Hey lovlies! Hope everyone is having a good weekend :)

Just a quick announcement: I unfortunately will no longer be uploading on Wednesdays, work has been taking up a lot of my time, and I admit I've been reading more then I've been writing. You're all almost caught up to what I have written so far, I can't have that. So I just need more time to finish the chapters. But I still GUARANTEE chapters will be posted on SUNDAYS, that I promise!

Now onto the reading! Hope you like this chapter ;)


Alec didn't want to get up. All he could think about was what almost happened the night before. He was so conflicted on everything he was feeling, and he didn't want to have to face the real world, because then he would have to sort out what was going on with him. He groaned and pulled the covers over his head. Why must this be happening? Why couldn't he just get Magnus out of his mind, why must this man haunt his dreams? Alec was just so confused, he didn't know how he could ever face Magnus again after what happened. At the same time though he couldn't bear the thought of not seeing him again, after all he was still one of his closest friends.

Reluctantly Alec eventually dragged himself out of bed. Even if he wanted to forget the outside world it didn't mean they would forget about him. The script writers finished way ahead of schedule so he needed to approve the final draft so they could begin the next step. Right now he was regretting how much involvement he wanted. He made his way into the kitchen and started brewing coffee, if anything it would make things seem a little brighter. He was leaning against the counter waiting for this much needed beverage when someone started banging at his door. What the hell? He thought as he made his way towards the noise. He unlocked the door and was surprised to see Magnus standing on the other side.

"Magnus what-?" He began, but Magnus interrupted him.

"Alec I'm so sorry, for everything about last night. I stepped way over the line, and never should have did that. I don't know what I was thinking, and I know that you don't feel anything for me other than friendship. You're engaged, I know this, and I promise that nothing like that will ever happen again. I just can't imagine losing you as my friend, you've just become so important to me these past months. I don't want this to ruin everything," Magnus said. Alec just stared at him. It was so clear that Magnus hardly slept last night, and he was wearing the same clothes. His face held so much pain, and he looked to be on the verge of tears. Alec's heart clenched at this, and all he wanted to do was hug him. He knew this wouldn't be a good idea though, it was too close.

"Magnus of course I forgive you, I can't imagine losing you as my friend either. I'm sorry as well, I shouldn't have just ran out like that," Alec said.

"It was understandable, do you think we can just forget this all every happened? Just go back to how things use to be?" Magnus asked bitting his lip.

"Of course we'll forget this happened, that sounds like the best idea ever," Alec said smiling, relived that Magnus wanted to put it behind them.

"Okay, okay good," Magnus said, sighing in relief that Alec still wanted to be his friend. "So umm, I brought your pizza. You didn't get to finish it," Magnus said taking the container from behind his back. Alec laughed.

"So in case I didn't forgive you, you thought your cooking would sway me?" He asked.

"Well it has been known to make people do what I want," Magnus said grinning.

"You're hopeless, but thanks. It was pretty amazing pizza," Alec said taking the container. "Do you want to come in?"

"Yeah sure," Magnus answered stepping through the doorway.

"I just made coffee, do you want some?" Alec asked walking into the kitchen.

"I don't really think coffee and pizza go together."

"Coffee is all magical, it can go with anything you want it to," Alec stated.

"Well in that case I'll have some, if only to save our friendship," Magnus said taking the mug.

"Coffee is very important to me, the sooner you learn that the better," Alec said taking a sip from his own mug.

"I got it, I know the secret to your happiness." Alec smiling and grabbed two plates, placing the pizza onto them and then throwing it into the microwave. Once it was ready they started eating. It was silent for a few moments, the only sound coming from their chewing. Alec couldn't stand it though and finally spoke up.

"So the script for the movie is finished. I just have to read over it, and then they can send it in to get the approval."

"Really, that was fast. I didn't think it would be done for another month at least," Magnus said.

"I didn't either, they were way ahead of schedule. I guess they had so many ideas for it for awhile that they had most of it written already," Alec said filling his mug up again.

"Well I bet you can't wait for things to get moving. Do you have any ideas on cast yet?"

