I am so sorry for the late update, my muse took a vacation and so did my co writer but both are back and ready for action.
I am only looking to do one more chapter but i made this one extra extra long for all of you who have been left reading over the same chapters.
Again i am sorry and i hope you all like this chapter, i certainly do.
Also for those looking for some more information about the weeks JJ was in hospital this chapter should fill in some gaps.
Thank you and enjoy. Sorry again for the wait. xx
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Reid had a gut feeling and he followed it. He knew his girl friend, he knew his friend. Even though she isn't in the right frame of mind he knew this is where she would go. She wasn't going to find Elle, she wasn't going to even try and find Gideon, she was going to find answers, and there is one place that could give her answers.
Rossi had no idea where the young genius was taking him. He knew that he wanted to find JJ as much as anyone else but he looked like he was driving to who knows where. Rossi continued to try and profile Reid as he was concentrating on the road. He knew how much he cared for JJ and after everything the pair had been through maybe Reid's mind wasn't in the best of places either. JJ obviously wasn't but Reid, he really didn't know.
Rossi put his attention back onto the road to try and figure out where he was being taken and then the thought hit. He knew exactly where he was going and mentally kicked himself as he didn't come up with the idea in the first place.
The one place that would give her answers about Elle, about Gideon, about her life with them. This was the one place everyone knew JJ felt most safe and her subconscious must have taken her there.
"Reid you genius" Rossi beamed at the young man before him as Reid sent him a small smile in return.
"You thought I was driving round in circles at first didn't you" Reid laughed. Rossi nodded laughing along with him.
"Do you think she will be OK? At the sounds of Emily and Penelope she didn't sound to great" Reid soon lost his smile and his face was replaced with worry. Rossi placed a comforting hand on his shoulder and smiled sadly.
"I think she just needs some time. It a horrible thing to go through. Imagine not knowing half of your life and waking up with a bunch of people you have never seen before declaring they are your best friends. This is a hard enough job without loosing your memory and having to go through it all again" Reid nodded and then put his attention back on the road.
5 minutes later they pulled up outside the tall building and ventured up to where they knew there lost friend would be.
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After searching possible places JJ could be the remaining members of the team huddled around JJ's living room thinking of other possible places she could be.
"So we checked everywhere" Hotch asked double checking. Everyone nodded sadly looking to their unit chief for instructions.
"Wait, has anyone heard of Reid or Rossi" Emily asked looking around the group. Everyone shook their heads confused.
"Try ringing them" Hotch said. Morgan immediately pulled out his phone and rang Reid and Hotch did the same for Rossi.
"Voicemail" Morgan looked to Hotch who said the same.
"Garcia track their cells. They must be somewhere"
"On it boss man" Penelope began rapidly typing away until a beeping noise alerted them.
"So..." Morgan looked the Penelope to see where they are.
She turned the screen to Hotch and at first he was confused then it hit him.
"We seriously take Reid for granted" He said showing the rest where they were. Everyone's faces beamed with delight.
"I don't get it" Penelope looked to Emily for an explanation but Emily just laughed.
"Come on I'll explain on the way" She grabbed the technical analyst's hand and pulled her from her seat and they all ventured out to their cars. They were going to find their friend and bring her home.
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Reid walked up the path way and looked through the window to see his friend sitting on the floor with her head in her hands. He could hear her desperate sobs through the wooden door and looked to Rossi pleading for help.
"Go into her. I will ring the team" He give the young doctor a encouraging nudge and he smiled warmly before taking a seat and pulling his phone out to ring his, probably very annoyed, section chief.
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Hotch's phone buzzed in his pocket and he silenced his talking team members before answering.
"Hotchner" He answered not bothering to look at caller ID. He let out a sigh as his friends voice came through the other end of the phone.
"Hey Aaron we found here"
"We know we are on our way to you both now. You could've rang like Dave"
"Well at first I thought Reid was driving me round in circles until it hit me, then the only thing I thought about was getting our girl back"
"Well as long as she is OK... She is OK isn't she"
"Well I really don't know. We found her in a heap on the floor crying so physically yes, mentally she has a long way to go"
"We will be with you in 7 minutes"
"See you in a minute Aaron" On that he hung up. Everyone's eyes were plastered on Hotch for an explanation.
