Chapter eleven Should he or shouldn't he.

As I pranced threw the woods, yeah there really wasn't another word for it, I thought about how silly I had been. Jacob was …. wow.

He had wanted to walk me home but I told him that it was most likely best if he didn't get any where near my father with the thoughts most likely going threw his head right now. I was a lot more skilled at making my mind wonder to other things then the things I didn't want him to know.

His parting words to me were.

"Its official."

"What is?" I asked

"Alice is a cock block."

I knew he was joking but my face had turned so red that he tried to make sure I was still breathing. That was my Jacob though he told people what he thought and he never held anything back.

Once I was almost past the Quileute line something caught my eye, as I got closer to it I realized it was a person. I stood perfectly still as their red eyes stared me down.

"Took you long enough." Jane said to me in a annoyed voice. I was starting to think that maybe this was just how she always sounded.

"hey Jane… how are you?"

"Not so well, Renesmee."

"That's to bad." I tried to make myself sound completely uninterested.

"Is it really?"

"Ugh … yes?" where the heck was she going with this?

"Well since the most resent disturbance in my life has to do with you I don't think you truly understand."

"I understand just fine. Aro sent you here to check up on me. Honestly its not that hard to figure out."

"Wow completely self centered aren't we? I was referring to my brothers momentary laps of judgment with you."

"Laps of judgment?"

"Of course that's all it was. Alec is a handsome powerful vampire why would he ever settle for you?"

"Look I don't even like your brother." I started to walk past her but she hurried to get in front of me again.

"Yeah but unfortunately he likes you."

"How is that my problem?"

"So you would rather a dog than one of the most high ranked Volturi members?"

"I guess where you come from that's a big deal but you know there's more to life than just power."

"HA that's what the weak say."

"Well then I'd rather be weak and dating a so called dog then to be totally miss lead and treated like a tool."

"A tool, that's a new one." she stepped closer to me where we were toe to toe. "Want to see what this tool can do?"

Little miss I-can-make-everyone-think-they-are-on-fire needed an attitude check.

"Bring it." If she used it on me I'd jump to get my hands on her. If she was going to put me in pain in my mind I'd put it right back into hers!

"You shouldn't even exist!"

"And you should go to hell."

"You seem to be sending a lot of people there lately." Alec came out from behind me. "Well hello there sister, I thought you would be hunting right now."

"Found someone near by." I stared at her in disbelief was she serious? "Aren't you suppose to be hunting?"

"No I'll still be good for a little while longer."

"Ok well I don't want to interrupt your family reunion." I said as I started to inch back towards Jacobs. It would be faster then going home.

"No I think you should stay for this." Alec said.

"Stay for what?"

"Stay while my sister apologizes for everything she just said."

"Like hell I will!" she screeched.

"Don't hold your breath Alec." Aunt Alice came out of the forest to my side in less than a second. "Come on Nessie its time to get home. "

She grabbed my arm and we started towards the house.

"Thank you."

"Any time."

After a second she put her finger to her lips and she led me up into the trees. We slowly made our way back to Jane and Alec. I could hear them talking to each other and Alice stopped us only a few feet from them. I looked threw the branches and saw Jane with her arms crossed as Alec paced and looked at the ground.

"What is wrong with you lately?" she asked in a voice I had never heard. It was almost loving.

"Nothing." he said to his feet.

"Nothing Alec really? It's me you can tell me anything."

"I… I'm just …." he stammered as he stopped his pacing.

"Just what?"

"Heartbroken." he said in a whisper.

"Heartbroken? We don't get heartbroken.""You might not but I do…am."

"Since when?"

"Since I meet Renesmee. I don't know why, its not like we've really spent much time together, but I can tell that she has to be in my life."

"She's not meant to be and I think its time for us to leave Forks. There obviously isn't anything else we can learn about her. She doesn't seem to have gained any other powers and Bella either."

"I'm not leaving." he said looking straight in her eyes.

"I'm not staying any longer and neither are the others. It's time to go home."

"HA home! That place is not a home. A home is suppose to be somewhere that you like to go back to. Some where you feel safe and loved."

"Maybe its not all those things but home is also where your family is."

"Family, Jane my only family I have left is you."

"That's how its always been. You and me." she smiled at him. It was the first time I had ever seen her smile with out some one else withering in pain. She really did love him.

