Chapter 10

Anger

James woke up the next morning and thought about the night before, his secret had been revealed and his pure hatred of Snape had returned. James got out of bed and went to the bathroom. He got into the shower and soon came out freshly cleaned. He dried his hair magically, shaved, and got dressed in his uniform. He gathered his books, paper, and quills, and ink, and headed downstairs. He stepped out of his room and saw Lily's light to be on. 'I guess she's awake,' James thought. He continued walking for a moment and then stopped, he looked to Lily's door; he walked towards it.

Lily stepped out of her bathroom, fully dressed and ready for class. She grabbed the books she needed from her desk and began to put them into her bag, when suddenly she heard a soft knocking at her door.

Lily walked to the door and opened it, James stood there with a slight smile.

"Hey, I was wondering if you wanted to join me down stairs for breakfast?" he asked. Lily thought for a moment, "Uh, thanks, but I was going to meet Ashley and Bridget in the library before class, to talk," Lily said. James nodded, "Oh alright, well I'll see you in class." James said. Lily nodded and James walked away. Lily closed her door and continued getting her things ready.

James walked to the Gryffindor common room. He entered and saw numerous students talking with friends and doing last minute homework. He walked up the steps to the boys dormitory and entered.

"Prongs!" Sirius cheered as James walked in, James smiled. "Hey what's up?" James asked. Srius shook his head, "Not a lot mate, how, are things going with Lily-flower, humm?" He asked with a wink. James smiled.

"It's alright . . ." James said. Suddenly remus came into the room, "Oh hey, James how are you?" he asked, "Good Mooney, and you?" he asked. Remus nodded in reply.

"Oh hello, James," Frank Longbottom said as he exited the bathroom, fully dressed. James waved to him, "Hey Frank,"

"Well see you lads later," Frank said. Frank left the room leaving Sirius, Remus, and James to themselves. "Where's Peter?" James asked looking around, Sirius and Remus shrugged, "Probably at Breakfast," Remus said. James nodded and sat down on Remus's bed.

"She knows," He said randomly. Sirius and Remus look to him confused, "Who knows mate?" Sirius asked, "What do they know?" Remus asked. James looked to them both, "Lily, she knows I'm deaf,"

Siirus looked surprised, "How'd she find out, were you not using the charm?" James nodded, "I was practicing my speech and then she came into my room, she had heard me, but guess what?"

"What?" Remus asked, "She's deaf as well, she uses the same charm as me for her voice."

"Are you for real?" Sirius asked incredulously, "Really?" Remus asked, amazed. James nodded, "Plus she also uses sign language, "Like you!" Sirius exclaimed with cheer. James nodded once more.

"Well now you both have something that connects you, in a more personal way," Remus said. James nodded. "But it's weird, cuz she uses the charm only at school, but I use it twenty four seven, and you both, including Peter, are the only ones who know about my disability, but she wanted me not to use it, but I can't just not use it, It would be awful, I mean think of what people would say, so we sort of got into an argument . . .:"

"Oh no, here we go again, what did you say this time, Prongs?" Sirius asked, knowing fully well how James and Lily's fights always ended up. James shook his head, "No, no it wasn't like that, well sort of, there was some tension, and then we went on rounds and then Malfoy and Snape, I swear to god I'll kill them, jinxed us and we took many points away from their house, but they are such ass holes."

'I say take more points away," Sirius said, Remus glared at him, he turned back to James, "forget them, James, you've found something both you and Lily share, I say connect with her through it, show her you're not the prat she thinks you are."

"Thanks Remus," James said. James stood up, "Come on let's eat, I'm hungry.

-Library-

"So James is deaf as well, no wonder he asked me about the sign language, he understood it," Ashley stated coming to her realization. The three girls were sitting in the back of the library in a small study room.

"Yeah, but we were talking nicely until he became all stubborn and didn't want to use his natural voice, it was ridiculous." Lily said. Bridget looked to her, "Well of course he doesn't Lily. He doesn't use it at all probably and think of what would happen if he suddenly began using it, honestly people would be cruel and laugh at him, he has a fine reputation here."

"That's what he said, but honestly the only reputation he's got is being a trouble maker,"

Lily said. Ashley rolled her eyes, "Lil, you can't blame him for that, it's those god damned Slytherins who edge it on,"

Lily's eyes widened, "Speaking of which, I can't believe Malfoy and Snape, no wait I can, they are such ass holes! Last night when we were doing our rounds, they came up behind us suddenly and as usual called me mudblood and then James took the first chance he got and hexed Malfoy . . .In front of me!" "He has no self control; he should just blow them off."

"Well when someone is hurting someone he cares about he sort of loses his self control," Bridget said. Lily looked to her. "Oh don't start that, I don't believe it, he's been after me since fourth year, honestly it's gotten ridiculous, his constant proposals and what not, I know it's probably al rubbish to some extent."

