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Loke awoke to his alarm; he reached over and slammed his hand down on the beeping clock. He groaned as he opened his eye, looking at the time. Lessons started in an hour; he sighed and turned on to his back. School had gotten so hard since Gray had suddenly found affection for his friend, Natsu.
Loke rubbed his eyes as he tried to ignore the pain in his chest, life wasn't fair, he thought to himself.
Gray had Sting, why did he suddenly want Natsu! He had fallen in love with him first; the slayer should be his, his only. How can I think so bitterly? His my friend, I should be happy for him not jealous…but still, I can't hide my feelings, surly Natsu knew how I felt, I did always try and make passes at him. Maybe I need to be a little more direct, Gray would be going away with his band, meaning I would have Natsu's attention for two days, I could use this time to get closer to the slayer…maybe even…confess my feelings.
Loke sat up, sighing, like he could do that. He bit his lip as he thought about Natsu, about him being with Gray, how it pained his heart.
"I suppose I have nothing to lose…if I were to confess" he thought out aloud.
He slid out of bed, his thoughts racing faster than his heart. Could he do it? Would Natsu understand? Could Natsu ever feel the same?
Of course not, Gray has him! No, no he doesn't…there not together…Sting wouldn't allow the ice mage to go as easy as that, take a chance, open up about your true feelings, tell him…! I can't, I'm scared, rejection…rejection…you can't lose something you never had Loke, confess!
"I'd really like to do that" Natsu smiled, accepting the invitation to sleep in Loke's room for the night.
With Gray gone, he would get lonely and think of nothing but the ice mage. If he was with Loke, his mind would be distracted.
"That's great" Loke smiled, happy that Natsu had said yes
"Who else is coming?" Natsu asked, biting into his toast
"Uhm…no one, it's just going to be us" Loke explained
"Oh…alright" the slayer shrugged, chewing his bread
Half way there…his said yes! This might actually work, you confess your feelings and then Natsu confers his feelings too and you find out he really loves you, not Gray!
"What you thinking about?" Natsu asked, blinking at Loke
"N-Nothing, just wondering what to write on my English essay" he smiled
"Oh yeah, I forgot about that, I've been so distracted lately, ha-ha" Natsu laughed "Gray always wants to see me, it's a shame were not in more classes"
Loke's heart fell into his stomach as he stared at the green eyed slayer, Ha, like you can just open up like that, look its clear he is hung up on that ice mage, No way! I'm not giving up, not until he tells me no…though his smile says it all, his heart is filled with happiness whenever he says's Gray's name.
"You seem distracted to, who are you thinking about?" Natsu grinned, wiping his mouth
"N-No one…no one" Loke mumbled, placing his head down
"I bet I can guess" Natsu grinned
Loke's eyes widened, his head shot up, his chest tightening.
"Y-You can?"
"Yeah, ha-ha, its Lyon isn't it?"
-Facepalm- Hopes crashed; the slayer has no dam clue about my feelings!
"Well, I'll see you later…I want to go and see Gray off" Natsu stood, brushing his uniform he left the hall, leaving Loke sat alone.
Why can't love be simple? Why can't the person you like just like you back, why must my heart suffer like this, I don't think I can take this anymore. Love, it's so cruel
Loke watched as Natsu raced away, why can't he love me? Just be mine Natsu, just look this way and see how much my heart yearns for you…please
Gray hugged the slayer before climbing on the bus; Sting watched the pair the whole time. Natsu smiled and waved, suddenly noticing Sting staring at Gray, the blonde teen looked at him, with a cruel grin on his face. Natsu's smile disappeared as the bus slowly pulled away.
Who was he kidding, he could never have Gray if Sting was there…don't think like that, I'm sure Gray loves you to…maybe, you should have asked him before he left. I can't just ask that! He would think I'm a freak, confessing such feeling so quickly…but it would have been nice to hear them three words from him, just to reassure my heart that he is mine.
"Come on, you'll be late for class" Loke called from behind him
Natsu turned and smiled and began walking towards his friend. He was lucky to have someone who cared about him so much; Loke was always there for him when he felt sad, even when he hadn't asked him to be. It was like he watched over him; he was such a good friend.
