Embry's POV
Am I hiding in my room from her? Yes you are. No I'm not. I knew she'd find her way here, she'd gotten pretty good at that, she wasn't a tracker but if I was what she was looking for I knew she had the determination to find me sooner or later. That was one thing I admired about her. Edward Jasper and Emmett were in my room in a heartbeat, Jacob shortly after.
"Edward told us you're hiding from her." Emmett laughed. I did notice however even though he was making fun of me he didn't say her name. Edward nodded.
"You are our brother. We will physically keep her out if you want us to." Edward said confirming my thought.
"Don't think the guys are the only ones who would either." Alice called from the hallway.
"I may not like you, but you'd do the same for me." Rosalie called also from the halls. Apparently the whole Cullen family wouldn't fit in my house.
"I don't know what I want, I want this not to be messed up but there is no chance of that happening." My eyes turned to Edward.
"You knew she was here didn't you?" He nodded. I was reeling.
"You read it from some ones mind, that's why you guys out of the blue invited me along." Once again Edward nodded in response.
"Are you mad?" Edward asked, Jasper knew I wasn't, actually it was far nicer then I deserved.
"What did I do to deserve friends and family like you?" I said looking them in the eyes.
"For me it started with the shopping." Alice called from outside the door, Rosalie shushed her, and I laughed.
"You were always there for me." Jacob said crossing his arms.
"You always were a good person, I can read your thoughts, and you're a good person, besides the occasional insult to myself or Bella." he said shrugging and leaning against the wall.
"I personally liked the jokes you made against Bella and Edward, no you've always been up for a challenge or a game, and you don't cheat like Edward or Alice." Emmett said.
"You don't smell as bad as Jacob." Rosalie commented from outside the door.
"From you, I'll take that as a complement." I responded, knowing full well she could hear me through the closed door.
"Nessie really loves you, you're a good person." I heard Bella's voice. Was the whole family going to go through their personal testament?
"Probably." Edward responded to my thoughts. Renesmee opened the door and smiled.
"You don't hold back like Jacob does." Renesmee's smiles were contagious.
"Your intentions are pure, you struggle like everyone else but you strive to remain morally balanced for the most part." That was Carlisle.
"You've done so much for this family I wouldn't know where to start." Esme gushed from outside the door. My eyes turned to Jasper, I guess he was the last one left.
"Eh, I just like you for your car." Jasper said smiling. I laughed back, if there was anyone I'd given anything to in the family it was Jasper, and I didn't even think I gave him anything.
"This feels really awkward, is the whole family crowded around the door or something?"
"No silly, we're spread out across the hall way." Alice answered laughing. I smiled
"She's here." Edward responded. The room emptied, leaving Jasper in the room with me.
"You can always jump out the window if you want." Jasper suggested opening the window next to him.
Leah's POV
This had to be the Cullens house, the land around it, how the trees surrounded it giving it cover, this was just like near forks. You are looking for similarities, so you'll find them. Shut the fuck up. I neared the front porch and a girl who looked probably nine or ten years old was there. Holy shit, that's Renesmee. She spread her arms as if to protect the house from me.
"You can't come in, you're the reason he sometimes cries himself to sleep." Her eyes were fierce. Embry cries himself to sleep because of me? That hurt too much, how could I have done that to Embry. I needed to see him.
"Ness, you're not going to stop me, I need to see him." I was ready to force the issue if I needed to.
"You can go past, but first you must see what you've done to him." What did she mean?
"I'll show you. Then you can go past me." I bent down and Renesmee reached for me. Her hand touched my cheek and colors flew threw my head, stopping at Jacob in the bed at the Cullens. He looked around the room. "Where is Leah?" he asked, every one shifted uncomfortably." Then her eyes led me to the moment he read the note, stopping on the look on his face. I winced in pain. You deserve this, you bitch. The least you can do is watch it and stop complaining. I was right, I did deserver this. The vision spun to Embry crying with Jasper across from him. "I think I really loved her… I was going to tell her before all of this happened, I was ten minutes late." Is that what he meant when he said 'Ten minutes late' today? Oh no! Then it turned to crack in the door, there was a muffled noise, the door opened slightly. Embry was whimpering to himself. "Embry?" the small voice, Renesmee's voice "No Lee, don't leave me, I need you." Embry said turning over. The picture changed but showed the same thing, Embry crying, this time with the door wide open, he was wearing different pants, then again different clothes. He cried himself to sleep this many times? I immediately felt guilty. I felt the small hand pull away from my cheek and I was relieved, my eyes were red. This was all my fault.