"Well for the main character I can't imagine anyone else but Lisa Gardner playing D.D Warren. So I really hope she agrees to come out for it," Alec said.

"I'm sure she will, if she knows you really want her. Plus she's pretty well known, and so are your books. So I don't see why she wouldn't want to be the star," Magnus assured him.

"Yeah I know, it's just so important that I find all the right people to play my characters. It's going to be a stressful few months that's for sure."

"I know you can do it though. But if the stress does become too much I know a great spa that you can go to, the massages are amazing," Magnus said.

"Oh really," Alec said laughing, loving how easy it was for Magnus so make him feel better.

"Take my word for it, you'll feel like you've gone to heaven. And if for some reason that doesn't work there's always the foolproof fix of getting completely pissed."

"These are such words of wisdom," Alec said.

"You should know by now that I'm very wise when it comes to helping people in need," Magnus said taking a bite of pizza.

"Well you must tell me more." They continued talking like this for another hour, just bantering back and forth. It was easy, it was comfortable, it was perfect. When Magnus left for work Alec made his way into his study with a smile still stuck on his face. Everything with Magnus was so right, and it was so easy to talk to him about anything. They just talked so well with each other, never not having something to say. Alec sank down into his chair, he knew he needed to finish reading the script. Instead he found himself grabbing his notebook and a pen. He needed to sort through everything he was feeling, and the easiest way for him to do that was through writing;

"I've been…I've been searching for you for so long." She whispered, simultaneously vulnerable and potent, intoxicated with these new found emotions. "I didn't think you existed."

Alec didn't know what he was writing, he knew a story was forming from his emotions, and he knew it was going to be different from anything he had ever written before. He also knew that it was going to help him figure out the thoughts flowing through his mind, so he continued writing. Words flowed out of him onto the page, and it was hours before he set his pen down again.


"Are you alright?" Maia asked.

"What, oh yeah of course I am," Alec said.

"Really, what was I just talking about?" She asked leaning back in the chair. Alec quickly thought back to their conversation, but Maia was right he hadn't been listening.

"I'm sorry, I completely spaced out there for a minute."

"You've been spacing out a lot these past few days. What's going on?" Maia asked leaning on the table between them. Alec didn't know what to say. He was ten chapters into his new story, and even though the characters were named Alexis and Nathen, he couldn't deny it was about him and Magnus. And that fact was really messing with his mind, he was also nowhere closer to figuring out what he was feeling. There was no way though he was telling this all to Maia.

"Nothing's going on. I'm just busy with everything happening with the movie, and with Katie and the wedding planning," Alec said popping a fry into his mouth.

"How is the wedding planning going? You never talk about it."

"It's going pretty good, Katie's doing most of the planning so I don't know everything yet. But from what I know there's nothing wrong."

"The most romantic description of wedding planning yet, you make me want to jump right in," Maia teased.

"Ugh, yeah I know I should know more about what's happening. It's just I have so much other things on my plate right now, the movie and my novels. I really don't know how I'm keeping up at this point," Alec said.

"You're writing two novels?" Maia asked, excitement filling her face. Alec swore to himself, he hadn't meant to let that slip.

"Umm, kind of. I'm mostly just fiddling around with the second one."

"Well what's it about, I can't believe you haven't told me about it."

"It's not really what I usually write, it's less thriller more romantic," Alec said blushing.

"You're writing a romance novel, that is so cute. Can I read what you have so far?"

"No, umm it's really rough at the moment. I don't really want anyone else reading it," Alec said, hoping she'd let it drop.

"Okay I understand. But once it's up to your standards I can read it right?" Alec nodded, glad to have the matter forgotten. Even though it didn't have their names in it directly Maia would be able to tell it was about his own feelings. There was always a disadvantage for having someone know you so well, no secrets.


When Alec got back from lunch with Maia he was surprised to find Jace leaning against his door. What was it with his siblings suddenly showing up out of no where.

"Hey what's up?" He asked. Jace just turned and looked at him, not saying anything. "Are you okay?" Alec suddenly grew concerned with the look on Jace's face, he looked about ready to pass out.

