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Sorry this has taken forever, I've been studying Chemistry for the past three hours and decided to take a break and write some of this, my brain is a bit rotted with calculations now, so hopefully you enjoy this, read and review please! x
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The upset grew into anger, she was fuming, she trusted him again and he messed it up, she felt more like her mother as time went on… she loved a man who only cared for himself and hurt her. Kate pulled down the bottle of wine that was hidden in the top cupboard and took a long drink; she had bought it for when they were planning to reveal that Sawyer is Jaime's dad, but now that that plan is out of the window she decided a nice glass of wine would calm her down. She poured a generous amount and put the bottle back up, she didn't care that the wine was warm, it didn't really matter. Kate heard a knock at the door and she rolled her eyes, it was probably Sawyer… she looked out of the peephole and saw Tom.
Upon opening the door, Tom pushed his way in and flew into speech "Kate, you okay? You just left so quickly and looked upset… I had to make sure you were okay" Kate placed her hand on his arm to get him to shut up. "Tom… I'm, uh… I don't feel all that good, but I have to ask you something" Tom nodded "Sure, anything" Kate sighed and walking into the living room, she faced him, looking sad "Did you see anything happen between Kate and Sawyer on Saturday night?" Tom smiled sadly and nodded "Yeah I walked in and was shocked, I mean, come on, it's a frequently used toilet… I'm sorry Kate; I know you and him were close"
Kate bit her lip, she was hoping that he saw nothing, it hurt even more that they didn't care if someone walked in on them, it was if they had meant it that way. Tom slouched and pulled Kate into a hug "I'm sorry Kate, don't cry please" Kate sniffled and wiped her eyes "I'm okay, I wont cry" she smiled sadly at him, Tom tipped her chin up and smiled "Come on, give me a smile" Kate smiled shyly, he shook his head playfully "come on Kate, a real smile, your smile!" Kate smiled widely "there ya go! Don't loose that smile okay" Kate nodded weakly and broke free from the hug and went to get a hankie to dry her eyes properly.
There was another knock at the door and then Aaron popped his head around the door and smiled "Delivery: one little girl for a Kate Austen" Kate laughed and hugged Jaime as she ran up to her "Thanks for looking after her Aaron" Aaron smiled and joined in on the hug "No problem, but I gotta run, so I'll catch up with ya later okay?" Kate smiled and nodded "Sure, see you later" Aaron waved to Tom and left in a hurry. Jaime flicked her gaze to Tom and glared, she didn't like him, there was something about him that made her defences kick up a notch. She forced a smile "Hi Tom, what you doin here?"
Tom laughed with impatience, he never liked kids, they got in the way and were a fuss and Jaime was a smartass when she could be, he forced a smile back and said "just came ta see Kate actually" Jaime folded her arms over in front of her chest and cocked her eyebrow, she turned to face Kate "Mom, where's Sawyer? You said he'd be back" Kate sighed and looked at Jaime "Sawyer isn't coming back Jai" Jaime's face fell "but why?" Kate clenched her teeth and harshly said "Because he's a bad man and just upsets everyone around him okay…" Jaime glared at Kate, she wasn't that dumb, she knew something was going on, and she placed her arms on her hips. "Yeah, whatever" she stormed off towards her room and Kate sighed.
