Sorry for not updating this weekend! I was making props and then wasn't really inspired either, so... it just didn't happen! But I also just updated The Rules of Life, so you can also read the chapter with Sousuke's POV! Now enjoy the talk with Kisumi ;)
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"Okay, guys. I'm calling it a day. I need to get up early tomorrow, because for some reason I promised Sousuke we would work out when the gym is not packed yet."
Such a bad lie. Fortunately for Makoto only his lovers noticed, Kisumi oblivious to what it exactly meant. Sousuke was smiling at Makoto in amusement, shaking his head when the Alpha let out a loud yawn as to emphasize his needing to go to bed. To give him some credit, it was getting quite late, the clock already hitting eleven, but to put on such a show was not really necessary. And normally the guest would feel pressured to leave in such a case, but Kisumi was not budging from his seat on the couch, merely looking up at Makoto with a flirty smile on his lips.
It was stupid how that smile still put Rin on edge, when it was the same smile Kisumi had when he was younger. That smile that made people flutter towards him, and the Omega all did it without knowing. That flirty smile was just the way his lips tilted upwards, his eyes gleaming when he did so. And Rin knew that, had known it since he was still a kid, but he just didn't like it when that smile was directed at one of his lovers.
Makoto lifted himself from his seat on the couch, after having stretched his arms above his head excessively while yawning some more. It left a big void between Kisumi and Rin, both on opposite sides of the couch.
"It was nice to have you over for dinner, Kisumi," Makoto started, leaning down in front of the Omega, and this time Kisumi did receive a hug. "I'll take you up on that basketball session sometime," the Alpha added before retreating.
That look Kisumi then shot up towards Makoto shot right through Rin's heart. The shimmer in his eyes with that slight smile tugging at his lips. A look of longing was what Rin jumped to instantly, but he knew it wasn't that. It was gratitude. "That would be nice. Hayato would like to see you again too, so I'll bring him along."
With that bright smile that was Makoto's signature, the Alpha stepped back and moved around the couch, signalling he was really leaving them now. Right as Makoto passed Sousuke, who had been sitting in his favourite chair, the Beta got up as well, shooting a small wave towards Kisumi. Sousuke never had been one for very long and sweet goodbyes. "Thanks for coming, Kisumi," had said with a polite smile, trudging after Makoto right after. "I'll go have a shower first and then sleep as well. Do need to be fresh in the morning if I want to train with Makoto."
"Oh, a shower." Makoto looked back at Sousuke over his shoulder, his face not really giving away what that would mean. "Good idea, I'll have one too." If it was an implication for anything was a mystery, both men have neutral expressions as they moved on, disappearing into the narrow hallway towards the bathroom or bedroom.
Kisumi kept staring over the back of the couch, watching the Alpha and Beta leave. There was only one door closing, meaning the two had gone into the same room, and with the way Kisumi kept staring, Rin assumed it was the bathroom. It still didn't mean anything, but it did trigger fantasies. And now Rin's mind was moving back to Kisumi wanting to be part of this, wanting to get involved in this relationship, and he would use Rin and Haru as leverage.
Slowly Kisumi turned back, lifting his eyes up to Rin, meeting his gaze straight on. The soft pastel yellow sweater he was wearing was slightly to big on Kisumi, the sleeves a little too long, and the body a little too wide. Even though the other Omega was bigger than Rin, in height mostly, he somehow looked smaller, younger even as his eyes had almost grown insecure. Such a difference from the person Rin had known. One who had been outgoing, throwing himself at people with so much energy they often didn't know what to do with it. Kisumi was really a kind person, caring and loving, with this slightly teasing nature where he tried to find other people's limits.
The evening had been nice, but something had been off, and now Rin realised what it was. Kisumi had been kind as always, but far more polite than usual. Watching his words, and not being too nosy. His voice had not once grown louder than necessary, nor had he gotten too close when speaking. The boundary breaking person had not been sitting at the table with them, and that's when Rin finally noticed something was wrong.
"They are not going to do anything," Rin heard himself say, feeling the need to put Kisumi's mind to rest. "You're here, so it would be kind of rude, not to mention weird. Makoto really would not cross those lines."
