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There will only be 2 more chapters of this fic. I'm sorry but I just have that much going at the moment I just can't keep up to it.
On with the show
BPOV:
"Who the fuck is that?" Damon asked angrily.
"My nephew, I'd know his voice anywhere" I admitted.
I was in full panic mode as my eyes cast over Mike's dead body –what the fuck was I supposed to say to him? Lil Boo may only be a child but he's a smart ass kid and he's dangerous. I told Damon to stay in the room and hide the body, he protested but finally gave in and agreed to stay out of the way while I spoke to Lil Boo.
I opened the door out into the living area and when I did, Lil Boo was standing there facing me, with a look of disappointment written all over his flawless face. In true Lil Boo fashion he held a razor blade in one hand and his toy water pistil in the other –I knew that the pistil was full of lemon juice.
"Hey little guy... how did you get here? Did Mommy and Daddy bring you?" I asked as I gave him a big smile. That smile soon faded when I could hear his thudding heartbeat and the blood flowing through his veins.
"I brought myself here Bella... I stole Alice's vision to check on you and Rose but instead I saw my favourite beautiful Auntie sucking the blood from some poor guy. What the hell happened to you? Why would you do that? I know it has something to do with that motherfucker stashed in the bedroom... just let me at him" Lil Boo screamed before he started running for the bedroom.
I grabbed a hold of him before he got to the door… he was thrashing about in my arms. I had to let him go because my instincts were coming to the fore front of my mind and there's not a chance in hell I would hurt my little guy.
Damon came through the door and Lil Boo lunged at him knocking him to the floor.
"Bella get this fucking kid off me now before I do something I may regret." Damon screamed.
"Come on fuck face... fight me, you think it's ok to corrupt my aunt into drinking human blood when in all her existence she's never killed one person until she met your fucking kind... imma cut you douche" Lil boo said through gritted teeth.
"Your gunna cut me? You're a child you can't do shit to me... Bella had a right to know how it feels to drink human blood. It's what she's designed to do. I might have used a little compulsion on her... but look at her… she's looking radiant don't you think?" Damon said sarcastically.
"Ok boys let's cool things off. Lil Boo I'm not quite sure what happened or what came over me to drink human blood but I liked it... I feel thirsty real fucking thirsty but yet I don't want to prey on innocent victims" I said confusing myself in the process of my words.
Lil Boo looked at me in utter disgust. I hated it… he's my gorgeous little nephew who maybe one crazy ass fuck but he is still my own and I can tell that he's so disappointed with me right now. Maybe this is what I needed to do... do the things that came naturally to me... let my instincts take over instead of fighting them every minute of every day? I mean it got better with time but still I thought that feeding from animals was satisfying... how wrong was I? I am a born predator, designed to kill.
The feeling I felt drinking human blood was like no other. It brought every bone, muscle, vein, organ in my body raring back to life. The whole thing was so erotic and orgasmic I felt sexy as hell and I felt satisfied... for once in my vampire existence I felt whole and full... I was no longer an empty shell.
The thing that scared me the most was going home; everybody was going to be so disappointed in me... well maybe not Jess and Ange they'll be all for this shit. Emmett will probably hate me… which I can live with but Carlisle will be the one that will be the most hurt and upset by my actions. He was the one that taught me all I know and stuck with me when he could have thrown my ass out and let me make my own way in this life. It made me feel sad thinking about it and I decided that there was no time like the present to go home and face this head on.
I know I should hate Damon for doing this to me but I don't... I needed this I don't know why but I did. I went into the bedroom and gathered mine and Rose's shit together at full speed –I was done in three seconds. I also wrote Damon a quick note with my cell number on it because I'd like to see him again.
When I came out of the bedroom I grabbed Lil Boo and made a run for it. I didn't wanna stick around for Damon to compel me to stay and I know I'm faster than him so I just took off with Lil Boo under my arm. The heat radiating from him was intoxicating and venom was overtaking my mouth but I put that shit to the back of my mind because I would NEVER harm my little fella.
I caught Rosalie's scent and followed it back to the Bellagio. I was in and back out again with her in a nanosecond she didn't know what the fuck was going on and I wasn't going to explain till we were in the car heading home. I knew she saw my eyes though because she kept giving me the "I know what you've done" look.
"How the fuck did you get here Lil Boo?" I asked him as we all climbed into my BMW.
"I jacked Emmett's Ferrari and drove here" He said wearing a cheeky grin.
My jaw dropped to the floor "You Jacked Emmett's Ferrari? He's going to kill you... where is it?"
"It's round the back of Caesars Palace and quit your shit talking Bella after he sees the state of you... all thoughts that douche had about killing me will be a distant fucking memory" He spat at me.
"Ok you've made your point little man, let's just get the fuck home so I can face the music" I said as I set off towards the hotel hoping I wouldn't see Damon.
As soon as Lil Boo sped off in Emmett's car Rose was on my fucking case.
"Look Bella you better spill it in the quickness, your eyes are bright red... what the fuck happened" She glared at me from the passenger seat.
"Ok Rose I'll explain but I don't need your lectures alright" I gave her a weak smile.
"I promise not to lecture you I've got a feeling that you'll have plenty of those when we get home"
"Here's the deal... Mike Newton turned up at the party we had and well I'm supposed to be dead to him so he didn't take it very well" Rose gasped "I know right so there I am sucking Damon's face off when I hear his voice a voice I aint heard for 15 years. I ushered him into the bedroom to try explain to him why I still look twenty one and well to say he didn't believe I was a vampire is like me saying the pope aint catholic."
She cut my ass off "You told him you're a fucking vampire? What the actual fuck Bella... you have put not only yourself but the rest of us at risk are you fucking retarded?" she huffed out.
