Not the fav song like I said I was going to do and yes my muse took me down some unknown path...it is what it is. Hope it's not too horrid.
For the past few nights Daisy heard Dr. Brennan leave their room. Brennan would wait until she thought Daisy was asleep, then she would kick off the covers and walk outside shutting the door quietly behind her. Tonight Dr. Brennan had just returned from her shower and was sitting on her bed as Daisy sifted through e-mails on her lap top.
"Um, Dr. Brennan I heard you go outside the other night. I was just wondering if everything is okay?" She didn't ask where she went because she didn't expect an answer.
Brennan looked at her odd. "Everything is fine Ms. Wick. If you ever expect to make a decent anthropologist it would be much wiser for you to actually stay focused on the dig and not my personal life."
With that Brennan crawled under her covers and turned away from her. Daisy said something else, but received no response so she went back to reading Lance's letter. After an hour Brennan went about her regular routine of checking her mail and then waiting to make sure Daisy was asleep. She wasn't and it wasn't long until Daisy heard Brennan kick off her covers and pad lightly toward the door. Daisy could feel Brennan's eyes on her, checking to see if she was asleep before she disappeared into the night.
Daisy laid in bed for a bit and when she was sure Dr. Brennan wasn't coming back in she kicked off her own covers and opened the door to see where Dr. Brennan went every night. She didn't have to go far to find out. Daisy inhaled and stood silently outside their door just watching her. Overcome with wonder and maybe empathy she wondered if she should go up to her?
What she saw was Brennan sitting on a large log next to the fire Daisy and most of their co-workers ate dinner by every night. She had a stick in her hand and she poked the embers every now and then, stoking it and keeping it alive. The flames grew and once she was satisfied with the dancing flames she got off the log and sat in front of it leaning her back against it. Daisy looked on as Brennan rested her head back against the log and looked up at the night's sky, sighing loudly. At her action Daisy couldn't help but look up at the nights sky herself. It was a beautiful night and there were so many stars, one could see them so very clearly.
Daisy looked at Dr. Brennan the fires glow reflecting on her face so that she could see the doctor's eyes were glossy. A single tear snuck it's way out the corner of Brennan's eye and rolled down her face. A face that didn't seem to notice the tear that fell as it stare up into space. Daisy watched as the tear made a track that glistened because of the fire. It rolled down the side of her face and onto her neck evaporating.
As the scene in front of Daisy played out her suspicions for the reason Dr. Brennan had been lashing out more frequently at co-workers was confirmed. Daisy spoke a lot, but, it didn't take a quiet observer to figure out that Dr. Brennan's mood shift was due because of Agent Booth's deployment. Anyone could figure that out, dummy, genius or chatty Kathy.
Daisy looked back up to the sky then looked back to Brennan. Daisy wondered if she should go up to her? Though, crying, Brennan looked content to be alone. Though, Daisy couldn't help but wonder what if she did want someone to talk too? Daisy also wondered if she ever got in touch with Agent Booth? She sighed a heavy sigh full of empathy for Brennan while she contemplated weather to go up to her or stay put.
Well she counts headlights in the sky and she knows just where I am, well she counts time by the moon that time that won't forgive so she writes letters to the president when it feels good to be alone, yeah come on...
Brennan stoked the fire and wondered what Booth was doing? Was he safe? How were his friends and were his friends okay? What were his living conditions like? Was he thinking about her at this same moment she was thinking of him? What had happened throughout his day today? Did he really know how she felt about him? Would he be able to write her tonight? Would she ever be able to speak to him? She exhaled her body heavy full of emotion, a weight that was not going to be lifted and fly her away, no. Not until she heard for him. So for now she sat in wait as the fire gave her comfort.
Well she takes a train that's on a different skies, and she knows just where she is and if the sky should fall upon us, then let the oceans save our breath, and I know just where you been... oh, she's counting all the headlights in the sky, I'm waiting for something to crash into my life...
Daisy was still standing outside studying Dr. Brennan, her back still against the large log her head still resting against it. For a moment Daisy saw Brennan, without her doctorate. Just a person missing another and trying to get by one day at a time. A person who cried, missed and was in love. A person who hurt just like everyone else and didn't understand how to cope with such an overwhelming emotion rationally.
For, there was no rational way to cope with missing a loved one who was in a war zone. If counting stars by the comfort of a camp fire at night helped to cope, then it was rational. There is no logic in love. Daisy sighed and suddenly found herself walking toward Dr. Brennan.
She's counting all the headlights in the sky... headlights in the sky yeah...
Brennan poked at the fire as her mind raced. She took out her cell and dialed the number Booth had given her before he left. She licked her lips anxious only to receive some recording in Hawaii about something or other. All she knew is the line was obviously closed to her. She needed that number, she needed to hear his voice. God did she miss it, miss him. She heard a noise and in one motion her head snapped up looking behind her. Crystal blue eyes met familiar brown ones, and not the familiar brown eyes she wished to see.
