Chapter 11: I only wish you knew what I wanted to say.
A/N: Sorry it's been taking a while for this to come out. I have been aiming for twice a week to publish, but my graphic design class takes up too much of my time. Here is to The Weatherwitch and Carolina for asking to update soon and the nice reviews. (Not edited very well, but it's here. I'll go back over it eventually)
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter
When I woke up from collapsing in Hogsmeade I felt so disoriented. I knew I wasn't in the hospital wing. No the bed was too comfy and soft. But if I wasn't in the hospital wing where was I? I tossed in bed a bit more and pulled the blanket closer to my face before I realized there was talking going on around me.
"You sure that we don't need to take her to the hospital wing Moony?" Whose voice was that? And who just put a warm cloth on my forehead.
"Positive, she's just exhausted." The person called Moony stated.
"And you sure these medicines will work that Lily gave us?" A new voice entered into the picture "This looks like blood." They commented.
"Padfoot I know what I'm doing." Moony said a lot closer to me than any of the other voices.
"Do you know what illness she has then?" The one called Padfoot asked eagerly. My eyes slowly peered open at this point.
"Remus?" I asked groggily seeing Remus sitting on the bed staring down at me and fixing my hair around the warm cloth.
"How are you feeling, Kobato?" Remus smiled and grabbed my hand in a gentle manner.
"Just tired, really" I sat up as slowly as I could and looked around. James was sitting on Sirius bed looking extremely worried. Hovering nearby Remus was Sirius looking bothered by something and Peter was just standing off near James with not much of an expression at all.
"I had Lily get your medicine. Do you want to take it?" Remus questioned holding one vial of blood and a vial of potion.
I snorted "No no and no." I shook my head pushing his hands away. I did not want to take anything I was just fine.
"I really think you should." James stood up now and took a seat next to Remus on the bed.
"I feel fine. I'm just tired." I rolled my eyes wanting that to be obvious.
"Then why don't you sleep?" James patted my arm with a warm smile.
"No I'm good." I said reassuringly. "Can we get dinner or did we miss it?"
"We didn't miss it but you're not going. You need to rest." James stated. I rolled my eyes once more feeling annoyed that he was babying me. There wasn't much I could do about it though.
"Why don't you guys go and bring her up food when you are done." Sirius leaned up against the bed post with a smile. "I'll stay here with her."
"What and let you murder her?" James laughed. "Alright mate, be gentle."
"No promises I won't sno-" Sirius started but Remus cut him off.
"Behave, I don't want to come back from dinner to find you two bleeding on the floor dying." Remus clapped his hand on Sirius' shoulder with a chuckle.
"No worries." Sirius grinned and took Remus opened seat on the bed. He gently pulled the warm rag off my forehead and set it down. Smiling he pushed some hair out of my face making me blush "I'll be good. I just want to have a talk with Kobato." He said and turned away from me to face his friends. They all just nodded and headed for the door.
I threw the blankets off and attempted to run to the door "James don't leave me!" I pleaded but Sirius pulled me back down on the bed.
"What you are talking to me now?" James teased and stopped walking. "I'm kidding. You'll be fine with Sirius." He laughed and continued to walk with his friends, leaving me there with my mouth gapping open.
"Oh come on love, you're fine." Sirius laughed. I turned to watch him. He was so relaxed and smug as he laid back on James' bed throwing his arms behind his head and resting lazily.
"Don't call me love." I snapped putting my hands on my hips angrily.
He let out a sigh "Sit down and rest already." He gave me an annoyed look like he really wanted me to rest right now. I sighed as well as he patted the bed for me to sit next to him on the bed. I made a big scene and stomped over to his bed, since he wasn't in it, messed up all the blankets, and snuggled up in it all the while trying not to notice the heavenly smell that was coming from his pillow as I rested my head on it. He let out a bark of a laugh "What you couldn't sit next to me?"
"No I don't want your germs." I teased and hid behind his blanket.
"So you go in my bed. Genius." He laughed and got up to sit on the end of James' bed.
"It's my plan to get you sick." I narrowed my eyes and evilly laughed.
"What are you sick with anyways? Because this vial looks a lot like blood" Sirius commented and grabbed the vial of Triggers blood and held it up in the light.
I didn't respond at first. Instead I stared forward into his eyes then finally when I felt ready I answered. "I'm not ready to talk about it with you."
