I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT

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Chapter 11: Sorry's Not Enough

EPOV

I was in Alice's garden, trying to bash away the image of Bella's sexy underwear. I didn't know what happened to us that my face landed on her crotch area. What's most embarrassing was being seen by your mother and sister in that position.

I couldn't muster the guts to look at Bella. I instantly hardened when I saw what was in front of my eyes. I remembered the night we had sex. Her pussy was so clean and smooth. I lapped her lips down there, the scent of her wetness, telling me she'd ready for me. Oh God.

She was wearing fucking tight white lace panties.

I shook my head, trying not to remember or else I'll combust any second.

Tanya, Tanya, Tanya! You're with Tanya, Edward! Technically, I am with her.

Soon enough, I heard the front door open and saw Bella and Jasper by the door. She said goodbye and walked away.

I'll be seeing her when I see her, I guess. I'm still embarrassed about landing on her crotch area.

Oh, what the hell! Esme didn't raise me like this! The least I could do is say sorry for what happened earlier.

I sighed and decided to run after her. It was pretty cold tonight and I saw her rubbing her arms. I shrugged off my jacket so I could lend it to her – I wouldn't let her freeze. When I was nearing her, she started to walk a bit faster, I didn't know why. I didn't want to just shout out her name, she might just ignore me so I opted to catch up with her before uttering a word.

I saw her inching closer to a red Mercedes Benz SL 550 Roadster. Sweet ride. This woman has taste, I smiled to myself.

Finally, I caught up with her and touched her shoulder.

I smiled to greet her nicely, but when she turned around, I felt her fist land my face, throwing my head back and making me fumble backwards. "Holy shit!" I said, completely out of shock and pain. Instinctively, I put my hand over the part of my face that had received the most collision – my nose and part of my upper lips.

"Shit! Edward?" I heard Bella say frantically.

I was holding my nose, feeling it would fall out. I felt my lips were busted, too. "Jesus Christ!" I muttered sharply to myself.

I looked at my hands…I'm bleeding a lot. Fantastic! What was that for anyway? I turned to look at Queen Bitch, full of anger. But then, she was pale and her lips were quivering.

"Bella?" I asked. She closed her eyes and shook her head – or was trying to shake her head.

"Bella!" I shouted and walked closer to her, not thinking about my condition. What's happening to her?

"Bella!" I called again as she started to wobble. Oh no.

Suddenly her legs gave out and I caught her swiftly. I kneeled down while holding her. "Bella! Bella are you okay?" I tried to shake her awake. "I'm sorry…" she whispered and completely collapsed in my arms.

Worry rushed over me. "God, Bella, wake up!" I shook her again, her head fell back and I couldn't do anything else.

I carried her over to Alice's house. I pressed the doorbell and waited anxiously for someone to get the door. I was getting fucking impatient so I pressed all over again.

"Fuck! Where are they?" I said impatiently. Finally, I heard footsteps and a muffled voice saying 'alright, alright!'

The door opened, thank God! "…whoever is this stup – OH MY GOD!" Alice gasped as I entered, taking in our appearances. "What happened Edward?"

"Where's dad?" I asked. "In the kitchen, follow me," Alice lead me to where they were. "Dad, we need help." Alice bobbed her head to me as she entered and everyone looked to my direction.

"Oh my God! What did you do?" Rose asked and rushed to us.

"I did nothing. I just touched her shoulder and she punched me. Next thing I knew, I was bleeding and she fainted," I explained nervously.

"Oh no, not blood!" Rose said.

I looked at her in confusion, "not blood?" I asked. I took a seat, still holding Bella in my arms and my father started checking her before Rose could answer. I was filled with anxiety the whole time and my body weakened. I was afraid something might happen to her.

Oh God. Please, don't.

"Well, nothing is wrong with her. Why don't you lay her in bed for a while? She'll come around a little while." Carlisle said.

"Are you sure? There's nothing wrong? Is she okay? Did you check her right?" I rambled.

"Yes, Edward. Lay her down somewhere. You should be worrying more about yourself," he said.

"Edward, why don't you hand Bella over to Jasper or Emmett? They could bring her upstairs while you clean up," Alice said.

