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EPOV
Like I really wanted to deal with him right now, but he was coming so I guess I didn't have a choice. I just sat there and waited for him to approach me, but I didn't have to wait for long.
He stopped when he saw me sitting on the ground and narrowed his eyes at me. I looked away from him, but couldn't stop his thoughts from screaming at me.
You fucking bastard, I told you not to feed in town. Why the fuck couldn't you just go a few towns over, like I told you to?
I turned and looked at him and I knew that he was furious. I just wished I understood why I attacked that girl and drank from her. I never wanted to drink from innocent humans before, and now all I can think about was having another girl and drinking from her.
I stood up and looked at him for a moment. "I don't know. All I remember is pinning her up against the wall and draining her. I don't know why I did it, but I want to do it again. I want to drink from another human."
"Edward, this is not you. You are not a human drinker. What would Bella think?"
Bella, oh my beautiful Bella. What will she think about what I have done? No, what I intend to do again.
"You remember Bella don't you? Your fiancé. What do you think this is going to do to her?"
Oh Bella, what have I done? Will ever forgive me? I narrowed my eyes at Peter, "You know what? It is none of your business what I do. Stay the fuck out my way and don't you ever speak about Bella again."
I didn't wait for him to say anything in response. I ran as fast as my legs would take me and I knew that he would never be able to catch me. I could hear him trying to run after me, but he might as well give up.
I kept running until I came to a town about two hours away. I immediately saw my next victim. She was beautiful. She had brown hair and brown eyes that could see straight through to my soul.
She was walking down the sidewalk all by herself. Well, she wouldn't be by herself for much longer. I quickly caught up with her and took the step that would put me in her view.
She stopped walking and turned to look at me. She gave me a small smile and began walking again. I listened to her thoughts before I decided my next move.
Her thoughts told me to walk with her. I've never seen anyone so gorgeous before. I wonder what he is doing walking with me? Maybe he is lost and needs directions.
I walked close to her, but not close enough to touch. "What's your name, beautiful?"
Oh my, is he talking to me? Of course he is talking to me, there isn't anyone else around. "My name is Danielle. What's your name?"
"Well Danielle, it is nice to meet you. My name is Edward. Do you have any plans for tonight?"
I hope she says that she doesn't have any plans because I have plans that I want her to be a part of.
She smiled and stopped walking. She turned to face me, "I don't have any plans for tonight. How about you? What are your plans?"
I gave her a dazzling smile and watched as her eyes glossed over. Oh yeah, she is mine. "Well, I was hoping that you would be willing to spend the evening with me."
Ooh, he wants to spend the evening with me. I wonder what he wants to do? "I would like to spend the evening with you. What do you have in mind?"
I smirked, "Do you live nearby?" She nodded. "Can we go to your place?" She nodded again and reached for my hand. I allowed her to grab my hand and she quickly pulled me across the street.
Before I knew it, we were at her apartment building and walking upstairs to her door. She got the door opened, and as soon as we were inside I crashed my lips to hers. She quickly deepened the kiss and I began ripping her clothes away from her body.
She mumbled, "Bedroom." Against my lips and I carried her to the room and quickly removed my pants and thrust into her warm pussy, hard and fast. This was the first time I had ever done this, but it felt so natural. She screamed out at the pleasure and pain she was experiencing. I had her against the wall and I was pounding into her.
I could feel the tightening beginning in my balls and her walls began to clench around my dick. I turned her head with my hand and sunk my teeth into her artery. She screamed with her release, and I began drinking from her like she was my last meal.
With one final thrust I released my cool seed into her and finished off my meal. She never even put up a fight. She allowed me to drink from her after I thoroughly fucked her. I laid her on the floor and pulled my boxers and pants back up.
I grabbed her and walked to the window. Nobody would ever know that I was here. I looked around and saw no one outside. I opened the window and dropped down and ran into the woods where I buried the body.
I decided to run a bit further into the woods where I sunk down to the ground. Once I was sitting there for a few minutes, reality kicked in and I realized what I did.
Oh my god, what did I do? I just fucked someone that wasn't my Bella. How will she ever forgive me?