He looked up at me a bit surprised "But you told Remus."
"I trust him and respect him a lot more than you." I said truthfully while watching his movements. He let out another sigh and then covered his face with his hands. He shook his head a couple of times before he got up and sat down next to me. I didn't feel comfortable being this close to him but I let him anyways.
"I'm really sorry about what happened. I was…I was…"He paused. His face looked full of distress as he searched for the words. Finally he turned away and hid his face in his hands once more before he looked back at me "I was really scared when you landed on the table." He reached forward and grabbed my hand. I tried my hardest not to pull my hand away in protest, but I let him at least to try and let him know I forgave him. "Seeing all that blood come from you was freighting…you seem so unbreakable. And there you were broken."
"Sirius…"I broke his ramble feeling touched.
"I just want to be your friend…but you hate me and I don't understand why." He said with frustration. He got up and shook his hair with his hands and then kicked the bedside table. "Whhhy" he whinned.
"I don't hate you." I laughed saying it frankly.
I watched as his turned quickly to me in disbelieve and his face perked up like a little puppy. "Really?" He asked with so much hope it was almost adorable…god I must be losing my mind.
"I never hated you." I smiled as he took a seat next to me looking relived. "I just hate your pompous egotistic attitude about life."
"Oh…" his face dropped "Do you really think I'm ugly too then? You said that before that I was ugly."
"Of course" I said truthfully but then when I saw his face I changed my mind "You're just not my type. I'm sure you're very good looking otherwise why would all those girls want you?" I don't know why I was inflating his ego, I guess I was just used to him always being so pompous that the side he was showing me right now felt out of place.
"You're right, I am good looking." He puffed his chest out in a cocky sort of manner. "But I need all the girls to think so."
I laughed "You don't have to be the best at everything, Sirius."
"I do though…so tell me what can I do to make myself look better for you?" He leaned in close. He was really curious for some odd reason.
"Hmmm…I'll tell you another time." I let out a yawn. I was feeling tired now. Though I was having a lot of fun with Sirius, I wanted to sleep.
"Promise?" he held up his pinky and I took it with a goofy grin.
"Promise." I laughed and laid my head back down on his pillow.
"And Kobato?" He asked cautiously with a smile.
"Yeah Sirius?" I peeked my eyes open again wondering what he wanted.
"I…I mean…I understand if you don't want too…but" He fidgeted for a second not showing his real confidence that he usually had. I didn't let him struggle anymore.
"Yes." I said not even knowing the answer.
"What?" He asked snapping out of his ramble looking at me confused.
"You heard me, yes" I said with a smirk before turning over to go back to sleep.
"I didn't even get to ask you anything yet…"he said still confused.
"With the way you were rambling, I'll agree to anything because Sirius Black does not ramble. If he wants something he gets it. And if Sirius Black doesn't get what he wants, he uses his charm. End of story."
"This is true" He nodded in agreement. "So you'll still try and be my friend?"
He finally said what he wanted to say. "I already agreed." I laughed.
"Good girl." He ruffled my hair with a big grin on his face.
From there Sirius let me sleep until the other boys brought me up some food. Over all it was a great evening where we all chatted and had a great time. Though are enjoyment didn't last too long. Soon we were back in school with tons of homework and with Qudditch coming up. There wasn't much time for fun. And yes Sirius and I did try to be friends from here on out but we were just too busy and we found we fought more times than not. There was even one nasty occasion were I sent Sirius to the hospital wing with more than a broken arm. This didn't dent our hope that we would stop fighting yet. We kept on trying to be friends more and more, but I found I was getting closer to James and Remus if anything. I found though too that when I was closer with James it really annoyed Lily to no end. So then I would start to push away and not be as close to James…which would cause more fights. I was also starting to see some tension between Lily and Snape. It was getting worse and worse as the days went by. Snape was growing restless like the rest of the Death Eater wannabes and were ready to join the fight with Voldemort. Lily of course hated this side of Snape and found herself getting ridiculed a lot for it. She didn't want to be friend him, but yet she couldn't understand why Snape didn't call her a mudblood but yet he called everyone else one who came from her same background. She was oblivious to his love and he was blind against his flaws.