"I better go explain a little more" she said facing Tom, he shook his head and replied "You go have a calming drink and I'll try and explain okay, just that you's cant agree and think its best that he isn't here okay?" Kate placed her hand on her head and nodded "Sure, be nice though, she was getting attached to him" Tom nodded with a smile. Kate showed him to Jaime's room and he shut the door behind him. He sat on the bed beside Jaime and sighed "look, your mom and Sawyer cant agree on something, so they think its best that they don't see each other, so no one gets hurt" Jaime glared at him and snipped back "Don't stick your nose in! It has nothing to do with you"
Tom clenched his teeth and grabbed onto Jaime's arm painfully, she winced a little "Listen here ya little brat, its up to your mom… and if you mention him, or get out of line, she'll send you away and you wont see her again, she's being patient with you because you are her daughter, but make no mistake, she will do it" Jaime looked terrified, she didn't know if she could believe him but she didn't want to make any mistake. Jaime cleared her throat and threatened "I'm telling mommy" Tom smiled sickly "tell her and I'll tell her what a naughty little shit you are, and she will send you away, she's sick of your unruly ways, she was telling me earlier how she wants rid of you"
Jaime's eyes watered up, but she didn't cry. Tom increased the pressure on her arm and said "You going to be nice now?" Jaime nodded quickly and cradled the top of her arm soothingly once he let go "Now that's a good girl, why don't you stay out of mommy's way tonight" Jaime turned away and nodded. Tom smiled and ruffled her hair "good, thought so" he walked out of the room and back into the kitchen. Jaime sat behind her bed away from the door and put her head on her knees, letting tears fall, she felt so scared, she didn't want sent away, she loved Kate too much to be sent to someone who would hurt her.
Kate smiled up to him as he walked in "How did it go?" Tom took a seat and smiled back "She's so smart, she understands completely" Kates smile widened "Thank you, it would have been too hard if I done that" he shook his head "no problem, I like ta help" Kate placed her hand on top of his "seriously, thank you Tom" he smiled deeply, you're getting there his mind cheered, soon enough she'd be crawling around him and he'd get her to send away the brat so they're alone. He looked at his watch and sighed "Shoot, I have ta go… so, I'll see you tomorrow?" Kate smiled but shook her head "Day off tomorrow" Tom nodded "Well it's my night off as well, so why don't I take Jaime to this church club my niece goes to? She says its fun, and it would get Jaime out of the house? And we could do something"
Kate thought over it for a moment then smiled "Yeah, that would be so nice, thank you so much" they stood up and she shook his hand, he lifted it to his face and placed a kiss on her palm "No bother" Kate smiled a little and walked him to the door "See you tomorrow okay" Tom nodded and waved as he left the building. Kate shut over the door, it was nice that he was there to take her mind off of Sawyer; she smiled and sat on the sofa, watching some TV. Feeling her stomach rumble, she got up and went into the kitchen to see what she could make, she heard Jaime's door getting opened "Oh Jai, you want anything to eat?" she yelled, there was a pause then a quiet "No thank you" Kate pursed her lips together, wasn't like her, usually she joined in on the cooking, Kate shrugged and went back to looking.
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The next day for school, Jaime was unusually quiet during breakfast, barely speaking and scared to make eye contact. School felt like heaven, she didn't have to watch what she was doing or be extra polite and nice, when her friend Michael asked her what was wrong she shook her head and said nothing. It was home time and Jaime saw her mom waiting at the gates with Tom, her eyes widened and she faced Michael quickly, she pulled him into a hug and whispered "I'm scared of Tom, Mikey" Michael shifted his gaze to the man and frowned, Jaime was like his best friend and he trusted her completely, nothing much scared her, so he must have done something to make her like this.
She heard her name get called and she looked sadly at Michael, he smiled weakly at her "You'll be okay" she nodded and said "I hope I will be" Michael looked at her in worry, obviously something was upsetting her "Yeah okay… goodbye JaiJai" Aaron was there to pick him up; he waved at Kate as they went away. He faced Michael and saw his worried expression "what's up?" Michael faced his uncle and he scrunched his eyebrows "Jaime's scared of Tom, like super scared… im afraid for her" Aaron laughed with uncertainty "did she say why she was afraid?" Michael shook his head "Nope" Aaron nodded and placed a hand on his shoulder "Let's go little man"
Jaime sat in the back seat of Tom's car, being silent and trying to avoid talking to him, her arm still hurt; there were finger print bruises where he gripped her, but she done her best to hide them from Kate. Jaime snapped out of her silent day dream when she heard Kate talking to her "Jaime, Tom is taking you to a church club that his niece Cindy goes to… isn't that nice?" Jaime smiled weakly "Yeah that's nice" Kate smiled at her and said "Say thank you Jaime" Tom shifted his eyes to the little girl and she gulped "Yeah thanks Tom" he smiled "no problem Jaime" she smiled weakly and looked out of the window again.