You cannot tell her what we just did. Are you fucking insane? She would never forgive us. Think with your fucking head for one second.
I am thinking with my head, but you won't shut up. Oh great, I can hear Peter getting closer. Why won't that bastard leave me alone?
Edward, I think we need to talk. He walked over to me and sat down. We sat in silence for a few minutes before I couldn't take it anymore.
"What do you want, Peter?"
"Edward, you are acting the same way Jasper did when he was here. I don't know what is going on, but I'm going to figure it out."
"I don't want your help. There isn't anything wrong with me."
"That's where you are wrong, Edward. There is something wrong with you and I don't know what it is, but I will find out."
"Fuck you, Peter. I am perfectly fucking fine. I think it's about time for me to head home now."
He jumped up and stood right in front of me. Edward, you can't go back to Forks yet. What will Bella think about what you've done?
"What do you know of what I've done?"
"You smell of sex. I know that you had sex with someone. Did you drain her too?"
"It is none of your business what I did."
"Oh, you're right Edward. It isn't any of my business, but I am not the enemy like you think I am. Let me help you."
I stood there for a moment and then I slowly sunk to the ground. I could see her in my mind. Oh god, do you realize what we did? She looks like Bella. The same color hair, the eyes, her body, everything about her reminds me of Bella.
Edward, I know you are listening to me. You have to control this, whatever it is. You have to let me help you. Think of Bella, do you hear me? Don't let the monster win.
I turned to look at Peter for a moment replaying in my head everything he had said to me. It was kind of funny that he told me to not let the monster win, when he fed from humans too.
Oh, Peter, I am so glad you can't read my mind. Whatever would you think of me then?
BPOV
Edward had been gone for a few weeks and I still hadn't heard from him. I called and text him several times, but he refused to answer my calls. I probably would have thought something was wrong except for the fact that I had asked him for some space before he left and knowing him, he was just giving me what I asked for. I wanted to call Carlisle and ask if he had heard from him, but I felt too guilty about my relationship with Jasper to deal with any of the other Cullen's.
Jasper and I were becoming extremely close to one another and it was becoming increasingly difficult to spend any amount of time away from him. He was still erratic and irrational at times, but I found that he was getting better as the days went by. He said that was because of me, and he needed to spend as much time with me as possible. This wasn't a problem because there was really no other place I'd rather be. Yes, it was true, he still scared me with his mood swings, but I knew he wouldn't hurt me. He was also still very dominant in the bedroom, but to be honest, I liked it. He knew that, and I think he thrived off of it.
It was Charlie's week to work the nightshift again, so that meant Jasper could stay here and keep me company, and we didn't have to worry about waking my father. Jasper had a way with Charlie that I still didn't fully believe. I was positive that Jasper had been dazzling him, but if it allowed us to be together then Jasper could do whatever he wanted to him.
"Bells," Charlie said as he buttoned up his uniform shirt. "Are you sure you'll be okay?"
"Dad, you work the nightshift all the time. It's nothing new for me." I reminded him.
"Yes, but as much as I didn't like it, you had Edward around, but now that he's off visiting relatives, you're alone."
"No, I'm not. Don't you remember that Jasper is coming over to help me with my homework?"
"Yes, what's up with that?"
"What? He's my friend and he is keeping me company while Edward is away." I hated lying, but really what choice did I have?
"Bella?" he asked. "Are you sure that you are just friends?"
"Yes, why?" I felt panicked.
"Well," he said. "Don't take this the wrong way, but I really like Jasper and I was just thinking that if you weren't really sure about marrying Edward…" he trailed off.
"Dad, please, I don't want to discuss this with you." I acted annoyed.
"Look, all I'm saying is that you are different with Jasper. You're much calmer around him. Hell, I'm calmer around him. I just feel like you're engaged to the wrong Cullen."
"Dad?'
"That's not what I mean. You're too young to be engaged to either of them, but if you're having second thoughts, you should think long and hard about them." He kissed me on the head and grumbled that he was going to be late under his breath.
