A/N: Jeeze....you'd think I have nothing better to do than write today. XD Anyways, another Matticho song fic for ya's.
The song is 'Don't Close Your Eyes' by Keith Whitley. Enjoy my darlins.
Chris looked down at his sleeping lover, wondering what his face drawn up in a frown and his finger twitching against the fabric of the bed sheets. It didn't take him long to find out, Matt sighed and his face smoothed out as he whispered the name, "John" The single word held enough power to shatter Chris's heart; he knew that Matt still harbored feelings for his ex, but he never really knew how far those feelings ran until now. The soft exclamation had Chris wondering if it was him that Matt was loving or if he was picturing John's face as they made love.
The night turned slowly to morning, yet Chris didn't sleep; he couldn't. His mind was keeping him awake with all sorts of horrible images and off the wall suppositions. He knew that Matt cared for him, that Matt loved him on some level but it still hurt that he was clinging to the remnants of a relationship that had been dead before it even had a chance to live. Chris had thought that once their relationship had had a chance to grow then Matt would see what he had right in front of him rather than living in the past.
Matt shifted around in his sleep and cracked his eyes open, blinking up at Chris with a sleepy smile on his face. He reached one sleep warmed hand up from under the blanket and ran it over Chris's chest, resting finally on his heart.
"Hey there." He said, his voice sleep logged.
"Hey yourself."
"Can't sleep?" Matt pulled himself into a sitting position, running his hands through his hair.
"I guess you can call it that."
"Wha----what's wrong?" Matt yawned, his eyes already starting to droop back closed.
"Nothing Matty, just go back to sleep." Chris smiled as Matt tried to glare at him, but in the end Matt did as Chris suggested; curling himself up next to Chris as much as he could. "I just want to know why you close your eyes when we make love." Chris murmured softly, stroking his hand over Matt's chocolatey curls.
I know you loved him a long time ago
And even now in my arms you still want him I know
But darlin' this time let your memories die
When you hold me tonight don't close your eyes
Chris let it go, thinking that maybe it was just a bad dream that had John's name on his beloved lips but a week later he once more heard the hated name. Matt had been thrashing around on the bed, arching up off and moaning sweetly when it slipped from his lips. Chris had stilled instantly, making Matt look up at him with glazed eyes.
"W-why'd you stop?" He panted, his hands gripping Chris's arms.
"Please don't close your eyes." Chris whispered as he bent down and pressed kisses against Matt's lips.
"Wha? Why?" Matt looked confused, his lust momentarily displaced by his curiosity.
"I want to watch your eyes as you go over, and I want you to see what you do me." Chris breathed as he started thrusting in and out again. "Keep your eyes on me Matty." Chris reminded him when his eyes started to close.
Chris's breath caught in his throat as Matt arched up from the bed and cried out loud enough for the people in the next room to hear. His eyes open wide as his release shuddered through him; the pure ecstasy of the moment reflected in their dark depths. Chris felt his own climax start and he kicked his thrusts up a pace. Matt's eyes started to drift closed again and Chris reached down and bit down on Matt's shoulder, making his eyes shoot open.
"Watch me Matty." He groaned as he felt himself go over the edge.
His eyes bored holes into Matt's; trying to convey all the love he felt for his dark haired lover into the gaze. He brought ran his hands up Matt's arms and intertwined their fingers, moaning Matt's name against his neck.
Don't close your eyes let it be me
Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy
Darling just once let yesterday go
And you'll find more love than you've ever known
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight
And don't close your eyes
When Chris pulled away Matt's eyes were closed and he felt his heart plummet to the souls of his feet. He had been so lost in the final throes of his orgasm that he hadn't noticed when they closed. He berated himself mentally as he pulled out and rolled over onto his side; pulling Matt with him.
"Why can't you love me?" He asked silently as he watched Matt's eyelids twitch rapidly.
It was easy to see that he was lost to a dream; a small smile curved his lips as his fingers ghosted over Chris's arm. With a sad smile Chris pulled him tighter, breathing in Matt's scent as he started to drift off to sleep; praying that maybe he had managed to dislodge John from Matt's heart and take his place. And if he hadn't, he prayed that it would be someday soon.
Maybe I've been a fool holding on all this time
Lying here in your arms knowing he's in your mind
But I keep hoping someday that you'll see the light
Let it be tonight, don't close your eyes
Every night since then Chris pleaded with Matt to keep his eyes open when they made love in the hopes of getting Matt to see that he had much more to offer him than some fantasy that never even existed. Chris knew the way John treated Matt and it still boggled his mind that Matt was as in love with him as he was; but he was more determined than ever to get Matt to see that what they had was special. However just like the first night, Matt's eyes always drifted closed just as the most powerful part of Chris's release washed over him.
After wards they would lay together, Matt falling asleep almost instantly and Chris watching him sleep while silent tears coursed down his cheeks. He had finally given up, it had been months since he started and there was still no change. And as always the height of his orgasm hit him and he felt his own eyes close, only to hear Matt panting at him.
"Don't close your eyes Chris…"
Chris's eyes snapped open and dipped his head down, capturing Matt's lips and slipping his tongue inside as he rode out his orgasm. When he pulled away he was light headed and Matt stared up at him with a small grin.
"I love you." Matt yawned as he propped himself up on his elbow, running his finger over Chris's chest.
"Love you too." Chris murmured.
Don't close your eyes let it be me
Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy
Darlin' just once let yesterday go
And you'll find more love than you've ever known
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight
And don't close your eyes
"Are you up for another round?" Matt asked, pulling Chris over on top of him. "I wanna watch you love me."
Just hold me tight when you love me tonight
And don't close your eyes...
