Blinding Light, Save Me From Thy Lovely Darkness
Chapter 11: Bright Darkness
By: DeathIsOnlyTheBeginin
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Raven stared at her black ceiling through slitted eyes. Black, black, black, black....like her soul, like her heart. She could feel tears burning in her eyes, each drop of liquid daring to seep out of the corners, until they succeeded in their dare. Slowly, Raven felt her pillow begin to soak with ebony tears... ebony, ebony, ebony. At that moment, she was assured that she would never be able to escape darkness. Her sweet lovely darkness was finally beginning to turn on her, causing every shred of joy, it used to bring her, bitter.
Raven shook her head, who was she trying to kid. Herself? No...she knew that darkness had always been the thing that was tainting her life with pain. It's almost as though ebony feelings feed off of her. Just like a leech feeds off of a human, it latches onto the body and sucks out the juice of life, that is, until the victim finds out. Right there is the only difference between those parasites and Raven's. You see, a person can kill a leech, but in no way, shape, or form can you ever truly, destroy evil. Which brings us to the age old question: If you could wipe away the one thing that brings pain, would you? Now...most people, most humane, regular, life loving people, would say yes. But Raven can never be entirely positive. After all, how can a person destroy evil, if it means they must dispose of themselves to do it?
It is always at this point in Raven's dark mind, that thoughts of her brother surface. She knows that in the end, either he, or herself will be destroyed, the question is: which one will it be? It is at this thought that Raven believes that she must die, after all, she is the goddess of evil, the angel of death, the queen of darkness. So doesn't it make sense that she must be the one to leave? But then the thought of marriage with her brother crosses into her street of questions. She knows why they should marry, it should be obvious to everyone. If she marries her brother, then good and evil would be balanced. Raven cursed her mind, she had already promised herself that her brother would never have her, so there was only one thing left for her to do. And that, plainly, was to die. And that fact leads us to the tears in the vixen's eyes. Raven knows that if she must die, then she should become attached to nothing, and no one. Which is where she screwed up.
"Robin."
More tears slid from Raven's pools as his name fled her lips in a light whisper. She knew their relationship had to end, and soon. She knew that she did't do love, that emotion is not in her mirror, nor is it in her mind. Which is why she curses her heart.
"Raven?"
The voice stung her ears and sent a river of cold shock waves down her spine. He was in her room, and, he was watching her.
"Sparrow?"
She heard a sigh from the far corner of her black selected sleeping area and her breathing stopped.
"Yeah Rae, it's me."
Raven allowed her eyes to burn cold as her fingers clenched into fists at her bedded sides.
"What do you want?"
Another sigh echoed through the icy room before light footsteps headed towards the bland alien's bed.
"Raven, I must speak with you,"
Just then, Sparrow's form appeared at the side of her bed and a cold silence draped over the two siblings.
"Just, give me a few minuets of your trust and meet me on the roof," he whispered tiredly before disappearing.
Raven sighed and swung her legs over the side of her bed. She knew she should feel tired, or sore, or something. But to her surprise, she felt absolutely fine. In less than a minuet, she found herself on the roof.
Glancing around, Raven pulled her cloak tighter to her shivering body, a howling wind ripping through her violet hair.
"Over here sister." Her brother called out. Her eyes landed on his form, legs dangling over the side of the tower, rear planted on the edge. Sighing softly, Raven walked over and settled herself into his position.
The moon shone down on the sea below the two radiantly, rays cascading over the waves with shear elegance. A loon called in the distance, causing the usually beautiful scene to become eerie and chilled.
"Look at the water Raven."
She did as she was told and focused on the dancing sea of liquid...black liquid. The waters were the color of the night. Angrily, she closed her eyes and shook her head.
"What is this about Sparrow?" She asked bitterly, her eyes opening and fixing on his profile. He only sighed and turned to look at her.
"You."
Raven felt her mouth go dry, he had spoken that one word with a passion she had never heard before. It was filled with almost every emotion she could think of, and it made her feel uneasy.
"I know you Raven. I know what you feel, what you think, I even know how you deal with your powers. Its true, and to be completely honest with you, I have no idea why I know these things. Maybe it's destiny, maybe not, either way, I know what you believe. And I also know that you don't believe that you belong here."
Raven swallowed hard, a dozen words were fighting to come out of her mouth, but she kept each and every one in.
"Do you know why you think these things Raven?" Her brother asked knowingly, his eyes glinting with something she couldn't place. Mustering all of her strength, she shook her head, her eyes never leaving his. Her brother nodded slightly and glanced up at the sky, Raven copied his actions. Her violet eyes reflected the billion stars that were filling her vision, she could almost get lost in the reality of how small she really was, how small the world really was. Once again, a loon's call met her ears and another chill ran down her spine. Vainly, Raven tugged her cloak back around herself.