I hated to admit it, but Charlie was right. I was in love with both of them though, and I wasn't sure what was going to happen once Edward came home. I sat at the kitchen table trying to figure out this next math problem, but I wasn't focused because my mind kept wandering back to Charlie saying that I was engaged to the wrong Cullen. How did I let this happen? Suddenly I felt two cold arms wrap around my body as he pressed his lips to my neck. I jumped at his touch.
"Jasper!" I yelled. "I didn't even hear you come in."
He lifted me out of the chair and held me in his arms. "I'm a predator, sugar; you're not supposed to hear me coming." He slowly kissed my lips and I quickly forgot how startled I was with him sneaking up on me. He put me down and smiled at me. "I missed you today."
"Yes, sorry the sun was out and you couldn't pick me up from school, but how did you manage to put my truck in the lot?"
"I'm very fast," he smiled. "I couldn't have you walking home, or worse yet having one of those boys who are always lusting after you give you a ride."
"That was very thoughtful of you," I kissed his cheek. "So, are you going to help me with my homework?"
He glanced down at the paper I was working on. "You have numbers two and four wrong." He pointed out. "I'll just do it while you are asleep tonight."
"Thanks," I said knowing it was wrong, but I was starting to get burned out and graduation was in a few weeks anyway. "If we're not going to do my homework, what are we going to do?" I asked as if I didn't know.
He snatched me up and ran me up the stairs and to my bedroom. My head was spinning from the speed. He sat on my bed and placed me in front of him resting his hands on my hips. His golden eyes were staring up at me and I couldn't resist the urge to push the hair out of them. I gently moved the lock away from his face. He pulled my closer to him and rested his forehead against my stomach. My insides did a flip.
"I thought about touching you all day," he said as he reached for the hem of my shirt. "I think about touching you all of the time." Before I knew it my shirt and bra were on the floor by my feet. He slid his fingertips up my stomach and over my nipple causing me to shiver at his touch. He took his tongue and swirled it around my belly button as he reached for the snap on my pants. "My mind always wanders to the night I took you that very first time. You were so innocent and trusting," he said as he swiftly pulled the jeans from my body. "Do you know how hard it makes me to know I was the first?" He pulled me into his lap and attacked my mouth; thrusting his tongue between my parted lips. "I'll be your only, Bella."
I moaned into his mouth. "I want you, Jasper."
"I think about bending you over that piano bench and we will try that again, very soon," he said as he moved me onto my stomach on the bed. He trailed his hand down my spine stopping just at my waistband. My breath hitched as he slipped his fingers inside my panties and rubbed my backside. "I want this too, Bella," he leaned into my ear and whispered, "I want every part of you." I tensed up over his words. I didn't think I was ready for that. "Don't worry, my innocent girl, I won't force you to do anything."
He rolled me over and began to trace my nipple with his fingertips. He was torturing me slowly and he knew it. My panties were soaking wet and I needed him to bring me release. "Of all the things I think about, do you know what turns me on the most?"
I shook my head.
"When we were in the kitchen and I tore those tight little shorts off your body, and I discovered you weren't wearing any panties. Now that, sugar, was the hottest fucking thing I had ever seen. It makes me almost cum in my pants every time I remember that image." He spread my legs open and started rubbing me through the thin, wet material. I needed more. "From now on when you go to bed, don't wear any panties. I need to know when I come through that window you'll be ready for me. I want you totally fuckable. Will you do that for me?"
"I'll do anything for you," I said as I arched into his hand. I'm sure he felt my lust increasing by the second.
He smiled, "Do you want to cum?"
"Yes," I barely breathed out. The friction from his hand wasn't enough. I needed his fingers, tongue or dick inside of me and I needed it now. "Please…"
"Maybe I should cum first," he said as he slipped my panties down my legs. "You just said you'd do anything for me." He dipped his finger inside of me and began thrusting in and out. I grabbed his bicep and forced him to move faster. I should have known that was a bad idea.
He stopped his movement, "I'm in control, Bella, I set the pace."
"I'm sorry, please don't stop."
