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JANE:

Empty. That's what she felt as everything started to fade. There was no more pain, sorrow, anger, nothing other than her heart beat was sounding. Just one more minute she guessed. A voice was echoing through her head, but she couldn't place it. And the voice was getting...louder? Jane couldn't understand why her silence was broken. There was a thudding sound on the bathroom door. She just closed her eyes and wished the world away.

KAIDAN

He came home from the store with all of Janes's favorite food. Kaidan set them on the table and walked into the living room where he last saw Jane.

"Hey what are you in the mood for for dinner?" Kaidan asked as he approaches the doorway to the living room. She wasn't in there though. "Jane?" Kaidan called loud enough to be heard through the house. He waited for her voice to respond back but nothing ever came. Kaidan ran up the stairs to their bedroom, the bathroom door was shut and he could hear the shower running. He tried again:

"Jane?" Kaidan called next to the bathroom door. Silence greeted him for a second time. He tried the door. Locked. Jane always kept the door open and there was no sound of anyone actually in the shower. He knocked on the door loudly enough that the neighbors half a mile down the road could hear. No response.

Kaidan's heart was pumping faster and faster. I could easily break the door and she could be ok, but what if she's hurt? Kaidan contemplated with himself. Kaidan glowed dimly as his biotics fired up. With one swift move the door was off the hinges. What Kaidan saw once he was through the door, would haunthis nightmares forever. Jane was slumped against the wall in a pool of blood, open wounds across her wrists. Her face was slumped down to her chest, and she looked like nothing more than a doll.

Kaidan sprinted into the room. Steam from the shower made his vision slightly clouded. He grabbed medi-gel from the bathroom cabinet and smeared every last drop of it on Jane's wrist.

"Janey, come on, wake up" Kaidan was practically yelling as he tightly wrapped her hands and applied pressure. He needed an evacuation and fast. He pulled up his omni tool, and still held pressure on her wrists.

"911 what is your emergency?" And operator asked.

"I need an ambulance to my location immediately! Spectre Kaidan Alenko, spectre code 9463095."

"Understood, sir. Can you update us on your situation? An ambulance is heading your way now." The operator calmly asked. For once Kaidan couldn't answer the question asked. What could he say? That his fiancé tried to kill herself while he was buying groceries? No. He hopes for dear god that there was an explanation for this.

"I have spectre Jane Shepard badly injured and suffering from trauma to the major arteries in her wrist." Kaidan said.

"All right, thank you. The ambulance will be there soon." The operator said. Kaidan hung up the phone. He needed her to live, even if she thought that she had nothing to live for. Kaidan needed to know about Jane's demons and if she wasn't going to tell him, then he was going to find them out by himself. Kaidan fired up his omni-tool and made a vid-call.

"Admiral Hackett, I was hoping to come and see you today. It's about Jane." Kaidan began.

Later At The Hospital

Jane woke up and felt weaker than ever. She tried to recall the events that happened over the pulsing pain in her head. She went to move her arms to find that they were restrained. Her wrists were wrapped in gauze and then placed in soft restraints that were attached to the bed. Jane's heart rate sped up at the fact that she was confined. The heart monitor attached to her was speeding up at an alarming rate and a nurse came in the door.

"Calm down, you don't want your heart rate this high after all the blood you lost. It's too much of a strain on your body." The nurse gently chided.

"Where am I?" Jane demanded.

"Your at Central Vancouver Hospital. A man who said he was your fiancé brought you in and you had slash marks across your wrists." The nurse informed her with almost an accusatory tone. Jane nodded her head and faced her head away from the nurse. She took in the surroundings around her. No windows, no décor, not even a side table for her belongings. The room was almost completely barren. And then she pondered what the nurse had said and her heart nearly stopped beating. The nurse said that Kaidan had found her. Jane's face went white at the realization, and wondered where he was. He's gone, you finally did it, Jane thought to herself. She pushed him over the edge. The nurse came back in the room with pills in a cup.

"What are these for?" Jane said as she eyed the pills suspiciously.

"Depression pill and one is to help with the blood transfusion we gave you." The nurse replied. She undid one restraint to hand the pills to Jane and stood there to make sure that all the pills were taken before replacing the restraint. Jane was too weak to fight her off, to refuse this treatment that she was getting. Jane closed her eyes and tried to sleep away her fears, but she knew that only nightmares would come.

Kaidan was furious after talking with Hackett. Jane had left out multiple details of her life that he could have never have filled in on his own. The scars on her arms were from cutting herself when she was younger and not from war like Jane had said. Kaidan learned about the story of how Anderson also found Jane bleeding out on the floor of his home once. Kaidan ran his hands over his face. He knew his anger was at how he couldn't help Jane. That Jane felt that her life wasn't worth living enough to talk to him. Together the two of them were a disaster. Kaidan was always cleaning up her mess. He could hardly remember the strong, confident commander that strode through the Normandy, commanding respect and order. Jane used to fight for what she wanted and believe in. Kaidan wondered if she believed in their future together anymore, or in trying to overcome the demons that haunted them. Kaidan caught a skycar back to the hospital and went to face Jane.

Jane woke up to the slam of her hospital door being shut. Kaidan walked in and stood next to her. He didn't make a move to take off her restraints. Instead he pulled up his omni tool. Pictures appeared in front of Jane. She recognized most of the pictures.