Silence linger as the two women stared at one another. Brennan finally broke it. "What are you doing here?" Brennan glared at Daisy.
"I woke and came outside by the fire."
Brennan looked away for a second and Daisy quickly walked to the end of the log and sat down upon it. Brennan was still sitting on the ground although she no longer rest against the log, but stare defensively at Daisy. Brennan inhaled and exhaled her guard now up. "Did you follow me here?"
Daisy lied a bit better then Brennan and even if she didn't Dr. Brennan wasn't the best at reading people. "No, I just came outside to sit by the fire. I couldn't sleep and by chance you happened to be here is well. Booth would say that was fate Dr. Brennan." Daisy said knowing Booth believed in such things Brennan had simply said so herself in front of everyone as she assured Booth while he may believe in it she did not.
Brennan didn't want to talk of Booth, especially with Daisy of all people. "Stop talking please."
Silence linger for a bit, but it was Daisy and she couldn't stay quiet forever. "It's nice out tonight. The stars are pretty."
"Yes they are." Brennan said a bit curt.
"We should each pick a star and make a wish on it." Daisy offered.
"Would you please just stop speaking Ms. Wick." said Brennan as she thought of her latest wish on a star, for him to keep safe and to please get in touch with her again soon.
Daisy felt a bit hurt by Brennan's words, but she was use to them, especially as of lately. She knew Brennan was guarded, knew it was rare she had caught her with her guard down and saw the tear that slipped out of her eye and rolled down her cheek. Booth's deployment had changed Dr. Brennan and unbeknownst to her the change was taking a toll on her co-workers as well. Daisy had started to here the comments about Brennan amongst her co-workers. If they only knew.
Brennan looked down at the dirt and then back up into Daisy's eyes. She exhaled her voice soft, "People here don't like me do they?"
Daisy was surprised at Brennan's question. She was unprepared to give an answer. "They do." Daisy said her voice full of hope.
"Please don't lie to me." Brennan said.
"It's just..."
"Just what?" Brennan asked.
"Lately you have been kind of short with everyone. It's okay, I understand you are under a lot of stress. I understand you miss and love Agent Booth and how hard it must be to be away from him. I miss my Lancelot too." Daisy tried to reassure Brennan of her behavior.
Brennan stood up quickly glaring at Daisy, her voice lowered when she spoke. "You will never understand Ms. Wick! Booth is in a war-zone he is not home in D.C. Do not say you understand something you clearly can not comprehend." Brennan turned and walked away toward their hut.
"Dr. Brennan, wait." Daisy called out, but her calls went ignored. So, she stood and walked after Brennan grabbing her by the arm. Brennan turned around quickly and Daisy drew back a moment. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry. You're right I don't know."
"I need time alone." was all Brennan could manage as she walked up the few stairs to their hut, but Daisy wasn't done speaking.
"Everything will be okay eventually Dr. Brennan." Daisy said and Brennan could hear Booth's voice clearly as he put his arm around her and they walked on a dock away from Sully and back home. "Everything eventually Bones, you just gotta wait for it." Booth had said. Brennan didn't know why but she just wanted to cry she swallowed the emotion down locking it away.
Brennan's eyes met Daisy's and she nodded a small nod yes. Daisy sighed as she watched the door to their hut shut behind Dr. Brennan and then inhaled looking up to the stars.
Well I've saw bitterness and I've heard rain, and the stars came home today, well some say change is all or nothing but i don't see it at all today, and I know just where you been... lock it up throw away the key, patch it up like your broken dreams and I said I can't help but falling .. oh, no..no...
Brennan sat on her bed, grabbed the lap top and opened her inbox. A message.
Bones,
This has to be short, but I just wanted to let you know I love you. The guys found a dog today and asked me to name it. I named him Jasper after that silly pig that you always wanted. Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and tell you I love you Bones.
Love,
Booth
She closed the lap top and lay it on the ground. Sitting on her bed she remembered his words and a tiny smile graced her lips. Slowly her smile turned to a frown and her eyes shut as she let her head fall back. Overwhelmed with grief and a heavy heart, her emotions finally won the battle within and she broke. Her walls crumbled to the floor and racking sobs filled the room as she cried into her pillow soaking it.
As helpless as a newborn child, Brennan lay immobilized with grief and a heavy heart. All she could do was wait until sleep took her and pray to a God she didn't believe in that Booth would meet her in her dreams.
...Yeah, shes counting all the headlights in the sky, I'm waiting for something to crash into my life she's counting all the headlights in the sky, I'm waiting for something to crash into my life, she's counting all the headlights in the sky, headlights in the sky...yeah...headlights in the sky whoah...
I don't like this chapter and this is not my 'favorite song' that I was going to do either. Anyway, it it what it is. At least the song is good ha
