"Hey, Christa," I popped my head into the doorway to peer at her. "I'm doing laundry, have any clothes you need washing?"
A small blonde head poked out from the bathroom, "Oh, yeah! Two seconds."
I watched patiently as she ran around the room, over the bed, onto the couch, and pausing to look underneath the dresser pulling out a sock, collecting clothes before handing them to me. "Do you need any help?"
I shook my head, "Naw, don't worry about it. Hey, where's Ymir?"
"Christa, if you don't hurry up I'm showering without you," Ymir shouted from the bathroom, answering my question. "If you want me to go down on you any time soon then you'd better get in here."
Christa flushed and I felt my own cheeks start to burn. "U-um. I'll let you two shower then."
"If you need my help just call for me," Christa told me with a sweet smile.
"Christa!" Ymir whined. "I'm lonely."
Christa closed the door with an apologetic smile and I made my way through the halls, picking up dirty clothes from whoever I met. Sasha and Connie were out though and I wasn't about to dig through their room for dirty clothes (mostly because I was afraid of what I might find) so I figured they could do their own laundry. I made my way into the basement and to the laundry room, managing to fit all the clothes into one washer with only a little struggle. I huffed and wiped my hair from my face before closing the lid and starting it. I hopped up on top and pulled out my phone to play some games while I waited for it to be done.
I figured it would be okay if I hung out alone for a while. I knew Armin and Mikasa were missing me but I was hardly ever left alone so being here was somewhat of an escape. It was becoming overwhelming having eyes constantly on me, watching my every move.
I could kill myself now, I could find something to do it and get it over with.
I chewed on my lower lip and leaned my head against the wall with a sigh. I knew there was a broom over in the corner. I would only have to snap it in half for it to make a somewhat decent stake. It would at least work well enough. I ran the idea back and forth in my head before I went back to my phone. With Levi's blood in my system I found my head a lot clearer. Everything had been muddled and angsty since Armin and I were rescued. I had been so fragile around everyone that they had walked on eggshells around me, scared of making me cry again. Now that I had fed everything was kind of put into perspective.
I still didn't want to be who I was right now. I was the thing that used to haunt my nightmares. I went from terrified of monsters to being one and the thought made me sick with every fiber of my being. Death never sounded so nice and reasonable.
But I still hadn't found the man who killed my mom.
Talking with Mikasa really put that into perspective. That son of a bitch was still out there and I was determined to kill him before I killed myself. As soon as he was gone then I could die, but until then I had to hang on.
Even though my head was a lot clearer though, Levi continued to confuse me. He was the last person I thought would let a vampire bite them but he practically forced it on me. He reached for me and held my hand. The more I thought about it the more I realized Levi was confusing even before. From the time he almost touched my dick after a hunt to the times he's held me while I cried. He had my head spinning so fast I was dizzy. I didn't think my heart could take too much of him before giving out.
The emotional part of me suggested that maybe he was interested in me, but the logical side refused to see it that way. I couldn't find anything about myself that would be remotely interesting enough for me to think he would like me in any sort of romantic way. He was probably just looking for a quick fuck and the more I thought about it the more I wasn't okay with it. Sleeping with him would be great but I wanted more than that.
I slammed my head against the wall and cursed. A stupid crush was the exact opposite of what I needed right now. Levi's been great and he's been there for me and I'm emotionally needy right now, so that has to be what this is.
I knew that wasn't true but I repeated it to myself over and over anyways. I didn't have time for anything even remotely close to romantic feelings. I had shit to do. I have a murderer to kill and a clan to help wipe out and if I let my thoughts get muddled with the thought of someone else it would get me killed.
Right when the dryer beeped at me Levi walked in. He paused in the doorway looking at me for a moment. I hopped off the washer I was currently sitting on and shoved my phone back into my pocket.
"I came to help." He said.
I couldn't bring myself to look him in the eye, already feeling my cheeks burn. "Okay."