It was about a month later after Valentine's day and I was currently fuming over a fight that Sirius and I had started during Transfiguration. It was right before dinner so I was just wondering around the castle aimlessly trying to blow some steam when I stumbled upon a nasty fight Lily and Snape were having.
"Look Sev, I can't do this anymore!" Lily threw her arms up in defeat.
"Lily, no…"Snape protested grabbing her arm gently trying to stop her from walking away. She had already turned around and saw me though.
"Kobato!" Lily pushed Snape off and started running happily towards me before she turned her face back into a nasty scowl. "Tell him his friends are horrid!"
I stood there stunned for a bit and then I exchanged looks between Snape and Lily feeling confused as to why I was getting dragged into this. "What?" I questioned stupidly. I knew what was going on. Lily hated his friends and Snape was oblivious to why.
"I just saw him and his friends hexing a second year because she was a muggleborn!" Lily cried feeling truly upset.
I didn't know what to say to this. I knew his friends did that, I had witnessed a few and tried to stop them, but I didn't think Snape usually participated. I frowned and looked over at Snape to see if this was true. His face was set in stone and the only thing it wore was his usual glum expression.
"Lily…calm down, I'm sure there's a reason." I sighed knowing that there really was no good explanation for that. Lily and I both turned to Snape, who was no looking confused.
"I…I'm sorry. I should have told them to stop." He spluttered out.
"But you didn't Sev! What if that was me? Would you let them?" She spat angrily. I really wanted to leave at this point. This did not concern me at all. Why was I getting dragged into it?
"I…Lily of course not! I lo-" Snape started but didn't get to finish because Lily was too busy being upset and cut him off.
"No save it! I don't believe you." Lily shook her head disapprovingly and stormed off. "Kobato are you coming?" She nearly yelled at me as I stood there still feeling stunned at what just happened.
"What…oh, yeah. Yeah I am." I said still looking deep into Snapes eyes. He though only had eyes for Lily who was staring impatiently at me. I sent an apathetic smile to Snape before grabbing onto Lily's arm to walk with her to dinner.
"Ugh! The nerve of him, I can't believe I am still friends with him." Lily fumed in a way that didn't let me protest. I did agree with her what Snape was doing was wrong, but he was lost and confused. He wasn't sure what he wanted at this point. Even I could tell that. He was under a lot of peer pressure and was just doing what his peers wanted him to do. I feel if he was in a different house things might have turned out different for him, but he wasn't and that's what I think made all the difference in the future.
"Come on Lils, you've been friends with him for so long, give him another chance." I added hopefully more for Snape's sake.
"I know…but Kobato, it was really awful. I saw the whole thing." She sighed and looked over at me. Tears were streaking down her face. She was crying.
"Let's not worry about it and get some dinner." I smiled affectionately and pulled her to the great hall.
We found a spot as far away from everyone else as we could and were soon joined by Raven. She was a lot more helpful with Lily's rage towards Snape then I was. I thought the poor guy deserved another chance, no one else felt that way. They chatted angrily all the while I just watched as more tears glided down Lily's beautiful face.
"Oh god…"I finally spoke up as I saw James and his friends come into the great hall. Surely they would notice us and have a full on questionnaire about what happened.
"What's up Kobato?" Raven asked as I tried to make us less noticeable by diving into my food with full attention.
"Code 2319" I said in a quick whisper our code for when the James and his crew come to bother us. When it was Slytherins it was code 1580. Who thought of these I don't know, but it's been our habit for some time now.
"And they are coming this way…I'm leaving!" Lily hurriedly while getting up and unfortunately for her she didn't get very far because James was already smiling adoringly at her.
"Lily-flower! Where are you go-"He stopped himself noticing her face had tears on it "What happened?" his voice did have some concern in it, but the fact that it was in the Lily voice really upset me…and annoyed me. It wasn't like James at all. I knew he had it in him to be a real gentleman.
"None of your business!" Lily shouted brushing her face of any remaining tears. "Just leave me alone you annoying dirty toe-rag!" She smacked him hard across the face and stormed off leaving James with the biggest looking wounded ego I have witnessed yet.
"Oh god…I'll go get her." Raven sighed. I just nodded. Lily got pissed at James but never that bad too actually hit him. Raven understood this and knew how to handle Lily better than I did when she was like this.
"Yeah that will be best." I said as she was already half way gone and sighed as James, took Lily's open seat, Peter next to him and on my sides Sirius and Remus sat down.
