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Chapter 11
Booth stood, speechless. How did she know both of those things? He thought there was a chance that she knew it had been him at the club, but how did she know about his true feelings?
"What?" Booth felt the tremor in his own voice, but he couldn't stop it. His partner had just blown his mind.
"Booth, you're really surprising me. I thought you were strong and honest. Why have you been so cowardly and deceitful?"
Booth felt those words rock the ground he was standing on, but he knew she was being truthful. He had turned into something that he had tried to avoid his whole adult life- a coward. He had fought in wars, taken lives, been shot and now he was someone that he didn't even recognize. What happened?
"Bones..."
"Booth, I really wish there was another way to do this, but you have given me no choice."
"Whoa, Bones, do you think you're completely innocent in this matter? You have played a push and pull game with me for years. Do you think that's fair? I know that I have screwed up, but you have too."
"Push and pull game, what does that mean?"
Booth felt like he was going to explode. For the woman to be a genius, sometimes she was so clueless. He knew that she wasn't acting, though. The first time she had said those words to him, he really thought she was trying to be cute but he realized later that she definitely wasn't.
"Bones, it means that you have played my emotions and given me hope that we could be together. You would push something in my face, like a hug or even a kiss under the mistletoe, and it would give me hope that we could be together. Then you would pull back and make it clear that we would never be together."
Brennan weighed her next words very carefully. She knew that was true. She had always had a very hard time with her feelings and Booth, more than anyone, had scared the hell out of her. She had wanted those feelings with him, but she also did not want to be hurt. She knew he was being honest.
"Booth, I understand what you are saying. I do. We have played this game for years now and it's just as much my fault as it is yours. We cannot continue on this path and be partners or even friends. We have to decide if our emotions are worth following or just moving on."
What the hell had she just said. Booth felt his anger rising again. She didn't want to be friends or partners and she wanted him to make the decision? Holy shit, he was going to lose his temper.
"Damn it, Bones, what the hell are you talking about? Do you honestly hear yourself? Are you seriously talking about emotions and walking away? I have never heard you talking such craziness. Do emotions get in your way now? Is that what the new change with Dr. Brennan really is? It's certainly not because you've changed into a vamp. I know that was an act. Did you finally grow some emotions?"
Booth knew he should not have said that, but now his emotions were doing the talking. He could not believe that she was talking about splitting their partnership up and moving on. He was really pissed and apparently she was too. He didn't have time to react before her hand came across his cheek. He had never been slapped that hard in his life.
"Booth, you have no idea what you're talking about. You were completely out of line with that comment."
"So, tell me what I missed Bones. Tell me what I don't know."
Brennan was so angry at him. He had no idea what she had been through on the Maluku Project. She had been held at gunpoint by a guerrilla soldier. She had really thought her life was going to end. And when you have a gun pointed at your head, you think about a lot of things. Everything runs together and you want to right the wrongs and the might have beens are everywhere. She decided then, that she did not want to think of Booth as a might have been, but she wasn't used to her emotions running things and when she came home, she ran. She was struggling with this big change in herself and with everything that had transpired between the two of them. And now, Booth was making fun of her emotional state. She did not appreciate that and she would let him know.
"You are being an asshole, Booth."
"Bones, you say I don't know or understand, so make me."
Brennan wanted to turn and run, but she thought about something Angela had told her- Make him sweat. She wanted a response from Booth, so this was her moment. She was going to make him sweat and she didn't even care if someone saw them.
"OK, Booth, if you want me to make you understand then I will try."
Booth didn't really know what to expect. He wanted Bones to be honest with him and let him know what was going on, but he never expected what happened next. He didn't even have time to move before she grabbed his collar and pulled his lips down to hers.
Brennan felt his shock when she kissed him. She wanted him to know what the push and pull, as he called it, felt like. She held his collar and kept her mouth glued to his. She wanted to get her point across, so she used her leverage to spin them around, where his back was pressed to the brick wall. She put everything into this kiss, even if they were standing outside in the broad daylight.
Booth had to open his eyes and stare at the face pressed to his. He felt like it was real, but he had to make sure. Yep, this was Bones and she was kissing the daylights out of him. He had no idea what was going on but he would enjoy it while it lasted. He moved his hands to cup her hips and she grabbed them and moved them back to his sides.
"Bones?" Booth couldn't help the questioning in his voice. Why did she not want his hands on her?
Brennan wanted to remain in control and she knew if Booth put his hands on her, she would not be able to. She was trying to hold back the whimper that kept threatening to come out. That was really pissing her off, she needed to stay in control. She needed to keep him distracted. She ran her hands down his sides, under his coat, and she could feel his stomach muscles tighten. That was more like it. She pulled his shirttail out of his pants, needing to feel his warm skin.
Booth felt like he was on fire. They had gone from zero to sixty so fast he was having a very hard time controlling himself. He felt her small hands start to unbuckle his belt. He pushed his tongue inside her mouth and moved his hand so quickly, this time, he caught her off guard. He felt the warm weight of her breast and squeezed. He also felt her response to that and held on.
Brennan pushed her upper body into his and lowered his zipper. She decided his hand felt too good to make him move it.
"Booth, I want to feel you inside me. Right here against this wall, where anyone could see us. Oh yeah, squeeze harder."
Oh no, Bones was going to talk dirty to him. He wouldn't last if she did that. Although, he did listen to her and squeezed her breast tighter. Booth felt her hand slide inside his boxers as he ran his thumb over her nipple. He wanted their naked skin pressed together. He also wanted her shirt off, but he didn't push.
Brennan wanted to feel their skin against each other, instead, she ran her hand inside his boxers and filled her hand with his flesh. He was so hard. She wanted him, so bad.
"Booth,what do you want me to do? Are you close?"
He could only muster a grunt. He was trying to make his words come out, but the only thing that happened was a moan and a groan. He couldn't help his hips, they were moving on their own. If she squeezed him any tighter, he would lose it. Obviously, she read his mind.
Brennan had never been so turned on. She ran her hand down the length of his penis and stopped at the tip. She felt the liquid there and rubbed her thumb across it. She, then, did something that she had never done. She brought her thumb up to her mouth and licked it off.
"You taste so good, Booth. Do you want me to get on my knees and please you? Do you want me to pull down my underwear and ride you against this wall? Would you like that? "
Damn, this woman was driving him to the brink of madness. Of course, he would like all those options. He started pushing his hips harder into her hand and moved his hand down to cup her through her skirt.
"Why don't I just push you up against this wall and fuck you from behind? Would you like that Temperance? I can feel how wet you are."
Brennan felt herself miss a beat. He had surprised her with that move and it felt so good. She let herself press her heat into his hand, just for a second. She wrapped her hand around him again and moved it up and down. She could feel him fixing to lose control.
"What do you like, Booth? Hmmm? I want to ride you while you play with my breasts. Do you think you'll like that? Do you want me to tell you I daydream about you all the time? That I have played the events from the other night over and over and I know I want more. I want to feel every part of you inside me. Would you like to hear me tell you that I love you?"
Booth was so close to orgasm, but even in his daze, he heard those words. His heart was leaping with joy, but what happened next floored him.
Brennan pulled back and looked at his face. She adjusted her shirt and her skirt, but never broke the eye contact.
"Booth, remember this feeling forever. That's exactly how I felt when Angela told me you were back with Rebeca. I do have emotions, Booth, I always have. I think what just happened qualifies as a push and pull and we're both guilty."
Booth stood silently, as he watched her walk away.
