Disclaimer: didn't the last episode suck! ahh .. i wanted them to get together :'(. Cry .. haha anyway sorry i haven't updated in so long, just came home from long weekend .. i don't own Gundam (.
Athuran looked out at the lake, having found his way here.
His green eyes reflected the lakes clear essence, but tears brimmed his eyes.
He knew he had to figure out what it is he wanted and finally stick to it, did he want Cagalli or not.
She would be his wife but didn't he want her to love him?
He shook his midnight hair in a sigh, laying down on some grass.
He knew the twins couldn't continue like this, that Lacus and Kira would have to marry wasn't it for the best that he got Cagalli away from them.
What if Cagalli stayed there and Kira and her still fooled around even after he married Lacus.
Then isn't this all for the better?
When had he become this undecisive?
Wasn't this one of his better traits, knowing what he wanted?
He closed his eyes letting the wind caress his face.
The same calm wind, like that day at the carnival, he laughed to himself, that little cute girl.
She was so open, and warm he had shared his seat with her.
He had never been more sure of anything else before, than wanting to know that little blonde haired girl.
The moment he saw her, she was like some illumination in his darkness.
He had searched for her so long, but he never saw her at any balls and events after that one day.
That same calm wind...I want her.
I want Cagalli.
With this thought he got up and decided he'd have a talk with Cagalli.
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"Why are you doing this?"
"Because it's wrong, and you're going to be mine alone, Kira i hope you understand that."
"I'm sorry, i'm just so confused, sometimes."
"It's okay Kira, i want you to understand someday this was all for the better."
"Why does she have to marry Athuran?"
"Because if she stays here you'll never entirely be mine."
"Lacus, i love you, you know you're sweet and beautiful, but Cagalli is my .. was my whole world."
"She accepted she'll marry him and leave, its final Kira, if you love me you'd understand."
Kira's heart sank, he loved Lacus, but to hardly see Cagalli, what other life would he ever know?
The two sat on oppsite ends of a large maroon couch.
They were defeated Kira knew, all the confusion behind him now, a single tear was all he shed, and he got up to embrace Lacus.
This was his world now.
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Cagalli sat in her room, she didn't know what to think.
She knew it was a mistake, it was over but it was an addiction.
Being in the familar arms of Kira, she got up and sat down in front of her window.
It was late now, the sun was preparing to adjourn to rest.
To let the moon in it's glory have it turn in the center of attention.
She would marry him, and leave this place.
Wasn't that good?
To be away from here, be in a new place, without her father's cages.
But to be away from Kira, .. she knew why Lacus had done it.
She was scared, jsut as Cagalli had been, scared of not having Kira entirely.
Cagalli knew it was for better, this whole thing.
She could love Athuran, but could she trust him?
Trust him to make up his mind, to just want her and her alone?
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It was dinner time and it was to be a dinner with Uzumi, and the four.
The dining room was set with the best silverware as the soup was brought out.
The four sat uncomfortably as Uzumi exclaimed how proud he was that Lacus and Kira would be wed.
He added a little too happily to see Cagalli would be leaving to live in South Plant.
As part of Lacus' marriage to Kira the Zala family would inherit North plant as well.
They all ate in silence listening to Uzumi ramble about galaxy affairs.
Athuran looked around, next to him was Cagalli, across from him Kira, and next to him Lacus, and at the head of the table Uzumi.
He gazed at Cagalli, he was settled, he wanted her, he was sure, he was sure.
Her hand had been resting on her lap, he reached and grabbed it.
She sat up a little shocked .. waken out of her daze.
He leaned over, and whispered that he would be coming to discuss future plans with her later that night.
And maybe they'd discuss other thing .. looking like he was just whispering to her he licked her ear, and she blushed deeply.
The other three looked over, and Uzumi clapped his hands for dessert to be brought out, happily not noticing how awkward it was around the table.
After dinner was finished Lacus and Kira went for a walk and Cagalli ran off to her room, locking the door.
She wouldn't let him in, she would marry him, but how could he act like he hadn't hurt her earlier.
It seemed all he wanted to do with her was give her a good fuck and that's it.
Was that all she was to him, a well off political marriage, a way to get her away from Kira, and a fuck every night.
Would she be the only one in his bed?
She crawled over to her bed, she wouldn't think anymore.
She cried, frustrated how complicated life had gotten, how she hated him, how she wanted him ..