I didn't like her idea. I don't want to let go of Bella, not if she's like this. I…I couldn't. "No, I'll take her." I stood up.

"Edward, please, hand her over. It's for the better. She can't stand blood, hence..." Rosalie gestured to her. Emmett took a step forward, "don't worry dude, she'll be fine."

Oh, fuck. So I, unknowingly, did this. I deliberated for a second; I didn't want to lose contact with her, but I am the root of all this so hand her over, idiot. You can see her later, once you are free of blood.

I huffed, "fine!" I said and passed her on to Emmett. "Be careful!" I glared at him. "Dude, you get hit hard by a girl and you tell me to be careful?" He chuckled as he walked away followed by Rosalie.

Yeah, and it's not the first time she hit me. Ha ha ha! Very funny.

"Sit Edward, don't tilt your head," my father ordered. He then squeezed the soft area near the top of my nose with his thumb and index finger. I winced when I felt a little pain. "Alice, wet a towel with cold water and please get me some icepack."

"Alrighty," Alice the leaped off to somewhere coming back after awhile with what my father asked her to bring.

After about 10 or 15 minutes, my father removed his hand, wiped my face with the cool towel and handed me the icepack. "Here, press this on for awhile, it will stop further bleeding. I'll go check on Bella."

"I'll go with your father," Esme said. I nodded as they left.

"Jasper, we'll head to our hotel now. We don't want to cause any more trouble," Jasper's mother said. I briefly met his parents earlier. "I'm deeply sorry about this," I gave a weak smile.

"Don't be silly. It's late anyway. Goodnight Edward. We'll see you tomorrow," she turned to Jasper. "I'll walk you to the door," Jasper said. We all wished each other a good night and they left. I was left with Alice and I closed my eyes, letting the cold numb me.

"Ehemmm," Alice cleared her throat. What does she want? I quirked a brow before opening my eyes. My evil sister was smirking at me. "What?" I asked.

"Nothing," she pursed her lips to keep from smiling. I shook my head knowing there's more. "So…do you like her?" She asked grinning widely.

"Like who?"

"Bella, duh!" She rolled her eyes.

"Do I like her?" I repeated. No. Considering she is likeable and that I can be civil enough with her, also, she is smart and witty, and incredibly good at bed! Well…maybe but not to that extent. I can like her as a friend – maybe… Why am I even thinking about this? Don't ever succumb to Alice.

"So?" Alice asked in anticipation. "Alice, I don't like her. OK? Maybe as a friend, if ever some progression happens to our relationship." I gestured my hands. "Besides, Tanya and I…" I trailed off.

"Tanya? Tanya's not here, Edward." She looked worried.

"Technically." I shrugged. "What do you mean technically?" Alice said, ticked off.

Before I could answer, the rest came down and were chatting. "Is she okay?" I asked. "Yeah, Edward. Thanks for bringing her here anyway. I thought you'd bringing – I mean, drag her home again that's why she beat your face," she laughed and I narrowed my eyes at her.

"Bring her home?" Carlisle asked, quirking a brow.

"That's nothing! Don't mind her," I said quickly. I saw Alice, Jasper and Rose snickering. "I'll go outside for awhile," I said and used the backdoor.

I sat near the pond, the sound of water is relaxing and I needed it now. Once again, my mind drifted off to Tanya. We have been e-mailing and calling back and forth. She's working on some projects in New York that's why she couldn't tag along. I understood her, anyway. I don't want her having to sacrifice work for me.

I've never brought myself to ask her about certain things that's bothering me. I can't even talk to her about what happened and what we're supposed to do. What we talk about is what we'll be doing for the day or something random. It's not that I didn't like talking to her, but it seems like we're both avoiding bringing something up that may trigger some ill feelings from the past.

I fished my phone from my pocket and dialed her number.

"This is Tanya Denali. I'm sorry to have missed your call. Please leave a message and I'll call back as soon as I can. Ciao!" and then the beep sounded.

"Hey!" I started, "I was thinking... we need to talk – " out of nowhere, I remember thinking why Bella shoved my head and chuckled.

