Thank you for over 100 reviews! It means a lot to get feedback and hear what you guys think of my story, whether it is good or bad
I'm going to clarify some things that were brought up in the reviews from the last chapter:
- Callie was paralysed with fear which is why she didn't fight back. And to the person who said she is "still technically a man" so should have been able to overpower the girls there are many things wrong with that. 1) Yes, Callie is biologically male but that doesn't mean she can overpower three people. I know plenty of males who wouldn't super strong and lots of females who are very strong. Plus, Callie is on hormones so she doesn't have lots of testosterone in her body which is why I'm assuming you said she'd be stronger.
- I'm from the UK and we call the emergency room A&E (Accident and Emergency) so sorry if that confused anyone
- We are going to find out how the girls know that Callie was transgender in this chapter
May I just remind people who don't like the fact that Callie is transgender and is pre bottom surgery then don't read this story! And trans women are women regardless of whether they have had bottom surgery. Some women have penises and having a vagina does not mean you are a woman. Ok. Mini rant over now onto the story!
((Reminder that all mistakes are my own and I own none of the characters etc))
Chapter 11: Still Up For That Date?
Arizona's POV
"Because…" Callie pauses looking terrified "Because I'm transgender"
This must be the big secret she was keeping, the reason she said people in Miami didn't like her, the thing said she'd tell me. I understand why she didn't want to tell me before, I'm assuming she just wanted for us to get to know each other.
I'm not really sure what to say in response to her statement… I mean, she hasn't changed who she is and who she is is someone who is really caring, kind, smart and drop dead gorgeous. But can I pursue a relationship with someone with a penis? I'm assuming that she hasn't had bottom surgery yet. And I know it's wrong to judge someone by their genitals, but I've never seen a penis in real life before and I am a huge fan of vagina… What would happen if we dated and then we had sex? I don't know how to pleasure someone with a penis and that scares me. I know what to do with a vagina, I'm not a person who sleeps around a lot, despite the Carina blip, but I know what to do. But I'm attracted to women and Callie is a woman, and a very beautiful one at that and I am a lesbian, not someone who is attracted to vaginas. So maybe this could work?
But, regardless of what's in Callie's pants I've never felt this way before about anyone and I don't want to let that go just because I'm scared. Maybe this is something Callie and I can work through together, she said she'd never had a boyfriend or girlfriend so I'm assuming she's a virgin so hopefully I won't have anything to live up to…
God, I'm thinking too much about this. We haven't even been on a proper date yet and I'm thinking about getting into her pants. I don't want to rush this relationship and well, especially now Callie is in the hospital we won't be going on any adventurous dates until she has completely healed. But I want to be by her side whilst she recovers and after that as well.
I realise that whilst I've been thinking a million thoughts a minute, I haven't said anything to Callie, who is just sitting looking at me. But I think I've only been thinking for a few seconds even though it feels like much longer.
I'm going to tell her. Tell her that I don't mind, that I still like her. But I want to voice my fears of having never done anything with a person with a penis but that I won't let that ruin the feelings we had, and hopefully still have.
I open my mouth, and start to speak when Mark, Addie and Teddy come bursting through the doors to Callie's room. Mark and Addie run into the room and carefully, due to the wires and all the medical stuff as well as Callie's injuries, engulf her into a hug.
I close my mouth and smile at Callie, as her eyes are still on me, hoping that she gets the message that I don't mind that she's transgender. That I still want to go on our first proper date. She smiles back and I move so that Addie and Mark can sit by her. I head over to the door to stand with Teddy as we both watch the scene of three best friends all crying with joy that everyone is alright.
Callie's POV
After I told Arizona I'm transgender she doesn't see anything and I can see the cogs turning in my head and I'm really worried about her response… She opens her mouth and is about to speak when Addie and Mark enter the room and run to my bed and hug me. I keep looking at Arizona from the embrace of my best friends, she smiles at me which hopefully means she's ok with it but obviously she doesn't want to go into it now. I smile back at her which hopefully puts her at ease before sinking into Addie and Mark's hug.
"Stop crying you guys" I move slowly to wipe their tears in turn, which takes a lot of effort because I can only really move one arm due to the cast on my other arm and the bruising on the one I can move causes me a lot of pain, even though I'm on a lot of pain.
I see that Arizona and Teddy have moved away from us, which is to give us privacy I'm assuming which I appreciate because I can tell Mark and Addie that I told Arizona.
"Guys…" I know they'll be happy that I told her but part of me is apprehensive "I told Arizona" a look of confusion washes over their face. I lower my voice so that Arizona and Teddy can't hear me "I told her that I'm transgender. Like, I actually did it! I mean, probably helped by the pain meds but I told her and it felt so good to get it off my chest."
"Oh my god Callie!" Addie gushes "That's amazing. It's a good thing, right? What did she say? If she was rude then I am going to kick her ass so badly that she won't be able to sit for a year"
"Addie" I interrupt her but I have to try not to laugh at the thought Addie kicking Arizona's ass. "She hasn't said anything yet because you two bone heads came into the room just as she was about to speak. So I don't know what she thinks or if she still wants to date me. But she smiled at me when she walked away to allow you guys to be by my side so hopefully that means all is good. I really hope that she is ok with it because I really like her and I've never felt that this way before and it scares me but I really want to pursue a relationship with her because I think she's worth working through my fears for"
Both of them smile, they've never seen me show an interest in someone before and I know they are really happy for me but will also protect me if I get hurt by her.
