AN: Chapter 9, as someone pointed out, was just an authors note. It was originally a story but as I mentioned for chapter 10, my computer and the internet were a bit messed up. But I've decided that I like it better without chapter 9 and we will flash back a bit this chapter. So thank you for your continued patience.
The next day everybody at the hospital glanced at Charlie and Jessica's new "haircuts" but the girls just smiled and waved and laughed. Charlie hadn't been freaking out about chemo, but Jessica knew she was scared. So the air around them always had light laughter of Jessica. Because she was being there. Jessica wore a sky blue bandana tied over her head and Charlie wore a dark purple one. They were actually doing this as a fashion statement, Jessica and Charlie didn't feel embarrassed at all. When the adults asked them what happened they just laughed.
But Charlie eventually had to be wheeled off for chemo, leaving Jessica alone next to Derek. While all the other adults left for the hospital daycare and to collect their interns. Meredith's interns were all sitting around outside her room. They reminded Derek a lot of old intern's. Rachel and Jack sat around talking like siblings always laughing. Laney and Madeline were always glancing at Derek and any other hot residents and attending. Ben was a self absorbed intern who everybody loved to hate. Violet and Jacklyn were like Meredith and Christina. Jacklyn seemed to keep the group on the sarcastic side, and loved surgery. Where as Violet seemed somewhat quiet, but had a compassionate side to her when she was around patients.
"Rachel! I am not your sister, and I'm not buying you tampons!" Jack exclaimed causing laughs from everyone.
"It's your turn to shop." Violet pointed out.
"Jack we're women! We have vagina's! Get used to it." Rachel said shoving the list into his hands.
"Defiantly sisters." Ben murmured to Jack before walking off to the coffee machine.
Jessica just noticed that Laney and Madeline were imaging her dad naked. Uh, her dad naked. Bad images, she thought. She shook her head as an attempt to chase any bad images away. Jessica suddenly stood up and entered her mom's room. Despite Derek's attempts to grab her arm.
It was completely dark, as Jessica's eyes were adjusting to the dark she saw a figure tangled in a bed. She cautiously approached her mom, a sobbing figure in her bed. Jessica bit her lip and lowered the rail. Meredith let out a shriek and Jessica tried to grab her hand. But her mom recoiled at her touch.
"Mom it's me." She said gently. All she heard were whimpering noises coming from Meredith. Meredith flailed and Jessica sprang up to standing next to her.
"Mommy, mommy." Jessica repeated desperately. Meredith just began sobbing and opened her arms. Jessica hugged her mom and laid on the bed hugging her. She whispered resurring words in her mom's ear. "Shhhh, it's okay mommy, its going to be alright." Jessica whispered into her ear.
"I'm so sorry Jessica, your not the biggest mistake, you're the best thing that ever happened to me. Ignore what Finn said to okay baby." Jessica nodded and she started crying to.
"But I ruined your life, you could have been a top surgeon right now, but you have to stay a resident because of your hours. You and Finn would've been happy. All I ever did was get in the way." Jessica sobbed.
Flashback
"Please don't, please Finn!" Jessica cried and pleaded back against the wall. He held a knife to her throat. She was only wearing a cami and underwear. The basement wall felt cold against her back.
"The only way your mom can have time to be happy with me is if your gone!" Finn whispered harshly. "You're the only thing standing in the way, we could be a real family, but all you do is remind her of your father. He broke her heart, everyday she sees you and everyday she resents your eyes and your curly hair. Your chin, she resents it. You make her feel horrible every single day." Finn spat harshly at her face. Jessica was scared, she was only ten.
"I just want her to be happy." Jessica said like a scared five year old.
"Okay then just don't move, it'll all be over soon." Finn whispered in what he thought was a soothing voice. It sounded ghastly and robotic. He was going to kill her. Jessica was scared out of her mind. But her mom's happiness was important to her.
"Jessie! I'm home! Come tell me about your soccer game." Aunt Izzie yelled up towards her room, not realizing she was downstairs. Finn roughly shoved her shirt and pants towards her and began wiping the sweat and tears from her face. She stared into space. Her Aunt Izzie had saved her life.
Finn helped Jessica up the stairs, she had a horrible limp in her leg from when she'd been pushed down the stairs. "You got hurt at the soccer game, understand?" Finn whispered in her ear.
Jessica just blinked back the tears and nodded.
End of Flashback
"I love you, you're the most important person in my life. My number one priority. You saved me Jessica. I'm okay today because of you. I never resented my decisions. I didn't even think about not having you. You're my special girl." Meredith whispered into her daughters ear.
"Can dad come in?" Jessica asked with pleading eyes. Being all alone in the dark room was scaring her. All the beeping machines scared her more.
Meredith shook her head to indicate a no. "I'm not ready to see him yet." Meredith said.
"Is it because he hurt you?" Jessica asked sitting up.
"No, he saved me, I just don't want to date anymore." Meredith replied as she gathered the strength to sit up next to Jessica.
"Mom! He came back! You have too! I want to have a dad to!" Jessica exclaimed.
"His house, it's near the woods." Meredith shuddered. Jessica shuddered too. The woods were Finn was currently hiding out with a gun.
"He'll protect us mom, he will." Jessica reassured.
"You can get him then go visit Charlie, she'll be done by now." Meredith said nodding. Jessica got up slowly and motioned towards the door for Derek. Then she raced off to see Charlie.
