Chapter 11

Bella's POV:

I didn't even look at him as he passed by me. I could smell his warm, sweet scent wash over my face, intoxicating me completely. Vampire or human, either way, he still had the same delicious fragrance that smelled like a meadow mixed with the sweetest, softest musk there was.

Many memories flooded back. Our first kiss, It pained me deeply to think about him, so I quickly spoke once I was sure he was out of hearing range.

"So, we're here to discuss the basics for my 'safety' you say". I placed air quotes after I said safety. Jacob chuckled low and deep.

"I assure you, Bella will be in safe hands." Jacob spoke in a smile.

"Or Paws," Emmett murmured, correcting his sentence. He then dodged a smack from Alice and gaining a laugh from Rosalie.

Jacob looked pissed, but kept speaking anyways. "As I was saying ... Bella will be staying with Emily, considering there isn't enough room at my house." Carlisle nodded, thinking over all this new information.

"Okay, now that we have housing arrangements settled, but remember, anything bad happens, anything at all, do not hesitate to call or visit." Carlisle said. I nodded in acknowledgement of his offer.

"Of course" I stood up from my seat, and Jacob followed my move.

"I'm just going to get my stuff from upstairs ... I'll only be 2 minutes." I announced as Jacob grimaced and looked around uncomfortably.

"So, Jacob Black...what does it feel like to phase?" I rolled my eyes as I walked upstairs. Leave it to Emmett to break the silence. In the most ridiculous ways that is.

I walked into Alice's room to gather my things which she so graciously moved from Edward's room. I would have to thank her later. I grabbed all my homework and books when I noticed one of my History papers was missing. I sighed and realized it must have been left in Edward's desk where I was working on it while he was still in a coma.

I walked hesitantly towards his room, feeling nervousness creep through the pit of my stomach. My mind kept popping with what I could find there, and I didn't like them. Very slowly, opened his door while taking a deep breath, and I suddenly regretted it. My gasp had agony with it, as I saw Edward and the vampire girl kiss in a way of adoration.

I shut the door without awareness of my surroundings, what with the tears that are collapsing from my cheeks. I tripped my way downstairs, crying with guilt washing through me, towards the front door. I heard concerned and muffled voices from behind me, but I couldn't make out what they were saying.

When you trust someone deeply, and they turn your back one day, how does it feel?

My world was crumpling right in front of him. But does he notice? No.

I hated this, everything. All I wanted was to cry myself out and shout at the sky, demanding for peace. Everything was absurd; him losing his memory, not remembering me, but remembering her! I can't stand it!

I just need to know, if I can trust him again. I get tired and weak, my heart aching but still fight. Then there are times when I get lost, but can I fight? Is this love I have for him worth fighting? Can I do something about it? Just a couple of answers, it's all I need.

Are we the same in these times?

All I noticed was that Jacob Black, my best friend and reliever, was following me with a shaken body of fury.