseous before she often said this time was completely different. The signs then became more bazaar the more time went on. Her eating, sleeping, and sexual habits changed. She'd been staying at the mansion where Henry and I could enjoy her company everyday but also made keep track that much easier. She started going back to work after feeling it was good for her to get out as well as take her mind off things. Mostly it was for the benefit of her proving she was the same old Emma Swan. This morning though Emma didn't want to get up even though I peppered her face in sweet kisses to try.

"Emma." I got a groan in return. She turned her head towards me but still wouldn't get up. "Dear you have to wake up to eat and get ready for work."

"Ugh no food." She groaned out which was when I realized more than likely she wasn't getting up because she wasn't feeling good. This was common now this being one of the more bazaar symptoms she had, instead of rushing to the bathroom due to morning sickness we found if she stayed still it would subside eventually. I smiled at how adorable she is even when she grumpy. I pulled back the blankets just enough to feel her skin. I loved seeing her milk white exposed flesh almost as much as I loved kissing Emma's stomach to soothe her awake. I started kissing lightly before mumbling into the stomach that held our growing child.

"Morning my lovely princess, I know you don't know me just yet but I hope you know my voice before to long." Emma was only a few months or so along but after finding out this was what helped I took pride in speaking to our little girl and knowing she listened to her mommy very well. "We talked about this you gotta stop making momma sick." I kiss circle Emma's stomach with kisses. They were so light Emma couldn't help but giggle and squirm just a little under my hovering body.

"Mommy needs to not tickle me I don't think I can move yet without throwing up." It was true that was excatly what Emma's morning sickness was like almost anytime it came.

"I know you love momma little one so please let her get up to enjoy her morning with me."

"Mm I really want to." Emma says not very convincingly but almost as if hoping it will encourage the desired results faster. I chuckle and rest my head on her tummy as though to listen for signs of life but I do it to add some pressure onto Emma's stomach to relieve some of the feeling of nausea. It only helps enough to get Emma sitting up in bed while still pouting. "I don't wanna go to work today."

"Let me at least make you some toast to eat and then if you still don't feel good you can stay home today." I couldn't really promise I would stay home as well but I wouldn't make Emma go to work if she didn't feel good. When she nodded her head and slid back down turned and hugged my pillow I leaned down as well and kissed her shoulder before going.

I made a big breakfast expecting Emma's usual appetite only to end up with her wanting practically nothing at all. So I decided to knock on Henry's door and let him eat as much as he could. While I started the toast Henry came down the stairs fully dress for school but his hair in disarray. I was sure he hadn't brushed his teeth yet either. I gave him a stern look, despite his cute excited smile, making a point I wanted to see him completely ready before if I was to drop him off at school.

I climbed the stairs once again this time with a plate with toast an a little jam on the side. When I opened the door I expected Emma to turn over but instead I heard a faint snore. A smile creeps across my face knowing she has fallen back asleep. I sat on my side of the bed and waited for her to feel the dip in the bed. Her emerald eyes peel open slowly and peek over the pillow just enough to see it me. They darkened just a shade before seeing the plate beside me. Her hesitant gaze between me and the plate of food she knew she had to eat was quite adorable. If my heart didn't constantly swoon at her every move my heart bursting into pieces at this would have been surprising, yet it wasn't.

Emma's P.O.V.

I really didn't want to move but suddenly felt the bed move. I could only hope it was Regina climbing back in bed so I peeked only to see she was sitting. She looked perfect and to my disappointment dressed for work still. Even though I could see the toast she made me I still really wanted to pull her back in bed more. I wanted her hair disheveled, her skin glowing like it always did after sex, I wanted her warmth between my arms not her pillow.

Still I knew I had to eat to keep her worry free. So I peeled myself away from the pillow so I could sit up again. This time I didn't care to bring the sheets with me so that the cool morning could help wake me up enough to eat. An sharp intake of breath from Regina as she handed me toast on jam made me grin wickedly and looked up to see her face. Perhaps I did it to try luring her into my trap just a little. I could tell she was feeling frustrated.

"See something you like?" I asked causing her to jerk her eyes away from my hardened nipples. She shook her head then stood abruptly. "It sucks I feel like blah right now but I hope you will come home for lunch I might be feeling better." She swallowed hard enough for me to hear. Thankful for both our sakes she calmly brushed her finger tips over my cheek as if to say how much she did truly want me if I wasn't sick at the moment. I leaned into her touch, melted really, loving the way her skin felt even as her thumb ran over my bottom lip. My lips parted and my tongue flickers out to taste it. We share a whimper as she pulls away.

"Perhaps I can clear an hour for lunch if you're a good girl and feel better by then." She clears her throat before saying but her voice still sound full of lust. As Regina swept from the room I felt more determined to eat up because that sounded so much like a excused absence if I ever heard one before. By the time I fully at the toast and tasted the jam both Henry and Regina were gone. I frowned as I washed my dish in the empty kitchen. Aside from her room this was the biggest room that held he essence most. Opening the fridge for a drink I caught a large plate of breakfast's leftovers.