Once they got home she went straight to her room and changed into other clothes. She flicked through her diary, reading all the things once more and when she heard Kate shout on her she went into the living room "You taking your bag?" Kate asked, Jaime nodded "yeah, I like it" Kate nodded then added "sorry but I can't go, I have to get a start on dinner, so Tom will take you and pick you up okay?" Jaime nodded slowly, Kate smiled "Don't be sad honey; you'll have a good time!" Jaime forced a smile.
Tom smiled and ruffled her hair "She'll have a blast… by the way Kate, they'll need your number, just incase of emergencies, just so nothing happens" Kate nodded and smiled; she penned her number on a piece of paper and handed It to him. "Have fun Jai" she waved to them as they left. She sighed and pressed the listen button on her answer machine, she didn't want to listen when Jaime was in, incase it was Sawyer; the voice rang out "One New Message" then Sawyers rough voice "Kate. What the hell is this about, I'll be seein ya soon, you can count on it" Kate closed her eyes and sighed.
He sounded angry, why should he be? Her mind yelled, she pressed the delete button and forced a smile, for the second time I her life, she was trying to get over him. She went into Jaime's room to pick up the clothes that were likely scattered on the floor, she smiled at the mess, just like her, she bundled up the clothes and then she saw the diary on the bed. Kate respected her daughter's privacy, but curiosity was eating away at her, she placed the clothes on the bed and picked up the little book, flicking through it. She smiled at the entries she skimmed over, ones of happy days out and ones just praising her, her smile faded as she read the entry about the whole ordeal with Libby. Kate flicked to the last entry and felt like crying.
Dear diary, I don't know what it is but I feel like Sawyer is my dad. When he's around I feel something for him, it's the way I feel around mommy. He is my daddy!!! But why won't they say? After what Libby said about me not having a daddy, and here he is. I know that he is my daddy; I've seen the way he and mommy look at each other! I want him to say it! I need to hear that he is my daddy! I hope that he loves me!
He makes things better! I like him way more than Tom, I hate Tom, I hate him I hate him I hate him HATE he's a bad man and I don't trust him, hopefully mommy see's before he hurts her too.
And I love mommy x 3
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Tom glanced over at Jaime who was sitting in the front seat "you being a good girl?" Jaime nodded quickly "yes" she whispered "That's good" They got out of the car and went inside the church, to the spare hall that was used for playgroups. Tom greeted one of the woman and handed her a piece of paper "This is Jaime Austen, she's a kid of a friend of mine and that's her number" The woman, with a name badge reading Rose smiled at Jaime "Hello dear, come this way, you'll have so much fun" Jaime was lead to a hall full of children between the ages five and nine, all running around and making lots of noise, Rose filled in some information in the book and gave Jaime a sticker that had her name on it.
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Tom was watching her every movement, he loved to watch her. She was the most perfect woman he had come across, she would fit perfectly into his life… the only downside was her little brat. Kate turned around and smiled at him "It's almost ready" he smiled and stood up "Perfect, I'll help you put it out" they moved effortlessly around and placed the dishes and cutlery on the table, and then they sat across from each other. They had a simple dinner and had a light-hearted conversation. Kate thought Tom was a nice guy, sure he was good looking and was as sweet as can be, but she wasn't looking for anything more than a friend.
Kate smiled sadly at the plate and took another bite, she missed Sawyer, she hated that she let him back in her life. The first time she had to let him go was hard enough, it's was just as hard now, not just for her but for Jaime as well. She looked up at Tom and forced a smile, she wasn't in the mood for any emotional involved questions. Tom smiled back at her and took a drink of wine.
