A/N: Hello there, Its been quite awhile, Im very sorry about that! I kept on trying to finish the chapter, and then never end up doing it. But alas her it is chapter 11! Review!

Days pass by in a blur. People come in and out of the Rachel Berry residence, and I barely notice. I've been thinking a lot since the little "get together". I think about out last night together, the way his face crumbled as soon as the words slipped from my mouth. How he kept asking what he did wrong, and why. I couldn't answer any of those questions. It was too hard, because If I did I wouldn't have been able to walk away. I would have told him why. Maybe If I did then things would have been different ; but I didn't, and things aren't different.

I think about what I'm going to say once I see him. Which then makes me realize what day it is ; Tuesday, the twenty seventh. It's Tuesday, which sucks on its own, but also I come to the realization that Tomorrow is the twenty eighth. Tomorrow is the day I will see Kurt again. Tomorrow is the day i've been dreading for weeks. Tomorrow...

I sink down on the bed below me , and stare into the ceiling. I don't know how I'm feeling, but I dont think its sunshine, and rainbows. Its only the morning, but I suddenly feel my eyes close, and I'm out within seconds.

When I surface again, the feelings come thundering in. I know that I have to wake and face the fact that tomorrow is the day. I can't shy away from it. I have to get out of bed, and think about what I'm going to do. What will I say? How will I act? That's the plan for the day, let's see If I stick to it.

Suddenly Rachel barges through the door. She doesn't say anything. She's already dressed, and looks like she's been up for hours. The silence becomes too much so I say,

" Is there a reason you're here?"

" Just wondering why you're not up yet," she's answers, looking directly into my eyes. She looks angry, as to why I'm not sure.

" Is there a reason you're so upset?" I ask questioningly.

" Is there be a reason you're avoiding the original question I proposed."

" Should there be a reason." I say

" -"

" Now you're confusing me." Rachel says after a while.

" Now I'm confusing myself." I say with a laugh.

With that fall to the bed, and clutch are stomachs. I haven't laughed this hard In forever. I'm not even sure why its so funny; but the laughter doesn't stop. After five continuous minutes of laughter it fades.

We sit in silence for a few minutes trying to calm are breath. After a while it turns into normal breaths of air. We sit in silence for awhile, and stare at the wall, both lost in our own thoughts.

" So what are we doing today?" I say

" Well I was thinking we could go out, and get some stuff for tomorrow. Maybe we could even practice singing for tomorrow!" says rachel in an ever to cheery tone for a tuesday. I think about it for awhile and then answer her with,

" Well I'll go with you to get some things for tomorrow, but I think I'll stick with not practicing singing. You know I don't do that anymore." I say with a shrug

" Blaine come on, you love to sing! Maybe it'll help you feel better!"

" I'll think about it okay, but that's not talk about it now. Anyway i'll get ready,and then we can go get the stuff for tomorrow."

After three hours of following the one and only Rachel Berry around store after store, we finally are done. For three hours she chit chats about everything, and anything. I mostly block her out, considering that it is infact a tuesday. Things have gotten somewhat better, but not enough for me to ignore the day.

We arrive back to the house, and plan and discuss the party. Mostly it's her talking about the party, and me idly listening, and sometimes ignoring her. I nod my head to make it seem like I'm listening, but in my head I'm freaking out. Once again.

I never been a nervous person. I'm usually confident in everything I do, usually a happy person, but I can't say the same thing anymore. I've changed, and not for the better. It's not like I meant to change ; It just happened. It reminds me of the way I acted before Dalton, or even before Kurt. With him I was different, I acted like myself. I've slowly turned back to the way I was. I know this isnt a good thing. I know I need to do something to change this, and I know one way to do so is Kurt. Im so nervous. My thoughts are interrupted by Rachel once again.

" Blaine, Blaine hellooo, Hello." she says waving her wands in my face. I jump from not realizing I was zoned out, and her scaring me.

" Oh ah sorry, what did you say."

" I said that you should go to sleep, you look like you saw a ghost, are you okay?"

" Oh okay, Im fine dont worry, just tired bye."

I race to the room i'm staying in, and slam the door shut. I pace back and forth to anxious to sleep. Minutes turn to hours, and Im still up. I force myself to bed, and my last thoughts before I enter sleep are,

What will tomorrow bring.