By the time lunch came around I was really hungry with no craving for what was already in the fridge that Regina made. Since I couldn't cook because Regina would kill me if she found out. My past attempts hadn't left a good impression but it was hardly my fault the instant rice steam bag melted and almost caught fire her whole kitchen. I pulled my phone out scrolling instincts to Regina's name then thought better of it seeing she might be busy and moved down to Ruby's. I hit call and begged her to drop off food.

I swear it was the longest wait ever but when the doorbell rang I felt like one of Pavlov's salvating dogs. When I opened it I expected Ruby but instead was faced with what could be concidered my worst nightmare right now. Faced with being alone with Snow White especially when she is my over baring mother or not having my food truly was not what I wanted at all right now. Of course the first thing I wondered was what if Regina came home and wanted to get intimate. The second and more importantly was what came blurting out of my mouth.

"What are you doing here Snow?" Instantly her vibrant smile fell at her name making me feel even worse. I couldn't even act like she was more to me at the moment which only made me feel like a worse daughter than I already was. I knew I shouldn't feel inadequate but I really couldn't help it and in that moment I might have admitted I should talk to Archie about this but I wouldn't just yet if I didn't have to.

"Um.. Well I was in the diner and Ruby was begging Granny to let her bring you the food but they were swamped so I offered. I thought it would be okay now that we were past all the stuff about Lily and the lying. I haven't seen you around for a while."

"We are its not that. I'm sorry I just can't explain right now." I took the bag of food and tried to close the door but sure enough Snow threw her arm out to hold the door.

"Emma wait! This is enough, I can't believe you are still holding something against me. You can't forgive me for what now? We've been all through the abandonment issues and the lying what else have we done." She was yelling now panicked as if I was never going to be around again. I knew she wouldn't understand. Tears began welling up as I tried to back away. It's not that I am afraid of her I simply couldn't handle it all at once. My doubts, her yelling, my hormones losing control. I feared my self control on the to dark magic more than anything.

"Please go! Leave me alone! I can't!" I screamed running into the kitchen again dropping the bag on the counter. I hoped she would leave but no more than two seconds later she came busting in through the swinging door.

"I thought you were better than this Emma closing yourself from me and losing you're temper at me. Your own mother." She berated me and just like that I snapped. I turned around shoved her into the closest wall an pinned her there. An deep snarl came from me.

"Well ain't that just the truth. I'll never be your perfect girl! Never be what you always wanted especially now that I've been tainted. I could never forgive you by the way. All the years I spent wondering you think that all goes away?! I wished you were dead all my life at least that would be a good excuse to be left on the side of the road. You're luck I haven't-"

"Let her go Emma." I instantly reconized regina's voice. I gave a growl even though I Released my hold on Snow.

"Get out! Get out before I hurt you more!" She swallowed her tears as she fumbled off the floor where I let her drop from my grip.

"Emma? Ple-please I just don't want to lose you."

"Snow I suggest you leave I can't promise to protect you if you force her into a mental break down. She's having hard enough time coping being exposed to dark magic she doesn't need you as a reminder how perfect she's suppose to be." An with that Snow finally listened to her and left. Regina pulled me close whispering sweet nothings in my ear. Her arms kept me grounded just when I thought I was leaving body. I didn't want to really hurt my own mother but I knew I had lost control and let anger guide me once again.

"Why did she have to push me, why come at all?" I mumbled not noticing That Regina was making me lay down upstairs again. I didn't even noticed we had walked up here but I didn't fight it as she held me in bed and waited until I calmed down again. "I'm hungry Gina." I said into the nape of her neck.

With that she chuckled and told me to stay while she got my food ready. I sat up wondering if I had ruined everything now or if I could fix it still. When Regina came back I was still thinking but I told her I thought I should see Archie.

"It couldn't hurt But only if you want to." I nodded my head while talking small guilty bites until I felt so hungry I couldn't allow myself the distraction of my actions to stop me from eating another moment. After a few larger mouthfuls I looked up and smiled lightly happy to see Regina eating as well. I guess lunch didn't go quite as planned but at least I got to still spend it with her and I learned she would always me my knight in shining armor for stopping me from hurting somebody I loved. She'd showed me she could keep her promise and stop me. I love her more for it and I trusted her with all of me now.

"I'm here for you Emma if you want to talk about it." She said after while. She really meant it I could tell, so I told her everything. Why I blow up, why I panicked at all, and why I wanted help. She just sat and listened and when I finished she kissed me softly promising to help me every bit of the way.


Reviews please!

alright! I wrote this one out nicely. Tell me what you think I won't know how you like it unless you tell me. Anybody see that twist there coming.

Next chapter baby check up and they get to see the baby for the first time. There is a suprise next chapter two so keep reading. I believe next will also have more Morgana and malifecent. I'm really trying to add them back in I keep getting distracted with the plot.