"You may pass me." she said stepping to the side. What do you me she may pass me? Will I need to pass other Cullens? I opened the door and all the Cullens were standing there waiting for me, save Jasper, he was no where to be seen. I didn't see Jacob, I had assumed he was living with them too. Alice disappeared up the stairs and Emmett sat down on the steps. None of the others had moved. Rosalie rolled her eyes. I wondered why but I didn't ask, I hesitated moving towards the stairs, it looked as if Emmett was protecting the upstairs from me.
"If you break him again I won't let you near him." He said turning his side letting me by. I slowly made my way up the stairs as the Cullens stared. Alice was standing waiting.
"I told them to trust you, don't misplace my trust." She said disappearing. Jacob was sitting against the wall, not blocking the way, I could have walked past him but I stopped he looked up at me.
"Hey…" he didn't say my name either, I guess no one did around Embry anymore. Did I really have that lasting affect on him? Of course you did he loved you. Meaning he doesn't anymore? He shouldn't but he probably does, you bitch. My eyes met his.
"I don't know where to start with you, You broke my trust, you left the pack without a word, you were my beta, I trusted you more then anyone in the pack and you turned your back on us without saying good bye. This isn't about us. I can forgive you for running away." He stopped himself and took a deep breath. "Don't break Embry again." He stood up looking down on me and slowly walked away back down the stairs. I followed Embry's scent to the last door in the hallway. I looked down then back up and Jasper was in front of it, definitely blocking the way, unlike his siblings he didn't look like he planned on just turning and letting me through.
"I told him he didn't need to talk to you, that I'd physically keep you away if I needed to, he said that he'd need to sooner or later either way." He was uncomfortable.
"I still don't want to let you through." he said as if talking to himself. I didn't know what to say, I wouldn't move if I was in his position either. Jasper turned his head as if to hear something inside the room that I hadn't.
"I'll kill you if you fuck him up bad again." He said staring in to my eyes. With most people that'd be an idol threat.
"I know you will." He turned to the side laboriously. He sighed and disappeared like the rest of his family had. I took a deep breath and opened the door.
Embry's POV
I could hear the door open but I didn't turn to look at it, I knew it was her. She followed me here. She is too persistent to not find me. I sighed and turned around accepting my fate what ever it would be. Her eyes were red from crying, matching mine.
"I told them not to do that, but there wasn't any stopping Jasper, Jacob didn't want you here either, Alice wanted you to talk to me, the rest didn't know what to do, Ness got really mad at you." I explained quickly. Why did I tell her all that? You ramble when you're nervous, duh.
"Why is she mad at me?" She asked even her red eyes couldn't do much to detract from her beauty.
"She just didn't quite understand, she is a bit too logical." I answered. I didn't want to talk here I felt like the whole thing was being listened to. It probably was.
"Can we go for a walk." She had a guarded look in her eye, like she assumed I was going to run away.
"Come on, I thought you'd still think you're faster then me." she snorted offhandedly in response to my accusation.
"I am, still faster then you." my eyes turned to the window. I waved goodbye to her and jumped out the window, landing loud as I could on the ground, I turned over and laid on the grass, I couldn't understand quite why I had, but I guess I just was tired and emotionally I'd been through too much, and it wasn't probably going to get better. I looked at the kitchen there stood most the Cullen family with disapproving looks, Jasper looked slightly amused. Leah looked down at me also wearing an amused look on her face. Yes I was thinking with her name again, I might as well get used to it. She jumped down her feet landing on either side of my hip. That was kind of hot I thought to myself. She sat on my stomach looking at me raising her eyebrow. That was definitely hot, I noted to myself. I didn't move, I was comfortable, she wasn't even putting that much of her weight on me. Her hand reached up and brushed the side of my face, Yep, definitely hot. Embry come on, that's pretty weak. I can't help it I haven't seen her in too long.
"Get a room." Jacob yelled from the kitchen. I blushed bright red, Leah didn't she just stared at me. Emmett whistled.
"You'd like that wouldn't you?" She asked seductively. Shit there goes my game plan. Leah smiled happy to have thrown me off, she knew it too.
"Don't you want to go somewhere a bit more private?" I didn't know how to respond, it was nearly everything I could not to tackle her and make out with her.
"Yes… it'd be nice to go some where else to talk." I stuttered out, she laughed at that. She hadn't moved yet.
"You do know there is a viewing audience on the other side of the glass right?" she rolled her eyes. It apparently didn't bother her but I wasn't sure about what was happening.
"Let them watch." Wait, watch what? I thought before she pulled me by my shirt up to her and softly kissed me. Without consciously deciding to do so my arms wrapped themselves around her back. It took me a second and then I shook my head released my arms and pushed her off me. Soon she was suspended in the air by my arms.
