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Chapter Eleven

When she awoke the next morning, she could hear the sound from downstairs and it filled her with fear, that woman was back and despite Smithy telling her she was just Charlies babysitter she couldnt help but feel jealous of the young girl, she was beautiful and had spent the last God knows how long with her family! Stevie knew she had no right to make demands but surely Smithy would have no need for the girl any more. She pushed to her feet and glanced at her pale reflection in the mirror, she ran her hands through her hair and smiled to herself before heading out onto the landing, Charlie was still sleeping soundly in his cot and she was half tempted to go in and wake him, he was after all her son, but deciding it probably wouldnt go down well with Smithy she pulled his top down her legs a little futher before heading down the stairs. She moved towards the door into the kitchen and paused outside it, listening to the two voices inside. "... its not like that" he spoke. "She stayed" the young girl answered suggestivly. "Yeah.. but she's Charlies Mum.." he defended and she cut him off once again "And she walked out on him... leaving you to bring him up Smithy". Stevie heard him sigh "I know.. and Im not about to forgive her for any of it... but if I dont give Charlie the chance to know his mother he will resent me for it when he is older... just trust me..". Stevie pushed the door open and smiled to Smithy "Morning" before glaring at the woman "You are looking after Charlie today?" she asked and Natalie shook her head and she went to speak but Smithy cut her off "No... he spends this morning with Leon... Natalie was passing". The woman nodded "But seen as Im here.. I will pop up and say hello". Stevie smiled "He's still sleeping". Natalie laughed "And if I dont wake him.. he will still be sleeping this time tomorrow..." Stevie glared at her and the woman smiled to Smithy "Is it ok if I go up?". He nodded "Of corse Nat... you know you dont have to ask". Stevie watched the young woman walk away before she turned back to Smithy "I could of woke him". He shook his head "No.." she cut in "How am I ment to build a relationship if you wont let me?" he moved to where she stood in the door way "I told you Stevie... we are doing this my way... and in an hour Leon will be here to pick him up and I dont want you upsetting him before.. so you wait.. go and get dressed unall... Charlie will have to see you and I dont want him thinking you stayed the night". She felt the tears in her eyes watching as he crossed through the house and headed up the stairs.

After her shower and getting dressed she headed back down the stairs, she could hear Charlie laughing in the living room and she paused in the door way smiling at her son sitting on the floor playing with Smithy and Natalie, they looked like a family a proper little family and she wished she could go in and join in but she just couldnt find the courage. She headed into the kitchen and flicked the kettle on. She jumped at the voice behind her instantly "I thought you'd of ran by now.." she sighed turning to face him "Im not going any where.. unless you tell me too". He sighed "Why didnt you come in?" he gestured to the living room and she sighed "Cause I didnt fit Smithy... you have got it perfect.." he cut in "No.. its far from perfect.. I have made the best of a bad situation..." she smiled "And its all my fault.." he nodded "Yeah.. it is Stevie so maybe.. you should get over the self pity and get on with putting things right". He paused as Natalie appeared in the door way "Sorry to interupt but I need to get off Smithy". The Inspector nodded "Ok.. see you tomorrow". The woman nodded and offered a quick Goodbye to Stevie before she left. "Its not that simple..." he interupted "No nothing ever is with you Stevie...but at the end of the day you have a beautiful little boy that unless you make the effort he will grow up not knowing who you are.. and thats without.." he gestured to her slim stomack "The baby.." she sighed "I want to put things right..." hearing the doorbell she smiled "And I will" she continued and he gestured into the hall "You can start by opening the door?". She shook her head "Its Leon" he nodded "So come on.. be a bigger person and start facing the wrong things you did?". Stevie smiled "I.. I cant Smithy... Im not ready to face people". He nodded "Fine" she listened as he moved into the hall and pulled the front door open before she turned back to the boiling kettle and starting to make a cup of coffee.

Ten minutes or so passed and she remained sat at the kitchen table, she was frightened about what Leon would say, she had no doubt people were lining up to call her a bad mother and she just couldnt take it. She jumped as the door swung open and Smithy appeared "You say one thing..." he began as he headed over to the kettle "And you dont really give a damn about anyone but yourself". She shook her head "Thats not fair.." he cut in "Thats the story of your life Stevie... everything is always unfair on you.. everybody else can go to hell" she rose to her feet "I dont have to listen to this... we are ment to be starting again" he watched her walk to the door and he called "Thats it walk out again.. you're good at that eh?". She paused and turned back to face him "How long are you going to treat me like this?" she asked and he shook his head "All the while you act like a child.. Im gunna treat you like one.." he pushed past her and headed to the stairs "Im going for a shower.. if you are still here when I've finished.. we can talk about what we will say to Charlie later". She watched as he made his way up the stairs before she walked into the living room and rested down onto the sofa. She could understand he didnt trust her and that she had brought this all on herself but why did he ask her to stay if he just wanted to make her life hell.