"I'm pregnant," he mumbled.

"What!? You do know that's kind of impossible," Alec told him resting a hand on his shoulder.

"I meant, Clary is pregnant."

"Holy shit really!" Alec yelled. "Come inside and sit down," he said, quickly opening the door and ushering Jace through it. Alec was practically bouncing all the way into the living room, he wished Jace would hurry up and tell him everything.

"You need to fill me in here," he said.

"Clary's pregnant, I'm going to be a father," Jace said staring at Alec.

"When did you find this out?"

"About an hour ago I think."

"You're excited about this right, like you do want this," Alec asked, suddenly concerned. Jace looked away, and when he looked back at Alec his face was suddenly alive and he had the biggest smile on.

"Yes I want this! I'm too excited for words at this point. I just can't believe it, it's happening so soon, and I'm not prepared yet," Jace said standing up. "I so don't know how to be a father, I haven't read any books about babies. I don't know the first thing about taking care of someone else."

"Hey now calm down, everything is going to be fine. You have time to learn all this stuff, she's not having the baby tomorrow. You both have nine months to read about this together, I'm sure she's just as worried," Alec said pulling his brother back onto the couch.

"Yeah, your right. I have time, I have tons of time. This is all going to work out, I won't be a sucky dad."

"Hey, why would you even think that? You're going to be an amazing dad, you're kid is going to love you a crazy amount. Don't think other wise," Alec reassured him. "What did Clary say about this?"

"Well when she told me she was a little stunned, she's only a few weeks along. But she was so thrilled about it, her eyes were bright and her cheeks were pink. She looked so beautiful," Jace said trailing off.

"Did you run right over here after she told you?"

"Basically, I mean I hugged her and told her how amazing this was. And then ran over here, I had to tell someone about it."

"Well I'm honoured you chose to tell me first. When are you going to tell everyone else?"

"I thought Clary and I would have a dinner at our place, seems like the easiest way to pass along the news to everyone at once."

"Dinner sounds like a good idea. I'm just so excited for you, I can't believe I'm going to be an uncle!" Alec exclaimed hugging Jace.

"I can't believe I'm going to be a father," Jace said hugging Alec back.


"Okay everyone, Clary and I have something to tell you," Jace said standing up from the table. Alec, Izzy, and their parents looked up from their food. Clary smiled and took Jace's hand in hers.

"We're having a baby,"Jace announced.

"Oh my god really!" Isabelle exclaimed.

"Honey this is amazing," Maryse said grinning.

"My first grandchild," Robert said smiling at Clary and Jace.

"Alec can you believe this!" Izzy said looking over at him.

"I really can't, but I also cannot wait for this," he said.

"I'm going to be an aunt, now I feel old," Izzy said laughing.

"How far along are you?" Maryse asked Clary.

"Just a little over a month," she replied, resting her hands on her stomach. Everyone got up from their seats and went over to Clary, grabbing her in a group hug.

"This definitely calls for celebration," Isabelle said, tears running down her cheeks. Alec agreed, finding a few tears running down his face as well. His heart felt like it was going to explode from everything he was feeling, he really couldn't wait until he became an uncle.


"So my brother's having a baby," Alec said looking over at Magnus.

"Wait what?" He exclaimed turning away from the rack of clothes he was looking at. "Clary's pregnant, this is amazing!"

"I know, I'm still a little stunned by it all. I'm going to be an uncle."

"You're going to be a great one," Magnus assured him. Alec blushed.

"Thanks," he said smiling. He could feel his heart beating in his chest, and a fluttery feeling work it's way into his stomach. This seemed to always happen whenever Magnus complimented him.

"I really hope they have a girl, Jace would be really good with a daughter," Magnus commented.

"I was thinking the same thing," Alec said. "Plus I would just love a little niece."

"You would actually be really good with a girl as well. Do you think you and Katie will have one?"

"Oh, ummm. I haven't really thought about it. I mean I know I want kids, but we haven't talked about it. But not for a while at least," Alec said turning to look at the clothes in front of him.