"They have her and she is OK. She is going to need our help to get out of this so be prepared" He turned back to the road and everyone fell into a comfortable silence all there thoughts on JJ. They were all thinking back to those days she was in the hospital.
Emily;
"Hey JJ. See you are still sleeping. Thats OK. I thought I would give you a break from sweet home alabama. I bet your sick of it on repeat but Pen is determined it will wake you up. Even if its waking up just to turn it of" Emily laughed sitting down next to her friends bed and looking to the sleeping blonde. Her heart broke every time she was here knowing that it was another day she wasn't going to wake up. She had sent Penelope down stairs to meet Morgan and have dinner in the cafeteria. It had taken a lot of persuading but she managed to get her to leave for a few hours to take a break.
"I thought today I would read you a story. I know your probably sick of all crime stuff from Rossi so I am going to read you one Reid suggested to me. He said you always wanted to read this to your children of a night when you had some. So I thought it would be good for you to hear it read to you. OK here we go...
Once there was a baby star. He lived up near the sun. and every night at bedtime that baby star wanted to have some fun. He would shine and shine and fall and shoot and twinkle oh so bright, and he said 'mommy, i'll run away if you make me say good night'. And then his mommy kissed his sparkly nose and said, 'no matter where you go, no matter where you are, no matter how big you grow and even if you stray far, i'll love you forever, because you're always my baby star" Emily had tears in her eyes as she looked up from the children's book. She watched the sleeping blonde and smiled sadly.
"And you will be able to read it to them, because your going to wake up OK. You will wake up and we are going to be here for you every step of the way"
Morgan;
"Hey Emily do you mind if we swap shifts" Morgan poked his head through the door to see Emily sitting holding JJ's hand talking to her. She looked up and smiled.
"Yeah OK. Where's your soon to be wife" His smile broadened at the mention of his fiancé.
"She fell asleep on the chairs downstairs so I told a nurse to mind her while I went to get you" Emily laughed.
"She isn't leaving here is she" Morgan shook his head then his eyes landed on JJ. She looked so peaceful.
"Here I will leave you alone for a bit. By the way Hotch is coming round in a while and I think he has a surprise for her"
"OK. So I'll see you in a bit yeah" Morgan walked fully in the room and helped Emily from her chair
"Yeah" She turned to JJ and kissed her forehead before walking out. Morgan took a seat in the chair Emily was just occupying and took JJ's hand in his.
"Hey baby girl. How you doing to day?" He stopped hoping to get a reply but the only response was the beeping from the machines.
"So I here Hotch has a surprise for you. That should be exiting" He laughed and again looked to JJ wishing she would just laugh back.
"I spoke to Reid the other day. He really misses you girl. His misses his best friend and is taking this really hard. So any day now he should walk in here and you are going to be awake for us OK. For him. We all miss you and we just want to know your OK, and sleeping isn't really giving us a good answer" He looked to his hand which was intertwined with JJ's as tears threatened to fall. He tried to fight them back but he couldn't.
"Please wake up JJ. We miss you. And I mean we all miss you. I know you can hear me so do me a favour and stop being so suborn. I know you can win this battle just don't will your self to loose. We are all here waiting for your pretty little eyes to open and hear your gorgeous laugh so rise and shine sunshine because you've been sleeping for days" He smiled as a tear fell down his cheek followed by others.
"We love you and I don't want you to ever forget that OK"
Hotch;
Hotch walked down the familiar hall way and up to JJ's room. He looked in the window to see Morgan sitting holding JJ's hand and talking to her. He smiled as he knew what Morgan had been going through since the crash. He saved her life but won't take any credit for it. She would be dead right now if it wasn't for him but he doesn't seem to understand that. He knocked on the door snapping Morgan from his thoughts. Hotch could see he had been crying and he didn't blame him. This was hard and it was OK to break down sometimes.
"Hey Hotch" He stood up still keeping a tight hold on JJ's hand.
"Hey, how long you been here"
"About 45 minutes. Is Penelope still asleep downstairs"
"Yeah. Emily is keeping a close eye on her so don't worry. Have you tried getting her to go home"
"Yeah, she won't leave until JJ is leaving" Hotch laughed along with Morgan.