"Nothings wrong with that but don't you ever wish for more. That this world could offer us more than destruction and death.

"It just doesn't work that way."

"You deserve more Jane. Stay with me here just for a little while longer."

"I have to go back. WE have to go back."

"No." there was no uncertainty in his voice and I was sure she heard it to.

"Aro will not like this." she said as she shook her head.

"Who cares Jane, you say that it's you and me yet you strive to be Aro's favorite. Choose family this time not coven."

They stood there silently for a few minutes.

"You want me to choose family over coven but look at you Alec, your choosing a girl over family.

With that she started to walk back towards the house. I looked up to Alice for what to do next. She began going down the tree, but when I started to follow she started to shake her head no to me. I stayed on the branch over looking Alec.

"Alec." Alice said coming up to him slowly.

"Oh hi Alice. Did you hear all of that?"

"Yes."

"Does my sister ever forgive me?"

"Yes of course she does."

"What about Nessie?"

"Yes she does to." Alice said with a smile. I thought about it and I had forgave him but not by much. Maybe it was the fact that he was trying to change and had even stood up to his mental sister, but I knew he was the same person as before underneath.

I wanted to go down and talk to him but I was sure Alice had something else in mind.

Alec was looking at his feet again.

"Alec you know your welcome as long as you like here."

"I am?"

"Yes. You can have Edwards old room, we haven 't used it since they moved to the cottage."

"Thank you Alice."

"Now come on Romeo lets get you back so we can tell everyone."

"K."

I waited in my hiding spot as they walked away.

Did he really mean what he had said? Did it make a difference if he did. I had just told Jacob I didn't have any feelings for him which was true, but I still wanted to know him. That's all he would ever be to me I decided, just a friend. If he couldn't respect that then I would gladly tell him to go back to Italy with his gothic sinister sister. I sat there thinking it over for a few more minutes before I started to head back home.

Once I entered the house all eyes were on Alec. There was a arrange of emotions. Emmett and Rosalie had angry looks I was sure that Alice hadn't really explained anything to them yet. Jane was angry to but really when was she not. Jasper and Alice had understanding looks, most likely Jasper could feel Alec's true emotions plus he would just follow Alice's lead. My grandparents had sympathy written across their faces, while my dad and mom had parental glares on.

Alec how ever looked like someone had just ran over his dog… wait bad reference. He would most likely be glad if a dog got ran over… he would prolly just act like it was Jacob.

"O good your back ok well we need to have a sort of family meeting." Alice said to everyone.

How could we have that when Jane and Alec were in the room.

"Wow its what I always wanted." Jane said sarcastically under her breath.

Alice acted like she hadn't heard her and was about to continue when Alec stood up.

"We have decided that there is no more that we can gather from being here. However if you allow me I would like to stay behind while the others take their leave."

No one said a word but I saw as a few eyes flickered from Alec to me. I started to play back the earlier conversations between Jane and Alec, then Alec and Alice in my head. I reached to my mother who was sitting next to me and played it for her as well.

"I think that there is much to discuss between my family. May we have a moment." My father said in a very diplomatic way.

"Yes of course." Alec said immediately taking Jane's arm and guiding her out the house. We all watched as they hurried and crossed the river.

"What the…" Emmett started.

"Emmett." Grandma cut him off.

"Why does he want to stay?" Grandpa asked.

"Well it seems that they have decided to leave but Alec is going to stay behind."

"Yeah we kind of gathered that." Emmett said bored.

I was guessing he was kind of disappointed that it hadn't turned out to end in a large fight.

"Is there any under handing going on?" my mom asked.

"Depends on how you look at it."

"what do you mean?" grandpa asked.

"Well he seems to want to change his ways and doesn't think going back to Volturi is going to help that."

"Won't Aro be upset about us harboring him though if he plans on leaving the guard with out even an explanation." Rosalie pointed out.

"That is a possibility, but I think that he wouldn't act so quickly on anyone in fear of pushing Alec away even more." Grandma put in.

"So do we let the little twerp stay?" Japer asked.

"Lets put it to a vote." my mom suggested.

"That is how we seem to decided to keep people." my uncle Emmett smiled at my mom.

"Emmett what do you think?" Grandpa asked him.

"I say yes if all else fails this could lead somewhere interesting."

"Emmett we don't want a fight."

"I say no this is going to lead straight to a fight." Jasper contradicted.