He reached for his belt buckle and smiled at me, "Maybe you shouldn't have use of you're hands." He quickly removed it and pulled me up to the top of the bed, and before I realized what he was doing my hands were bound and tied to the headboard. "Now I'm in total control. I decide how fast and when you release."
I groaned and pulled against the restraints in frustration.
"What's wrong, sweet girl? Didn't anyone ever tell you that patience is a virtue?" He licked my neck as he positioned himself on top of me. He slowly worked his tongue down between my breasts, along my abdomen and right to my waiting heat. I moaned as he thrust his tongue in between my folds. He roughly grabbed my thighs and spread them open for him. I was going to have bruises there in a few hours, but I was getting used to that. I closed my eyes and lost myself in the pleasure that was Jasper. He continued to lick and nip at my clit as he pushed his finger inside of me. The coolness of his tongue and saliva created an incredible sensation, and I knew I was seconds away from exploding into his waiting mouth.
"Oh…Jasper…" and then he stopped and looked up at me. "No…" I yelled.
He kissed his way back up my body and whispered into my ear, "You'll thank me for this. The anticipation makes it so much better, I promise."
I pulled against the restraints again and he laughed. "I'll give you what you want." He unbuttoned his pants and tossed them aside along with his boxers. His erection sprang free and he began to stroke it as he stared at me. "Is this what you want?"
"Yes, please…" I moaned as I raised my hips.
"So eager," he smiled. "I'm flattered." He positioned himself at my entrance but didn't penetrate me. He was still teasing me as he rubbed his length up and down my slit. The friction felt so good that I was going to release just from the thought of him being that close to me. At this point I didn't care how I got there. "Wrap your legs around me," he said in a low, husky voice.
I did as he asked and as soon as I was wrapped around him he grabbed my hips and forcefully thrust into me. "Fuck, Bella…"
I squeezed my legs tight around his waist and braced myself for his thrusts. He pushed in as far as my body would allow and slowly moved in and out of me. "Jasper, that feels so good…" I was so consumed by him, but not just physically. I felt so deeply connected to him that I was overwhelmed.
He stilled his movements and just stared at me for a few seconds. I could see the change in his facial expression and I knew what he was feeling without him even saying it. "You're so beautiful," he said as he leaned down and kissed my lips. "I love you." He hadn't said that to me since that morning in the music room. I looked into his eyes and I saw the old Jasper, the one that had been trying to come back to me since he arrived in Forks. He was in there, but I just had to find away to get him to come out and stay with me.
I couldn't help the tears that slid down my cheeks, "I love you, too."
He kept his rhythm inside me, but he quickly untied my hands and pulled me up into his lap never breaking our connection. I gripped his shoulders and straddled him. He tangled his fingers in my hair and slowly moved inside of me. I couldn't take it anymore, "Jasper, baby, I'm going to cum…" I dug my fingers into his shoulders and released so fiercely that I thought I might pass out. It was the most intense orgasm I had ever had. He was right about the anticipation.
He thrust into me a few more times and then he screamed out my name. I felt his cool liquid fill me so completely. He buried his face in my neck. Once my breathing returned to normal he gently pulled out of me and laid down pulling me onto his chest. He stroked my hair and kissed my head.
"Jasper, that was, wow…"
"I told you you'd thank me," he laughed.
I stayed against him for a few minutes, but then I began to shiver. His body was too cold for my naked skin. I dreaded having to move away from him.
"Why don't we go take a hot shower?" he asked. "I'll wash your back," he smiled. "Among other things."
"And then you'll stay with me while I sleep?" I couldn't bear the thought of him leaving me, not after what we had just shared.
"Yes, I'll stay all night, but tomorrow night is Friday and I want you at my house all weekend. Can you handle that?"
"Yes," I looked forward to it. "I can't stand being away from you."
He got off the bed and pulled me to him. He wrapped his arms around me and slowly kissed my lips. "I meant what I said a few minutes ago, I wish you could feel it like I can."
"I can, Jasper," I said but he pressed his lips against mine.
"I don't say it often, Bella because whatever is wrong with me takes over, but please know that I do love you." He took my hand and led me to the bathroom. I knew the discussion was closed, but it didn't matter because I knew how he felt.
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