Burt didn't expect to see Kurt asleep when he went to check on when he was going to leave. But he let him, assuming he had made an arrangement with Adam. Maybe Kurt decided he needed rest? Maybe he just didn't feel like taking a long trip to Columbus. Whatever the reason was, he was asleep and when Burt opened the door after someone rung a bell he saw who he assumed was Adam at the door.
"Well, hello." he hummed and raised his eyebrows. "I thought Kurt was going to pick you up."
"Hi, hi. Kurt called a few hours ago he cannot make it and asked me to come. I couldn't reach him through the phone so I figured out I'll try my luck with a doorbell, I hope that's okay, sir." Adam replied politely and shook offered by Burt's hand. "I'm Adam Crawford."
"Burt Hummel. Come in, I think Kurt's still asleep, he didn't show up downstairs in a few hours and you probably know how he is with his phone when tired."
Adam chuckled warmly and nodded. "Probably didn't react to his alarm."
Burt chuckled and led Adam in. "Do you want something to drink, coffee, tea?"
"Tea would be amazing but I'd like to go say hello to Kurt first, if that's okay?"
"Of course. Upstairs, second door on the left. I'll let you two have some privacy while I make you tea."
Adam nodded and headed upstairs, a little surprised he was simply let in but maybe Kurt showed his dad pictures of them together. Adam knocked on the door he was instructed to go through and when he heard no answer he looked inside and smiled immediately at the sight of Kurt sleeping, wrapped in the blankets. He entered the room and went to the bed, sat on the edge of it and rubbed Kurt's back through the blanket.
"Hey, Kurt?" he said gently and smiled when Kurt stirred. "Here we go. Hello, sweetheart."
"Adam?" Kurt frowned and yawned. "You're here. I had an alarm on, I'm sorry, I don't know what happened."
"That's okay, sweetheart. I know how you are with alarms when you're exhausted." Adam whispered gently and leaned down to kiss Kurt's forehead. "Do you need some time?"
"No, unless you're scared of seeing someone in underwear only." Kurt sat up and untangled himself from the blankets.
"I'm quite okay with this. I mean this in the most innocent way possible." Adam smiled and stood up to let Kurt out of the bed.
"I need to grab some clothes and I'm ready. You've met my dad, right?" Kurt got up and went to the bathroom to use mouthwash.
"I have. Briefly. He was surprised you were in bed."
"So am I. I mean, I tried to make sure I woke up but I seemed to fail." Kurt sighed and put on clothes he had prepared in the bathroom before leaving it and smiling at Adam. "Sorry about that, I was so ready to talk in the car but then I had to change plans."
"We can talk later, if you want. Or we can talk now." Adam smiled gently.
"Have you eaten since getting out of New York?"
"I drank some tea, I'm good."
"Tea doesn't count." Kurt rolled his eyes.
Adam made an offended face and touched his heart with right hand, faking a shock. "Tea always counts."
"Not as food." Kurt chuckled and went to the mirror to coif his hair before stopping middle through the way. "Maybe I'll just cook for you? I thought about eating out today but since you're already here I can just make something when we're done with this."
"So straight to the point?" Adam smiled and looked at Kurt working on his hair. It was always a fascinating process, Kurt managing to put his hair up high almost effortlessly. with well exercised moves.
"Okay, yeah." Kurt sighed when he was done and went to rinse his hands quickly. "It's not a good story. I'm not proud of this." he said firmly while sitting on the bed by Adam. "But I figured you should know and you should know before it gets serious. Because I can't handle you walking away when I let myself get involved."
"Understandable." Adam smiled warmly and reached for Kurt's hand but Kurt moved it closer to himself. Adam frowned and looked at Kurt. "Sweetheart?"
"Blaine filed a report. He told the police I raped him." Kurt said quietly and looked down at his feet curled under himself. "I didn't… I swear I didn't hurt him, I didn't force him to do anything but he said that and now they all think I'm a rapist. I was arrested. It's why I didn't want to go to the airport, I'm not allowed to leave the state because I'm only out on a bail."
Adam was shocked. It was hard not to be when something like that happened. He was expecting some mild problems, something that was going to be easily fixed but that was, it was quite much. Not that he thought Kurt would be able to do something like that, to rape someone and the fact that he didn't try to hide anything only pointed towards innocence but something had to happen.
"How… What happened, Kurt?" he asked carefully.
"I slept with Blaine. I was drunk and I don't remember much but I know I didn't rape him, I'm sure of that. But I got mad in the morning and left the house because of what happened, I didn't want to talk to him." Kurt explained softly and bit his lip. "I found out what he did and stormed out. Two days later I was arrested. I don't know what he was thinking, I'm not sure what he really did, how they let it happen. But I was arrested and people think I'm some kind of a monster now."
Adam took a deep breath and stood up. "How is this even possible, is everyone insane?" he murmured angrily.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you mad…" Kurt whispered and finally looked at Adam with shining eyes. He was on the verge of crying because this could be it, this could be a break up before they even really dated.
"I just don''t understand how is this possible. I mean okay, I believe you, you didn't hurt Blaine but how could he lie about it? And they check it, there are ways to do so. So how could they arrest you without any proof and when it's based on a lie?"
"Apparently the rape kit showed that he was hurt." Kurt murmured.