"I heard you had a surprise for JJ" Hotch laughed and looked to the ground.
"Well I wouldn't say its a surprise but someone really wanted to come and see her" He looked outside the door and beckoned the young boy to come in. Jack strolled in holding a big bunch of primroses and a huge card which looked to be hand made. Morgan laughed looking to the young boy who looked so much like his dad.
"He little G-Man. They for JJ"
"Yeah. Dad said she liked primroses" He smiled widely.
"I heard there her favourite" Morgan said making Jack smile even more.
"Well I am going to check on sleeping beauty so see you guys later"
"Bye Morgan" Hotch Shook Morgans hand and Morgan looked to Jack.
"Bye Jack" He said ruffling the young boys hair making him giggle.
"Bye Derek" Morgan left the room leaving Hotch and Jack with JJ.
"Dad whats the thing in JJ's mouth" Jack asked looking to Hotch confused.
"Its to help her breathe because she can't do it on her own"
"But why. Aren't her lungs working"
"Not properly but after a few weeks they will be healed and work by them selves so she doesn't have to have that anymore. How about we put the flowers in the water over there so they don't die" Jack nodded handing his dad the card and walking over to the window sill which had an empty vase on it with water in. Jack carefully unwrapped the flowers and placed them in the vase making them all fall into place and look even bigger than when he held them. He ran back to his dad and took the card placing it on the right of the flowers. He stood back admiring his work and smiled.
"Do you think she will like them" He asked looking to his dad who was now sitting next to JJ's bed.
"I think she will love them. How about you read JJ the message that you wrote" He asked patting the seat next to him which Jack sat down in.
"But she is sleeping. She won't hear me"
"Well this is a different type of sleep which is only helping her get better. She can still hear and it will help her wake up faster knowing that we are all here ready for her" Jack nodded and pulled out a piece of paper from his jean pocket. He cleared his throat making Hotch laugh. He loved the way Jack was taking it so seriously.
"Hi JJ. Daddy said that you had to stay in the hospital for a bit because the horrible plane crash had hurt you a bit more than him and everyone else. Uncle Derek said that they weren't going to get married yet because they had to wait for you so I knew that you must have been really really poorly that you couldn't come. Daddy told me you like primroses so I bought you a big bunch of them with my pocket money to make you feel better. I also bought loads of cool stuff to make you a big card so when you wake up its with your flowers for you to read. Emily said that because you have had loads of sleep when you wake up you will be wide awake and we can have a sleep over and stay up for ages. I have loads of sweets ready for us and I am going to build you a supper cool fort to sleep in if you get tired again. Get well soon and please don't sleep for longer, I don't like seeing everyone cry. Love you, Jack" Hotch had tears in his eyes as his son finished the letter he took almost 3 hours writing. He knew how much Jack loved JJ and it was hitting him quite hard like everyone else. Though he doesn't understand all of it, he gets that she is not here and she is hurt.
The two Hotchners sat in silence looking over JJ praying she would wake up.
Penelope;
"Hey Aaron" Emily walked into JJ's room to see Hotch asleep on his chair with Jack lying next to JJ sleeping. It was about 11 o'clock so she knew she had to get Jack home and Aaron as well.
She walked up to him and pocked his arm making him jump.
"Hey calm down it's just me. We need to get this little guy home and I think Penelope wants to come back in for her sleep" She laughed motioning to the half asleep technical analyst standing in the door way hugging a cuddly panda bear and blanket. Hotch laughed standing up and stretching.
"Did Jack read JJ his letter" Penelope asked half yawning walking up to Hotch.
"Yeah he did. I think JJ loved it" He said smiling down to the still sleeping blonde. They all stood for a moment in silence taking the moment in before Jack began to stir.
"Come on lets get him home" Emily picked him up and he fell into the shape of her arms and rested his head on her neck.
"Are we going home now" He asked tiredly with his eyes still closed.
"Yeah buddy. Auntie Pen is staying here so she needs to get some sleep and you have school tomorrow" Hotch answered brushing some of Jacks hair from his face.
"Can we come see her tomorrow"
"Yeah course we can. Say goodnight to Pen"
"Night Penny"
"Night my sweety pie" She kissed him on the head and gave Emily an awkward hug before giving Hotch one.