"This one, is of you after Mindoir," Kaidan said as he pointed to a particular picture. A skinny, tan, girl stared towards the camera of the Alliance crew that was reporting on the Mindoir slaver attack. Jane had just been found by Anderson, and this was just before Anderson took her in as his own, and became her father. The only man she ever trusted.

"This one is years later. You joined the Alliance as soon as you could. You were the top of your class, recommended for the N7 program which you also went to and achieved N7 status. This is days before your mission on Akzuze." Her red hair stood out brilliantly in it's bun. She stood in her Alliance uniform with her hands folded behind her back. Her lips were set in a line, but her eyes told a different story. Her eyes shined with happiness, confidence, and the knowledge that she had achieved something great.

"I have two more pictures to show you. The next one is of you after Akzuze. The reports of your mission was all over the news. There was only one caption on every news network for this story: "Sole Survivor." A picture was taken of her coming off of an Alliance rescue transport. He armor was burned through with thresher maw acid, and her hair was sticking up every which way. Yet, she still walked with pride, elegance, and all the poise of a perfect Alliance soldier. The only new thing was that she had just experience the loss of an extended family: her squad. Experience showed through her eyes after this mission.

"And the final one I have to show you that captured the greatness you are is this. She stood on top of the rubble, cradling her arm which she assumed was broken. Saren and Sovereign were defeated. The galaxy was safe, and her crew was alive. She had just done the impossible. Anderson turned at the sound of a rock hitting the ground and saw Shepard. He grinned with a pride and joy in his eyes that Jane was alive and that she achieved her mission. But the picture also showed Kaidan. Kaidan looked up at her with relief, joy and something that no one else other than Anderson had for her: love.

"That final picture is the woman I fell in love with. This woman was afraid to get close to me, but you took the chance and you told me you loved me. I know that after all that we've seen after Saren you won't be exactly the same. But I loved the girl that used to hum in the shower, the girl that would grumble at me in the morning until she had her coffee, and the stubborn, confident, woman that would whip my ass into shape if I was ever as reckless and stupid as you have been." Kaidan said fuming. Jane actually was getting mad at the words he had to say.

"And what the FUCK happened to the girl Anderson raised!" Kaidan finished, knowing he would hit a soft spot with the last comment. He was right. Jane was furious and was fighting against her restraints.

"I. WILL. DESTROY. YOU" She spat out with venom.

"Oh, so you're taking one from Jack's book?" Kaidan challenged with a smirk on his face. Apparently tough love was the only way to get her to feel anything.

"NEVER mention Anderson again." Jane warned, her fists trembling.

"Tell me why you did it!" Kaidan yelled right in her face.

"BECAUSE I WANTED TO CHOOSE HOW I DIED!" Jane screamed back, before realizing that she just told him the truth. Realization hit Kaidan.

"Don't you think that you survived Mindoir, Akzuze, the Collector's Base, AND the Reaper War for a reason? Don't you think you deserve happiness? If it's not with me, then I'll go Jane. I just want you to be happy." Kaidan said, finally calming down.

"How many people have died because of my decisions during the reaper war? My whole colony died on Mindoir, and my whole squad died on Akzuze. Death follows me, and I won't bring you the happiness that you deserve Kaidan." Jane said.

"None of the deaths were your fault! And you had to destroy synthetic life, but think how many species and life you saved! The price was high, but the synthetics CAN be rebuilt." Kaidan pleaded Jane knew he was right. Kaidan climbed on the bed and laid next to her. Jane didn't even notice that at some points he removed her restraints.

"You have to do a mandatory therapy session to be released." Kaidan said.

"Okay," Jane said, placing her head on Kaidan's chest and her hand over his heart. Kaidan leaned his head back to try and see her expression. He was shock that she actually agreed and didn't fight him on it.

"Stop looking at me like that. I guess it's time I get it out. I refused to talk to a therapist after Mindoir and Akzuze, and the Alliance said I couldn't rejoin without doing so. But I made a compromise and asked if I could talk with Anderson about it. But I couldn't tell him anything after I came back to life, there wasn't enough time, and then I was on trial for the bartarian incident. And now, now I can never talk to him again." Jane said, her last sentence coming out as a mere whisper. Kaidan pulled her closer.

"Anderson won't be forgotten, but you have me. Forever and always." Kaidan said. He placed the ring on her finger. And said, "You have to stop taking this thing off, your driving me insane." Kaidan said.

"I will, and I'm sorry….And thank you." Jane said. Kaidan was confused. Jane clarified by saying, "Thank you for loving me through the good times and bad, and through my endless craziness. Your amazing." Jane confessed. Kaidan had never been more shocked in his life. Jane was never open like this, and definitely didn't say things like "your amazing."

"Who are you and what have you done with my fiancée?" Kaidan joked. Jane punched him in the arm. "I'm kidding! But remember always, you are worth it Janey, always." Kaidan said, burying his face in her hair. They both started drifting asleep but Jane spoke up.

"Next week, parents, and lets get married." Jane said, yawning and her eyes slowly drifted closed.

"Those must be some strong meds your on. But I would love that." Kaidan agreed as he stroked her hand with her ring on it.