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Why does it feel like I don't belong?

"Don't worry his fine. He just went out tonight and Paul couldn't fill in for him so he asked me" Matt said, a touch of hurt in his voice thati quickly brushed off. He wasn't hurt over my rejection and annoyance at having to run with him, he was hurt because now he couldn't spend the night screwing Penelope. The hurt was nothing more than anger being controlled. Yep that's right, he just doesn't want to be here and is trying to mask his annoyance at having to patrol. With that I nodded my head before taking off on the route I had been assigned. In Matt's mind I could see confusion and a blink of something that was gone before I could really look at it. The rest of patrol passed in a blur of our surroundings, neither talking to the other and trying their hardest to not focus on any single thought. A couple of times Embry let slip a detail of what he and Penelope would be up to if he wasn't on patrol and I cringed, not liking having to share a bond and see this. I didn't know why I cared so much when any other person I would tell them to keep their mind shut but that's me for you, I'm a weird human/ wolf thingy.

The end of patrol brought a sense of relief and I rushed into Paul's arms when he offered them, giving him a hug before running back home and to my room to sort out my jumbled thoughts. This wasn't working and I needed to figure out why. It took me 2 hours of tossing and turning to figure out that no matter how much I tried, I was not going to sleep and that was that. I rose from my bed and slipped out of the house, careful not to wake Jake as I made my way to the makeshift yard Jake had built for Molluka. A soft whine came from next to me and I saw that both Archie and Max tagging along probably having woken up when I got up. Molluka raised his head when he saw us and nickered a soft greeting that straight away made me feel warm. I walked up and patted him fondly on the head before running to go grab my bridle, wanting to go for a ride but not wanting to bother with a saddle at 3am in the morning when I could ride perfectly fine without. I leapt onto his back and we were off, cantering along the paths in the woods at a steady pace. Archie and Max straight away found where they should be and adjusted themselves into an equally fast stride. With a smile I realized that my life was never to be normal but I had things that loved me for who I was.

I tried to creep back into the house at 6am in the morning only to be met with a solid chest at the door. With a sheepish smile I looked up to see Jake glaring down at me, a mix of hurt and anger on his face as he looked me over for god knows what. "Where have you been and why didn't you tell me?" he said, his voice completely void of any emotion.

"I got back from patrol and couldn't sleep so I went for a ride with Archie and Max". To back this up, Archie and Max growled softly, not used to being around Jake and not liking the way he stood over me. With a shake of his head Jake pointed to my room.

"Get ready for school and next time you want to go on a late night adventure, tell me in some way or another cause next time, I will not let you back into the house". He said this with a smile so I wasn't sure if he was serious or not. Better not test it I thought as I hurried to my room and carefully picked out some clothes. I was not going in a pair of shorts again, not ones that short anyway. I stuck to a pair of black skinny jeans and a long sleeved emerald green shirt that would give the impression that like everyone else I was cold which if you knew me, you would know it's a total lie.

"Embry hurry up where going to be late!" I exclaimed as once again, Embry stopped to look in someone's mirror to make sure he looked good. For some reason he didn't trust me, probably something to do with me telling him half way across the parking lot that he had something in his teeth. He had gone in full scale panic mode, sitting for 5 minutes in front of a rear view mirror checking his whole appearance. I had eventually told him I was joking yet it took him a whole minute for him to finally find nothing wrong and continue. I vowed to never do it again when every second car he would look in the mirror instead of trusting my opinion and continue walking to the door. The bell shrilling through the car park signalled the start of school and the start of me running towards the doors before the closed. Embry finally realising the urgency started running beside me and at this I turned and glared, missing and hole and gunk in front of me. Embry gave me his doe eyes before just making it through the closing doors, yanking me after him. I growled softly at him before stalking to first period.

Lunch time brought with it freedom as I had patrol for the rest of the day, allowing me to be by myself. I hadn't asked to find out who was with me but it didn't matter as I chucked my stuff in my locker and jogged towards the front of the school, out the gates and subtly into the woods without any one seeing me (I think but oh well not my problem). I quickly stripped down to nothing but my bra and undies and tied everything to my leg before walking further in to the woods to avoid any stray passer-by's seeing me. "Must you be naked in the woods? Shouldn't you have morphed by now?" my patrol buddy said, the feeling of dread washing over me as I realised it wasn't Embry or Paul like I originally thought. Anyone else would have been better, just not him and his sex fantasies.

"Shouldn't you be in school?" I snapped back, angry that he had caught me pretty much naked.

"Nope" he said popping the p. "I have patrol with what seems to be you". With that he started to strip right. In. Front. Of. Me! And oh dear god was that guy a god in every way. I got so distracted that I forgot about my little amount of attire when he stood there, only wearing his boxers. "So we going to start or just stand here?" With a start I realized that we were both just standing there looking at each other. With a quick breathe, I turned around and phased, forgetting about my bra and undies.

"Shit! I actually liked that set" I thought with a frown at the scraps of cloth fluttering on the ground. Seconds later I felt my mind connect with Matt's and that was when I made a break for it, trying to drown out any thoughts I had by just looking at him. It worked perfectly fine yet Matt either wasn't trying or couldn't stop himself from picturing me and Penelope next to each other, comparing each of us to the other. If he didn't shut up, I would start picturing his gruesome and violent death. Upon hearing this he smirked and started zooming in on things that I did not appreciate such as my boobs. With a growl I started to make my own video, making sure he was watching.

He was crouched over on the ground having just finished patrol and looking at something weird on the ground. With a low, barely audible growl, I stalked towards him, as quiet as a feather hitting the ground. It was only when I was mid-way through the air that he turned and looked at me with open eyes, staring at my approaching form….he caught we and we started to kiss, long and hard. Wait what the fuck was going on. No way was my mind conjuring that image. I whipped my head around trying to shake the image when I heard a throaty laugh coming from Matt's throat as he replayed the last bit. That's when I realised that was his part that had added in and I had been so focussed on the details that I had added it without thinking. With a low growl coming from my throat, sky rocketing in intensity, I turned around and ran towards him, zeroing in on his throat that I was gladly going to rip out.

And because I love you, I wrote another chapter in record time. I will update again later if I have time.