Mark's smile lowers and he takes a deep breath "On a worse note, do you know who did this to you Callie?"
"I recognised some of them from some of our classes. I think one was Izzie Stephens and another was Lauren Boswell? I'm not a hundred percent sure though"
"Was this a random attack Callie, or was it because of who you are?" Addie is trying to choose her words carefully.
"Well, considering they called me all the names under the sun that are offensive to transgender people, I think it's safe to say that it was due to who I am" I wince, remembering the words they called me as they kicked and punched me to the ground. I should have been able to defend myself but I was paralysed with fear. So much for fight or flight, it was as if my feet were rooted to the grounds.
Mark gets out his phone and starts looking at it. I have no clue what he's doing but Addie starts talking about what she will do to Arizona if she isn't accepting. I look over to the door and see that Arizona and Teddy have left the room and I'm sad that the blonde has left. I always feel better when she's in the room, something about her just exudes happiness.
A few minutes later Mark speaks up "I think I know how they knew. It looks like Lauren Boswell is cousins with Simon, as in Simon from our school who was the captain of the football team"
"That mother fucker I am going to kill both of them" I slap her playfully "Ugh, fine. No one says anything or does anything bad towards Callie I swear they will live to regret it if I'm not allowed to kill them"
"Well, there's nothing we can do now. And this probably means that most of the people in our year will find out soon" I start to panic. This is exactly the opposite of what I wanted to happen. My only hope is that because it is University will hopefully be filled with more open-minded people than the Catholic area of Miami that the three of us grew up in.
"Well, at least we know how people know found out but you know that we are here for you Callie and we are going to do a better of keeping you safe" Addie starts crying again.
"Addie, stop crying. I'm ok, I promise. I'm still alive and that's all that matters"
"How about we leave Callie alone and we get Arizona to come back in here so she can have that chat with Arizona that we know needs to happen soon. Sorry about turning up just as she was about to speak by the way."
"It's fine guys, I'm glad that you guys came to see me, it's just that your timing sucked"
They give me one last hug and Addie texts Arizona to come back to my room. Now that I'm alone, I feel really apprehensive about being alone with her again.
I am jolted from my thoughts by Arizona sheepishly entering the room. "Hi" she weakly smiles before walking over to sit by my bedside.
"Hi" I smile back.
We sit in an awkward silence but I have to break it, I can't bear this silence.
"Sooooo….." I draw out, which isn't really helping the awkwardness in the room. "Ummm, I'm sorry I dropped a bit of a bomb shell on you earlier but I thought you needed to know… Especially because we wanted to go on a date. I would have told you, I swear. Just after a couple of dates so you got to know me for me because I really want you to like me Arizona because I really like you and…"
"Callie" she says, cutting me off "you're rambling sweetie"
She smiles at me, and it's a proper smile and my heart melts and I can't help but smile back.
"I'm assuming you want to know what I think…" She pauses "I like you too Callie, I really do. And my feelings aren't going to change just because of this, I promise." I feel a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, but I feel she is going to say more, and I'm right "There are just some things I would be nervous about, such as what if we were to get to the point in dating where we would be physical? I don't mean to assume but I'm assuming that you haven't had bottom surgery which is why you felt it was really important to tell me because we were both interested in dating. I mean, I've only been with people who have vaginas before and I would have no clue what to do… I mean, I'm not a whore or anything and I don't sleep around… God, I'm making this worse, aren't I?"
I chuckle at her, she really is adorable when she rambles "I know what you're saying and it's ok. And yes, I haven't had bottom surgery… I've never been with anyone in an intimate way so if we get to that then we will be in the same boat. But we are nowhere near there yet" Although I would really like to be there with you I think to myself. These drugs are making me freer in my thoughts and I'm just glad that she can't hear them because I don't think I would ever recover from the embarrassment.
"Well, let's just cross that bridge when we come to it shall we? You're going to have to take me on a few dates before you are going to see any of this" she says with a wink and waves her arm up and down her body and I can't help but look at her body. She's still dressed in her Tinkerbell costume and with the way she is sitting, with her legs crossed, I can see so much of her legs it is almost inappropriate, but I can't look away.
"Uh, Callie" My eyes jolt up and my cheeks redden, knowing that I've been caught staring. "If you're going to stare at me at least do it subtly" she chuckles and gives me a flirtatious wink. This woman is going to be the death of me I swear.
"Well…" I say, trying to break the awkwardness I've created by being caught checking her out "When would you like that date then? That is, if you're still interested that is…"
"Oh, I am still very interested, don't you worry" She takes my hand and there it is again, the electricity shooting through my body. Every time we touch the feeling gets stronger and now she seems to be ok with me being transgender and the fact that I am pre-op makes the sparks more intense.
"Right" she says "When did we want to go on that date? Obviously after you're out of this hospital but I'd like to take you out for a fancy dinner to try to woo you"
"Bring it on Robbins" I wink "Now I am expected to be wooed completely so you'd better bring your game because now my standards have been raised"
"Right, we will have to postpone the date we were going to go on and once you're better then we can go out and I promise you will be wooed"
If there is anything positive about me being attacked was that it jump started what will hopefully be a loving and caring relationship with Arizona because I won't have the weight of keeping a massive secret from her. Now all I want to do is to get out of this hospital and go on our first proper date.
Not entirely sure where I am taking this story but we will have more of Erica, maybe some Teddison action but the next chapter will be the Calzona first date so stay tuned!
Reviews are welcome as always :D