"Yeah that makes sense, you guys aren't even married yet," Magnus said.

"Yeah exactly. But anyway, what clothes are you currently holding, and should I be afraid," Alec asked changing the topic.

"I have amazing fashion sense, I know what you'll look good in just trust me on this," Magnus said pushing the pile of clothes into Alec's arms.

"I don't even see why you needed to take me shopping in the first place," he muttered.

"Because even though you spend all your time working in your house, doesn't mean you need to dress like you do. The black look is out, time to add some colour into your life," Magnus said pulling Alec towards the dressing rooms.

"I make no promises that I'm buying any of this stuff," he said stepping into a fitting room.

"Oh yes you are," Magnus stated before shutting the door.

Alec rolled his eyes and set the clothes down on the bench. He stripped off his own clothes and grabbed a pair of jeans Magnus picked out, skinny jeans. Then he pulled on a grey fitted sweater. He glanced in the mirror, and had to admit he looked pretty good. He opened the door and stepped out.

"What do you think?" Magnus looked up from his phone, and Alec saw his eyes widen.

"Damn I am good, you look sexy," Magnus said moving closer. Alec blushed and looked down.

"Really, you think?"

"Oh yeah, you'll be turning heads when you walk down the street. You have to admit you like it too."

"I will admit to nothing," Alec said walking back into the change room. He changed into another outfit, a tight red t-shirt and another pair of skinny jeans, these ones ripped. He didn't bother looking in the mirror before stepping out of the room.

"How about this one?"

"I think I might be too good picking out clothes, I'm just making you look too hot for anyones good," Magnus commented. He was internally fanning himself, because fuck did Alec look good.

"I do hate to admit this, but shopping with you is kinda fun," Alec said before walking back into the change room. He tried on two more outfits, which resulted in the same banter between them. He had one shirt left, a purple button up dress shirt so he put it on with jeans and rolled up the sleeves. He had to admit the colour looked pretty good on him. He smiled and opened the door, already looking forward to what Magnus would say. Alec stopped short though, Magnus was leaning against the wall opposite the change room but he wasn't alone. He was talking to a guy, or more like flirting with him. He was laughing and standing too close to him. A feeling of rage filled Alec, and then it quickly turned to sadness when he saw the guy touch Magnus' arm. Alec turned around and shut the door behind him before falling back against it. He squeezed his eyes shut, willing himself not to cry. What was wrong with him, why did he care so much if Magnus flirted with someone? Because you like him you idiot, but you just can't admit it. Alec took a deep breath, he needed to calm down.

He changed back into his normal clothes and grabbed everything he tried on. He threw open the door, and was thankful to find that the guy was gone.

"Hey, so you're going to buy all that right?" Magnus asked smiling.

"Oh, yeah of course."

"How come you didn't let me see the purple one?" Magnus asked as they headed to checkout.

"You were a bit preoccupied," Alec mumbled.

"Oh, sorry about that. He just came over and started talking to me, I was trying to be nice but clearly he took it as me being interested," Magnus said.

"Oh, so you didn't get his number or anything?" Alec asked placing his clothes on the counter. Magnus just shook his head. Alec felt relief wash through him.

"Do you want to grab some food after," Magnus asked. Alec nodded, he definitely didn't want the day to be over yet.


Once Alec got home later that afternoon, he dropped his bags onto his bed before heading straight for his office. He had to write, he needed to sift through what he felt today. Writing it all down was the only way he could deal. He filled four pages before he stopped, he looked down at what he had just written and it was like a damn burst inside him:

"I might be in love with you." He smiles a little. "I'm waiting until I'm sure to tell you though."

Alec jumped up from his desk and grabbed his notebook, he needed to talk to someone. He needed someone else to help him figure out what was going on. He couldn't keep it all to himself any longer.

0000

"I need to talk to you," he said to Maia the second she opened her door.

"Alec, what's wrong?" She asked moving aside to let him in.

"Read this, and then I'll tell you," he said handing her his notebook.

"What is it?"

"It's the second novel I'm working on, I want to see if you understand it," he said following her into the living room.