"No…" I told her as if I was talking to a preschooler. She smiled hanging there in the air.
"You know you want to."
"At the very least, not in front of my family." Emmett was laughing from inside the house, I could hear him clearly. Without much effort I tossed her in the air with a bench press. I got up to one knee before catching her in my arm.
"Sexy." She cooed in to my ear before kissing my neck. Damn, come on Embry, think of something else. Get your head straight. Her kisses were shots of ecstasy in my veins. I sighed. Her face feigned innocence. I forced myself to stand up and put her down, each fiber of my body protesting.
"No, we're going somewhere to talk." I said convincing myself as much as her. I started to walk and heard a groan from Emmett.
"Pay up." Jasper called from behind, looks like Emmett had lost the bet.
I don't know how it happened, I knew I had intended on coming out here to talk, but talking was something we were not quite getting around to. I think it started when she tackled me in to the tree I am now leaning up against. Yes, that's how it started, she forced me in to a corner and kissed me with the passion of months lost. She seemed smaller then I remembered her, but once again it was more likely due to the fact that I'd worked out and gotten bigger once again. I gently rubbed my up and down her back. One of her hands was running through my hair and the other had slipped under my tight shirt, relearning the surface of my back. I followed her lead doing the same. Something was wrong. I pulled myself back and took a look at her, a good look at her.
I feared her, her small beautiful frame, the woman of my dreams. The heartbreaker, I couldn't stop myself from loving her. I couldn't even remember why I wasn't making out with her right now. Boyfriend, she's taken. I took a deep breath. We had run far enough to be out of all their hearing range. She wrapped her arms around me and tears rolled down my face. Am I about to do this? Make her choose? It's not wrong is it? No it isn't. You just might need to live with the fact that she might not pick you. It was impossible to let go this was everything I missed, the safety, the protection, knowing some one needed me, to some one so important to me I was irreplaceable. I flinched my body stopping. You're not irreplaceable to her. She felt my body stiffen and loosened her grip coming to my front seeing the tears in my eyes. I could see it in her eyes, she wanted to know why I was crying but wasn't stupid enough to ask, she knew it was her fault. I was in a situation, I had made out with and she was going out with some one else, did that give me the right to condemn her? Of course not, now kiss her. There are more important things in my life then making out with her. Name three. I thought, I struggled then ignored the challenge. You know you want this, you want her more then anything. And when she walks away and doesn't need me to make out with her, then what, I just walk away? I knew I had finally won my fight. I finally focused on her eyes, I needed to say what I needed to say, I couldn't back out of this, it'd only hurt me in the end.
"Leah, you know I need you, right?" she nodded quickly not quite sure where I was going with it. I would regret this, rather my body would, I wanted more of her, I wanted all of her.
"I want this as much as you do, maybe more." She rolled her eyes, she doesn't have anything holding her back, I do. She didn't believe me.
"Leah, I want you to break up with your boyfriend… I don't know where that will leave us. I want to give us another chance." She looked hurt immediately. Did she really think I'd be okay with just being her sex toy that won't have sex with her? Her arms grabbed either of my shoulders.
"Embry, can't we worry about that another time?" Just listen to her, come on she wants what you want give in, screw her brains out, you said so yourself you regretted not doing it. I shook my head regrettably.
"I want this too, but I won't like you tomorrow if we do this tonight, and you go back to him tomorrow." Every syllable hurt, every single one ripped me apart. She looked at me trying to respect my wishes, but deep down I saw something in her eye that screamed I betrayed her. I knew I did what was right for me, and most likely her, but I couldn't help but regret it.
"I need to leave, I need to think Embry" I handed her my cell phone number.
"Call me if you want to talk." She sighed as she began to walk away.
"Leah I want you to know you mean so much more to me then this. I understand if you walk away and don't come back." I said painfully.
"But what about you Embry?" she asked and I took a deep breath looking over the Sauk River, it was a beautiful opening I'd brought her to.
"I'll be here."
"Why?"
"I'll be waiting here."
"For what?"
"I'll be waiting here for you, so, if you come here you'll find me. I promise."
READ THIS BEFORE YOU SUE ME, I didn't write the "I'll be here" quote until "I promise." It came from a video game, if any one can name where it came from I'll be EXTREMELY impressed, it's a very awesome story based game…
Now my author note, I thought that quote would be a great way to end the chapter, it's so beautiful (yeah I'm still a guy, and straight) Ideas, love notes, rolls of twenty dollar bills, high fives, thumbs up, reviews… you know the deal.