Did she feel bad about what happened the last time I was with her? Did she expect me to call? Did she wait for me to call? It is not mandatory to call her or anyone you sleep with if you have no further intentions of dating her or something. I sighed, disappointed at myself for leaving her.

The morning I woke up with Bella flashed through my mind, I said I'd call her. When I got to New York, I made a mental note to call her, too. But I forgot every memory of that because Tanya came.

I know I sound like a jerk, but what was I supposed to do when the love of your life suddenly comes back for you? Wouldn't you be as confused or as preoccupied as I am?

But, that's not the point, right? I still should have called. It was really ungentlemanly of me to do that. I know deep inside I deserved that shoved.

I put my phone down and cancelled my call. I didn't intend to hurt Bella in any way. It was just her pull…

You're a jerk Edward. Yeah, I've been a jerk to her – all the teasing and bantering.

I guess I should be making it up to her.

I went inside and saw that Emmet and Rose was gone – they went home, I assume. "Hey! You're still up?"

My mother laughed, "unfortunately, yes. We'll be going in awhile anyway."

"I'm taking mom shopping tomorrow, wanna come?" Alice said. Alice + shopping = death. "Uhm…no, I don't want to interrupt your mother–daughter bond," I shook my head. Jasper snickered and nudged my shoulder, "got that right!"

Alice rolled her eyes and my parents laughed with us. "We're heading back to the hotel. Are you coming with us?" Carlisle asked.

Oh. I was planning on checking up Bella actually; see if she's okay. I also plan to catch her tomorrow morning before she leaves or something. Speaking of which, I haven't thought of anything yet… "Uhm…you guys go ahead. I…uh…I need to…I want to see the rest of the house." Why do I have to make an excuse? It's not like they care. "Sure," my father said.

We said our goodnights and I stayed in the kitchen, thinking of how and what to say to Bella. I feel so nervous about this, I don't know why. Alice said she was getting ready for bed and I was left with Jasper.

Jasper cleared his throat, breaking my thoughts. "Something bothering you?"

"Nothing really…" I shrugged. On second thought, "hey, what do you do when you did something…well, let's say you've been a jerk to Alice – no, scratch that – what if you acted like a jerk to a…friend. What do you do to…to make it up to her – or him," I said.

He shrugged and took a seat beside me, "you know, a simple apology would do. You should mean it. I mean, reeeaaaallly mean it. That would make it up to her." That made me look at him, " – or him." He added.

Right, a simple apology. Of course I'd mean it. But I feel like it's not enough for what I've done. Whatever, I'll come up with something. "I think I need a beer." I said.

After a bottle, I think I've mustered enough courage to go check on her. I think I'll just get here tomorrow morning or something. "I'll go back to the hotel now. I'll uh…check Bella first," I said coyly.

"Sure thing. I'll clean up a bit and go upstairs. If you just lock the door when you got out?" He asked.

"No problem, thanks bro." I said and hugged him.

I went up, taking the steps one by one. I took several deep breaths before I put my hand on the door's knob. I opened the door slowly, careful not to wake her. I stood near the foot of the bed saw Bella sleeping soundly. I smiled at that, at least she's okay.

I stood there for a few moments before I left. I'll just talk to her tomorrow. I'll let her rest for awhile.

I opened the door and was about to step out when she spoke.

"Carlisle?" She sounded groggy.

I hesitated for a moment. "No, it's me, Edward." And then there was silence.

BPOV

I woke up alone in a familiar room. I realized I was in Alice's guestroom. I was wearing a set of pajamas, I figured Alice undressed me – which was okay, of course. What time is it anyway? I was looking for a clock or something, I found my purse and got my phone. A little over half an hour after I last stepped out of the house.

I fainted at the sight of AB's blood, that figures. I can't stand it. I didn't mean to hit him and I didn't know I'd punch him that hard. I was afraid someone would hurt me or something. Why didn't he just call me or something so he wouldn't scare the crap out of me? People do that normally – oh wait, he isn't! I laughed.

"What's so funny Bella?"

"Shit! Alice!" I said, startled. "Does startling people or sneaking up run in the family? Jesus." I almost had a heart attack. Okay, I am starting to believe they are really related. "Sorry. I just wanted to check up on you, I thought you were sleeping so I came in quietly." She said.