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Kate was scurrying around the kitchen clearing the leftover dinner, the doorbell went and she smiled. Tom must be back with Jaime. She wiped her hands on her skirt and headed for the door, she pulled open the door with a smile, which slowly faded. An evil glare and a squared jaw was what she was faced with, Sawyer's lip twitched and he stormed in to her apartment. Kate shut the door and glared at him "What are you doing here?" she folded her arms and stood defensively. Sawyer laughed bitterly "How about you tell me what you meant from that call sweetcheeks" he ignored her question and squared his jaw again.
Kate walked up to him and spoke directly into his face "Leave. Leave now or I WILL CALL THE COPS!" Sawyer smiled sarcastically then glared at her "I want ya ta tell me what in the hell's goin on!" Kate laughed and paced around the living room, she shook her head "Oh I think you know Sawyer" she glared and for added effect, she re-shook her head. Sawyer screwed up his face, what the hell? His shoulders risen "What in the hell are you talking about?" Kate sniggered and swung her arm accusingly at him "You. You and your goddamn selfish ways, I gave you one simple thing to do… and you didn't do it! It's obvious that you don't want me and Jaime to be a part of your life"
Sawyer's hands softly latched on to Kate's arms and he kept control of the anger in his voice "What?! Of course I do! I've done nothing wrong, I've practically changed my life for you, so don't say I aint tryin" Kate glared and pushed him off of her "Bullshit." She pulled her hair out of her face and continued "I said that I didn't want you to get involved with another woman, and guess what, you did and what makes me sick, is the fact that you slept with her the night you slept with me!" Kate roughly wiped away a stray tear that had escaped. Sawyers eyebrows scrunched together, he was now confused, what in the hell was she on about.
Kate continued to glare at him; he wasn't even acknowledging her statement. "Are you even going to answer me?" her voice was breaking and sounded teary. Sawyer's eyes flitted around the room then landed on her "I have no idea what yer on about Kate" his tone was harsh. Kate smiled forcefully and then pushed him "Yes you do!" Sawyer squared his jaw and was pushed again "You had sex with Kate in the goddamn restroom, the night we had sex, I saw a photo and Tom backed it up… do you have any decency? How could you do that?" her eyes were glassy and she was letting out deep breaths. She pushed him again and again.
Sawyer grabbed onto her wrists and held her at arms length, he squared his jaw and groaned "I didn't screw her, I wouldn't do anythin ta jeopardise anythin between us" Kate tried to use her arms but couldn't, so she kicked his shin. Sawyer bent over and grabbed onto his throbbing shin "Son of a Bitch!" he rubbed the area harshly "What the hell was that for?" Kate glared at him "You and your lying! I'm sick of it, this is the reason I didn't want you back in my life, you only mess things up!" Sawyer stood up and latched onto her shoulders "I didn't. I'm telling the truth, all that happened in that damn restroom was that she kissed me… I pulled back then Tom walked in! The idea of touching her makes me sick"
Kate bit her lip, should she believe him? Could she? All that she heard in her mind was that she had to give him the chance, she needed him to get that chance, and she needed him more than ever. Why were things getting complicated? "Then why are they lying?" Sawyer placed his hand on her face and let his thumb rub her cheek, Kate leaned her head into his hand "I don't know, maybe they want me outta yer life" Kate closed her eyes and whispered "but why" Sawyer sighed and hung his head "how the hell should I know" Kates hand came on top of his, just resting on her face "please be honest, did anything happen between you and Kate?" Sawyer pulled his hand away roughly and ran it through his hair "Kate, look, nothing happened. I swear on Jaime's life, I wouldn't do that to ya"
Kate looked to the ground and they slowly walked towards each other, till their foreheads touched. "I'm Sorry" Sawyer looked into Kate's eyes with understanding, her arms slid around his neck, her fingers entwining with each other. His arms went around her waist and pulled her even closer, Kate smiled lightly, and she rubbed her nose against his. Sawyer smirked and mouthed I love you then he planted his mouth on hers. Kate breathed in his cologne and let her eyes flutter shut, the butterflies in her stomach were working overtime, it still surprised her how he could still do that to her. Sawyer backed them up so that Kate's back pressed against the wall; his hands came round to rest on her hips.