"What was wrong with her?" James now asked looking at me concerned.
I just rolled my eyes "It's not my place to say." I answered truthfully.
"Come on, we are best mates" James smiled hopefully.
"James Potter…" I sighed "No, I said it's not my place just stay out of it." I snapped and got up as well deciding I would rather go to the Slyhterin table now that it's not peaceful here anymore. I looked around for some familiar faces to eat with which took me way longer then I wanted. By the time I started walking over to a sulking Snape I already had Sirius and James on my back. "Can I sit here?" I quickly asked Snape hoping that the boys would just leave me alone if I was at the Slytherin table.
"Don't sit with that slimy git." James protested as I was attempted to sit with Snape.
"Shut up Potter." I spat feeling even more annoyed that they didn't get the hint.
"Kobato…"He gasped that I used his last name.
"What? Can't you take a stupid little hint? Leave us alone!" I shouted feeling angry at them for bothering Lily even more then she already was and for exasperating me for answers.
"Kobato we just asked a question. You don't have to run away." Sirius smiled kindly at me. For some odd reason I listened. I stepped away from the Slytherin table. "Come on and sit with us." He held out a hand for me to take. But I didn't get to grab it like I intended too.
"Not her too…"I heard Snape mutter as I was about to grab Sirius' hand. Mid-way through I stopped feeling bad for what just happened. "Leave her alone you two!" Snape shouted out for everyone to hear this time and pulled out his wand. And before I knew it they were dueling in front of my eyes, all the students and all the teachers.
"NO!" I screamed attempting to stop them with my wand. And before I knew it someone from the Slytherin had pushed me aside and joined the duel. It was now Avery, Snape, Malfoy, and Mulcubier against James, Sirius, Peter, and Remus. I continued to scream and protest in any case trying to cast shielding charms on anyone I could. "Please stop!" I felt my heart breaking I didn't want this fight not now…but I didn't have to protest for very long before teachers were breaking apart the battle that was going on between the students.
Everyone who was involved in the battle got to serve a detention but me. I managed to get away free because I was trying to break it up and the teachers realized that, especially because I couldn't stop crying. Finally McGonagall grew weary of my crying and had Remus escort me to the Gryffindor tower. It was a slow walk there too. Remus didn't say anything because he knew I was upset. That was one thing I liked about him, he always seemed to know what I wanted without me having to say it. I was so grateful of his company that by the time we got to the Gryffindor tower I wanted to hang out with him, but when I saw Lily and Raven huddled by the fire I remembered Lily and thought her need was greater than mine. So I bid Remus fair well and took a seat next to the girls.
Lily saw me approaching first and gladly made room for me but stopped when she noticed my face was wet with tears. "What happened?" She asked as I took a seat next to her.
"I hate boys" Was all I found fit to say.
"I'm guessing the boys didn't leave you alone after I left?" Raven sighed trying to fill in the gaps.
"No they didn't…and they caused a big scene." I leaned onto Raven and smiled up at her "At least they all got detention."
Raven and Lily laughed happily at this "Good" they both said at the same time.
"Snape too." I added as an afterthought. "They all dueled over me…and a bit of you too Lily now that I think about it." I added since they had quizzical looks upon their faces.
"See you are one lucky girl!" Raven laughed clapping me on the back.
"Yeah something like that" I grinned. "But I'm not the one with the boyfriend" I said while poking Raven in the side.
"Things aren't going to well with mine right now…"Raven said heaving a heavy sigh.
"You either?" Lily asked.
"Wait, things aren't going good for you and Robinson?" I raised an eyebrow. As far as I knew they were going great ever since Valentine's day.
"No not really…" Lily made a face before stretching out on the carpet by lying on her stomach to face Raven and I. "He's blaming me for all the accidents and hexes he's been receiving." Lily rolled her eyes feeling upset. In truth it was her fault because I knew James was behind most of them because he was jealous. It wasn't fair to Lily but he wouldn't listen to that. If he couldn't have his 'Lily-flower' no one could.
"That's not fair…" Raven said flat out. "It's not your fault James is a prick…I mean we all know he's behind it."
