Hiya! So again my apologies about my absence. School starts tomorrow and im hopefully starting to run divisions in a few more weeks again so i'm gonna b busy. which is why... i thought i would hurry my slow but up and post this after taking forever. please let me know what you think!Also the link to the video i made for this story: watch?v=pxCt94KQdx8&feature=g-upl i apologize for the quality being total crap but i was messing around on the computer one day and decided to do it! Please watch and let me know what you think about it! Anywho... onto the story :D
Roza slid her hands across my forearms before cupping my face, looking me in the eye with the most love anyone had ever showed me. I looked out across the lake. You could see Abe Mazur's impressive cattle herd off in the distance with several young horses clustered here and there. The lake lay on the back side of MH. Roza and I often came here, getting away from things, our hide out. I slid down, resting my head in her lap, closing my eyes for a moment. I took in the perfectness of this situation. There was no one else I would rather share this moment with than her. We often joked about what we would do in the future. She would run barrels professionally and I would ride bulls. That simple. We would eventually take over the ranch from Abe and raise a few kids of our own. All we knew is that we could never be apart. We just didn't know how we could live if we were somehow separated.
"I love you" She whispered before her lips brushed mine. I broke the kiss and returned the words softly, meaning every one of them. She giggled before pulling out from underneath my head allowing it to hit the ground. I humphed and turned to see her stripping her clothes from her body, running towards the water. A smile lit up my face as I followed suit, jumping in right behind her, wrapping my arms around her as we splashed into the water.
X
I sighed as I rubbed my tired eyes. I was leaving this morning, leaving MH, leaving my friends, but more importantly leaving my soul mate, leaving Roza. I knew we would work this out. We wouldn't let me going on the circuit come between us but it was going to be hard. She was about to turn 16, she was in her sophomore year of high school and couldn't come with me. Even if I wished my life away she couldn't leave.
I showered and looked at my tired reflection before throwing the clothes I had kept out on and grabbed my bags and headed down the stairs. I would stop by Momma's house on the way out. I expected Roza to be waiting on me but I didn't see her as I walked through what had become my home over the last couple of years. I stepped off the porch and walked to my truck and finally saw Roza, lent against my door. I threw my things in before taking her in my arms. I picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist.
After several minutes I set her in the seat of my truck and stood wrapped around her, with her head in the crook of my neck, trying not to break down and let the water works flow. I rubbed her back, doing the only thing I could think to soothe her while whispering in Russian. "I Will Always Love You Roza. Nothing Will Ever Change That."
That was all I had to say before she began to softly sob. Leaving her was the hardest thing I ever had to do.
X
I sat on the edge of her bed. I had just come home from the circuit for a week. I had a guitar ask I played her a few songs that I knew from the Casey Donahew Band.
When I came home you said "you're crazy"
Ya know, I think you're probably right
Cause I've been out and I've been drinkin'
I left you all alone again last night
She rolled her eyes as she sat and listened silently. I saw her eyes begin to close and I smiled. She looked like she hadn't slept well in a while and I was glad she drifting off with me. She was so peacefully when she slept. It brought a smile to my face as I continued.
But I've already fallen
I've already lost control
I've already missed
And I've already sold my soul
And I've already cried
And I wish that I was flyin'
But I'll keep on fallin'
X
I sighed. I had swore I wouldn't let rodeo get between me and Roza. But what had my stupid self done? Just that. Let the thrill of rodeo cloud my mind and help erase the loneliness of the nights without her. My sweet Roza. Well not mine anymore. She had just said we weren't working. She was hurting so bad and I couldn't help her at all. Because I was never there. Not anymore. She said she would graduate early and join the circuit with me. She would hunt me down and travel with me. Be with me again. But that seemed so far away. It was January and as I headed out the long driveway of the ranch the enormity of our situation fell on my shoulders as a silent tear leaked out of my eye as I saw a horse that resembled JD run across one of the pastures with a mass of brunette hair flowing atop him. My head hit the head rest on the seat as I took a shaky breath.
