Sorry for the wait. it took me forever to come up with an idea to approach this chapter since it is rather depressing. But once i did it started flowing so easily

Chapter 8

Cedric POV

We returned home after that night in Venice. She no longer wanted to see Rome, and I thought it odd that she changed her mind so quickly, but I said nothing of it . She was silent the whole journey home. She never spoke to me, which I found quite concerning.

every time I tried to hold her hand, caress her cheek, kiss her lips, she would simply push me away. No words were spoken, and I was too hurt by the rejection to say anything either. When we reached home she hold herself in the library. She watch the flames in the fireplace for hours before retreating to an empty bedroom for the day. I was distraught. The love of my life was distancing herself from me. I could only wondered what I had done. She had been rather quite months before, but now she was a ghost. She walked the halls slowly, never leaving her nightdress. She never did her hair, never left home unless to hunt, which she did by herself.

I felt sick and disgusting. My beloved angel would not speak to me, and I was too much of a coward to ask her why. I loved her, and yet as my wife, I felt as if she know longer felt the same. There was nothing I could do for her. I try to simply sit in a room with her and she get up slowly and leave the room. If I could cry I would have spent many of my days doing so. She must have been unhappy with more than just me, I haven't done anything. Then again, Dmitri may have been right. Maybe she has grown bored with me. Maybe she no longer wanted me as her husband.

The days dragged on and on. Days never seemed so slow, even as a human. Sometimes I felt as if a decade had gone by, but really it was just little over a year. The silence was maddening. Truly pure agony. I loved this woman, would do anything for her , and yet I feared her at the same time. She had this control over me. She could easily kill me if she were to live. I would rather live with her as a silent being, then to go one day without her entirely. Though I had to know, I had to know if she desired my absence, because I would gladly end my life if it meant her happiness.

I came into the dimly lit library. I walked by her side and saw as she looked into the flickering flames. Her stare was blank, eyes glazed. Her beautiful pink lips, I so long to kiss, were slightly parted. I kneeled by her side and took her hand, but this wasn't an improvement. She has simply given up.

"My love, can you hear me?" I asked, moving away a stray hair. Her hair has not been brushed in months. She skin looks more pale, if possible, and her vibrant violet eyes have turned dull. "My love please speak to me."

Her head rolls toward me and I feel as if there is a sign of hope. "Cedric?" her voice was so foreign. I haven't heard it in years.

"Yes, my love. I'm hear." I was relieved. She was talking to me.

"I want to die," she whispered in a hoarse voice.

My world ended. My love, my life wants to die! How can it be! "What do you want my love? Tell me! I'll give you anything you desire."

"Death," she whispered.

I shook my head. "No, anything but that. Please, tell me. I'll go to the ends of the earth for you." My voice is beginning to crack. I'd do anything for this women.

She begins to cry dry sobs. "You cant give me what I want, no one can." she cried.

I hold her face in my hands. "Tell me my love. I'll give you whatever you want."

She takes my hands off her face and kisses my sweetly. "No matter how badly you want to, you cant. You have been so patient these past years, and I thank you for being so kind and tender. I have been a bad wife, and do not deserve you."

"No," I shook my head. "Never. You have been the most beautiful and caring wife there ever was."

"But, I've neglected you for too long. Please Cedric I just want to be alone." she rolled her head opposite me but I ran to the other side to face her again.

"No! I wont! Tell me what it is you want! I will find a way! I swear to you!" I cried.

"I don't think God himself could give me what I want."

"Don't say that! There's always a way! Just tell me!"

She was quiet. Neither of us said anything for many minutes, but then she spoke up. " I want to be a mother."

I had no words. A…mother? But she had always told me she wished in no way to be domestic. She knew staying human she either die a old spinster or marry a man she could never love and give him the children she would never want.

"I know I never wanted that sort of life. But, when I saw that face, that little angelic face I knew that what I desired now was a child. I knew that it was something I wanted to do, but I knew you react this way. I knew you stare blankly at me and wonder where this is coming from. I began to obsess. All I could think about was having a baby. Raising a child, being a mother. But I knew it was the one thing I could never have. So I suffered in silence. Trying to hide from you, trying to hide from this longing. In that time, I realized, that I would never have never wanted a child as a human. Its bee n over seventy years, and now I want a child. Only after having the time to be young and free, would I finally be ready to start a family. But I 'd be dead if I were human. I'm done living like this." she cried.

"Like what?"

"Like living as a young couple is every going to make me happy. I know now that I'll never be happy without a child. I've accepted that death is the only choice, you should too."

"No! I wont let you. Surely there must be another way. We can go out more often, see all the babies on the streets. We can see all the children in the city."

"Please Cedric, this isn't easy for me. I know that its only a matter of time before I run into the sunlight to end all this suffering because truly I can stand it no longer. I love you, and I want you to go on living without me."

"Will you wait?" I asked. I have begun to formulate a plan. One I know she'll hate me for, but I love her too much.

"For what?" she asked.

"Till I return. I know how to change your mind. I swear."

"Cedric, I've made my decision. At first light-,"

"Will you wait till I return! I'll be back before sunrise, I swear."

She gets up and falls face first onto the couch. " I promise, but not a minute after."

"Thank you," I whisper, before running out of the house as quickly as I can. I can hear her sobs muffled by the pillow, but soon all I can hear is the air whipping around me. I can not waste another minute. I will save my love, I swear to it! No matter who suffers in consequence.

Next chapter will have Elise's point of view and Cedric's. i've been so exicted to start the next chapter so as long as i get reviews it should come fast. I promise. Anyone else feel bad for Cedric?