Terra Nova- Day 9
Well I had my first day of my apprenticeship and let's just say it was less than stellar. The only patient I saw I gave my mother their name and then I could barely even look at their actual injury because it grossed me out so much. The guy had this huge laceration on his arm and I was nearly about to faint at the sight of it. I basically just suffered through that one and then organized files the rest of the day to get out of anymore well gross situations.
I felt kind of bad about not actually helping my mother that much today other than doing some organizing for her. Honestly I just after today I really don't think being a doctor is what I'm cut out to be. I'm just scared to tell my mom because I know she'll be hurt that I don't want to follow in her footsteps. Just the look on her face when I said I'd do the apprenticeship with her I could just tell she was so proud that her daughter would be a doctor just like her and I just couldn't bear to see the look on her face if I told her I had changed my mind… It would probably crush her and I just can't do that to her so I guess I'll just have to stick it out as long as I can or hope that she lets me off the hook. Really wish I could have seen Mark today… might have made me slightly less miserable about the whole hospital apprentice ship thing going so badly..
Leah is still with us… I had the honor of getting her ready this morning and that was a challenge in itself. She didn't want to put on any of the clothes I had picked out for her to wear and the dress I finally got her to put on she just complained the whole time about saying that it was itchy. I couldn't even start on trying to fix her hair since the moment I tried to even brush it she took the brush from me and threw it at me so needless to say, some one else can try to brush her hair tomorrow because I'm pretty sure I have a bruise from where the brush hit me today.
She's not really a bad girl though, I mean when you're not trying to dress her up or change her clothes she's actually kinda sweet. Not sure how she was with Josh though… I may have forgot to mention since my dad was busy and I was off with my mother at the hospital my brother had to watch Zoe and Leah while we were gone. Guess that's karma getting back at him for complaining about having to give up his room to an innocent little girl. Course I guess I shouldn't really be too hard on him since if I was in his position I probably wouldn't want to give up my room either… well I might depending on the situation and who the person was, but I'm not in that position since I'm sharing a room with Zoe I doubt anyone would make us give up our room.
I have to go Zoe's tired so I have to turn out the light…Wish me luck on my second day of the apprenticeship… I'll need it.
