AN: Thanks you to those reading this fic and this chapter and I hope to reply to individual reviews soon. I hope that Parts 12 and 13 are more pleasant and happy because I've prewritten Part 15 and it is going to sting no matter if it's temporary or not.
Part 11
Blaine grinned softly as he saw Kurt wearing designer pajamas from 2019 that he had just seen and thought 'Kurt' over. They looked formal but also casual and comfy and god damn sexy...so sexy, he had to pinch himself from happiness overload. "Hey," he grinned as he gestured to the bed, standing there in just a red tank and black pants, "You ready to be together? Sure that you won't wake up in the middle of the night and freak out because of how ol-"
Kurt marched over to him, cutting off that word with a kiss and then pulling back, "I should limit you," he warned with a grin, "That word is sounding so...wrong because all I see, all I've ever seen, is that gorgeous guy who took my hand on a staircase at Dalton and made me feel brave. The man who changed my life with just that one action and has been supporting me ever since."
"Well then all I see is the man I love, my soul mate, my eternity, my Kurt Hummel," he got into the bed as Kurt did the same and they lay there, facing each other, with smiles on their faces. Kurt wanted to hug Blaine tight but he didn't want to advance too quickly, sleeping together was something intimate but it was also something that gave them a lot of pleasure and if Blaine got hurt then, no he couldn't think about that.
"I will always be yours," Kurt nodded before looking at the room, "Are you really so attached to the placement of everything here though, I mean if you changed the color scheme slightly and just rearranged some of the furniture, got some new sheets or pillows or cushions or just put more pieces in here and..."
This time Blaine interrupted Kurt with a kiss.
He pulled back grinning, "We can do whatever you want as long as we get some rest now, we could go look at furniture tomorrow if you want, or clothes, I know that I've bought you things but maybe the outfits don't coordinate well or..." he yawned, finally relaxing for the first time in years, "the sizes are wrong."
Kurt gave a blissful sigh as Blaine watched him with tired eyes.
Kurt was beautiful, the most beautiful man Blaine had ever seen.
He was well worth the wait.
…..but
"Kurt," Blaine began slowly, moving over to the brunette but Kurt took the hint and formed the little spoon with Blaine, so good...this felt so amazingly good. "If you could change anything, what would be one thing you would change?"
Kurt tried not to let his body tell of his shock and surprise at that question, he had to find something, just something that wouldn't hurt Blaine. At the karaoke club their friends had said about the damn chip and that was the thing Kurt wanted to change the most, but he couldn't tell Blaine. He couldn't let Blaine know about what he had heard.
"I want you to be happy Blaine, but if I had to choose anything I'd go back in time to before I was frozen and cure myself right then and there, all those years that we missed out on, all of that time in which I let you down."
This time it was Blaine's body which had grown tense.
"You didn't let me down, not in the slightest, you aren't the bad one Kurt," he whispered, pain thickly coating his words as he pressed small kisses on the top of the brunette's head. "You were ill, you needed to get better...I'm just sad about the doctors who told me that they were ending the studies because they didn't see the point. It's why I worked as hard as I did and went through so...much studying."
No one could have missed that pause between the words.
The silence was too unbearable and Kurt wasn't sure how he was surviving it, he wanted to say anything to cheer Blaine up, instead the only words which escaped him were, "If I had been with you what is one thing you'd want to do the most."
There was a muffled sound and Kurt looked up, turning around so that he could try to comfort Blaine, this wasn't right, Blaine wasn't right but no matter what Kurt couldn't leave him. "Honey it's okay, I'm here," Kurt placed his hands on Blaine's shoulders, trying to make sure he had Blaine's attention, "I'm here, I'm still right here."
"I wanted kids," he said sadly as Kurt's heart stopped in his chest, he didn't know what to do with this, Blaine was only forty two, adopting a child wasn't out of the question. It didn't have to be at all. He just didn't know that raising children was this important to him.
Kurt felt selfish because of that, he should have known, he should have lined up a donor with Blaine.
"Hey, look at me," he tried, because Kurt had to try, he had to try for Blaine at least half as much as Blaine had tried for him, he didn't even know if trying an equal amount was possible anymore, "You are a doctor, you have helped so many people in this world, you have had so many people look up to you, thank you, admire you. All those kids you've healed, you've done something that their parents couldn't and we can still have kids, we can still raise a little son or daughter of our own. You'd only be a little over sixty when they went to college if we started getting things in order right now."
Blaine nodded before looking down and closing his eyes, "We should rest up so we can make the best of our day together tomorrow, I have to go back to work the day after and this old man needs his sleep," he commented as Kurt snuggled closer to him again.
"I'm warning you," Kurt whispered, feeling Blaine's arms holding him and so held back, "You are going to be banned from using that word in front of me doctor,"
"Just because you have a better body than mine..." Blaine yawned as he started to fall to sleep, Kurt realized just in time and as Blaine's arms grew limp, Kurt backed away with a concerned smile on his face as he gazed at his husband, so vulnerable, so pained. Those worry lines, sure they were forming wrinkles but Kurt didn't care, all of that just showed how much Blaine had been through. Blaine had pushed through everything to save Kurt.
"Blaine," he whispered, looking at his stressed body posture, "You have to let me start helping you now, I need you to know that I'm here and I love you and..." he quickly moved out of Blaine's grip as he saw the pain get more intense and the forty two year old started shaking, he was trembling so badly and those tears.
His weak throat let out a sob and Kurt looked around in panic, "Don't...don't hurt him...don't hurt him," he whispered, causing Kurt to stop in place. He looked down and tried to stay close to Blaine, Blaine needed him right now. "Kurt...please come back, Kurt please come back to me, I'm still waiting, please..."
Kurt's heart tore itself apart a little more before he slung his arms back around Blaine and said in a very determined manner.
"I'm here Blaine, I'm right here and no one, not even some supernatural force, will ever tear me away from you. I love you so much," Blaine seemed to be calming down a bit and so Kurt kissed him a few more times before saying again in a determined manner, "I love you more than you could ever fathom."