Ashley looked to her a bit annoyed, "What ever Lily you think what you want, but you know he's a good guy deep down," She said. Lily rolled her eyes and grabbed her bag, "We should go Class starts in five minutes," she said. The three of them got up and left the library passing several students whom were scribbling down homework answers quickly. The rounded the corridor which there class was held and in the distance they saw the boys walking up. Lily quickly entered the class room to avoid James; all of a sudden she was annoyed with him, very annoyed. James saw Lily enter the class room quickly and he followed the guys in. he entered and saw Ashley sit next to Lily. He took a seat with Sirius and the class began. James continued to look to Lily in between note taking.

'Maybe I'll write her a note' he thought. James took another piece of parchment out and began writing, when he was done; he handed it to Remus and motioned it to go to Lily. Ashley got hand of the note and nudged Lily. Lily ignored her, thinking she was just going to bring up their previous conversation, and she truly didn't want to talk about James. She felt Ashley nudge once more and she looked to her. "What?" she whispered.

Ashley looked to Lily, 'She's annoyed,' she thought, "Here, it's from James," Ashley set the note on Lily's desk carefully so the teacher wouldn't see.

Lily looked back to her notes and continued writing. She didn't feel anger towards James, but annoyance, he was beginning his usual act once again, the note passing and the hexing towards the Sytherin and Lily had had it with all of it. She refused to open the note and continued to focus on her note taking.

James looked to Lily, then the note, then to Lily, then to the note, then to Ashley.

"Remus," he whispered lowly, Remus turned to him, "Get Ashley's attention," he said. Remus tapped Ashley's shoulder and she turned around. Remus pointed to James.

James raised his hands in a 'What's up' gesture, Ashley shrugged, not knowing. She turned back to Lily, and side glanced to her.

Lily dipped her quill in her ink jar and Lily continued writing every word which came out of the professor's mouth. Ashley took one of her blank sheet s of parchment out from under the one she was writing on and wrote a small note.

Hey, what's wrong, why aren't you reading the letter?" She passed it into Lily's viewing area. Lily looked to it, and finished the last sentence she was writing. James saw Lily begin to write on the parchment Ashley gave her.

Because I don't want to Lily wrote back, moving the paper back towards Ashley. She read it, and wrote something down and pushed it to lily.

Why not? What's up with you all of a sudden, are angry about our conversation in the library?"

Lily read it, "I'm in class, I'm taking notes, ad honestly what James has written I personally don't care," She pushed it to Ashley.

Just read it, you don't have to answer. She wrote. Lily read this and thought for a moment, she looked up to the Professor whom was reading at his desk. She took hold of the note and began unfolding it.

Lily opened it fully and looked down at it and read.

Lily, are you mad at because of last night, you look troubled, not troubled, but annoyed, is it me?" Lily sighed with in herself; she folded the note and put it into her pocket. She looked to Ashley slightly and shook her head. Ashley looked back to her notes and continued taking them. The bell soon rung and Lily made a b-line for the door. She got out first and headed back to her dormitory to quickly finish her school work.

Ashley ran out behind her, though the mob of students pushed her back. She was one of the last students to get out and by that time Lily had gone. Bridget then came up behind her, "Hey what was up with the note thing, is Lily alright?" she asked. Ashley shrugged, "I think our discussion bothered her," Ashley said looking to Bridget. Bridget frowned.

Lily entered her dormitory and turned around towards her camera, she magically made it appear and she spoke to it, "Note to self, don't talk about Potter with your friends," she then turned back around and sat herself at her desk to begin her work.

"Ashley, what was all that about?" James asked coming up behind Ashley in the corridor, Ashley spun around. "I don't know, she's acting funny all of a sudden, we were in the library this morning, just talking, but I think she became annoyed with the topic we were discussing," She said. "What topic was that?" James asked. "You" Bridget said.

James looked to her, "What were you saying?"

"Well Lily told us of last night and about your secret, as well as what the Slytherins did, and how you were just acting like old times with the hexing," Bridget said.

"They called her a, you- know –what1" James said loudly with sternness, Bridget shrugged, "Perhaps you should just let it go, James," Ashley said. "Yeah I will when they will . . . which is never, I won't stand for their words or actions towards Lily and she should know that,"

Bridget and Ashley side glanced to each other, "well she'll probably stay in her room the rest of the day, so we'll see you later; she needs to sort whatever is bothering her."

Ashley said and they both walked away leaving James in the corridor. James then decided to go back to his room.

Lily put down her quill, and looked at her work, it was done. She then put her books away and walked to her bed; she lay on the bed and looked up at her ceiling. She rested her arms at her side and then suddenly felt the outline of the note still in her hand, she reached into her pocket and pulled it out and opened it once more.

She read it, and then tossed it to the side. Lily sat up and looked around. She got up thinking lying there would be a waist of time. She stood up and walked out of her room. She turned left and entered the room of desire.

She sat down and wished for the lake she had wished for before. Her surroundings suddenly changed and she sat there quietly basking in the environment. James looked up from his bed, he lying on top of it thinking about Lily, wondering if she was alright. He then stood up and left his room and looked to the room of Desire, her hear sound of water splashing and birds chirping. He stepped forwards towards the door and opened it slowly, he peered in. There stood lily splashing about in the water carelessly.