Their kiss intensified, their breathing was heavy and they pulled even closer together. Kate's thigh slid up his and came to rest on his hip, her leg twisting around his side. Sawyers hand moved from her hip to her thigh, she was like a drug to him, once he had her; he had to get more and more. Kate twisted her fingers in his hair, causing some pain; she knew how to push his buttons. His fingers hooked onto the side of her panties and began to pull them down, the broke the kiss and dragged in deep breaths. They smiled at each other and Sawyer trailed kisses down her neck, applying pressure every so often. Kate closed her eyes and murmured "Jaime'll be back soon" his hand slid up to the top of her thigh and he caressed it softly "I think we have time"
Kate smiled and closed her eyes, she knew they probably didn't have much time, but she couldn't stop what he was doing- it felt too good. His hands curved her backside and he pulled on her underwear till it slipped down the back of her thighs, his mouth came on top of hers again, only applying the smallest amount of pressure. Kate forced her tongue inside his mouth, letting her tongue battle with his, her hands caressed the back of his head and pulled him closer, crushing their faces together. They could both feel the heat rising between them, their hands were on autopilot, and Sawyer cupped her ass and pulled her onto him as he strode towards the bedroom.
He lay Kate on the bed and quickly undone his belt and pulled his jeans down, Kate got rid of her panties and threw them on the floor. The physical need clawing at them overcame the idea of undressing fully, Kate extended her towards him and pulled him on top of her once he grabbed onto her hand. Kate smiled sweetly up at him and then she kissed his jaw. Sawyer ran his thumb over her lips and smirked, as he leaned down to kiss her, her entered her swiftly, catching both of their breaths. It was quick and hot; both rushed to the finish line and moaned loudly as they released. All that was heard in the room was heavy, laboured breathing, Sawyer's face was lying beside her neck, he was breathing in the scent of her hair… he had missed that smell; it still smelled the same as always.
He nuzzled at her neck and placed a few light kisses on her ear lobe. Kate smiled and ran her fingers through his hair, he always left her without the ability to speak after sex, she didn't know why but she barely could string a sentence together for a while. Sawyer rolled onto his back and smiled up at the ceiling, Kate stood up and tried to fix her clothes, she pulled down her skirt and done her best to fix the crumples in it. Sawyer fixed himself as well and then he brushed away a stand of hair that was in front of her eyes, Kate smiled at him and pulled herself onto his chest. Sawyer let his chin rest against her head, he wrapped his arms around her, squeezing her tight, letting her know that he'll be there for her.
Kate breathed in his scent, he always smelled good, he hadn't changed, he had that unique smell- his smell. She always felt protected in his arms; he had an aura about him that made her feel safe, she closed her eyes enjoying the warmth from him. There was a knock at the door and then it opened "Hey Kate? Where are ya?" Kate froze and pulled back, it was Tom. She looked into Sawyers eyes to see his reaction; his eyebrows were scrunched together with hate. His eyes fell to her and she shook her head to warm him not to overreact, Sawyer tipped his head and sighed, he didn't want to cause any trouble. "Mommy? Were are you?" a smile twitched as their lips and Kate pulled out of his embrace and nodded for Sawyer to follow her, they had to sort out what happened at the weekend, firstly by getting Tom to tell the truth.
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Did that make sense? Wasn't too sure, sorry about the suckyness, just can't seem to get inspiration lately.
