Hello, here is another update. I won't be updating with a schedule because I am back to school and I don't have much time. But I'll try. Hope you enjoy and let me know what you are thinking please! Reviews are appreciated

Nothing belongs to me, but the plot


Thanksgiving weekend ended and I was certainly depressed. I has spent the remaining of the weekend eating ice cream directly from the tube and watching The Holiday. Jude Law was my guilty pleasure. It was Sunday night and the girls were supposed to be returning in a couple of hours. Alec too. I had texted saying we needed to meet. It was gonna be rough. But at the present time I was sitting in front of my computer facing Edward's Facebook page.

"Okay you can do this" I said to my self.

You are no longer friends with Edward A. Masen

It might seen a little bit extreme, but I knew myself and in this time of social media Facebook was my number one enemy against my resolution of forgetting about this boy. I also erased his phone number and email address. Better be sure I had zero contact with him. It was the only way.

After that I turned of my laptop and took a shower. While I was there I thought about what I was going to say to Alec when I saw him in a couple of hours. I needed to end things with him. He was a nice boy but I didn't feel like a should with him. It was not fair to him, I was just wasting his time.

"Hey gorgeous! I missed you" Alec said as soon as I opened the door of my dorm. He had come straight from his grandma's house.

"I missed you too" I said while hugging him. I was not lying, I had, but I had missed someone more for all this time.

"What's up? You look funny?" He said taking my face in his hands "Have you been crying?"

"We need to talk Alec" I said while sitting down in the common area sofa

"Oh no, that it's never a good sign. Did I do something? Is it because I left you alone this weekend, because I did invite you Bella. I am sorry I didn't call much but family from all around the country came and I was busy"

"It's not that" I said playing with my fingers "I have not been honest with you Alec. I really like you and you are an amazing guy but I am not 100% into this, my heart it's not completely into this relationship"

"What?" He said looking at me "I thought we always had a good time. I thought you liked me"

"I do, I really like you, but I don't think it's enough. When I am with you I feel good, but I have felt amazing with someone before. You know? I know how much I can feel for someone, and I am just not feeling it with you. I am not giving you all that I am enough to give. Don't think you are not enough, it's not that. It's just that…"

"I am not him" He interrupted me

"Him?"

"Yes, that guy form the party back at Forks. It's him isn't it? I knew even back then that you loved him, but you were never saw him. What changed now?"

"He was here this weekend. Nothing happened, but I realized I am still in love with him and it's not fair to you"

"I don't care" He said firmly "I'll make you forget him Bella, please, just give me time"

"Don't ask me that. I already made my mind. I need to fall out of love and I need to focus on myself. No boys. Just me. Do you understand?"

"I do" He said holding my hand "You have to take care of yourself, but that does not mean I like it"

"I wish things could be different, easier for us" I said, my voice breaking

"Does this mean we can no longer talk?"

"No, we were friends before, we can be friends now, but I need you to promise me you'll respect my decision on this. We will be friends nothing more"

"Okay, I can handle that" He said standing.

I walked him to the door and suddenly he turned and hugged me and whispered in my ear

"I'll wait for now Isabella, I'll wait because that is what you need. But you are worth it and when the time comes I'll fight for you. He is an stupid boy, who let a great opportunity pass, I won't make the same mistakes" He then kissed the corner of my mouth and left.

When the girls arrived later I was in tears on the sofa, I couldn't stop.

"Jesus christ Bella, what is wrong? Are you hurt?" Alice said sitting next to me as soon as she saw me "Should I call Alec?"

"No! noo..do..don't call..him." I managed to say between tears

"Did that bastard do that to you?" Rose asked "Because I am not afraid of boys"

"No, it was all me. This is all my fault" I said calming down a little

"Oh, sweetie what happened?" Alice asked stroking my arm

"It is all Edward Masen's fault…"

"That bastard" Rose said after I finished telling them my story

"I think you did the right thing Bella" Said Alice "We sometimes get lost in all the drama boy and being single will be good for you, you can focus on yourself and you needs, you can focus on being a better person"

"Do you think I did the right thing breaking up things with Alec?"

"From what you told us he understood and it seems that he is interested enough to wait for you"

"You are right. I need this, and I think things will work out by themselves"

The first months were hard. Even tough I didn't want to think about the things Edward had said to me that day at the beach my mind kept betraying me. I could be in the middle of something and out of nowhere that conversation would pup up in my head.

"You are beautiful…"

"If things had been different…"

"If I had met you earlier…"

Forgetting about him was harder that I thought. The simplest thing reminded me of him. A passage in a book, a line in a movie. The certain shade of a tree. The night were harder I felt lonely and I wish I could talk to him, talk to someone. But with time things got easier As the end of the semester approached I became busier with school and I had no time to think about him, I had no time at all if I was honest. I welcomed the rush and stress finals brought because my mind was occupied with something other than him.

The situation with Alec had been awkward at first, but that was given seeing as we had seen each other naked and now we had to act as friends. After some awkward interactions thing got better and we went back to being friends. Or at least that seemed. Sometimes I would catch him staring a little bit longer than friends would and he always found the excuse to touch me. Nothing to intimate just his hand in my back, on my elbow, his knee bumping into mine when we sat. He was a champ handling the situation, and I was grateful.

Before I knew it the end of the semester was here and I was going back to Washington for the holidays.


How was that? Do you think she did the right thing?

We'll see what happens in Washington the next chapter :D