I saw my mother and aunt getting into a lifeboat and my fiancé saw me and ran towards me. "Where in God's name were you? Come with me." He grabbed my arm and led me towards the boat where my mother and aunt were now seated. "_, thank heavens! Come quickly, dear." Said my mother "No mother, I have to help, there aren't enough lifeboats, not enough by half. Many innocent people are going to die tonight I have to help as me as I can, give them a chance."

"Darling, you cannot I won't let you. They aren't worth the breath you're wasting"

"Let me, let me?" I gave her a disgusted look. "They're people too, mother, even if they're not first class old money people."

My fiancé scowled at me. I dashed away from the boats and left my mother and aunt there to cry out my name.

I hurried down the halls telling people where to go. "You are not a crew member," said one woman

"I am helping, Madame please go to the lifeboats you must hurry they'll soon fill."

The ship was tilting steadily. Thomas went outside, "Mr. Lightholler!" he called in aggravation. "Why are the boats being launched half full?"

Mr. Lightholler turned and said, "Not now Mr. Andrews!"

The boats being launched half full were unacceptable! There weren't enough boats as it was. Rose had come to Thomas earlier and was now with Jack on the decks. Outside people were beginning to panic and almost all the boats were gone from the starboard section. Boats were being brought down from the higher decks with great difficulty and many men were forced to let their wives go alone or with their children. They watched in great pain and worry wondering if this would be the last time they'd ever speak.

The Orchestra was beginning to lose its cheerful tune and some third class people that were eradicated from the lower decks were awaiting a lifeboat. Many people were confused, children were separated from their parents and the crew was trying very hard to keep order and the passengers calm while the "filled" the boats.

I moved through the plethora of first second and third class passengers and crew. I searched for Thomas everywhere but I couldn't find him through the mass. I did, however; see Captain Smith who stood like a statue observing the chaos and the fear. I couldn't believe this but I felt little pity for the man. Ismay must have put him up to it, but honestly, twenty six years of experience to no avail.

I passed a first and a third class passenger, "You filth! You cannot come up here!"

"The ship is sinking you bastard! Where else am I going to go?"

"Into the sea!"

I went down from the first class decks and down to the third class. More boats were here on the Port side of the ship but the bow was already very much underwater. I saw Jack running into the ship and Cal following him in haste with Lovejoy at his heels. Where is Thomas? I was exasperated.

I ran into the ship, water was already overflowing the B decks so I knew that there was not much time left at all. I moved through the ship when I remembered my promise to Thomas "_, you also must promise me that you will get on a lifebelt when the water reaches at most 'B deck.' Even if you don't see me get on the boats, do you understand?" I hurried to the boat decks but I was terrified. Where in God's name was Thomas? By this time there was but two or three boats left, I saw Caleton on one and I ran to another one which was filling up quickly. The instant I stepped into that boat I felt a growing despair, sorrow and extreme worry and regret.

As the boat began to go down into the black sea which was about three yards away from the bottom of the boat, I knew this was wrong and with my heart pounding and tears streaming down my cheeks I dashed from the boat. I couldn't I just couldn't! The ship had minutes left. I must find Thomas.

I dashed through the A deck. Some men behind me were saying, "stop her!" and "please, come back, miss!" I didn't listen I just ran "Thomas!" I shouted I hurried into the dining room which was beginning to flood. "Oh God, Oh God!" I ran through the corridors which were being flooded with water rapidly. "Thomas!" I cried again, running frantically through the ship. I looked back out at the grand staircase. The ship was tipping and a huge wave of water with people swimming away from it entered the room. It flooded quickly. "Thomas!" I screamed. Tears streamed down my cheeks. I heard the pounding of footsteps and a loud shout from the smoking room "_!" I dashed through the dining room and to the smoking room where Thomas Andrews looking scared and almost trembling dashed towards me.

We embraced heavily and he kissed me on the lips, forehead and cheeks. Between kisses he scolded me like a child. "_! For God's sake! What are you doing? You didn't listen to me! The boats-go back to the boats you're running out of time."

"Oh God, Thomas! I couldn't leave you here alone! You can't expect me to escape with you here in Titanic alone!"

He kissed me, held my face in his hands. His body was so close. We kissed each other heavily in love, pure love. I was not scared in his arms I had lost myself in his very embrace and tears streamed down my cheek. I gazed into his face. Tears were gushing out his eyes, his hands held my waist. "There must be boats left!"

"I abandoned the last one, Thomas. I love you. I couldn't bear it!"

"_, you are so young, you had a chance to live your life and you threw it away for me!"

"I love you, God damnit! Thomas, you are my life. I can't continue without you by my side! You have shown me so much love and care-"

The ship made a loud crack, creaking came from the walls and the floor was tipping heavily.

"-I want to be with you forever, Thomas. I can't imagine going on without you! You're so good to me!"

"I never wanted this to happen! I am such a fool! I should have done so many things that I didn't do earlier! This ship would be safe, you would be safe."

I kissed him and said wiping the tears from his face, "It is happening, we can't change it." He nodded and gave a weak smile at me after I said, "You remember what you said to me when you told me this ship was mine?" My hand clasped the Titanic necklace he had given me. "You said that as long as Titanic sails the oceans and seas, I will be with your true love. I found you, you're my true love. When the ship sinks it means I will know then that I have truly found him and that he will be mine and only mine, forever."

The ship tipped steadily. "Come on we have to make this as quick as possible, you at least deserve that." He moved to the fireplace and lifted up a bit above him in his arms when the ship tilted so far that he could not hold me up with both hands he held the mantle with one hand and had one arm settled tightly around my tiny waist. "I held his face gently and kissed him. "I love you, Thomas. I have no regrets."

He looked at me and tried to smile. "When we go into the sea, do not let go of me. I will hold you. When you go in I want you to see me smiling not crying."

He kissed me and said, "I love you, _. You were the best thing that ever happened to me."

The smoking room beams split and a great moan uttered from the ship. I almost screamed. Then, it happened. The smoking room split in half we were thrown to the floor the fire went out by the splash of water I held onto Thomas as water flooded the room quickly. I tried to breathe, no air. My lungs were a cold hard box in my chest I didn't see Thomas I felt him though he was struggling like me. The ship's stern section was pulled back up and I felt myself losing consciousness rapidly my heart beat heavily and I felt Thomas' hands wrapped around me when it happened. My heart began to slow, my lungs stopped gasping for air and my mind went clear. I felt weakened and I sank. The last thing I felt that night besides the cold rush of water freezing my veins was Thomas' lips against my forehead.

When I awoke I was with Thomas on the Ship of Dreams not the ship that became a nightmare. He was dressed in his best dinner suit and I in my favorite golden dress. We were on the bow section of Titanic and he was holding my waist and my hand. "Come Josephine, in my flying machine. And it's up she goes, up she goes…"