Jodie and Summer had just finished their presentation and all Jodie wanted was some time alone with Summer. But her cell phone rang as she looked at it, "Hey coz"

She got no response

"Rissa?"

Still no response

Jodie raised one finger and told Summer to hold on a minute, she walked over to another area of the building, "Marissa talk to me"

"Jodie I'm so stupid", came a small voice

Jodie was getting concerned; this wasn't like her cousin at all. She prayed that she didn't do anything stupid, "You are not stupid"

"Yes I am"

"How are you stupid?"

"I fell in love"

Jodie silently sighed in relief, "Sweetie please"

"I knew that Alex Kelly was way out of my league and what did I do? I keep hoping and praying that she would see me…But after last night, I know when to give up"

"What are you talking about?"

"You know the diary?"

"The diary that you wrote about your feelings for Alex in?"

"Yeah"

"Okay what do you plan to do with it?"

"Burn it"

"What?"

"It's time I get on with my life Jodie. Alex Kelly is not going to be with me and I have to face that… So I need to stop thinking that I have a chance with her"

"Hey don't burn it until I get home ok?"

Marissa sighed

"Please??"

"Only because you asked"

"And you love me too right?"

"Yes and it's because I love you"

"Well Summer is waiting I will see you soon"

"Ok"

Jodie turned the phone off and headed towards Summer

Marissa looked at her diary; she wanted to burn it… Save herself from the memories of having any feelings for Alex, but could she?

Dear Diary,

Well I don't know if I will be writing in this for a while… I have come to the realization that there will be no Alex and me; there will be no Malex… No matter how many fantasies I had about her, she doesn't want me… She has Hope… I had a front row view of that at the club….chuckles Part of me wishes she was just straight, I could compete with that…But Hope, and she is like model material… There is no way that Alex would leave a model for me… What do I have to offer?? That's right absolutely nothing….

Marissa

Marissa sighed and threw the diary on the couch and headed to her room, praying that she would not have any dreams of a certain blonde….

About twenty minutes later she heard a doorbell, 'shit it must be Seth'

"Coop"

'It's Seth', Marissa told herself as she opened the door, "Hey"

"Nurse Seth is here to check on you"

"As you see I am fine"

Seth walked into the house, "So tell me how you are really?"

"I'll be fine Seth"

Seth smirked as he saw the diary on the couch, "So what are still writing in it?"

"I won't be anymore"

"Why not?"

"I'm burning it"

"What?"

"I'm burning it…Hope has Alex and I have to get use to that"

Seth sighed

"Don't get all serious with me Seth Cohen… Alex and Hope looked happy on the dance floor and I want her to be happy, even if it's not with me", Marissa replied, "Thirsty?"

"Yeah"

Marissa went into the kitchen and Seth picked up the diary… He didn't know if he should take it and let Alex read it, so she could know how Marissa felt about her. 'Nah'

"Seth" Marissa called him from the kitchen

"Yeah?"

"So where is this mystery man of yours?"

Summer and Jodie were sitting at the conference table eating and going over notes, when Seth walked in

"Where have you been?" Summer asked

"Went to check on Marissa"

Jodie looked up, "How is she?"

"She says her migraine went away but I am still a little worried"

"I will call her and then see about taking her something to eat"

"My man and I brought her some soup"

Jodie and Summer looked at each other

"Not fair"

Seth looked at the two, "What?"

"Rissa got to meet the man in your life?"

"So?"

"Why haven't we?" Summer asked

"I don't know"

"So where is this stud?" Jodie asked

"He got called into work, so he took me to my car and headed back to work"

"So we will get to meet him right?"

"Yes Summer you will"

Summer smiled

Seth turned and began to head out the door, "Oh and guys…Be careful when you two play footsie…If there were more people in here, you might get caught"

Summer looked at Jodie and smiled, "Did you?"

"I thought it was your leg"

The two laughed as Seth just shook his head and left, "Women…I am so glad that I like men"

Seth was at his desk when Hope and Alex walked back in from lunch, "How was lunch?"

"It was cool", Alex replied

Hope smiled, "I enjoyed the company"

Seth gave his fake smile, "Good"

"Hey Seth do you know where the Hunter file is at?" Alex asked

"Umm let me look who had it last", Seth replied looking at the paperwork, 'Shit…Marissa'

"Seth?"

"Huh?"

"Do you know who had it?"

"Uh yeah Rissa did"

Alex smiled when she heard the brunette's name, "Oh maybe it's on her desk"

"Uh yeah I will go look", Seth replied as he walked to Marissa's office, "Please be on her desk…Pretty please with sugar on top"

"What's this about some suga?" Jodie asked

"Hey… I need to find the Hunter file and Rissa was the last to have it"

"Who wants it?"

"Alex"

Jodie sighed, "I'll look"

Seth nodded as he watched the girl look on her cousin's desk, "So you and Summer doing ok?"

"Uh huh"

"Good! I told her not to hurt you"

"You did", Jodie looked at her friend

"Yeah you are one of my best friends and I won't let anyone hurt you or Rissa"

Jodie smiled as she heard that, "I feel the same way Seth…Thank you"

"You are very welcome"

"Found it", Jodie lifted up the file and then saw something in the drawer, "Damn it"

"What?"

"Nothing…Take the file to Alex, I have to go home for a few, tell Summer I be back"

"Ok…But what's going on?"

Jodie didn't answer she just walked away and headed outside

Seth headed to Alex's office; he knocked and saw Hope sitting across from the blonde, 'Damn does she follow her around like a sick puppy?'

"Hey Seth"

"Hope", Seth nodded, "Here's the Hunter file"

"Thank you are so awesome"

"Sure", Seth began to turn and leave

Alex saw a little disgust on Seth's face and she wanted to know what the problem was, "Hey Seth do you have moment?"

Seth looked at his watch, "I have to file some paperwork by two"

"It won't take long", Alex replied, "Hope I need to talk to Seth for a minute"

Hope looked at the blonde, "Do I have to go?"

"Uh yeah… You have paperwork to do too…"

"Fine", Hope got up and looked pissed off, "I will come and check on you later"

Alex just nodded as she watched the brunette leave

"So what's up?"

"You tell me Seth"

Seth looked confused, "Pardon me?"

"Seth did I make you mad or something?"

"No way! You are cool"

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah…Why?"

"Well when you were about to leave, you looked angry"

"Oh I just think I get a weird vibe from Hope and she is always around you"

"Yeah", Alex sighed, "That she is"

"I guess it just feels like in order to spend time with you, she has to be there"

"Oh! I am sorry and I promise that you won't be playing second fiddle anymore… How about you and I do dinner, just the two of us"

"Like ole times?"

"Just like ole times", Alex smiled

Seth got giddy, "I say hell yeah"

"How about tonight?"

"Ok let me tell my man that I will meet him afterwards"

"I am not ruining your plans am I?"

"Nah! He wasn't going to be ready to see me till after ten anyway, work keeps him late… I just want him to know where I will be"

"Ok…So dinner about seven?"

"You got it Blondie"

Alex laughed it was good to hear Seth call her by the nickname he gave her as she watched him leave the office