"Are you sure you don't want to come home with us. Even for like an hour" Emily asked before leaving.
"I'm OK I swear. I promise I will go home for a bit tomorrow I just don't like leaving her" Emily nodded in understatement and left leaving the two blondes in peace.
"So how has your day been princess. I have spent most of it sleeping sadly but I bet everyone has been looking after you. The flowers from Jack are gorgeous and I bet you can't wait to see them. I know we all can't wait to see your amazing blue eyes again" She sat down making her self comfy on the chair with her blanket and panda teddy.
"I was thinking tomorrow we could watch sweet home alabama again before Derek drags me out of here for an hour. Rossi was supposed to come round today but him and Reid got stuck in physio therapy till late and then Reid fell asleep in the car and went straight to bed. He misses you. Really badly. And so do all of us really. I know Rossi will be here tomorrow to read again and Reid will be dropping in to show you a new book he bought and learned over the course of 5 hours. He really wants to read it to you. Hopefully when he comes by you will be awake. I really hope you are awake" She wiped away fresh tears which started falling from her eyes.
"We love you Jay and you need to wake up for us OK. Please wake up for us" Penelope's eyes began to close as she kept a slight grip on her friends hand.
"Please... Wake up.." Penelope was asleep in seconds. She kept her grip on JJ's hand even as she slept.
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Rossi sat waiting for the rest of the team to arrive. His mind drifted to the day before JJ woke up. He had just finished reading his first book to her.
"Hey Penelope" Rossi walked into the hospital room holding a pack lunch and a book.
"Hey Rossi. Why do you always bring food with you?" She asked nodding to the lunch box.
"Because I hate hospitals and that includes the food. Morgan is down stairs waiting for you by the way. He said if your not with him in 10 minutes he will come and carry you out, and he didn't look like he was joking" Rossi laughing taking a seat at the foot of JJ's bed.
"He wants me to go home for a bit but I don't want to" She sulked in her chair.
"I will look after her with my life now go. Have a shower in your own bathroom for once in 3 weeks" He laughed.
"OK. You better keep an eye on her man" She said threateningly making Rossi flinch. She nodded and left the room.
"She is a handful sometimes. I worry about her though. Now we only have 3 chapters left so get comfy" Rossi placed his box on the floor and opened his book. He began reading about the life's of serial killers and profiling. After 2 hours he managed to finish the book.
"So what you think. Better than when I first read it to you or have I gotten worse at reading. I can remember the day you told me about when you were at one of my readings. You told me that you had no idea what you were going to do with your life then when you heard my reading you signed yourself up for the academy the next fall. I don't think I have ever been so happy. Knowing I brought one the best people the BAU has seen since I found it into the business is quite an achievement. You are truly an amazing person JJ I don't want you to forget that and I hope you understand that when you wake up that you will have us all here to help your through anything. You are not alone, and you don't have to hide from us OK. We love you girl, now wake up for us OK" Rossi looked to the sleeping blonde and smiled sadly. His eyes drifted to the heart monitor on the side of her bed. Knowing that her heart was still beating brought a comfort over him. Even though she wasn't awake, she was alive.
"OK so I hear that your boyfriend is on his way. Well it's weird saying that. Boyfriend. You have a habit of hiding relationships from us don't you. You and are genius have been dating for what now, I few months is it" Rossi laughed thinking about the two having a secret relationship when they work with profilers and nobody had suspected anything.
"So you, my friend, are going to wake up so you can see your pretty little boy again OK"
He sat in silence taking comfort from the beeping machine that sent him into a peaceful, restless sleep.
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Reid froze in front of the door. He knew he needed to be strong for JJ but he was scared. She had no idea what the past 8 years of her life had involved and they were all expecting her to remember it in a few days. He knew what it was like to be afraid of your own mind and he knew that all these memories flooding back must be confusing her. She needed answers and they were just giving her the wrong ones.
He thought to when he went to see her the day before she woke up. He hadn't been to see her as much because he was scared. He was scared she wouldn't wake up and visiting her made him terrified that she just might not. But this visit made him realise how lucky he was to have her and that he had his friends there to support him and that he had to have hope she would wake up.
