Chapter 10: Her Fights

"Um, excuse me, bitch?" I took a step back and furrowed my brows. "My relationship with Jacob, or anyone else for that matter, is none of your business."

"Maybe, but-"

"No, no, no. There's no maybe." My voice was now raised, and people were beginning to abandon their conversations to listen to me. "You stay out of my business. If I want to date James, that's my choice, and I can't tiptoe around Jacob's feelings. He left me, and it's been years. If he still has feelings, that's something he needs to deal with. Or maybe," I paused and stepped closer to her, "maybe you could help Jacob get over me."

Amelia's eyes widened slightly, and she opened her mouth to say something; however, I wasn't done yet. I leaned forward. "Then again, if he still has feelings for me, you must not be very good in bed."

Stepping away from her, I smirked at her dumbfounded face. I had been so busy yelling at Amelia, I hadn't noticed that Jacob had come over. "Renesmee. That's enough."

No, no it wasn't enough. I was furious. And I was hurt. And maybe a teensy bit jealous. I was furious at Jacob for telling Amelia about our relationship, about me. I had thought I had meant more to him than a discussion for the bedroom. I was furious at Amelia for thinking she was the third member in our relationship. Why the fuck would she think that she had any right to talk to me about my private relationship, even if Jacob had told her? Amelia also pissed me off because she confronted me. If Jacob had a problem, he should be the one to do it. He doesn't need you to take care of his issues, honey. I mean, have you met him?

I was hurt because Jacob had told Amelia. It wasn't just about our relationship. Yes, that angered and upset me, but it was really because he had confided in her. There was once a time where he would come and talk to me about all of his feelings, even when we were in a fight. There were some fights where we would yell and scream at each other, and one of us would storm off. Then, more often than not, Jacob would come to my door and say something like, "Look, I know that we're in a fight, but I need you to not be my girlfriend. I need you to just be my best friend and give me advice as my best friend because you are my best friend." Then he would rant and let all his feelings out. It was what made us so close.

I was also jealous because Amelia was beautiful, and she also cared for him. I was jealous (and a little hurt) because Jacob had slept with her after he had left me. He had chosen to be with her over me, even if it wasn't a boyfriend/girlfriend thing. He had left me and gone to her. Fuck him. And fuck her.

All of these emotions just swirled around inside of me as I yelled at Amelia, and when Jacob told me to stop, they all transferred over to him. "NO, JACOB! Don't tell me that's enough. You told her, Jacob. You. Told. Her. You fucked her, and then you decided to open up to her about our relationship. A relationship that didn't include her!" I turned to him and pushed him in the chest.

He staggered slightly but regained his composure quickly. "Stop acting like a petulant child. You're the one who started this," he hissed.

"I started this? She's the one who confronted me! She's the one who told me to not bring James here because it would hurt you."

"If you don't like it, just leave!" Jacob blew up at me. Breathing hard, Jacob just stared at me.

I closed my mouth and stood up a little straighter. Lowering my voice to a normal pitch, I said, "Fine." I quickly turned around and stormed off. I glanced around for James because it wouldn't be fair to just leave him here. Everyone was looking at me and Jacob with wide eyes, but James was nowhere to be found. I was too upset to stay longer than I had to, so with the hope that he would follow, I kept walking in the direction of the gates.

From behind me, I heard Jacob say, "Seth, go with her. Make sure she gets home safe." Why the fuck would he care?

Seth caught up quickly. He began walking next to me at a leisurely pace for him with his long legs. He didn't say anything, and when I glanced up at him, he appeared to be rather angry. We got into his car, and he started up the engine. As we pulled away from the base, I turned to Seth, my now best friend, to rant. "I can't believe him! Or her! She's such a cu-"

"You know what, Ren? I can't believe you! You had to bring James, didn't you? I told you it wasn't a good idea! Do you know where James even is, Renesmee? He left. He heard you screaming at Amelia about your relationship with Jacob, and he left! You didn't just hurt Jacob today. You hurt your friend. A boy that talked to your friends and family about you, who wanted to know you better, who talked highly of you. You embarrassed him. Hell you embarrassed yourself. Fighting with Amelia like that? I don't get it. She was just looking out for her friend. Any one of the wolves would do the same thing to one of your ex's with the exception of Jacob."

"Yeah, but that's different."

"How, Ren? How? You fought with her because you're perceptive, God help you. You're perceptive, and you were jealous that Jacob had slept with Amelia. That's the only reason."

I was starting to feel really stupid the more Seth talked. "So?" I slid down in the seat and turned to look out the window on my right, away from Seth.

"You had your chance, Ness." His voice was softer now. Seth using my old nickname was his way of telling me that he still cared, but he was still mad. "Jacob told you he still had feelings for you when he returned home. You had your chance to be with him, and you told him no. You can't be upset with him or her because you chose to not be with him."

"Seth?" My voice came out a little choked. My eyes were beginning to moisten. Tears were being threatened.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Seth turn to look at me for a few moments. I knew his brow was creased with concern as he studied my face. "Yeah?"

I sniffled. "He left me to go to war. We could have stayed together, but he broke up with me."

Seth sighed. "I know. He didn't want you to wait for him in case something happened."

Taking a deep breath I said, "But I think I did wait for him… subconsciously, anyway. Then when he came back, I tried to not let him back in, but I did. We slept together that first night, Seth."

I had thought he already knew, but Seth's silence told me otherwise. I continued. "So when I saw her- when I saw Amelia with Jacob, acting the way she was, when I discerned that they had slept together, I couldn't- I can't-"

"Ren-"

"That hurt the most. Knowing that he claimed to have thought of me the whole time he was over there only to find out he had slept with someone else hurt. It's really over for us."

Instead of comforting me, Seth said, "You don't know everything. You don't know what you mean to him. It's not over until it's over."