"I don't think…well okay it probably is that slimy jerk." Lily flipped her hair and glared over to the portrait hole where James, Sirius and Peter had just made their way in. We all turned to watch them as James and Peter headed up to the dorms looking defeated and Sirius made his way over to us. Once we realized he was heading towards us we all quickly turned away and acted like we were still talking.
"What about you? What's wrong with you and your boyfriend Rav?" I asked trying to fill in and make us look innocent.
"Just youth being youth. A little of he-" Raven got cut off by Sirius who finally was standing behind me.
"Kobato? Can you come with me?" He asked in his sweet voice that he used when he wanted favors from the ladies.
"Why?" Lily glared at him with distaste answering for me. I turned to look at Sirius at this point. He was wearing a charming smile and stood lazily with his hands in his pockets.
"I'm upset and I need a good snog." He said bluntly.
"What?" All three of us girls seemed to shout at once.
"It was a joke." He laughed but yet rolled his eyes not seeing how we didn't think he was kidding. "So can we hang? James is being a joy kill." He held a hand for me to take. I didn't grab it, rather I looked at Lily hoping she would protest or even Rave would say no. I didn't want to leave them. It was girl time, why should I let Sirius ruin that.
Ugh…I can't believe him some times. Didn't he know when enough was enough? When I didn't want him there? And seriously…half the time he asked to hang out with me was because he didn't have a girl he could easily snog at hand so he would settle for talking to me instead because he needed some female attention. I picked this up quick over the last month. And I knew currently he didn't have a girl to snog, he could have picked one easily, but when he doesn't feel like searching for that company to fill the hole in his heart from the lack of female love his life has received he would turn to me. I grew weary of it fast. And that's what our recent fights have been about…I will never understand that boy.
After a while of me ranting in my head still no one said anything, which meant Lily and Raven couldn't think of an excuse to let me stay. I had to go.
"Fine" I heaved an angry sight, took his hand, and got up to walk around with him away from prying eyes. I say away from prying eyes because if we were seen in the open rumors would fly and I refused to be the center of rumors that involve him.
"Why are you so tense? Relax punk." He ruffled my hair with a playful smile.
"I'm tense because I don't want to be with you. Lily's upset and I'd rather be with her." I said while narrowing my eyes at Sirius as we made our way to the portrait hole.
"Darling everyone wants to be with m-"He stopped at the harsh look I was giving him. "Okay okay okay…so you don't want to be with me" He laughed at his defeat.
"So can I go now that we have that settled?" I asked irritated as I folded my arms showing my displeasure.
"No, I'm still bored." He grinned and dragged me down the stairs to a secret passage way.
"Sirius!" I whined but he never listened to my whining. He found it rather amusing "Can we go to the kitchens? I didn't get much of a dinner."
"Sure anything for you" he flashed his charming smile with a wink. I ignored it. It was just a habit of his because he is always attempting to impress the ladies. The more attention, the better for him and the less likelihood he was to be lonely. I find that when he isn't feeling lonely (which is hardly ever...no girl has really ever filled that gap for him) he is more tolerable. His smooth seducing comments on the ladies are a lot less, which I find more attractive than his pompous usual self.
"You say that to every girl." I noted letting out a laugh.
"Because every girl is worth it" He commented right back without missing a beat.
"Or worth a good snog" I laughed. I realize now I could stand these comments more if I teased him, it kept me from hexing him more often than not and I found it to be a lot of fun. "Except me…why do you keep me around? I never let you snog me" I questioned while tapping my finger on my lip a habit I do while thinking.
"We're friends. Friends don't snog even if they have never been kissed." He teased right back with a big grin. "I mean we could if you-"
"Save it, I'd snog Peter over you." I said "Wait no…no I'd defiantly pick you. Peter looks like a rat. He might chew my face off." I said changing my mind and skipping down a couple of trick stairs.
Sirius let out a great laugh "He just might…and I have to keep that in mind that you'd pick me over Peter." He grinned.
I threw a nasty glare "Keep dreaming" and I pointed to my lips "See these? They will not touch" than poked his lips "these until Lily has admit her undying love for James." I said than realizing that Lily and James do fall in love at one point, but by then hopefully Sirius wouldn't remember this. I only had to make him fall in love with me, I didn't have to snog him right?
"Deal" He smirked and held out a hand for me to shake. I gladly took it and sealed the promise still wishing in my heart he would forget. "By then I will have snogged every good looking girl in the school, save Lily."