"You think these things, plainly, because they're true." Her brother finished dreamily, his eyes finally parting with the skies above. Raven glanced at him and then down at the ebony waters below. The sharp rocks that jutted out of the waves beneath her dangling feet seemed to be reaching towards the sky. It almost looked as though they were begging the stars to come down. Raven fixated her vision on those dagger boulders, her eyes taking in nothing else. Soon it seemed as though they grew closer, as though their attention was fixed on her as much as hers was on them. Now, they seemed to be calling out to her, their words were spoken lightly, but she could make them out.
Jump, come to us, please, jump.
Raven gasped, it was an unusual thing to feel at the moment, but she felt comforted by their words. At that moment, she suddenly realized how precious life really was. Her eyes fixated on the tips of the jagged stones below, how each sharp crease seemed to call to her.
"Raven!"
Her brother's cry seemed miles away even though he was right next to her. Everything seemed to be far away for that matter, everything but her, and her rocks, her precious rocks, her precious friends. Slowly, ever so slowly, Raven felt herself become weightless, and it wasn't until strong arms wrapped around her form, that she realized that her brother wasstill next to her. As though someone turned reality back on, Raven's mind snapped back into focus, so did her eyes.
The violet haired vixen let out a startled cry as she found herself dangling from the arms of her brother, her face pointed towards the jagged stones below. In a quick motion, Raven was swung back over her brother's shoulder, and an instant later, she felt her body connect with the cold steel of the Tower's roof. The impact let a loud ringing, and it shook the whole building. A few seconds later, every light in the Titans's home was on. Muffled voices echoed through Raven's ears.
"Where's Rae?"
"Raven?!"
"Hey Rae!"
Raven glanced up at her brother, who seemed to be fuming.
"WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING!?" He shouted, his pale face turning red from anger. Raven blinked at him stupidly before looking back up at the sky. She felt her brother's anger boil greater and before she knew what was happening, the tops of her arms were seized and her brother was violently shaking her.
"DON'T YOU EVER PULL A STUNT LIKE THAT AGAIN! YOU STAY AWAY FROM THIS ROOF! YOUR DESTINY IS NOT SUICIDE!"
He shoved her down angrily, emitting another loud ringing sound to echo through the Tower. A minuet later, running feet were heard climbing the stairs to the roof.
Sparrow glanced down at his sister, his anger rubbing away.
"I must leave you now," a small smirk withered its way across his face, causing him to look more like his ruthless self again, "And Raven, remember what I said. You do not belong here. Do you truly believe that your 'friends' would keep you around if they found out what you really were?"
A new set of tears stung Raven's eyes, partly from the bruises that now adorned the tops of her arms, and partly from the words her brother had just spoken.
"...Do you think he would want you around?" Her brother spat viciously, his eyes flashing with anger. Raven glanced up at her sibling, more tears forcing the waiting black liquid out of her violet eyes, each drop smothering her irises and pupils.
A second and a look of triumph from Sparrow later, Raven watched as he became his name's true shape. The sparrow form of her brother looked down at her cockily before he invaded her mind.
'You would do best to stay away from your little pet bird, Robin, my dear sister. No one will have you but myself.'
And with that, her brother took off into the sky before disappearing from sight all together.
The loud sound of a door banging open filled Raven's ears and she spun her head around to see all four of her fellow Titans standing on the same floor that her rear was adorning.
Robin stared down at her, his green eyes hidden behind a black mask. Raven removed her face from his view and hid behind her curtain of hair, desperately trying to hide her shame of crying. Robin turned around and ordered everyone back to their beds. A few grumbled protests and whines later, the three reluctant titans left for their rooms.
The Boy Wonder sat down by the violet haired girl to his side.
"Hey." He said softly, a hand sneaking around her shoulders. He attempted to pull her too him but she shook his arm away before he had the chance.
"What's wrong?" he asked softly, his voice tainted with disappointment.
Raven ignored his question, her mind was too busy skimming over the thing that she had to do. She and her brother both knew she had to do it. It was, after all, for the best. Using one hand to wipe away the black tears that were trailing down her face, Raven turned her eyes to him. His face was masked with concern, and his lips were turned down in a small and worried pout.
'Dear Zinthose, help me.' She pleaded silently, her eyes tearing up again. Anger swept over her and she wiped them away again, her mind set on her task. Quickly, she put her blank mask over he face and sent a glare in her love's direction.
"Don't touch me." She hissed, her voice coated in venom. Befuddlement plastered itself over Robin's face as he watched her stand quickly and turn away from him.
"Rae?" He asked cautiously, a hand extending in her direction. He gripped her shoulder softly, fingers wrapping around the material of her cold suit with ease. Raven turned her head so that she could see him over her shoulder, her chin bumping his fingers. Her eyes glowed with a violent red and her mouth was contorted in an angry scowl.
'I'm sorry Robin, please forgive me.'