Lily's knees were deep in the water; she spontaneously walked into the water and began splashing around for the fun of it. She then stood up and looked out onto the lake, she smiled. A tapping sensation accosted her and she turned around, James stood there with a half smile upon his face, Lily smiled slightly.

-What are you doing? - He signed. Lily looked back, "Nothing" she said. James frowned. Lily looked back, "Are you upset with me, for writing you that note?" he asked aloud. Lily heard his natural voice, -No- she signed, she looked back.

"Are you upset with me in any way?" he asked. Lily didn't answer, "Why should I be, it's not as if anything I do or say will change you," The room then re-appeared as the dark room. Lily pointed her wand to her legs and magically dried herself. She passed James and left the room, heading back to her room. James watched her go and stood there unhappy with her response, 'she's upset' he thought. He walked out of the room, and knocked on Lily's door. "Lily," he said.

Lily looked to the door, "go away, Potter, leave me alone." She said aloud. Her words hurt James, he decided to give her some space and he returned to the Gryffindor tower to see the guys.

"Alright so the prank is set, and the Slytherins won't even see it coming," Sirius said proudly. They had been working on the prank and setting it up for the past two hours, James fully enjoyed his time away from Lily, though the thought of her never left him.

"Alright everyone gets into position," Sirius said. Remus looked to him, "Must we act like children, and we're not ten, Sirius,"

"Just get into position, Mooney!" Sirus hissed, Remus followed and he got into Position. It was nearing Dinner time and students were entering the Great hall, Lily as well as Bridget and Ashley entered and took seat near the middle of the table. Lily sat down across from Bridget next to Ashley. Ashley looked around, "Wonder where the guys are," she said. Lily looked around, "probably up to no good," she said, Ashley rolled her eyes, though Lily didn't notice.

Remus then entered the great hall and came to sit next to Bridget, "Hello," He said, Lily looked to him and smiled, "Hello Remus, where are the other three?" Bridget asked, "Uh they're on their way, they were doing something," He said quickly. Lily eyed him. Suddenly James, Peter, and Sirius entered and sat down; James sat next to Sirius who sat next to Ashley. Sirius looked over to the Slytherin table, "Prepare your selves," he said. Lily looked to him then the Slytherin table, "Not again" she said to herself.

A burst of green smoke came from the slytherin table wafting up in to the air and around the gang of seventh year Slytherins. Many students burst into laughter after seeing all of them covered in blue dots. Lily rolled her eyes and looked back to her food, whilst James and Sirius were laughing historically. Remus could see Lily wasn't pleased and he lowered his laughter dramatically. Lily couldn't take it anymore and got up from the table and left the hall. Once the laughter had subsided James looked to where Lily was but she was gone, "She left, mate," Remus said, James looked to him. James felt bad, though not entirely for they did deserve it for the other night.

Lily went back to her room and lied on her bed. "Why is he such a prat at times?" she asked herself. After dinner James returned to the heads tower and found Lily in the common room reading.

He walked up to her, "Hey Lily," he said slowly. She didn't respond, James stood there, "Lily I'm sorry, look I know I shouldn't have but . . ." James began as Lily got up from the chair she was sitting in and strode to the window seat with her book. 'She didn't hear me,' he thought, he looked more closely and saw that Lily wasn't wearing her hearing aids. He walked up to her, and tapped her on her shoulder; Lily looked around sharply, jolting back from the sight of him, dropping the book to the floor.

-God, you frightened me, Potter, huh- she quickly signed. James looked startled as well from Lily's reaction.

-Sorry, here- he signs reaching down to get her book, but Lily quickly grabs it,

-It's fine- she signs as she get up to go. James reaches for her arm and turns her back towards him, -What's wrong, why are you so worked up, what have I done?-

Lily looked at him incredulously, -What have you done?! What have you done?!- -Potter you hexed and pranked the Slytherins, that's what you did! You just don't stop, and it's infuriating, to see you do that, you're a jerk-

James looked shocked at her word, - They fully and rightfully deserved it!-

-Why! Why did they deserve it, huh why, was it because they hexed you last night, was it because they called me a mudblood is that why?-

James nodded furiously, "Yes," he exclaimed, "that's why, I hate it!" he said furiously. Lily looked away, - I can't hear you- she signed, - I don't lip read-

- Yes that's why, I hate it! - He signed, feeling like an idiot. – It pisses me off when they say things like that-

-Well it shouldn't Potter, you're not the one who's being called a mudblood, I don't need your defense, Potter, I think I know how deal with them and words of that nature, I'm not new to it, believe me I'm not, just back off- Lily signed with anger. She turned on her heel and left. She ran up the stairs and slammed the door to her room. James stood there, he then made his was back to her. He came to her room and stopped before he knocked; he pulled his wand out and opened the door magically. Lily stood by her bed, tears prickling behind her eyes. She quickly wiped her eyes before any could fall and she stood there thinking,

James entered slowly, Lily sensed something in the room and she turned around, She looked to James, - What? I don't want to sign or talk to you, please leave- she signed. James looked to her – I'm sorry-

-Just leave-

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