"What so this is all a game to you?" I teased knowing it probably was.
"Not fully." Sirius said right away "I…" He stopped for a moment searching for the right words. "I truly do find interest in them at one point. Sure it may be their looks, but after a while they just get so annoying."
I let out a laugh "That's because the girls only want you since you are Sirius freakn Black." I laughed a bit more "They just want to say they did you."
"I'm that special? I didn't know that." He grinned playfully as we reached the portrait of the fruit bowl. "It's your turn to tickle the pear." His smile faded from playful to devious in a matter of seconds.
"What?" I stared at him. He knew full well I could reach it by myself. "Black, just reach up and touch it" I crossed my arms and gave him a glare.
"I'll help." I didn't get time to respond to him as he was already picking me up and setting me on his shoulder so I could reach for the pear. I was not expecting this at all and I found a scream was already escaping my lips as I was on his shoulders. I felt Sirius let out a laugh of enjoyment as I struggled wanting nothing more to get down. "Calm down and just tickle the pear!" He laughed a bit more making me feel like I was going to fall.
"I don't want to tickle the pear!" I cried in protest, but I knew the sooner I did it the sooner he would let me down.
"Oh come on, just one little tickle" Sirius asked shifting me a bit so my weight was a little bit easier to manage.
Finally I reached forward thinking how awkward our conversation must have sounded if anyone was just listening and not watching us. The thought made me laugh as I attempted to reach for the pear. But I think Sirius had the same thoughts as me because soon I found we were both on the ground haven fallen. I was sitting right on top of him full out laughing as was he. I didn't bother moving since tears were now streaking down my eyes from laughing so hard. Sirius was laughing just as hard.
We didn't stop laughing until we heard a loud scream fill our ears from somewhere behind us. Sirius quickly threw me off him and I didn't protest the way I landed made it look like the two of us were doing something very suspicious. Slowly I looked over at where Sirius was staring. It was one of the Basekerville twins staring right at us looking horrified. I figured it wasn't Lu since Lu was in Slyhterin, so it had to have been Autumn who was in Hufflepuff. She stared right at us looking dumbfounded before running off crying.
Sirius and I didn't stay anything at first. We just sat there staring where the girl was then at each other and back to where the girl was for a good five minutes before we started spluttering words.
"You-" We both started.
"What…"He said scratching his head in confusion.
"She…" I muttered shaking my head.
"No…" his eyes widened.
"Was that?" I asked an improper sentence.
"I think…" He started then we both finally stopped and started laughing. "The whole schools going to think we did the deed." Sirius finally said through his laughs.
"Oh my goodness! Wait wait wait!" I quickly said "Was that Lu or Autumn. I assumed it was Autumn, but it matters who she is." I said letting the fear fill me.
"Why would it matter? I thought it was Lu." Sirius stopped laughing looking dumbfounded.
"I thought it was Autumn." My eyes widened. "We have to find her! If it was Lu the Slyhterin's will know first." I quickly stood up and panicked trying to figure out which way she went from here.
"Why does it matter?" He repeated again now standing up next to me.
"Slytherin's? They will hate me then if they think I did the deed with you!" I nearly shouted out to him.
"Problem? They are slimy gits. Losing them as friends shouldn't matter to you." He said seriously and with a bit of anger too.
"Oh…yeah I suppose your right." I sighed "It was just nice not having them as enemies." I laughed truthfully.
"You can defend yourself, I would know." Sirius clapped a hand on my shoulder "Let's get out of here before she brings back friends." And with that he led me back up to the Gryffindor tower.
"The damage is done…"I stated for no reason. We already knew how fast the rumors could spread and one like this… well I'd give it till right before lunch for the whole school to know.
"We could just play it up, act like we are together." He smirked still guiding me up to the tower.
"And lie?" I raised an eyebrow and watched as he nodded "Sirius Black, no. I do not lie." I said disapprovingly.
"Oh you are such a kill joy." He sighed and finally let go of my back. "And you do too lie, you're a damn good one too."
"We just had enough excitement for one night." I said ignoring his comment and feeling exhausted even if all we did was walk to the kitchens. "Ugh…and I have to finish my Potions paper." I groaned.
"I finished mine so I'll help you." It was the first time he had ever offered to help me. To be honest I was a little shocked by his words. He must have noticed it "What? You don't think I'm capable of being nice?" He chuckled.