Kisumi looked at him for the longest time, studying his features with such an interest it made Rin raise an eyebrow. It would be nice to get some kind of answer, and not a blank stare that made this evening turn awkward. Not that Haru would notice, who was sitting by the coffee table, on the floor per usual, finishing the drawing he had started of Sousuke early that week. It was almost finished, Haru only adding the softer details that really made the drawing come to life. Right now Rin would've preferred the guy saying something though, instead of drawing pretty pictures of lovers.
Turning his gaze away Kisumi now directed his eyes at the drawing of Haru, following the pencil as it was dragged across the paper. Rin saw his mouth open and close a few times, apparently trying to find the right words to say. In the end he just sighed and let his flirty smile slip onto his lips, it growing a little bigger than usual. "I assume Makoto told you that I wanted to talk," he said softly, his arms wrapping around himself as some kind of wall.
"He told me," Rin explained, his eyes then moving down to look at Haru for a second. "Don't know if he said anything to Haru, but now he knows, and he'll only talk when he feels the need to say something anyway. So just start talking, and we'll see if we can help."
Kisumi nodded, but still didn't take the opportunity to actually start, eyes turning a little sadder. "I-I don't really know where to begin, so I'm just going to continue on what you said before. It should be a good point and I have to admit I am curious." Kisumi glanced up at Rin for a second, his smile turning a little reassuring. "If they would, uhm… If they would have sex now, would Sousuke easily submit to Makoto?"
The question bold, and a little insensitive, but Rin knew who it was coming from, and he assumed it had a reason as to why Kisumi wanted to know that. But even Haru looked up at Kisumi from the floor was two raised eyebrows, clearly wondering what had gotten into the guy's head. "It's not that simple, especially for those two. I wouldn't say Sousuke would submit easily. It all depends on the mood. Makoto is an Alpha, so of course his nature finds it hard to submit to anyone, but even he can let go of that at times. Not very often, but when he's willing enough, Sousuke can be on top. It doesn't mean Makoto is actually submitting though. Being the one being taken, doesn't mean you are the one that is dominated. It doesn't work like that, unless heat is involved, but you know all about that."
"Okay," Kisumi said with a nod, trying to gather his thoughts as he let Rin's words work in on him. "It's what I've actually been struggling with," he admitted, frown on his forehead as he studied his hands. "I've been dating a little bit here and there, which I have always done, and I did enjoy it. But part of me thinks it's time to settle down, and find someone to settle with." Sighing softly he lifted his gaze up, bags under his eyes suddenly far more apparent as he shot Rin a tired look. "Every time I try though, the guy turns out to be someone who wants me down on my knees all day long, while being the perfect housewife of some sort. As if we're living in the middle ages or something. It's just really frustrating."
Rin couldn't prevent the chuckle to slip off his lips then, shaking his head at Kisumi's misfortune. "It seems you've been dating the wrong kind of people, man."
"Why only guys?"
The question had come out of nowhere, and even Rin was surprised by Haru's sudden interest in their conversation. Why the focus on that was unclear, but Rin had learned it was smart to listen to Haru in these circumstances. "What do you mean?" Kisumi asked confused, frown deepening on his forehead.
"Well, you said every time you try to settle, the guy turns out to be a dominant person. Why are you only dating men?" The azure eyes were dark under the soft yellowish light from the side lamp, Haru's whole look a bit more mysterious. When no reply came, because Kisumi was simply too confused to actually form an answer, Haru simply continued. "I'm assuming you only date Alpha males, and I think you should now finally realise that apparently they just don't fit with you. You won't be able to find an Alpha male who won't be dominant at all. Even Makoto is. Maybe not to the extreme, but he is very subtle. Still he can tell us what to do when he finds it necessary, and we do listen, because we are sensitive to it." Haru paused for a moment, letting this bit of the story settle in. Rin now understood where Haru was going with this, and he wondered how Kisumi was going to take it. "So an Alpha is just not right for you. But there are also Betas, and other Omegas, and such relationships can work perfectly. Not to mention you can also date females. It's not about gender, or about what role science is telling you to be with. It's about who you feel comfortable with. It's why we're with four men. Biology tells us to bring in a woman to reproduce, but we would never. You're just stuck in the same way of thinking as those Alpha males you've been dating."
Kisumi stayed completely silent, soft violet eyes staring down at Haru with a blank expression. A shivering sigh left his lips as he let the tension out, his thoughts all over the place as he tried to process Haru's speech. It was kind of harsh to tell someone that maybe they were the problem, instead of the people they were dating, so Rin decided that perhaps he could soften the blow a little.
