Reasons!
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We have had Kenji for three months now and I still can't get him off his bottle. He only gets it twice a day but when I try to ween him he wont eat and he makes himself sick. I am running out of options on what to do.
I feel like I am a failing mother. I know its wrong that I give up but I can't stand him not eating and getting sick. I have got to the doctor and everything. He tells me what everyone else does. Don't give in. Well screw that. I am not gonna sit around and watch my son suffer because of something like this.
I was in the living room when Sesshomaru came in with some boxes. "What are those?" I asked him. Sesshomaru sat the box on the ground. "More of Ken's things. These are some home movies I think." He told me. "Kenji asleep for the night?" I nodded and he kissed my head. "Coming?" He asked me. "In a bit. Gonna sit down here and watch some TV. Night?" I said to him. Sesshomaru smiled and then he bent down and kissed the small bump that showed that I was pregnant.
I smiled and then turned the TV on. After a few minutes I got curious as to what was on the tapes. I pulled on out. "Mmm...odd. Tape seven." I shrugged and then popped it in. But as soon as I was about to hit play Kenji woke up and started crying.
I got up and went to him. As I entered his room he was standing in his bed reaching out for someone. I went to him and took him out of his bed. I then went to the rocking chair and rocked him to sleep. Kenji didn't fall asleep until after five am. I put him in his bed and then went to my own. I crashed as soon as I hit my pillow.
I woke up at the usual time to get Kenji and then to get his bottle. An like every morning he was ready for me. I grabbed him and then went down stairs to the kitchen. There Sofia our cook had his bottle already heated and ready for me. "Thank you." I said to her. She smiled and then went about cooking my breakfast.
After breakfast Kenji and I played a little outside for a while. But when he found the mud in the garden it was time to go get a bath. I smiled and laughed as he tried to smear the mud on me. It wasn't easy to dodge such attacks from him. An of course I failed staying clean. I made it to the bathroom and gave him a bath and then laid him down for a nap and took a shower.
I went to the living room to watch some TV and then I remembered the video tapes. I pushed play on the tape I had left in the VCR. I had to wait a minute and then it started. I was expecting to see something loving. But what I saw was horrible. Ken the man to have claimed to be Kenji's father was being horrible to Kenji. Hitting him and then only to stop his crying by giving him a bottle.
After what seemed like hours of watching videos of Kenji being abused I was ready to bring Ken back to life to punish him for what he did to my baby. I cried and then I heard my name and turned around to find Sesshomaru staring at the TV seeing what I had been watching.
I got up and ran to him. "Sesshomaru look what they did to him. He's been abused for two years." I cried into his chest. Sesshomaru turned it off and then sat me on the couch to cry. He didn't let me go. Not even when I heard Kenji cry. He walked me to his room and then I ran to him and picked him up.
I kissed Kenji over and over to make sure he knew I would never hurt him. I wanted to make sure he always knew I loved him and would take care of him. I rocked him back and forth until he calmed down and then I took him to his play room and Sesshomaru spent some time with him.
I looked at Sesshomaru for a minute. "I guess I now know why he wont ween off the bottle." I said and Sesshomaru wrapped his arms around me. "I don't know what to do. I mean Sesshomaru he's scared of what could happen and that fear may never leave him." I said as I started to panic. I picked him up to hold him.
Sesshomaru took Kenji away from me and put him in his crib where he went straight to sleep. Then grabbed me by the shoulders and looked at me. "Rin nothing will happen to him I promise you. You are a good mother to him. You'll do whats right for both the babies. So calm down and just take it slow." He said and kissed the top of my head.
I nodded to his logic and left Kenji asleep. I followed Sesshomaru to his office and sat in a chair he looked at me and then at the papers on his desk. We had been sitting in almost silence when I decided to look up somethings on his laptop.
After a half hour of research I looked at Sesshomaru. "You try it." I said. He looked at me an then waited for me to go on. "See what he does when you try to ween him off the bottle. Maybe it will help him better." Sesshomaru sighed. I waited for him to tell me the glitch in my logic.
"Rin..." He started. I knew he was going to try and let me down easy. But I needed his help with this. "I will see what happens tomorrow when I try to feed him. OK?" He asked. I smiled and nodded. "Now can I have my laptop back?" He asked me and I nodded and gave it to him.
I kissed his cheek. "Thank you. I love you." I left the room and went to go check on dinner. I then went to go see how dinner was coming along.
Sesshomaru's P.O.V
How dare he do that to my son. The pile of trash harm my son. For what cause did he do it? What reason did he have to treat any child like that. If he weren't dead already I would put him in the ground myself. I would do anything for Kenji.
I left my office an went straight to the play room crib where he was fast asleep like I had left him. He seemed so calm and happy. But deep down he knows he was hurt and there was no one there to protect him. Not his mother and not even Ken. I growled and then looked down too see a smiling Kenji. I smiled and then picked him up.
I carried Kenji downstairs to find his mom. I put him down and he went to work. I smiled as he tried to use his nose to find her and then he ended up sitting on the floor in front of the dinning room. I smiled and picked him up and opened the door to find Rin coming in as well from the kitchen. She smiled as I smiled and pointed her out to Kenji. She smiled more when he clapped and smiled back at her.
I handed him over when he reached for her and I kissed her cheek and she blushed and smiled at Kenji and got him ready for dinner. I knew then I had to do whatever it took to protect my family.
It's short I know but its better then nothin. Supper tired and updates might be slow because of VBS and my niece is here for three days. So sorry if things go slow. Well poll is still up and still need votes. Thanks.
