And beer bloats our spoilt guts
And shit jobs keep us in ruts
And keep us eyeing up the what's and if's and buts and maybe's and
Falling over in the street
Is just a part of every week
And we lie drunkenly just staring at the stars


TRIS

"Tris!" I look up. I've been staring at the floor of the train for a couple of minutes now thinking about what happened a while ago. I know, I shouldn't have shouted at Four like that. I actually don't care if he'll read the letter or not. The thing that I scares me most is the reaction he'll have when he reads it. He was already so furious when he saw the letter, unopened. How the hell will he react if he read what's inside?

I just look at Christina. She sighs.

"Come on, everything will be alright" I just nod. I don't know why I'm acting this way. I sigh.

"I'm sorry" I say when Christina sits beside me. "I just don't know what to do" I add.

"Don't worry. Things will be alright once we get back. Let's just enjoy the night for now" I feel myself smile. "Okay" I mouth then look out of the window waiting for the time when we get off.


Our tents are already set up, so are our sleeping bags. We were already roasting some marshmallows. Zeke and Uriah are telling stories about their child hood. Looking at them, I feel a pang of jealousy. I wish I can see Caleb again. I was guilty of what happened. Apparently, the feeling just struck me now.

"What you thinking about?" Christina says sitting next to me, carrying a plate full of barbecue.

"Caleb" I say.

Christina just smiles. Will sits beside her. Zeke and Shauna walk away to wherever which leaves me and Uriah, completely alone together. I stand up the same time as he does. We smile at each other, and we walk away from Will and Christina who were eating off the same plate.

"Gosh, who knew this will be a lover's spree" Uriah says, lying beside me as I look up the stars. It was a perfect night and I wish I could spend it with Four. Uriah scoots in a little bit closer. I don't really mind. He's my friend after all.

"You alright?" he asks.

"Yeah." I say.

"Hmmm"

I guess it's hard to believe that I really am alright. I don't know. I feel fine. But I guess my voice says other wise.

"Four loves you. You guys will be fine by morning" he says.

I reach for his hand and squeeze it. He stares at me and smiles.

"Thanks, Uriah" I say. He just smiles and we continue to look at the stars.

"How are you and Marlene? Talking lately?" I ask.

He doesn't answer.

I kick his leg lightly.

"No." he says. I sigh.

A week after my break up with Uriah, I've heard his already dating Marlene. It was fast but I guess there's really no patience in true love. True love? Well that's what I thought back then. Somehow, I still am totally shock that they broke up all of a sudden.

"She's really sad, though. She hasn't been talking to anyone much except for Lynn. She rarely even goes out of the room. She misses you, Uriah" I say. I know I shouldn't be saying this. It's just putting him down. But he sighs, as if he's relieved that I finally said it.

"I miss her too" he says, finally admitting it.

"Then why didn't you do anything back then." I say. I know he knows what I'm talking about.

"Because I was shocked. I didn't know what to say. Then she just... left." I sigh.

"Okay, this is what we- you should do" I say. He looks at me.

"When we get back tomorrow morning, don't hesitate. Go straight to Marlene. Say sorry. Whatever. Do those dramatic things. Give her flowers. Just do everything to get her back"

"It's not that easy" Uriah says.

"Well, try though. Start there" I say.

"Okay" he says.

"Promise?"

"Promise."

We lie there in the grass, engulf in pure silence. It wasn't those awkward silence. We can hear Zeke singing in the back ground. He does have a great voice. I start humming. I look at the sky. It was beautiful. It was dominated by the twinkling stars that light the place. What a nice date to pick for camping.

"Did you know that those stars are dead?" I look at Uriah. Suddenly everything just wasn't perfect. It just seems that Zeke's singing was disturbing and the stars, as Uriah pointed out, dead.

"Way to ruin the mood, Uriah" I say. He laughs.

"It's true though. We've been seeing the light of dead stars, long extinguished, yet seemingly still in their appointed places in the heavens."


FOUR

I walk around the Pub, the memory of a while ago still burning at the back of my mind. Why the hell will Peter write to Tris? I'm angry. Frustrated. Oh hell, I'm jealous. I kick a stone in front of me and grunt.

"Whoah, steady there" Think of the devil and the devil shall appear. Perfect.

"Ditched?" he asks. I face him. Ignoring his question, I ask. "What the hell are you doing writing letters to my girlfriend?"

"Girlfriend?" he asks. He looks sincerely confused. What an act!

"Tris!" I say, clarifying.

"You're her boy friend? I thought she was going out with Uriah?" he asks. I remember. Peter was gone for three whole months. Of course he doesn't know anything that has happened in Dauntless. The last time he was here, he was gone after just days. I hope now he'll be gone after hours.

"They broke up." I say.

"You don't say" he says, smirking. I clench my fist. Control your temper.

"You haven't answered the question" He laughs. He makes circles in his spot. Then I noticed the cast around his feet. I look around. I spot his crutches just by the railing. A few inches away from us.

"What happened to your foot?" I ask him. He stares at it. It is now that I realize he was trying to stand up. His foot hurts. I, being the good man that I am, take his elbow and drag him to a table nearby. I get his crutches once I know he was seated. I knew he couldn't run, anyways.

"Thanks" he muttered.

"Now you owe me an answer. Why are you writing letters to Tris?" I ask.

"Letter" he clarifies.

"Answer the question!" My voice was rising. Control, Four. Control.

He sighs, as if he knows he can't get away with this. He leans back in his chair and says, "It was a goodbye letter. From when I left three months ago. It was also my way of saying sorry to what I did to her during initiation" I snicker. I wanted to laugh. It all seems real. But I didn't want to believe him. I was blinded my hate, anyhow.

"How can I believe that you've changed?" I ask.

"Can't I?"

"You've tried to kill her, Peter, twice. Does 6 months out of Dauntless really change you that much?" I ask. Again, my temper is getting ahead of me.

"You don't know what 6 months outside Dauntless can do to you, Four. You don't know how it feels to be with no one for 6 whole months" he says. I didn't know what to say. I've always seen Peter as a stuck up ass but I guess, underneath, there's actually a heart and that heart is beating for Tris. I slam down the table. He puts his hand in surrender.

"What do you want with Tris?" I say.

"I want from her is what everybody else wants from her. What you want from her and what Uriah wanted from her" he says. I take in a deep breath. I couldn't take what this man was saying.

"Fuck you" I say, loud enough for him to hear.

He snickers, crosses his hands in front of him. "I'd rather fuck your girl friend" That's it. I raise my hand, ready to hit. He was obviously frightened but he was doing a good job hiding his angst. Before I can even hit him, I heard someone call my name.

"Four" she calls again. I had no choice, I put my arm down.

"Gosh, Kat, what?" I quickly turn around. She's crying. I was hoping to hear someone dash out for safety but when I look back, Peter was still sitting there, curious as I am.

"What happened?" I say, more calmly this time.

"It's Marlene" she say.

"What happened?" She tries to control a big amount of tears but it just falls down her cheeks. It was like two waterfalls were installed on her face with unlimited.

"Kat, what is it?" I say. I put my hands on her shoulder and shake her. She takes a deep breath and looks at me straight into my eyes.

"She's dead, Four"


A/N

I made have over done it this time. Sorry 'bout that.

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I am sorry for any grammatical errors. Only human.

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