We worked in silence afterwards, folding clothes and putting them into the laundry baskets. It was almost relaxing, and after a while the tenseness in my shoulders finally ebbed away. It was when I had folded the last pair of jeans that I found myself crowded against the dryer.
"Levi, what-?"
"Shut up for a second."
I closed my mouth obediently. Levi frowned at me, staring into my eyes like he was trying to find something. He was pressed so tightly against me that I could feel his warmth through our clothes. I found my mind wandering off into embarrassing thoughts and I quickly turned my attention to the corner of the room, staring at the cobweb and trying to keep my head out of the gutter. Levi didn't say anything. He just looked me over and the more he stared the more hungry his gaze got. When he looked back up at my blushing face he seemed to find whatever he was searching for.
"How obvious do I have to be," he muttered under his breath.
Before I could even ask what he was talking about his hand was gripping the back of my head and pulling me down into a kiss. My brain short circuited and for a moment I couldn't do anything. All I could do was stand there dumbly, head completely blank, because why? When he started to pull away, almost too quickly for it to be a kiss, I finally spurred myself into action scared because even if I didn't understand I didn't want it to stop. His lips were hot and a little chapped but I really didn't care. I just needed it from him. I needed the closeness and the attention I was getting. I cupped his neck and pulled him back to deepen the kiss. My eyes fluttered closed as I let myself get lost in this. It started out slow. Both of us were just testing the waters, feeling each other, taking our time because this finally solidified what had been going on between us. At least I hoped it did. A nagging in the back of my mind was telling me that this was was only leading up to a quick fuck. We'd all been emotionally drained and it seemed plausible that we'd want to take it out on each other. Maybe that was just what Levi was doing.
Teeth nipping at my lower lip pulled me out of my thoughts and I gasped in response. Levi's tongue was immediately in my mouth moving against mine. The longer we kissed the more rough it got. Levi sucked at my tongue and gently bit it, smirking into my mouth when I moaned into his. I felt myself growing hotter and hotter with every passing second and my pants were getting uncomfortably tight. When Levi ground his front into mine I almost lost myself.
"Shit, kid," Levi moaned, pulling away.
I chose not to respond, instead leaning down to bite gently at his neck mindful of my fangs. Levi stiffened up slightly and I found myself wondering if I had done something wrong, and then he groaned chasing that worry away. I sucked at his neck desperate to leave something behind on him.
"Eren," Levi gasped. "I need… we need to-."
"Levi? Eren?" Hanji's shrill voice had Levi jumping back with a curse. "Are you down there?"
Levi panted slightly for a moment before calling up, "Yeah. We just finished laundry."
"Tell Eren I need him for a second!"
I groaned and ran a hand down my face, "I'll be right there!"
With my boner successfully killed I straightened up and grabbed the laundry basket. Levi scowled at the stairs leading to the first floor.
A hand on my arm stopped me before I could even take a step up.
"We'll finish this later," Levi said. My cock stirred in my pants and I found the only thing I could do was nod.
I thought Hanji was going to drop to her knees with the way she begged. "Please, Eren! Just one little test."
"Don't bother the poor kid," Mike said as he passed by. "He's been through enough."
"But I have so many theories," Hanji said, turning to him with crazed eyes. "Like the one about the moon and vampire reproductive habits and-," as she babbled on Mike gave me a look and mouthed 'run' and he didn't have to tell me twice. I was out of there and down the halls into Armin and Mikasa's room.
"Eren?"
I looked over to see the two of them in the middle of a chess game and I took a moment to die a little inside over how nerdy my friends could be.
"Sorry," I said sitting down beside them. "I had to escape Hanji."
"She try to get you to do some of her experiments?" Armin asked with a raised eyebrow.
I nodded, "She started talking about vampire sex and I got out of there as fast as I could."
Mikasa frowned, "Who here could you possibly have sex with?"
I blushed and looked away hurriedly, laughing nervously. Luckily Mikasa didn't seem to realize how weird I reacted to her comment. Glancing at Armin though I saw him looking at me curiously. There was no way he was going to let me out of this.