"I said, DON'T TOUCH ME!"
A red light shot around the two and a second later, Robin felt his back connect with the door to the roof. A sharp sting ran through his spine as his left side slammed into the doorknob. He felt his body slip down the metal surface before his feet met the ground. Almost on command, his knees gave out and he face-planted into the roof floor. From all the impacts above, more shock waves swallowed the tower. Once again, muffled voices filled the rooms below.
Robin pushed himself as though doing a push up before positioning himself so that his back rested against the door. His head lolled back on his neck, and he found himself looking up at the sky, once star sparkling, now coated with heavy rain clouds. As though hearing his thoughts, cold rain began to fall on the bodies below.
Sighing heavily and trying to ignore the pain in his side, Robin glanced at the girl in front of him. He expected to see a look of disbelief or horror on his friend's face, instead, he saw contentment. Her eyes were no longer red, but back to their usual violet. But her eye color wasn't what had been bothering the Boy Wonder, what made his heart almost break, was her mouth. Her beautiful, pale, pink, luscious lips, were curled into a mocking smirk. For a moment, she reminded him of the man who had tried to strangle Starfire, not to mention the rest of the group, earlier.
"Rav-"
"Now maybe next time Robin, you listen to me when I say something once." She cut in, spitting his name out as though it were a highly contagious disease. The next thing Robin knew, someone was banging on the door behind him.
"Robin! RAE!"
It was Cyborg. Grunting from the physical and emotional pain he was going through, Robin pulled himself away from the door. Not a second later, three more titans were adorning the roof top.
"What happened?" Cyborg ordered, eyes locked on Raven, his voice angry and worried. Just then, he switched his gaze over to Robin and gasped when he saw the shape he was in.
"Who did this?!" The robot boy shouted before kneeling next to his friend. Robin looked at Cyborg tiredly before glancing over at Raven. Her face was blank, her eyes dull, violet hair blowing slightly in the breeze as small drops of rain rolled down her cheeks. For a moment, Robin lost himself in the hope that she was crying for him, but then her remembered something. Raven's tears, were ebony, were black. He scowled,
"Just like her heart."
It was a whisper, but Raven caught it, along with the look on his face. She had done it, she had forced him away. The thought brought the familiar sting of unshed tears to the back of her eyes, but Raven knew she couldn't blow her cover. So, the vixen placed a very fake angry look on her face, and glared back at the hurt Boy Wonder. It was then that she noticed the looks she was getting from the other members of the team. Four sets of eyes stared at her, eight separate color pools wide with disbelief, anger, horror, but most of all, fear. Her friends feared her. The thought crushed the remaining unharmed parts of Raven's heart. But still, she held her fake, careless shell.
"Friend Raven, is this true?" Starfire asked weekly, red wet hair falling around her perfect face. Raven stared hard at the alien girl, her eyes taking in the slight orange tint of her skin to the bright green eyes that stared back at her. Green eyes, just like his.
Shaking such thoughts from her mind, Raven placed a smirk on her face and nodded her head.
"Yes Star, I did." She replied coldly, her eyes passing from the red head and over the rest of the team. Beast Boy was shocked, Star was sad, but Cyborg, her brother figure Cyborg, was mad. No, mad was an understatement, the robot teen, was resentful.
"I want you too leave Raven. If you can't keep your powers under control, then you should leave...before you hurt anymore of us."
His words were cold, icy even, but his eyes were colder. Raven could feel his hate, she could taste it. It left a chrome flavor on her tongue. Wait, no, that was her blood. She had been biting her tongue so hard, that she had drawn blood.
"Do you all think that?" She asked monotonously, her eyes scanning over her once-comrades. She got a frightened nod from Beast Boy, a sob and nod from Starfire. Those pained her to no end to see, but Cyborg and Robin's looks ripped her heart out, well...what was left of it anyways.
Cyborg's face was cold and bland, his features were twisted in shear loathing. And Robin...Raven didn't know how she was still alive after takeing in that look.
His lips were curved into an icy scowl. His hair was matted to his head from the heavy rain, black strands hanging over his forehead and eyes. His eyes. The mask had pealed away from the intense rain pressure, and his bright green eyes glared at her with nothing other than pure, bitter, abomination. He hated her. Soon, his ebony hair was plastered down more by the rain, so that only a small sliver of his green eyes could be seen. It was then that Raven noticed the blood that was trailing down the side of his face, as well as his lip.
Instantly, memories of Cyborg sliding down the wall slammed into the violet eyed girl's head. The sudden feeling of nausea washed over her form before dizziness replaced it. The next thing Raven knew, the word was black and her face was connecting with the roof top.
Have mercy on me Father, for I have sinned...
Well...that took forever to write...gesh...lol....it kinda sucked, sorry, lol....but i hope it wasnt too bad, REVIEW PLEASE! lol, please...haha...well...i better get to work on chap 12, byes.
