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Chapter 11

You are now Special Agent Natara Williams

You look at his ocean blue eyes, as he stand there, stunned.. They consume you. Drowning you with longing and pain marked as he realizes who you are.

Mal: Natara?

Nat: Mal...

Still staring with those hurtful eyes, you can't help but feel the pain too. His pain is also yours. And you can't bear to think that you caused him that.

Mal: I... I'm sorry... I didn't mean to...

He bows to you and leaves for the door. You look at Denni who is now dancing with Colt, she jerks her head from his chest, like she felt what just happened, and she looks at where Mal disappeared with concerned eyes. You look at her and nod to reassure as you go for him.

Mal...


You are now Detective Mal Fallon

You proceed to your car and settle yourself inside while you loosen your tie. It feels like you were suffocating as all the pain you've been trying to forget comes rushing back to you, all those memories and feelings which you tried very hard to bury deep down, emerges like they're gonna consume your whole sanity.

I kissed her..

You speak to yourself as you rest your head on the steering wheel. You try to relax by taking deep breaths.

God damn Mal... What have you done.. Why did you kiss her?

You are now Special Agent Natara Williams

You've searched all over the place and you still can't find him. You return to the gym as Denni and Colt approaches you.

Colt: So... where's Detective awesome?

You shrug at him, and you notice Denni thinking about something, you look at her closely and you see Mals' eyes on her.

Denni: I think I know where he is. Colt, why don't you accompany her as I go talk to him?

Colt nods as she turns to leave. There is silence for what it seems like forever when he breaks it.

Colt: Hey Agent Hotstuff.

You look at him and he smiles.

Colt: Everything's gonna be alright, I may not know what happened, but what I'm sure about is, how he loves you.

You stare at the moon in silence as he laughs softly...

Colt: Your situation is kind of familiar, only this time the one choosing is already married so I assume you know where your heart is…

You flinch when he said "married"

Colt: …or not? Anyway... Here's the deal, a great detective once made me realize that in life, let alone love, we need to make choices and even sacrifices. Sure, one of them may be as hell as worst could get, that's a given fact, but that's how life is, somebody will really have to get hurt eventually, maybe that's what you are worried about, I think I know how it feels, it's like you've been hit by a car that it shattered your body down into pieces, you feel as if everything in you breaks into puzzle pieces that's impossible to rearrange..

You stare blankly at him as he continues…

Colt: But time will heal him, he's the toughest guy I know, not tougher than me though but you get the point. It may take a while, yeah, but he's going to pull thru. I also remember that detective telling me one thing, "Do the right thing". It went a long way, saved my ass a couple of times.

He left you stunned by his words; you can't believe that a high school like him could say such things. As you regain your composure, you see Denni towards you.

Denni: Everything alright?

You nod at her

Denni: He's by his car.

You give them a thankful smile as you go for the parking lot.


You are now Detective Mal Fallon

You wait on your car as Denni leaves to tell her where you are. You do your usual meditation to keep your cool as you remember the things Denni said.

Uncle Mal, you can't run from what you feel forever, I sense that you haven't really told her about it yourself. So please stop pretending that you're ok... If you really love her then tell her. You won't totally start to move on unless you let go of that weight… Every sadness has its own reason and every heartbreak has its own history, but whatever it is… Always remember that at the end of this you will end up learning. And learning will make you a better person than you already are.

You close your eyes and smile...

She really is a grown woman now.

Then, as if on cue, you hear a knock, you open up the door as she comes in.

Nat: Hey...

Mal: Hey...

You sit for a while and stare at the night as silence floods you. You are the one who starts talking.

Mal: So here goes…

You take a deep breath and start

Mal: When I first saw you at the fishing wharf, I never thought I'd fall this hard. When I realized it, you were still with someone else... I couldn't bring myself to tell you because it looked like I was the reason why he almost died… When you finally ended things up with Shawn, I thought that maybe I had the chance, you thought it was only a ruse, then... Oscar happened. It hurts to remember how you looked at him and kiss him passionately; every single time I wished it was me. I kept silent because I knew that telling you would only complicate things. Maybe other part of it is I can't bear it and afraid of the rejection, so I settled down and got contented by being your best friend. I still look at how beautiful you are and am thankful that you let me into your life, even as a best friend. When he broke up with you and you went to my apartment, tears rolling down your face, I got that urge to tell you how I felt, but I didn't because I don't want to take advantage of you, I don't want to be loved just because I was there when she's broken… When I saw the hurt in your eyes. I realized that you love him more than I give you credit for. I swear I would've punched his ass out to death; I don't care how long I'll spend at jail. But seeing how you cried and cared for him that much was enough for me to stop hoping for an "us" and start in being happy because you are… And that's what matters to me.

There's a brief silence then you continue

Mal: I love you Natara. Very much. your smile, your frown, your face, the way you break criminals with your mind reading, the way you love Chinese take-out, the way you smile, your chocolate brown almont eyes, your olive colored skin… everything about you. I know it's late and that you're already married. But I hate hiding anymore. I just had to say it.

You smile at her and brace yourself for what she has to say..

I'm prepared for this, As long as she's happy...


Jade,

lol nice guess :)) wait for more Maltara fluffs :D

MALTARA2010,

thank you very much :)) you don't know how much that meant for me. i love your story too :P i'm actually waiting for an update

Juliette,

reading your reviews makes me upload faster XD because i just noticed.. when i have read some reviews, ideas just come to me :D thank you and stay tuned