"That's okay. Thanks by the way," I smiled.

"No problem Bells. Dad said you just needed to lay down. I was surprised it took you awhile to come to your senses." I nodded at what she said. I forgot her father was originally a doctor. "And before you say anything, yes, you're staying for the night. I don't want you to drive at this hour and thinking about your condition." Alice smiled and sat on the bed. I was actually about to say that I'll be leaving in awhile, guess I'm not. I don't want to argue with her right now.

I started wondering about AB. Where was he? Did he leave or not? Should I apologize right now? I am sorry for hurting him, he didn't start anything or something. At least Charlie did a good job teaching me how to throw a fist. "He's alright Bella, don't worry," Alice answered my internal questions. "And he isn't mad at you," she added.

I quirked a brow, can she hear my thoughts or am I that easy to read? "Maybe I don't have to speak at all since you have telepathy or some power. You could be my translator – I'll let you speak during meetings, conferences…" I chuckled and she held her tongue out.

"I just feel what you feel. I'm psychic," she said proudly.

I giggled. "You are a psychic, I can't protest to that." She giggled too and yawned. "Alice, you should rest now, you've had a long day."

"Yeah, I know. I'm always tired and sleepy. I'll leave you to rest too. Goodnight Bella," she kissed my cheek. "Goodnight Alice. Sleep tight and thanks," I said and she left the room.

I tossed and turn, waiting for sleep to come – no such luck. I tried my hardest to sleep but my mind wandered to different places. Seeing AB tonight, I felt a little hurt. He didn't say a thing about leaving the night we slept together. He just said he wanted me and that's it, I gave in. He didn't apologize, he didn't even mention it. Although there's a small part of me that waited for his call or anything from him, I tried to avoid myself from expecting it. It crushed me, but I felt I had no right to feel that way.

I've been stressing about what to say or how to act when I see him again, and I don't know why but I can't let myself be mad at him. I only feel dismayed that he left me like that. He's the least person I'd want to talk to about it. What if he denies it or says 'oh that? I slept with you, so what?', it will crush me more.

Mother fucker! I'm not even supposed to feel this way! This is the first time I've felt so attached to a person after sleeping with him. I wanted it to happen too, so this is what I get in return. You have to accept that he's not that guy who would…he's not into you. Get it, Isabella Marie Swan?

You could never have what you truly want in life.

I heard someone open the door, I shut my eyes and pretended to be asleep. This is silly. I feel like an eight year old pretending to be sleeping but in fact I was playing with my dolls or whatever. I heard the footsteps retreating and I peeked to see who it was. Carlisle? I should thank him for helping me. "Carlisle?" I called.

I heard the footsteps pause, I leaned my body forward to see what was going on. "No, it's me, Edward."

My heart stopped. He looked like Carlisle for awhile there. I couldn't utter a single word out of anxiety. I hadn't noticed he was near my bed now. Oh my God!

"I…uhm…s – so – sorry about ah..." I said looking on the floor. He chuckled, "it's nothing…how are you feeling?"

"I'm fine, thanks." He never asked how I felt, this one's new.

Once again, we were silent. I was restraining myself from asking him why he left me with nothing after that night… I just wanted to know.

"Bella," he started. He's calling me by my nickname again? "I…mind if we talk?" He asked hesitantly. Oh Lord! What would he want to talk about?

I nodded, I didn't trust myself enough to speak – I might rant on him. He took a step closer to me and run his hand through his hair then left his hand on the back of his neck.

"Listen, I…about the last time we were together…" he sighed. My head shot up to look at his face. I didn't exactly see this coming, I mean, I kind of got over the thought he'd say something about it - oh God, who am I kidding? He had his head down, "I didn't mean to…to leave like that. I…" he trailed off.

Wow. I'm speechless.

"I know said I'd call when you were asleep…"

"Why didn't you?" I asked impulsively. He looked at me in disbelief. Damn it Bella! It sounded like you were expecting him too. Stupid brain! "I mean…" I shrugged. You mean what, Bella? Way to go. "Sorry…"

"No! No! It's not –" he sighed. "I'm sorry. I forgot to call, it was crazy back there. I'm actually disappointed in myself for leaving like that. I mean, I wouldn't if I had a choice. You know, if you were any ot – if it wa – you – oh fuck," he shook his head.

