I trembled underneath his touch. I gently wrapped my arms around his snow white hair and held him close kissing him back. Inuyasha... The name had me gasping for breath i pulled away from Sesshomaru.

"I-I can't do this." I whispered before getting up. Sesshomaru made no movement to stop me or showed any type of emotion at all. "Im sorry Lord Sesshomaru." I bowed before starting to pick up Rins room trying to pretend he wasn't there, trying to pretend i had not just been all over him. I was straightening up Rins bookshelf when i felt his hot breath on my neck. I let out a small sigh and turned around. He roughly pushed me up agianst the bookshelf, i let out a grunt on accident.

"Inuyasha doesn't want you don't you understand?" He growled in my ear. I couldn't look at him because i knew he spoke the truth and to look at him would make it seem so much more real. "But i want you becaue Rin needs a mother and you seem like a good enough one for her." I trembled he didn't even like me! But i understood his logic he wanted Rin to be happy as i did.

"I will be Rins mother, but that doesn't mean i need to be yours. Please forgive me lord Sesshomaru." I tried to slip away from him. He grabbed my shoulders and kissed me roughly not at all like it had been before.

"Katsumi?" I gasped and ripped away from Sesshomaru.

"LORD INUYASHA!" I was shaking uncontrolably as Inuyasha ripped Sesshomaru away from me. I fell to my knees.

"WENCH YOUR MINE!" Inuyasha screamed in my face.

"NO IM NOT! KIKYO IS YOURS NOT ME!" I screamed in his face feeling threatened. He slapped me and i spun hitting the ground.

"Little brother leave her alone, shes mine." I sobbed dryly how could things go SO wrong? Inuyasha pulled me to my feet roughly and dragged me out of Rins room.

"NO! INUYASHA LEAVE ME WITH RIN!" I begged crying loudly to annoy him.

"Shut up Katsumi! Or I'll forbid you to see Rin!" That shut me up. I followed him willingly. His grip on my arm was starting to leave bruises but i said not a word even when he dragged me down into the dungeons. I did let out a whimper when i saw the chains that had spikes on the inside of the cuffs. He lifted me up and snapped the cuffs on me the spikes bit into the wrists painfully. He strapped another one around my neck making it hard to breath i felt drips of blood spill down my chest. I could've kicked him but i didn't i needed to be able to see Rin. He snapped cuffs onto my ankels. I hung there wincing every time i moved a part of my body. The spikes made it impossible to get comfortable.

"You brought this unto yourself Katsumi, you should've known better than to kiss anyone other than your master!" I nodded meekly tears dripping down my cheeks.

"I-Im sorry Inuyasha." I whispered unable to look at him. Why would he cause me so much pain.

"YOU SHOULD BE!" He looked really mad and i actually felt bad for him. He turned around and climbed up the stairs shutting the door and leaving me in suffocating darkness.

I don't know how long i was hanging there when i heard the door open and saw a candle flickering down the stairs. Sesshomaru appeared i groaned but stopped when i saw Rin holding his hand with tears dripping down her face.

"Ma- Katsumi, im so scared." I let the tears drip down my face at her scared unsure face. "Mommy, i want you to come sing to me!" She was crying loudly the tears glinting from the candle light.

"I cant come to you right now Rin, im so sorry." That seemed to upset her even more, as if seeing me hanging there blood dripping from my wrists and neck wasn't enough. "shhh Rin i will sing to you, i just can't come with you ok?" Rin nodded and Sesshomaru picked her up craddling her to his chest protectivly. "What shall i sing?" I asked there was no happiness in my voice it was simply routine right now.

"Sing me a lullaby." She said sniffling loudly and wrapping herself in Sesshamarus fluff.

"Close your little loving eyes,
Hush, my darling, do not cry;
And when golden sun greets the morn,
Back you'll be
In Mama's arms;
Back you'll be
In Mama's arms;
So lullaby,
Sleep on, my child;
May angel gleams
Pervade your dreams."
I sniffed as her head drooped off to sleep. Sesshomaru didn't even look at me he just climbed up the stairs, but he left the candle burning for me. A strange tenderness washed over me towards him.

'Thankyou Sesshomaru." I whispered, i knew he heard me with his heightened hearing.I closed my eyes and thought about how it used to be with Inuyasha. In 8th grade i had been in love with him.

"Im totally gonna whip you INuyasha!" I giggled happily.

"Feh ya right!" We grabbed onto the controlers racing each other in high tech cars. "HA! I won agian!" We played until 6:00 in the morning.

"Inuyashayawn i think its time to go to sleep." He nodded and wrapped his arms around me unexpectantly. "Inuyasha, i love you." I whispered quietly. He looked at me curiously my head tilted towards him, gently his lips brushed mine.

"I love you too Kagz now go to sleep." I nodded and burryed my face into his Kimono. He told me to sleep but i knew my heart would never let me.

"Come on Kagz your so slow!" I rolled my eyes but followed him up to his mansion. We climbed countless stairs. He hesitantly opened up a door leading to a beautiful balcony. The sun was just setting beautiful colors decorated the horizen.

"Inuyasha, its beautiful." I whispered just loud enough for him to hear. He wrapped me in his arms.

"This is the perfect spot." I dont know why but i thought he meant it was just for me. I didn't know then how wrong i was.

"Kagome shes perfect! Honestly!" I rolled my eyes, it had been a year since we had decided to just be friends.

"Ya i know i know Kikyo is perfect for you." i said in a bored tone pretending it didn't hurt my feelings.

"I think im gonna take her to prom." I looked at him, he wasn't joking.

"I thought we were going?" I asked hurt.

"Well that was only if we didn't get dates..." I looked down.

"Maybe i want to go with you." I whispered tears of hurt filling my eyes.

"Well i want to go with Kikyo." What an ass.

"KIKYO KIKYO KIKYO! IS THAT THE ONLY PERSON WHO MATTERS? I THOUGHT I WAS YOUR FRIEND!"

"YOU ARE MY FRIEND THATS WHY YOU SHOULD BE SUPPORTING MY DECESION!" I choked.

"Your right maybe i should, but i can't because i see how much you love her. Inuyasha i love you and your telling me you want Kikyo? Fine have fun Inuyasha." And that was it i walked away leaving Inuyasha open mouthed, i hadn't talked to him since then except that day in school. He tried to call me once or twice afterwards to appologize but it didn't get him anywhere.

The memories brought tears to my eyes. The door opened and a candle came down the stairs in an astonishing pace. A young girl around 13 unclasped the chains. I fell to the ground on my knees.

"Y-You are to go straight to Lord Inuyashas chambers!" She was panting. I ran up the stairs ignoring the pounding in my ankels.

I was at the door wearily i knocked.

"Come in Katsumi." This is not going to be fun...

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