She paused in the bedroom door way, he always had a body to die for and he looked so gorgeous, the water still dripping down his muscles, his hair soaked. He hadnt noticed her staring yet and she had no doubt when he did he would cover his naked body so she had to make the most of the next few seconds until he turned to face her, or looked up in the mirror she was staring at. He spun round, dropping his towel round his waist "Jesus" he stressed and she smiled "I have seen it all before" she offered him a smile and he shook his head "But we aint together any more Stevie" he stated before pulling the towel tighter. "I've still seen you naked.. you dont have to hide.." he cut in "Did you want something?" he asked, his voice slightly more angered. "To have a conversation.. without you making me out to be some form of the devil". He rested down onto the bed "Im still hurting Stevie". She nodded slighlty "I know.. but I need to know where I stand?". He sighed "You want to know if we are going to get back together?". She nodded "I love you.." he cut in "And I love you too but its not that simple.. you broke my heart.." she sighed "I know.." she walked over and sunk down next to him on the bed "You have no idea how much its killing me... I hate that I hurt you Smithy" she placed her hand to is bare leg and he jumped slightly at the touch "But I think we can work.. if we put things right from the start". He rose to his feet and shook his head "So we just pretend it didnt happen then... that you didnt walk out on me and your son... you cant just expect me to forget Stevie.. Im not.." she moved to him and took hold of his hands "No" he shouted "You cant just walk back and expect everything to go back to normal... I really thought you loved me... that you were the one.." she nodded "Am I not?". He shrugged his shoulders "I want you to be.." she cut in "Then let me". She moved into his lips kissing him gently at first before wrapping her arms round his neck, pulling him tight into her body. He pulled back "No.. you cant do this" she glanced down and smiled "Im sorry... I just want my boyfriend back.. my family back". She placed her hand to her stomack "I want to be a family.. all four of us". He sighed as he moved back into her body "Then do it properley... put things right and then... we can stand half a chance". He pulled her into a hug "Im not saying I dont want you or love you... cause I do but I cant just forget... give it time" he gently kissed the top of her head and smiled "Go downstairs while I get dressed... I'll be down in a second".

He had rested down next to her and the two had spent near to an hour holding hands on the sofa, neither had spoken, they had just sat spending time together and she couldnt be happier, she was loving every moment she had him to herself. She felt him squeeze her hand and she smiled up at him as he began to speak "Sorry.. I need to go and get Charlie..." she smiled "Where do you pick him up from?" she asked and he smiled "Leons... I will only be an hour or so". She nodded and watched him rise to his feet "Smithy?" he smiled "Shall I come?". He smiled "I erm... I dont think thats a good idea.." she cut in "Earlier you were all for me facing my demons.." he cut in "Just not now Stevie". She smiled as she rose to her feet "But.." he shook his head "No buts Stevie... we have had a nice morning... please dont ruin it". She sighed as she listened to him as he walked out into the hall and the front door slam shut. Rising to her feet she paced the living room a couple of times, she knew that Smithy was never going to let everything go, maybe it was all just a huge mistake her coming back to him, she had been back a day, one day and he hadnt even let her speak to Chalie yet, God only knows what sort of relationship she woud have with her son and her new baby when she had it. Grabbing her handbag she headed to the door and slammed it shut before walking down the path and climbing into her car and driving away.

Arriving back at his home he knew instantly she had gone, her car had gone and he felt the anger rising in him instantly, he had given her another chance that she really hadnt deserved and she had let him down once again. He lifted Charlie from the car and stormed inside, letting his son into the living room he moved back out and into the hall before walking into the kitchen at the back of the house and trying her mobile, which she didnt answer, no surprises there then. Lifting his phone to his ear he sighed as the young girl answered on the second ring "You were right" he stressed and she sighed down the phone "She's gone?". He hid his face, he couldnt quite contain the shame of her making a fool out of him once again "I cant believe she had done this to me... I really thought she loved me". He listened to the young girl once again "Just forget her... you will meet someone new Smithy... you can do so much better.." he nodded to himself "Dont stop me from wanting her though does it... she is a selfish little tart.. I really thought she would put Charlie first.. I dont know why for one second I thought she would think of anyone but herself... she never has before" rising to his feet he jumped as he saw the small blonde stood in the kitchen door way. "I'll ring you back Nat" he smiled before hanging up and dropping his phone to the table "How long have you been stood there?". She forced a smile to her face "Long enough... to know exactly what you think of me" he shrugged his shoulders "What'd you expect Stevie?". She sighed "You're never going to trust me are you?" he smiled "Where have you been?" she held the bag of shopping out to him "I went to get some food for tonight... I was going to cook for you and Charlie". He sighed "Im sorry.." she smiled "Dont be" before she walked out into the hall and up the stairs.

He appeared in the bedroom door way about fifteen minutes later and she wiped her eyes as he moved inside and rested down next to her "I didnt mean to slag you off..." she nodded "Yeah you did... corse you did... I bet the second you got back and saw I was gone you were on the phone... to her of all people". He shook his head "I told you there is nothing between me and Nat". Stevie sighed "She is beautiful Smithy" he cut in "Yeah she is.. she's stunning.. and clever and amazing with Charlie" he paused as he stared at the fresh tears running down the blondes face "But she aint you... and I love you". Stevie gulped back her tears "So what now?" she asked and he sighed "You fancy cooking me dinner?" he asked a slight smile on his face. She nodded "Corse.." he smiled "Hang on a second.. dont move" she smiled watching as he disapeared out onto the landing and then down the stairs. He returned a few moments later with Charlie in his arms "I thought maybe you would like to read him this first..." he held a book out to her "Its his favourite.." she nodded as she watched her son bounce on the bed "Are you sure?" Smithy smiled "Corse... I'll be downstairs". She listened to him go down the stairs before she smiled to the little boy "Hey Charlie.. Charlie.." he smiled at her and she couldnt help the fresh tears that ran slowly down her face "You wanna read this book with me?" she grinned as the little boy moved into her lap.


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