X
I saw a Dodge 3500 and an aluminum three horse pull up at the barn and an all too familiar brunette headed beauty step out of the driver's seat. Lissa stepped from the other side and they unloaded their horses, taking them quickly out of the July heat and into the air conditioned barn. I looked to Mikhail, my travelling buddy and he had already picked up the difference. I had long heard the news of her and Ivashkov but I couldn't care less. Her as a friend was better than none of her at all. And I couldn't wait to hold her again. I jumped from the panel I had just been perched upon. I strode into the barn and quickly spotted her as she just got Dinero settled into his stall, munching on some hay. My pace quickened and my heart beat sped up. I scooped her up and she began to giggle. I never knew how she knew it was me even when she didn't see me but she did. Always.
"Roza. You came." I knew my face and voice held so much joy but I didn't care about keeping my usual stoic façade right now. Her only response was to cup the side of my face with her hand and say. "Of course Dimka."
X
His hooves were like thunder as he ran down the alley and turned the first barrel like it was nothing at all. At the second he barely had to touch his breaks before turning the complete 360 and charging off to the third. They charged out with a 14.1 run, leading the barrel racing and making quit the debut for themselves.
I looked at Mikhail with a small smile. They were bound to do wonders in the world of rodeo.
X
I was brought out of my thoughts as Eddie's truck stopped and he opened the door. I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and climbed from the truck. All of my dreams have been like that since I left the ranch that last time. I was planning on going back I just didn't know when. Eddie's phone broke the comfortable silence we had been working in. He answered said a few words and his face turned grim he said his words of apologies. He promised he would find someone to look over the ranch to come help out.
He hung up and slid the phone in his pocket. "We're needed in Texas." My eyes tightened as my heart stopped. I was quick to put my emotionless mask I had been working on for the last month and I half. I nodded. He was my boss technically so I would do whatever he needed.
"I'm sorry Dimitri." He said. I shrugged. "It's fine, I've gotta go back sometime anyway." He shook his head. "No. It's Abe. He's in the hospital. He was pinned by a bull. They don't think he'll last the night." If it was possible my heart tore even more. He had been the father I never had. And they didn't think he would survive.
If I had been there could I have saved him? If I hadn't of run away from all my problems like a baby? I didn't know but I did know that I had to stay in Texas now. I had to help however I could.
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Amy and I had kissed. Once. And then laughed at how dumb we were. If I had ever kissed my sister I imagined that's what it would feel like. I knew then that the only woman that could nurse my broken heart was the mother of my child, who probably couldn't stand me anymore. And if I was being honest, I wouldn't be able to stand me either if I was her.
The scenery whizzed by us as we drove from Eddie's place to the MH. We had our horses in the trailer. Amber was behind us driving my truck. Amy had left for a rodeo earlier in the week.
I had no words when we pulled into the long drive. There was a frost on the ground, it was a March morning and Janine, who had tired looking eyes, met us at the front telling us to put the horses in the barn and that Eddie and Amber could stay in the guest bed room.
I went to unload the horses when her voice caught my attention. "Your room is still where it was Dimitri." I turned and nodded my thanks, afraid that if I spoke I would lose it completely. For a 26 year old man I was a baby. I shook my head trying to clear my thoughts. I spotted the big pasture between Rose's house and the main house and saw Dinero, Fly and JD lounging under a tree, all in their turn out blankets. They looked good for it being winter. I saw Roza's truck and trailer parked near the barn and suddenly knew she was about to hit the road again. I sighed. I wished I could travel with her and help her take care of Alek.
Suddenly I saw a girl walk from the bunk house. I cocked and eyebrow. Hank followed her and suddenly I put two and two together. Hank found him a girl to wear the pants in a relationship. That meant he wasn't with Roza. I mentally slapped myself as I walked Poke and Eddie's horse PokerJo into the barn. I put them into two empty stalls and hayed and watered them before walking down the aisle back out to the truck. Just as I went to open the side door I collided with someone. I looked down into the deep dark eyes that had been haunting my dreams for as long as I could remember. Roza.
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