"Hey Rossi" Reid hopped in on his crutches making the old agent jump.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you" He apologized seeing how on edge his friend was.
"No it's OK. I must have dozed of. I managed to finish my book so now its your turn. Don't to fast though Reid, we want her to wake up" Rossi joked standing up picking his lunch box and book up. Reid sent a small smile before his eyes landed on JJ. He felt so awkward sitting with her because he just didn't know what to say.
"Talk to her Reid. Just because she can't answer doesn't mean she isn't listening" Rossi patted the young doctor on the shoulder before leaving the room.
Reid hopped over to the seat on the left of JJ's bed and sat down putting his crutches on the floor. He took JJ's hand in his own and looked up to her.
"Hey JJ" He smiled looking back to his hand intertwined with hers.
"I heard Rossi finished his book with you. I bet it was better him reading it to you the second time than the first. He told me about you going to one of his readings and knowing because of his you started here is awesome. If it ermm... if its wasn't for him I wouldn't have ermm.. you know, met you" He felt a blush creep to his cheeks as he spoke.
"I don't think I have ever told you before but I really do love you. I really do and I don't want you to forget that. No matter what happens I will be here for you. Even if you wake up with no memory or you don't remember up to when we first started dating that is fine. I love you and I don't care what happens. You have me, you have the team that are going to help you through everything so please wake up. Please" Reid tightened his grip on her hand as tears filled his eyes.
"I can't loose you JJ. I don't know I would do if I lost you so please, please don't leave me" Reid buried his head into JJ's arm and let all his emotions he had been trying so hard to hide out. He couldn't loose her. He wouldn't loose her.
He found the courage and turned the door knob and walked in. He quietly shut the door behind him so he didn't startle her. He sat down on the floor and looked to all the pieces of papers sprawled out in front of her. Some were pictures of the team, before Gideon left, before Elle left, some more recent ones. Then there were files, case files. New and old.
"JJ.." JJ looked up to Reid. Her eyes were red and puffy from the crying and her eyes held fear and confusion. His heart ached for his friend.
"Spencer I don't know what to do" Her voice sounded so lost.
"You have a serious case of amnesia, it will be hard but its't going to get better"
"But you said I was doing good, but I feel like I do when I woke up. Lost and confused. I hate that I don't know you all as good as I should and there are so many things I can't remember but want to. There are answers in there but I just can't find them"
"Ask me anything and I will help you, thats the thing you need to understand. Your memory won't come back by itself, you need help and thats why were here" Before JJ could reply the door opened to reveal 5 very concerned team members. Reid helped JJ to her feet and she looked to floor almost ashamed that they had all been looking for her.
"I'm sorry for scaring you all" She looked up and Penelope crushed her in a big hug making JJ immediately tense. Penelope pulled back and looked almost hurt.
"JJ i'm sorry" She took a step back in defence.
"No, it's fine I just don;t get why you keep hugging me.." JJ could see the hurt in the woman's eyes but didn't understand why she was so hurt. It was only hugging.
"JJ.." Emily took a step forward but JJ interrupted her.
"No Emily, I don't want to be horrible but just because you all know me doesn't mean I know you. I don't like people I don't know hugging me, I hate people fussing over me in general, and I hate people not telling me things I need to know. Me not remembering most of my life is hard enough without secrets and I hate it. I get your trying to help in your own way but nobody bothered to ask me how I wanted to be helped. I feel to scared to ask you all questions and I give up trying. I came here to find answers that nobody would give me" JJ let out a breathe as she looked between the members of the BAU. All there eyes held hurt but she just didn't understand why.
"Listen you all look like your going to burst out into tears and I don;t get what the big deal is. We are colleagues and I don't understand why we are all so close"
"JJ.." Reid went to put a hand on JJ's shoulder to calm her down but she jumped back.
"No Spence..." Something immediately hit JJ and her eyes lit up. A small smile spread across JJ's face soon mimicked by the rest of the people in the room.
"You just called me Spence.."
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Whats so special about JJ calling Reid 'Spence'... Have you guessed it...
I shall update with the last chapter in a few days but if i don't by sunday, i am sorry but you may have to wait a week because of school :(
So whats so special and 'Spence' PM me if you have an idea and i shall see who guesses it first.
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