"Kurt…" Adam paled and took a step back.
"I didn't do it. I swear to God I didn't."
"I want to believe you. I do. But if he has proof, Kurt. That's not something he can make up so I don't know what to think." Adam replied seriously and stepped towards the door. "I need some time, I'm sorry, I just…"
"I don't top!" Kurt let it slip and then immediately covered his mouth. He murmured something illegible that made Adam raise his eyebrows.
"Come again?"
"I don't top. I never have, really, except for maybe one time we gave it a try. I hated it. And I hate it in every state even hammered. He didn't use the condom when sleeping with me. So I know I didn't top, I couldn't have raped him if I didn't top." Kurt whispered with a deep blush reddening his face. "I know I didn't rape him because he topped that night. I'm sure because I found out in the shower…"
"Oh, honey…" Adam sighed and shook his head. "Why didn't you tell them?"
"Because it was already two days afterwards. I showered three times and since I wasn't hurt there was no proof left…" Kurt whispered and untangled his legs to pull his knees close to the chest. "So I don't know what he did but somehow they bought it."
"This is bullshit." Adam frowned and came back to the bed, sitting next to Kurt. "He can't just do this to you."
"He was hurt, probably. I said something hurtful I should't have said but I got angry when I found out what he did. I mean we're not together and he didn't use protection, it's so stupid."
"It's thoughtless. He risked your health."
"He risked his own, too." Kurt said quietly and blushed. "I'm not innocent."
"I know that. Or I suspect." Adam replied gently and patted Kurt's knee. "But he made that decision for himself. You didn't have a choice."
"That's the truth. I doubt he even thought I'd be able to sleep with someone besides him. He's quite self centred." Kurt chuckled bitterly. If only Blaine knew. But he had no right anymore. Unlike Adam, who, Kurt decided, should find out. "There's one more thing."
Adam's eyes widened and he cocked his head to the side. "Did you murder someone this time?" he asked playfully and smiled wider when Kurt chuckled.
"Not quite that bad. Not good either, though."
"Shoot. Let's get over with bad news so we can catch up." Adam said cheerfully and sat cross-legged opposite of Kurt.
"Okay. So I told you on the phone, I would love to call it properly... Whatever we want to call it. I want us to be what we decide to be but I need to be honest with you and it's not anything my ex related. It's not about past baggage. It's about my... Well, my job." Kurt paused and looked at Adam.
"The one where you're definitely not waiting in a diner?" Adam asked with a slight smile.
"How do you...?"
"Do you really think I didn't try to visit you on graveyard shift more than once? Somehow you were never there and when I asked about one Kurt Hummel I found out no one named Kurt Hummel ever worked there. So I was wondering, I'm not gonna lie. But I was waiting for you to decide to be honest with me when you decide it's time." Adam explained calmly. He wasn't angry, he had been disappointed upon finding out Kurt lied but he knew honesty wasn't something Kurt just owned him. If there were secrets, it was fine but he didn't want lies. "Just in the future? You don't have to lie, you can just say you don't want to talk about it."
"I just felt like you'd think I was silly not wanting to talk about my job. It's just a job, right? Except, well... No one really knows. And everyone believes I work in a diner for a reason that I'm an escort. I work as a..."
"Prostitute?" Adam supplied with raised eyebrows.
"Well, yes, technically." Kurt sighed and looked down.
"Oh wow, okay..." Adam straightened his back. "I mean..."
"You can leave. I mean not physically leave, I don't want you to go back today or if it's up to me anytime soon. But if you decide to keep being friends because of this... Or not being friends at all because I don't deserve you as a friend, really, that's okay. I'll understand."
"I'm not leaving. Not as a friend, not... I'm not leaving Kurt but I need some time alone to think it through." Adam said carefully and looked at Kurt. "I'm not angry or disappointed, I don't think worse of you. We do what we gotta do but this is quite difficult..."
"I know, it's... You have all time in the world, Adam." Kurt looked up at Adam with a sad smile. He felt his eyes already stinging, full of tears he tried to keep from spilling.
"Don't cry, sweetheart."
"I can't not cry when I'm losing the best thing that has happened to me in the past few months." Kurt whispered as his lip trembled.
"You're not losing me. I'll just take a walk or a ride around the city and I'll be back and then we can talk, is this okay?" Adam asked quietly and kissed Kurt's temple.
"No, no, don't..." Kurt shook his head and stood up. "I mean, I just... You can go, okay? I just don't want you to give me hope I shouldn't have."
"That's okay, sweetheart. I'll go and I'll be back. I swear I'll be back." Adam smiled sadly and left the room. Kurt sat back on the bed and looked at the opened door. He knew Adam said he'd be back but it felt like everyone was leaving.
Kurt inhaled sharply and let out a sob. He had known it was the risk all along. Doing that job meant he knew the risk all along. But then he never even thought this was going to happen. He never believed he'd even find anyone again. And the disappointments from the relationships with Blaine made him not want to. but Adam was so much better. Adam was gentle and loving even though they weren't even together, they were merely friends and he was there for Kurt all the time. And it was never a plan to want more but here he was.
Kurt curled on the bed and hid his face in a pillow. He was hoping for more despite knowing it was impossible and it was his own decision. So why did it hurt so much. Why did something he gave up on long time ago hurt so much when it was lost?