"Don't you have someone to snog?" I teased right back.
"Not anymore…once that rumor gets out, I'll be solo for a while and you'll be getting hexed left and right." He let out a defeated sigh and then laughed at the thought of me being hexed by someone other than him.
"I don't find it funny. You know how nasty those fangirls are?" I raised an eyebrow feeling annoyed.
"Not really, I just know how annoying they are." He answered straightforwardly with a smile. "Oh well, it's good to be wanted." He added with a cocky attitude.
"Yes well…" I didn't have a response to him. Usually I would have hexed him for something like that, but there was no point in doing that now.
Sirius and I made it up to the common room in no time. And together he and I finished my Potion essay with relative ease somewhere around 12 at night. By then I was already exhausted and ready for bed. So gladly I went to bed forgetting all the events that had taken place earlier. So it was a bit of shock when Raven, Lily and I made our way to the great hall to find that almost all the Slyhterins and some Ravenclaws were pointing at me with amazed looks upon their faces. Oh god, it was Lu and not Autumn.
"What's going on?" Raven finally asked as we sat down close the teachers trying to escape the stares and whispers. "Seriously…it's one of us three and I didn't do anything."
"I don't think I did…" Lily looked around wondering what was going on as well.
"I wish I could say that…" I guiltily said still trying to hide my face in my morning bagel.
"What happened?" both Lily and Raven asked at the same time.
"Not what everyone seems to think happened." I lowered myself into my seat even more attempting to ignore the dirty stares the fangirls were giving me as more and more girls started to gossip and spread the word of what so called happened with Sirius and I last night.
"Well?" Raven poked me curiously but cautiously at the same time. She knew I wasn't too thrilled with what was going on right now.
"I am sure right about now everyone is saying the same thing to each other" I answered wearily before carrying on. "After Sirius and I left the common room we headed for the kitchens since I didn't get to really eat dinner a-" I was cut off by none other than Sirius himself.
"Why aren't you sitting with me?" He questioned with a hint of sarcasm in his voice. "I mean we are dating after all." He smirked.
Lily and Raven looked between the two of us feeling confused. I ignored them and answered feeling aggravated with Sirius "We are not blowing this out anymore." I said firmly throwing my hands over my face in an effort to hide.
"I was only kidding…but it does look like it was Lu." He sighed and furrowed his brows. "I'm sorry it's all my fault the Slytherin's are looking ready to kill you."
"I can fix that, I can't fix the fangirls" I looked over at the Slytherins and sure enough they looked ready to murder me. That would be easy. The girls who looked more than ready to murder me, not so much…
"So why not just sit with me then?" He asked thoroughly meaning it.
"No." I said flat out. "I'm not making this worse for myself."
"Oh come on! We are friends." He pouted.
I got up from my seat feeling annoyed with his enjoyment of this whole situation. "Look you" I started but Sirius quickly grabbed my wrist and lead me down to where the boys where. I sent a couple of looks to Raven and Lily trying to say I'm sorry and I didn't want this, but I think they were too confused to get the message.
"Sirius no!" I shouted throwing his arm off. He stopped walking at once and tossed me a look that told me he thought it would be best if I stopped this behavior now. I didn't want to though. There was no reason for us to carry on what is already a lie. "Touch me once more and I will rip your hands off." I gritted my teeth and grabbed my wand to point it at his chest.
"Kobato, it will work itself out. Just lighten up would you?" He asked being as patient with me as he could. I didn't say anything. I just stared forward trying to ignore the whispers that were surrounding us and the stares we were getting for what seemed to be a lovers quarrel.
"Easy for you to say…I'd just be another one to chalk up on the list, IF this was true." I snapped while crossing my arms and finally pulling my wand away from his chest.
"But you never will be." He said reassuringly. His words took me by surprise it was not what I was expecting.
"What…" I whispered gapping openly at Sirius. He didn't say anything. He just stood there with a warm smile on his face staring right at me. And that's when I knew that I could fulfill this mission one way or another. Right there with that one little smile. A glimmer of hope that he wasn't as bad as I bad him out to be.
A/N: A bit of character development. I hope you guys liked it, I thought it was rather fun, but it felt really short even though it was about the same size as all my other chapters. Ahhh pretty soon it's going to be the OWLs for them :)