"Okay," she said, a little confused as to what he was doing. She opened the book and started reading though. Alec just sat beside her until she was done, an hour later she snapped the book shut.

"Alec," she said softly, she knew who he was writing about. It was all so clearly written down, all he felt. "Is this all really true?"

"I don't know, I'm just so confused," Alec said curling up on the couch.

"Just talk it out with me, tell me everything you feel. I read it, but I think it would be better if you spoke it yourself," she said taking his hands in hers.

"Everything feels so right with him. I never want our conversations to stop, and when we're together I never want to leave. I can't breath when I'm with him, and my heart speeds up when I think of him. His smile, and his laugh alone can make my day a hundred times better. When something happens, good or bad, he's the one I want to tell first because I know he'll understand how I'm feeling…" Alec trails off, it was all finally starting to make sense.

"Alec, I think you're in love with him," Maia said. This was what was so different about him, this was what was changing.

"I think you're right," Alec whispered. "What am I suppose to do?"

"You need to tell him, I know he feels the same. I've seen the way he looks at you," Maia said smiling.

"But what about Katie?"

"You need to talk to her, before you talk to Magnus preferably."

"I'm going to break her heart, I've been stringing her along all this time," Alec said. "I've pushed her away these last few weeks, nothing felt right with her anymore. I don't know what I'm suppose to say."

"All you can do is tell her the truth. It's not going to be easy, but it's something both of you deserve," Maia said hugging him.

"Why must you always be right about everything, you saw this before I even did," Alec said smiling a little.

"I've been your best friend since we were born, I know when something is going on," she said.

"No secrets between us," he said laughing.

"You better believe it."

"I should probably go talk to Katie, she's probably home from work now," Alec said detangling himself from Maia.

"It would be for the best, promise me you'll let me know how everything with her and Magnus goes."

"You'll be the first to know, you are my best friend after all," he said. Maia smiled and hugged him again before he headed back home. She was so happy he finally figured everything out.

0000

Alec took a deep breath before pushing open his front door, he really hoped Katie was here. He didn't think he could stand sitting around waiting for her, he needed to get everything out in the open now. To his relief he saw her sitting on the couch.

"Katie-"

"You love him don't you?" She said interrupting him.

"Katie, what are you talking about?" He asked, confused as to what she was saying. There was no way she could know, was there? She didn't answer him, all she did was unfold a piece of paper she was holding on to and begin reading it:

"'I took him by the shoulders. I looked at him, and he looked at me. 'You said I wasn't scared of anything. That's not true. That's what I'm afraid of, I'm afraid of you.' I took a deep breath. 'I'm afraid of how you make me feel, and what I want to do when you're around me. You make me lose control of myself, and what scares me the most is I like it.'"

"Where did you get that?" Alec asked, recognizing it from his story. It must have fallen out of his notebook.

"It was on the floor of your office."

"What were you doing in there?" He asked, suddenly becoming defensive.

"I was looking for something, anything to explain what was wrong. You've become so distant recently, and I didn't understand why. Now I do though, it's because you have feelings for Magnus isn't it?" She asked, eyes shinning with unshed tears.

"Katie…"Alec said, suddenly confessing it all was a lot harder than he thought it would be.

"Don't lie, I know it's true. You're with him all the time, and when you get back you're always glowing. You seem happier when you're with him. Just tell me this, has anything happened between you two?"

"No, we haven't done anything. I swear," he said sitting beside her.

"But you like him, please just tell me." Alec took a deep breath, and slowly let it out.

"Yes, I like him," he said. "But I've only just realized this. I know that sounds stupid, but I promise it's true. I didn't know what I was feeling, I was just so confused. That's why I started writing about it, what you just read was from a novel I'm writing. It was a way to help understand what I was feeling," Alec explained.

"And now you understand it?"

"Yes, I am so sorry Katie. I didn't mean for this to happen," he said.

"I know you didn't, we can't help who we love," she said giving a sad smile. "Just tell me this, did you ever love me?"