"Hey, Mikasa!" Ymir appeared in the doorway, Christa at her side. "We're heading into town for a little while, kind of a girls night out. You want to come?"
Mikasa looked like she was about to deny the invitation when Armin spoke up, "You should! It would be fun." No, don't leave me alone with Armin.
She looked at him for a moment and then back at me before standing up and following them out.
Armin immediately turned to me and stared at me. "Okay, spill."
I blushed and put my hands over my face, groaning. What even was here to talk about? I wasn't even sure myself.
"It's Levi isn't it," he said. "It has to be, I think he's the only one single here. Unless it's Mikasa or me but I doubt that very much."
"Armin-."
"So what happened. Did you two do it yet?"
"No!" I shouted hurriedly. I flinched at how loud I'd been before lowering my voice. "No, um. We've kissed," literally ten minutes ago, "and he's been trying to help me since me and you…" I paused at that, trying not to remember and relive any of those moments. I shook my head.
"I kind of got the feeling you didn't like him at first."
I winced. "I didn't. He was kind of an ass, but… I don't know. We almost um… did… stuff after a hunting trip we went on and I've just… it's different now." I didn't dare mention that we'd probably be having sex later, possibly tonight. That was one bit I was determined to keep to myself.
Armin nodded. "So, how have you been feeling."
"Good," I lied.
"You're really bad at lying, Eren."
I groaned, "I've been managing, I guess. I'm getting better."
"You're handling the whole being a vampire thing okay?" Armin looked at me worriedly.
I paused at that, and he took that as my answer. No, I hadn't been. It was still eating me up and leaving me sick but I had been trying my best to ignore it. I'd been drinking Hanji's strange concoction so I could continue on pretending I was still human and go outside, or even pass by in front of a window, and keep my sleeping schedule the same as everyone else's.
"Eren, you can talk to me."
"Yeah, I know."
I took Mikasa's spot in the game, and I let Armin completely obliterate me in silence.
I wasn't sure how I was going to do this, and I felt beyond awkward. All I did was sit on the edge of the bed fidgeting with my hands because I didn't know what to do with myself. Levi was in the shower and had been since I walked into the room. Almost everyone had headed to bed, save for Connie and Sasha who continued to play video games in the front room. The house was eerily silent except for the sound of water running and I wasn't sure how I was going to keep my sanity at this point.
When I heard the water shut off I scrambled for my phone and leaned back on the bed, opening a game I really couldn't care less for and trying to look casual. The door opened a few minutes later but I refused to look up. My fingers shook as I tapped at the screen.
God, calm down.
Slim fingers pulled my phone from my hand and I looked up, immediately blushing when I saw that the only thing Levi had on was a towel around his waist. He raised a thin eyebrow at me as he placed my phone on the nightstand.
"Nervous?" He asked.
"No," I lied.
"We don't have to do this-."
"No!" I shouted. I immediately slapped a hand over my mouth and squeezed my eyes tight. Shit. "No, um. I want this."
Levi hummed, crawling onto the bed and situating himself over my hips. I swallowed hard and tried hard to keep my eyes from looking anywhere but his face.
"Calm down," Levi said softly. "I don't bite."
I rolled my eyes at that, gathering up whatever courage I had left and reaching up to cup his face. I brought his lips down to mine and kissed him. As his lips moved against mine slowly my nervousness faded away. Levi's slender hands grabbed at my biceps and he let his hips settle against mine. I swallowed a moan and kissed him harder.
Levi paused to tug at my shirt and I lifted my arms as he pulled it off of me. He didn't make a move to kiss me again, letting his hands rest on my chest before running them down. He turned a hot gaze to me and kissed me hard. Arms wrapped around my neck to pull me up into a sitting position and I coiled my own around his waist, pulling him closer to me. Whatever nervousness I had before was long gone and now all I wanted to do was feel him. I slipped my hands underneath the towel and grabbed at his ass.
"Shit kid," Levi moaned when he pulled away. He kissed along my jawline. "I didn't know you had it in you."