I stared at him and chuckled. I haven't seen him this incoherent. "It's…" I can't say anything!

He chuckled too, realizing how pathetic he may have looked like. "Bella…I'm deeply sorry for not calling. I know I'm a jerk for doing that."

Wow. He admitted being a jerk? Is he the real Edward? Oh what, now I'm calling him by his name?

"It's fine…I guess. Whatever," I sighed. Crickets chirping once again…

"I…better go now. So you could rest." He fumbled. I looked at his face, it was pretty dark but his eyes were…his green eyes looked vibrant against the dark. A bit odd.

I nodded. "Sorry about hitting you again. You scared me." I cringed at the memory.

"I didn't mean to, though." He laughed. "Goodnight."

"Goodnight…Edward." I said hesitantly and whispered his name. He stood for awhile and nodded as he walked away.

"Hmm…" I huffed and lay down. What's with him tonight? And why didn't I say what I had to say to him? I should've said I wasn't some hooker he could leave without anything after a night of pleasure! I was pissed at myself for letting him off that easy. Stupid brain. I can't lash out on the right person to lash out on! I should've given him a piece of my mind!

Next time Bella, next time. Don't chicken out okay? Let him know how you felt and bury him with guilt for doing that to you. Damn it! There's no next time.

Before everything sank into me, I was rushing to him, running my ass off the long staircase. I couldn't see him anymore! Damn it!

"Edward!" I shouted, hoping he hasn't stepped out of the door. "Edward!" I screamed again as I got off the last step and made my way toward the door. I opened it, looking for him; finally, spotted him on the pebbled steps. "Edward! Wait!" I run out the door.

He stopped and looked at me. Just as I was about to stop, I tripped and landed on his chest. "Ouch," I said as I stepped backward, I felt a shock of electricity when I felt his hands on my arms. "Are you okay?" He chuckled.

I ignored him while shrugging his hands off and concentrated on standing straight. I was taking deep breaths to calm myself and get things across. You can do this Bella. He doesn't have the right to do that to you.

"Are you al – "

"Shutup!" I cut him off then closed my eyes. I need to concentrate. I sucked in the air and filled my cheeks the exhaled slowly.

I opened my eyes and saw him looking confused. "Okay, listen. You're an asshole."

"Wh – " I raised a hand to stop him from speaking. "I said shut up!" I half-shrieked. "You've been an asshole from the minute I bumped into you. You're an asshole for saying I'm incompetent at work and that my work is full of crap. You're an asshole for always teasing me and thinking I actually like you. You're an asshole for leaving me like…like SOMEHOOKERANDTHENLEAVINGMEWITHNOTHING!" I said in a breath. "NOT A PHONE CALL, AN E-MAIL…NOTHING! YOU'RE A JERK! YOU'RE AN ASS! YOU'RE A RUDE, SELFISH, NARCISSISTIC…SELF-ABSORBED…PATHETIC...BASTARD!" I screamed.

"You don't deserve my apology. You deserved being shoved in the head and you deserved to be punched. I'm glad I hit hard that pretty face of yours," I gave out a frustrated laugh. He stared at me with wide eyes. "You don't know how bad it feels to have woken up alone, hearing nothing from you - the next thing I knew you were already in New York! You don't know at all how bad I felt. You left," I snapped my fingers, "just like that! I mean, what do you think of me? Huh?" I pushed his chest. "Do you think like I'm some skank you pick up, take home and leave?"

He just gaped at me, I couldn't describe what emotion was painted on his face.

I'm losing my patience and I'm starting to get annoyed with him, just watching. "This is the moment you choose not to open your damn mouth to say anything?" I waved my arms in the air.

Can I just kill him now?

"GOD!" I shrieked, fuming. I took a deep breath, thinking this isn't going anywhere with this moron who was just staring at me! "You know what…fine! Just stand there and say nothing! You, are an ass and just so you know, I'm not letting you off that easy, Satan's son!" I grumbled and left him in the middle of the stone walk.