"Of course I did, I still do love you. Just not in the way I'm suppose to," he said. Katie nodded and took a shaky breath.

"Well, I guess it's a good thing we hadn't really started the wedding planning," she said forcing a laugh.

"Katie, I am so so sorry about all this."

"I know you are, and I don't blame you at all. Really, I'm just glad you finally told me everything," she said. "But I don't think I can stay here tonight, I'm going to stay with Olivia for a couple of days. Just until we get everything sorted."

"Are you sure, I can always go somewhere else."

"No I want to, I think I need someone to talk to about all this. I need to clear my head," she said getting up.

"Okay, if you're sure," Alec said following her to the door.

"I am, but I should go," Alec nodded, he knew she was close to tears and didn't want to cry in front of him. So he let her go. He stood in front of the door for who knows how long, just thinking about everything that has happened. He took a deep breath. He had to go see Magnus, he had to tell him everything. He just hoped what Maia said about him feeling the same way was true.


"Alec, what's up?" Magnus asked after opening the door to find him standing there.

"I have to talk to you." Was all he said, brushing past him and heading to the pink couch. Confused, Magnus followed.

"I don't know if I should be concerned or not," Magnus said sitting down beside him.

"Oh, ummm I don't think so. I on the other hand am definitely concerned."

"Alec come on, you have to tell me what's going on," Magnus said, crossing his legs and facing him. Alec took a deep breath.

"Katie and I broke up." The look on Magnus' face would have caused Alec to laugh, if he wasn't completely terrified of what he was about to confess.

"What, why?" Magnus exclaimed. He didn't understand what was going on.

"I realized that what I was feeling for her wasn't love, at least not in the way I should love my fiancé," Alec explained.

"But, what changed your mind?" Now came the hard part, how was Alec suppose to do this.

"Okay, umm this part is tricky. I should have a speech all prepared but truthfully I have no idea where to start. So I'm just going to jump right in," Alec stated. "I recently started writing another novel, different from my others. It's a romance novel, and after writing about twelve chapters I started accepting that what I was writing was true. The feelings I portrayed in my words weren't about Katie though…" He trailed off, he didn't know how to tell him, he was too afraid of getting rejected.

"So you like someone else?" Magnus asked.

"Yeah," Alec whispered.

"Is it Maia?" Magnus asked, his chest felt heavy.

"No, it's not Maia," Alec said. Magnus was relived, and just wished Alec would hurry up and tell him who it was.

"Then who-?"

"It's you," Alec blurted out. "I like you Magnus. I know its taken me forever to figure this out, but its true. Everything about you feels right, everything about you is right, if that makes any sense. You make me feel things I didn't know were possible, and I can't get you out of my head. I don't want to pretend anymore about how I feel about you…" Alec trailed off looking up at Magnus, who had no idea what to say. He couldn't believe what he just heard. Alec took a deep breath, he felt so relieved after confessing all he felt. But he needed Magnus to say something, he needed him to believe what he said was true.

"Magnus." A name, a sound, and from Alec's lips it was only a whisper. It seemed like this one name alone held so much emotion, as if he was trying to convey everything that he felt for this man in just one word. Alec had said Magnus' name numerous times, but never like this. Never like it meant do or die. Never like the way he did here, where it sounded like he was begging, and hoping, and praying that Magnus would understand. The way he said his name held pain and held passion. Alec said it as if it was some prayer, hoping that Magnus would see that he wanted this, that is was worthy of their time. It felt beautiful.

Magnus released the breath be had been holding, and as the air left his lungs he felt as if a weight had been lifted from his heart. He couldn't think of anything to say. So instead he leaned closer to Alec and did what he had been dreaming about ever since he saw him again that day in the bookstore, he kissed him.


*Hides under blanket* so yeah don't kill me for leaving it there, thought a cliffhanger was needed... So sorry! But yeah they finally kissed, woo! Definitely a long time coming I know. Don't worry though, the next chapter picks right off from the kiss, so some awesome kissy times are coming for your enjoyment ;) Review review 'cause I love when you do! I will see you all again next SUNDAY! Until then! :)