Meredith struggles to get the twins into the car. It is not easy taking care of two infants by yourself.
As Meredith makes her way to the hospital her thoughts are taken over by images of Derek. What if she sees him? What if he sees the twins? What will his reaction be when he finds out that he is a father? She is so wrapped up in these thoughts that she doesn't even realize she is at the hospital until she puts her car in park.
She looks around the parking lot, unsure of exactly what she is looking for. It has been four weeks since they were born. Three weeks since she has been here. She knows that everyone will swarm them and she smiles at this thought. She is already proud of her children. They are beautiful and both of them are already developing a personality. She parks the car and gets the stroller out of the back. It is a cold day so she makes sure to place a blanket over the top of the stroller to protect them from the wind. She takes a deep breath as she heads into the hospital, unsure of what to expect.
She walks into the familiar front doors of the hospital and immediately spots Izzie. Izzie comes running over to her and removes the blanket.
Izzie: They are so cute. (in a baby voice) Yes, you are.
Meredith: I was thinking that we could go up to the surgical floor. The Chief has been asking me about them all week.
Izzie nods and notices the look of apprehension on Meredith's face.
Izzie: He asks about you every day.
Meredith just nods as they wait for the elevator. She looks over at Izzie.
Meredith: Do you think he will hate me?
Izzie: No. He would never hate you.
The elevator doors open and Meredith and Izzie step on. There are several people on the elevator, but none of them are Derek. Meredith is somewhat relieved. All of the people look at the babies and talk to Meredith about how cute they are. Meredith smiles proudly in acknowledgement.
Meredith and Izzie get off of the elevator and she instantly hears a familiar voice.
Bailey: It's about dang time that you brought them here.
Bailey leans down at looks at the sleeping infants.
Bailey: I must say Grey, you did good.
Meredith: Thank you, Dr. Bailey. I have to go to my appointment now, but I will be back down here soon.
Izzie nods.
Izzie: Are we still doing lunch?
Meredith: Of course.
Meredith leans down to the twins.
Meredith: Mommy will be back soon. I love you guys.
She straightens up.
Meredith: Page me if you need me, or if something goes wrong, or..
Izzie: It's okay, Meredith. We will be fine.
Izzie smiles at her. Michael starts to stir and Izzie reaches down and picks him up.
Izzie: Now go. The sooner you go the sooner you get back.
Meredith smiles.
Meredith: You're right.
Meredith heads down the hall to meet Addison for her check up. She is rounding the corner when she walks right into someone, knocking several papers out of their hand.
Meredith: I'm so sorry.
She bends down to pick up the papers, but the person isn't moving. They are transfixed on her form standing before them. She stands up and immediately gasps as she meets a pair of deep blue eyes that she hasn't seen in eight months. She quickly hands him the files. She struggles to find her voice, but when she does it is broken and light. He can't speak, still stunned at her sudden appearance before him. She looks tired, beautiful, but her eyes are so tired. He sees the pain he has caused her flash through them as her eyes meet his momentarily before she looks away.
Meredith: I...um...I...have to go.
She doesn't allow him to speak before taking off down the hallway. He turns to watch her and starts to follow her when he sees her meet up with Addison.
Addison: Hello, Meredith. How are you?
Addison notices the palor of Meredith and looks to see Derek standing down the hall.
Meredith: Fine. I'm fine.
Addison: Well, just follow me and we will do your check up.
Meredith wordlessly follows Addison. Derek stands there thinking about why Meredith is seeing Addison. He just shrugs his shoulders as he walks towards the nurses' station, hoping to see her again before she leaves. He turns the corner and is greeted by a crowd of people surrounding a stroller and Izzie Stevens holding a dark haired infant. His face brightens at the sight of the baby. He loves children.
He walks forward and notices that there are two babies, twins. His smile grows even wider. Twins run in his family. No one notices him approach. They are all too engrossed with the babies.
Derek: So, who do these two precious beings belong to?
Izzie looks up at Derek, shock and panic written on her face. Derek misses the look.
Derek: I didn't know you were pregnant when I left, Stevens...
Izzie: Oh no, they aren't mine...
Derek raises an eyebrow.
Derek: Oh. They are adorable.
Izzie: Yeah, they are.
Derek: What are their names?
Izzie: Well, we call this one here Michael and the one that George is holding is Madeline, but we call her Maddie.
Derek: Those are great names.
Derek smiles but can't help to feel a pang in his chest. Maddie starts crying and George can't get her to stop.
Derek: May I?
George looks at Izzie for an answer. Izzie nods her head. George hands Maddie to Derek. Derek can't help but notice her dark hair and bright blue eyes. He looks down on the infant and she looks into his eyes. She grabs onto his pinky finger as he gently rocks her in his arms. He feels a pang in his heart. He wants chldren. He wants children with Meredith. He can't help but smile at the thought. She immediately calms down. Everyone's mouths fall agape. Most of them know that he is the father. They also know that he doesn't know that he is the father.
Derek chuckles.
Derek: I think she likes me.
Izzie smiles widely.
Izzie: Yeah. I think she does.
Derek: So, who do they belong to?
Before anyone can answer, Derek's pager begins to go off. He gently hands Maddie back to George and walks to the nurses' station to answer his page. He talks on the phone for a while. He hears the cries of the babies break out again and can't help but chuckle as Izzie attempts to calm them. He looks down at the chart in front of him and is reading it when a voice carries deep into his soul.
Voice: What did you do? Are they okay? You should have paged me!
Derek's mouth falls agape as he looks up and sees Izzie handing Michael to Meredith. Meredith takes Michael into her arms and whispers calming words into his ear as she gently rocks him. He sees her say something to Izzie and Izzie reaches down and gets a bottle out of the diaper bag. Maddie is still crying and George is trying to comfort her. He hangs up the phone and walks over towards her. Is Meredith a mother? And then another thought occurs to him. The hair and the eyes. The name Michael. Oh God. Is he a father? Is he a father and he doesn't even know it? He swallows the huge lump in his throat as he continues to walk towards Meredith, unsure of the answers to the questions that he is currently asking himself.