I found myself desperate to show him I wasn't some blushing virgin, that I had at least some idea of what I was doing. I spun us around and situated us until he was underneath me, legs locked around my waist. I grinned when I saw the shocked expression on his face. He smiled back after a moment and placed his hands against my chest.
"I don't have lube," he told me. "So don't get too carried away."
I was actually relieved to hear that. Already things were going fast and I didn't think my courage would hold up to actually having sex with him. I tried not to let that show on my face as I pulled the towel from his waist. He lifted his hips to help me out but that only had him brushing against the front of my pants and for a moment I forgot what I was even doing. I shucked the towel somewhere in the room before leaning back down to kiss him. He bit at my lips as his fingertips grazed the top of my pants.
When his hand suddenly shoved itself into my pants I couldn't hold back a curse, shouting "fuck" into his mouth. His hand was hot against me, grasping me and stroking as much as he possibly could inside the confines of my pants. It had my legs tensing up and my brain short circuiting.
I pulled away to kiss at his neck, sucking at the skin there and moaning again when he pulled his hand out to mess with the button and zipper of my pants. He quickly undid them and slid my pants down just enough for him to cup my ass and pull me down to grind into him.
"Take off," he paused, moaning softly, "your pants."
I pulled away and hurriedly squirmed myself out of them. I kicked them off the side of the bed when I was finally free. When I situated myself back over him an idea struck my head. I had no idea how well it would work because I'd really only seen it in porn and never tried it but I figured it might be a nice idea.
I spit into my hand and before Levi could complain about it being disgusting grabbed both our cocks, wrapping my fingers around them as much as I could before slowly stroking. I sucked in a breath at the feeling. Levi stared down at my hand before leaning his head back and moaning. Taking it as a sign I was doing okay I stroked us a little faster, groaning low in my throat. It wasn't the same as jacking myself off but seeing Levi's face twist up in pleasure and feeling the way his fingernails dug into my skin had it feeling almost better.
"Eren," Levi moaned. His eyes fluttered closed. "Fuck."
I stroked us a little faster and leaned down to kiss and nip at his jawline. I felt the familiar tightening in my lower belly and moaned loudly. I felt hot all over, burning up. When Levi finally opened his eyes to look at me my heart fluttered and I locked my gaze on him. I wanted to watch him when he came.
It only took a few more minutes before he was shouting, tensing up and gripping my shoulders so tightly that if I were still human his fingernails would have had me bleeding. He bit his bottom lip hard and shook a little, pressing his face into the pillow beneath him. Watching him lose himself like that had me cumming too, slumping over him to moan into his shoulder as I finished myself off. When my head finally cleared enough I rolled off of him, looking up at the ceiling and panting hard. Levi didn't say anything. Instead he got out of bed and grabbed the towel I had thrown off and wiped at his stomach. He walked back over to me and wiped off my messy cock making me yelp at the stimulation before he crawled over me and under the covers. He turned his back to me and I felt my stomach drop.
I knew it. I knew all he wanted was someone to get off with. That's all I ever was to him. I bit back a sigh and pulled the covers over myself. I laid there on my back staring at the ceiling trying to convince myself that maybe this wasn't so bad, but it still hurt.
"Eren," Levi muttered, annoyed. "Are you going to lay there like that all night or are you going to hold me."
I looked at him shocked, before turning over to mold myself against his back. I draped my arm over his waist and his fingers found mind, winding them together, as he shuffled a little closer to me. Why?
"I don't want this to be a one time thing," Levi said, tiredly, answering my silent question. "I really do like you. Its not even because I want to fuck you."
I sputtered a little bit at that. "What?"
He turned his head to fix a glare at me. "I'm trying to say I fucking like you, shithead. Now shut up and go to sleep."
I stared at him shocked for a while before I finally relaxed, leaning forward to kiss at his neck in thanks. Maybe he didn't even realize how worried I was that he only wanted me around for sex, but either way his words had calmed my anxiety and fears for the most part. I was still curious as to what he could possibly see in me, but that thought slipped from my mind as I fell asleep.