"You know my sister, right?" Rin asked softly. "Gou had been together with a guy for about two years, thinking that was supposed to be her place in life. As an Omega female she figured she should be with an Alpha male, as school had taught her. But then one day she runs into a high school friend she hadn't seen in years. Another Omega female she had been so close with. And as they spent more time together, catching up on the time they had lost, Gou finally saw that she was not meant to be with the Alpha male at all. Her heart fluttered every time she saw her friend. Eventually she left the Alpha, which was not an easy thing to do, but now she's been together with the girl for about a year. And it still isn't easy, because two Omegas together can still have troubles once they reach their heat. But I know Gou is now very happy."
Kisumi had listened in complete silence, eyes now focused on Rin's face again. Another shaky breath left him, eyes shimmering lightly in the light. He was having a hard time swallowing all this, but at least he was not angry. He was just confused, and perhaps a little afraid. It was so easy to hold onto social structures the way you were taught to, but opening your eyes and looking a little further could mean so much more. And Kisumi needed it, Rin understood that now. Haru was the one to see it first, and hopefully Kisumi could grasp the concept as well.
Rubbing his face Kisumi tried to relief the tension some more, growling at himself for getting so worked up. "Okay, okay!" he started, finally speaking up. "I now see that I, the boundary breaker, needs to start thinking outside the box." He sighed, looking absolutely defeated. "I'm quite the idiot, aren't I?"
Haru instantly hummed in agreement, but Rin quickly kicked him against his knee, shutting him up before he did even more damage. "No, we sometimes just need a bit of a wakeup call," Rin assured, shooting Haru another warning look.
Finally Kisumi seemed to really relax, his posture not as tense, his arms even hanging beside him rather than being wrapped around him. "Thank you," he murmured, though he didn't look entirely convinced. Rin blamed Haru for that. "It's just that I came here wanting to know how to fit someone. How to change, so I wouldn't have such a problem with dominant Alphas anymore, and I thought you'd have the answer, since you've been together for so long already. I wanted to know so badly, because I've been so lonely. So so lonely…" He fell silent, the sad look returning to his face, mixed with anger directed at himself.
"Hey," Rin said softly, but Kisumi didn't direct his gaze at him. Even if he was a little reluctant Rin scooted over to Kisumi's side and wrapped an arm around his shoulders, rubbing his arm a few times as a comfort. "A partner is not going to necessarily take the loneliness away, you know," he said honestly, currently not helping Kisumi's state. "It's friends that are supposed to be there for you, filling that empty feeling, and we have been very shitty friends I have to admit."
He felt guilty, really guilty about that now. The petty way he had been thinking, shunning Kisumi just because he figured the Omega was there to wriggle his way in. And he should've known better, and he should've given the guy the benefit of the doubt. But all was done, and at least he knew better now.
"We felt threatened by you, thinking you were after Makoto, and so we turned into jackasses and tried to get rid of you by ignoring you. But I am really sorry for that. We shouldn't have done that," Rin admitted, tightening his hold on Kisumi a little more. "And we'll do better now. We can even go on double dates and check out the chick or dude you're dating then, and give our approval," he joked, shooting his friend a wink.
And that familiar flirty smile formed back on Kisumi's face, easing the ache in Rin's heart a little. "There was a time where I did want Makoto. Where I did want to be part of this. But I know I don't belong here. I've known it for years, because how could I ever get in between of something that seems so perfect."
"I wouldn't call it perfect…" Rin replied, pulling a painful face as he recalled the last week they had gone through.
"We are perfect," Haru corrected, narrowing his eyes at Rin.
Completely relaxed now Kisumi leaned his head on Rin's shoulder, his need to move into people's personal space appearing again. "You know I really envy what you have. I hope I'll find love like this sometime, and be as happy as you guys are."
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You know that friend everyone likes, but gets forgotten about a lot, or you simply don't make them for them. That friend that will still be there even if you message them after months. Go and send that friend a message right now and let them know you thought of them. Let them know you do care and that they matter. Perhaps they won't feel so lonely anymore afterwards.
And this was the talk :) I hope you liked it and hope you didn't see this coming at all! I'm not one to really have someone meddle in relationships, so Kisumi was never going to be direct trouble. Drama can be caused in different ways ;) And now time for the next thing... Something light and sweet or more drama?
Love, Dana
