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AN: collection of "ten things ficlets" for the various members of the Skywalker family; belongs to my swallows and amazons verse.
Padmé Amidala
1) Anakin teaches her to cook after they're married. She's not very good at it, but he's scandalised that she can't – everyone, he says, should be able to cook for themselves – and the way he smiles when he stands behind her and guides her hands on the knife or in the dough or with the spices more than makes up for how boring she thinks it is.
2) After her second term as Queen is up, Padmé goes home and stays there. Sola calls it moping, perhaps somewhat scornfully. Her father offers her a job with the RRM, and her mother wants her to go to university, but –
3) Six months later, she's no closer to a decision. The Queen's request for her to take the Senatorial posting is an absolute relief.
4) For the first few weeks of her absence from public life, catching her reflection in a mirror unexpectedly would always make her jump. Getting used to her new face took a while.
5) A strange look crosses Sabé's face when Padmé tells her this: almost pitying. It makes Padmé's stomach drop and her throat close up.
6) They lose touch not long after that.
7) Her son's name means bringer of light, and she chooses it in a fit of something like desperation: this baby is a blessing. It is.
8) Intellectually, she knows she's beautiful. Comes to that understanding after putting away Queen Amidala's make up for good, after one too many men and women have smiled at her over bakery counters or on the Theed public transport.
9) She enjoys it and she uses it, but Padmé doesn't feel it until a boy-who-is-not-a-boy looks at her and says, so have you.
10) This is – this makes no sense. Any of it. Anakin loves her. She knows he does. There has never, ever, been any doubt in her mind that this is true. Padmé knows it in the same way that she knows that planets are round and Naboo's sun is yellow and her hair is brown. It simply is, eternal as the stars themselves.
She doesn't understand why suddenly that's just not enough anymore.