"Oh Rosalie, calm the fuck down will you, so anyway... Damon came in the room and pushed Mike up against the wall and then did this weirdo shit with his eyes –telling Mike to forget what I had told him and to lay on the bed and Mike did exactly what Damon asked which was strange" Rosalie looked totally baffled.
"I asked Damon what he did and he said he used the art of compulsion to make Mike forget... I shrugged it off. Damon said he was doing it to protect me. Then he kissed me and of course dazzled me so I didn't realise when he compelled me to let my natural instincts take over and not to forget what I'd done." I stopped for a moment to let that register.
When I explained the rest of it to Rosalie she didn't really know what to say to me so the rest of the drive back was eerily quiet. It gave me time to think and the more I thought about the fucked up situation the more I started to regret it.
When I woke up as a vampire and finally came to terms with what Carlisle and fucking douchward told me... I swore to never return to England due to the fact so many people I cared and loved were there. I didn't want to hurt them and I would keep myself and other vampires away from them in order to protect them. What I just did at that hotel was kill Mike who I knew loved me with all of his heart… still I believe to this day.
As I thought about this it was becoming clear to me that I am weak and selfish and I protect nothing apart from the fact that I am a vampire. I'm fucking pathetic and it's all Edwards fault… he made me like this so my actions… I blame on him. We've gotten along in the past but now I see how he's ruined my life. He took everything away from me and now I'm stuck frozen in time never moving forward.
Fuck you douchward!
"Who's douchward?" Rose asked.
SHIT! Did I really just say that shit out loud?
"Erm... no one I'm just mumbling to myself... Ignore me I'm still a bit fucked up with what's happened." I lied through my razor sharp teeth.
She just nodded I think she's pissed with me and she has every right to be… I'm pissed at my damn stupid self. I needed to hunt quickly before I drag some poor bastard into the woods and drain the life out of them. Rosalie agreed and we found some woodland area to hunt in. I found a deer and that shit tasted disgusting but I drunk it anyway making a mental note to break into the hospital and grab some O positive or some shit.
I craved for human blood and I didn't like it one bit even though I knew how it tasted and I wanted it... BAD. I'm stronger than that so we carried on the journey home without incident.
As we pulled up to the big house in Forks, Emmett's Ferrari was out front so Lil Boo was obviously back –how he drove that I'm yet to find out. Rose got out and waited for me to exit the car but I was stalling.
About three minutes later I sucked it all up and made my way into the house. Everyone was sitting in the family room staring at me in the doorway. I had my head down as I really didn't want them to see my eyes.
"Bella look at me" Carlisle asked.
I raised my head slowly until my eyes fixed on Carlisle's eyes... everyone made collective gasps. I felt like a fucking imposter in my own house or a fucking freak show.
"How did this happen Bella? I thought you were better than that" Emmett said coldly.
"You know I aint even gunna bother to explain to you... I mean Lil Boo has probably filled you in on every detail. I fucked up I know this and none of you can be more ashamed of me then I am of myself. So save your fucking preaching for another day and leave me the hell alone" and with that I stormed off like a petulant twelve year old.
I flung my body onto my bed and silently sobbed into my pillow, then I remembered my mental conversation from the car and I got angry. I flew down the stairs into the family room and gripped Edward.
"YOU... YOU did this to me you bastard... I never asked for this but yet you went and fucking bit me anyway, turning me into a monster." I growled.
"B-Bella... I'm sorry... I-I can't apologise enough" He choked out.
"Sorry is not fucking good enough anymore Edward... I killed a man I once loved and swore to protect yesterday... do you know how that feels? Have you killed someone you loved Edward? Have you?" He shook his head no "Well you wouldn't have would you, you probably just bite them and lead them into this damned eternity... you make me sick. The only thing stopping me from ripping your fucking head off is Rose and Lil Boo or else your ass would be dust!" I snarled at him.
"You stay away from me and my house from now on... I never wanna see your face again understand me" He nodded his head again as I picked him up and threw him across the room, his body smashed through the window.
He jumped straight back up onto his feet and into a protective stance growling and snarling. I stared right into his eyes as he stared back. It was intense but I meant business and if he didn't leave I'd kill him... I've already killed once what's it matter now. After one minute twenty three seconds Edward took off running.
I turned around and the rest of the guys were just sitting there. I don't think they had anything to say or they were scared of me... I was a woman crazed.
"Look guy's I'm sorry about that, but I mean it I don't want that man in my house and well… if any of you have a problem with that then you can leave the same way he did." I announced and went to the kitchen.
Of course I went in there for a drink and I needed a fucking strong one. I sat at the table drinking one bottle after another trying to forget what I'd done but it wouldn't go away. As much as Mike's blood satisfied me in a way I never thought was possible the picture of his lifeless body would be etched in my head forever.
I don't know how long I was drinking or how much I had drank but when I stood up my head was fucking spinning. I took one step and kinda leaned off to one side causing me to fall flat on my face. I rolled over onto my back and just laughed. I was laughing pretty hard too and if I still had a bladder I would've pissed myself for sure.
"Bella, what the fuck are you ok?" I heard Emmett say.
"I'm furrkkinnn fine big bhhoy" I slurred –fuck I was drunk.
I felt his big strong arms scoop me up into his embrace. I nuzzled into his neck and felt home but most of all I felt safe from myself and what I was capable of doing. I know Emmett would NEVER let me do anything like that so if I was with him I Knew I was in safe hands.
I brought my face closer to his –hesitating in case he wasn't into me anymore but he leaned towards me so I took that as an invite and pressed my lips to his. He deepened the kiss and our tongues danced once again.
"Damon" I moaned into his mouth.
His lips came to an abrupt halt.
Shit!
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