"I say no to we don't owe him anything." Rosalie said as she looked at her nails.

"I think we should let him stay. He could always turn over a new leaf." Grandma said with a smile.

"I think the same." grandpa smiled at grandma.

"I say yes I think he truly has a good heart." Alice said looking out towards the way they had went.

"I say no I don't trust him." my mom surprised me.

"I say no to. I have feeling that he might want to change but it may come to be to hard for him." my dad said.

"So what does this mean it's an even vote."

"No its not. You haven't voted yet." Alice pointed out.

"I get a vote?"

"Of course you do." my mom squeezed my hand a little. "You are apart of this family. You get a say."

I must of looked crazy because I didn't know what to vote. Yes I did want him to stay but if it made any part of my family uncomfortable then he had to go.

"Nessie do what you think is the best in your opinion, not what everyone else wants." my dad smiled down at me.

"Can I have sometime to think about this?"

"Of course we will all gather tonight and tell him our choice." Grandpa assured us.

I got up to go to the kitchen, I was famished. Nothing seemed appetizing to me so I ended up just snaking on some grapes.

Alice walked in quickly.

"Renesmee come with me." she asked in a hushed voice,

"Ok…?"

We went running into the forest until she stopped me.

"Ok keep your voice down."

"why."

"I don't want the others to hear."

"Ok." what was there that she had to say that the rest of the family couldn't hear?

"It's about Alec. He has decided to stay and its not to get more information," she looked at me like I was suppose to be understanding something bigger.

"Why is he staying then."

"You."

"Me what about me I thought you said he was done getting information."

"Yeah we talked a little on the way back. He is done getting information but he wants you to come back with him to Voltara as his mate."

"As his what1?" I yelled.

"keep your voice down."

"He wants me as his mate are you serious?"

"Yes and he is positive he can get you there. And the only reason I pulled you aside to tell you this is because in a few of the futures you went with him."

"WHAT?" I would never do that I loved my family to much to ever leave and I had no desire to ever become a member of the guard.

"shh it was just a vision."

"yeah of the future and that's not the future I want."

"I know and I also know that at this age things are very confusing, so I've been trying to guide you."

"Yea I think you have Jacobs house on speed dial."

"number two." she laughed. "This is your life Renesmee and that's why I took you out here to tell you. You are old enough to make your own choices and should listen to your own heart."

"But Jacob is the one I love not Alec."

"Yes but you are young. Normally girls date and fall in and out of love so many times before they find the one they are suppose to be with forever."

"Did you?"

"Well I don't remember my human life at all you know that and once I was a vampire I saw a vision of Jasper right away and knew we were meant to be together,"

"lucky, but really I know I'm suppose to be with Jacob for ever."

"I'm not saying you aren't I just want you to be aware of everything that I could happen.. "Just as she had finished her sentence her eyes went out of focused.

"You have to be kidding me."

She started to run back towards the house and I followed right behind her.

When we entered Jane and Alec were back.

"So what is the decision?" Jane asked.

"well we were going to wait till tonight to say we are not fully decided." Grandpa said.

"Yes we are." Alice looked down at me. "Go on Renesmee."

I looked to Alec it was the first time I had really looked at him since the say I hit him. I held my chin up high.

"we need to know a few things before we decide."

"Yes?" he looked back at me and it felt like was trying to let himself be the guy I had once knew.

"Why do you want to stay?"

"I…can we talk about this alone?"

"No if you can't say it in front of my family you shouldn't say it at all."

"Please Nessie."

"No!" I half screamed exasperated.

"Fine then I want to stay because I think that maybe you all have found a better way of life than I had never thought possible."

"It's not because you are hoping to take me back to Volatra?"

"What?" my mom held me to herself.

"Not unless you wanted to go.

"She is not going anywhere." my father said coming to stand on the other side of me.

"I would never force her to go." he tried to defend himself..

I felt as my mom put her shield up around us.

"You couldn't if you tried." my mom glared at him.

"Enough." Jane said. "We are leaving if you wish for him to stay say now. " she ordered. "I would much like for him to come home but this is where he wants to be. Is he welcomed? Your coven has always been viewed as a compassionate strange clan, am I wrong? Or is it only to the ones that you believe worthy enough for your acceptance."

Was she trying to help him?

"He can stay." I looked around to see who had just said that when I noticed Jacob in human form standing in the door way.